When I was tired of crying, I just sat there like that, thinking about nothing, but it seemed that I thought about everything.

I don't know how long it took to hear the phone ringing non-stop, I grabbed my hair irritably and got down from the bed to look around for the phone, and I couldn't find it for a long time, so I felt inexplicably irritable.

Is it that even a mobile phone is going to bully me now, and I don't want to look for it anymore when the ringtone stops, so I just sit on the ground like that.

I don't know if the caller was going to go against me or something, but the bell rang again.

I had no choice but to follow the source of the ringtone, and finally found my phone under the bed.

But when I looked up, I accidentally touched the edge of the bed, and the collision knocked my tears out again. It's really a disaster...

I raised one hand to rub my head and the other to hold my phone.

Staring at the phone screen and looking at the name displayed, I was stunned and didn't answer.

The caller is He Yufan, and sure enough, isn't he always the one who is against me! I smiled bitterly in my heart

I didn't know what to say when I got through, it didn't seem appropriate to say anything.

When the phone rang again, I hesitated for a long time and picked up "Hey"

His voice came from the other end of the phone, "Hey, it's me, you~, are you still sleeping?" ”

'I know, no, just woke up'

'Are you okay?' ’

'That's it, what's the matter'

'It's nothing, just give you a call and ask, later~' He paused at this point, and I could hear a choked sound in his voice.

He paused for about five seconds and then continued, 'In the future, you take good care of yourself, if there is anything I can help you, you can say that I will do my best to help you, and in the future, you will read less romance novels, those that are not good, you are already cranky, don't read those that affect your mood'

I said, "What does this have to do with me reading novels, but I'll take care of myself in the future, and you take care of yourself, so be it." ”

'Hmm'

I quickly hung up the phone when I heard his answer, I was afraid that I would not be able to cry if I continued to talk, and I did not want to cry in front of him anymore.

But the moment I hung up the phone, I cried very unsuffocated, I don't know why my heart hurt like a pinprick, tears flowed down like I didn't want money, I always thought that as long as I cried, my heart might not hurt so much, but it didn't seem to be like that.

Crying and crying, my whole body was trembling, there were some things I couldn't say, and I didn't want to make him feel infinitely guilty about me.

So I picked up my phone and edited a text message like this: 'Since this is already the case, you don't feel guilty, you can do what you want, you don't have to worry about me, I'm fine, I'm sorry for all my previous willfulness, thank you for being with me for so long.' ’

I sent it to him, look, am I stupid, he obviously treated me like that, I was still worried that he would have a bad time, but who would feel sorry for me?

After the text message was sent, I continued to immerse myself in my infinite sad world, and after more than 20 minutes, he replied to the text message.

I'm worried that you won't be able to let go, I'm worried that your character will be affected by this incident, you don't have to apologize for not doing anything wrong, it's me who should apologize, it's my selfishness that made me who I am today, so I'm sorry. I've been with you for so long, haven't you been with me for so long, so you don't have to thank me, everyone has been serious and paid. I hope that in the university environment, you can live well, learn how to deal with all kinds of people, how to adapt to this society, instead of living in a small circle, I believe that we will become better, more confident, more aware of what life is, how to live better. If there is anything you need help with, just ask, I will do my best'

'Well, I understand'

Looking at this message from him, I realized that we would eventually be separated no matter what, not now but also in the future.

I really didn't expect the gap between us to be so obvious, yes, people always change, don't they? I'm afraid I'm the only one who stays where I am.

I know that everyone will grow and change, but you can't forget your original intention, if you even forget your original intention, is there any meaning in life?

This society is very cruel and good, but everyone has the right to choose, and no one can force them to do what they don't want to do, after all, everyone's life is limited.

However, I can't say that his values are wrong, after all, everyone has their own pursuits, it's just that our values are different.

Sure enough, the older you get, the more realistic you become, and the more you think about it. So I cherish the beauty of the past, as well as the simple and ignorant youth.

Although we are the way we are, I don't blame him, on the contrary, I am very grateful to him for giving me that sincere affection, so that I can feel warm and happy in this cold world.

The only regret is that I didn't see my heart clearly at that time, but regret seems to be useless.

It's one thing to figure it out, but it's another thing to let it go. At least I can understand that I love him now, and I don't know how long it will take me to forget him, maybe a year, maybe three years, maybe ten years, maybe a lifetime...

From now on, there will be no him in my world, and I will have to be stronger and work harder, if nothing else, for him I can match in the future.

Even if the chance that we will be together in the future is very small, I am willing to wait silently and wait, because I..., I really love him, this kind of love has already unconsciously penetrated into the bone marrow, and it is impossible to think about it if I don't love him.