It's okay to say that I don't have a heart or lungs, anyway, I think that although we are separated, I don't have those troubles before, anyway, I feel that I have a pretty chic life, although sometimes I am still very unhappy.

It's just that after Ye Jingxun and I separated, He Yufan always came to me with nothing to do. However, I think he probably cared about me silently because he was afraid that I would be sad, and there were many times when I did complain to him about a lot of bitterness.

I spent two months safely in the company of He Yufan, although Ye Jingxun left me, but I still have friends by my side.

Although I did ignore a lot of friends with him before, it was also because of this incident that I understood the importance of friends. A good friend is one who will be there for you no matter what happens.

But maybe it was really me who hid all the sorrows, until that night all the disguises exploded at one point.

After self-study that night, I packed up my things and just walked to the door of the classroom and was about to step out when I saw Ye Jingxun and a girl in his class passing in front of me talking and laughing, the moment I saw them, I immediately turned around and walked back to the classroom with a reflex, pretending to forget something, at that moment only I understood how bitter my heart was.

At the same time, I also remembered how ridiculous I was before. When I first separated from him, I actually found a boy to deliberately get very close to him so that Ye Jingxun would be jealous, but I don't know if he was jealous, anyway, the scene at the door of the classroom just now really stinged my eyes.

The phrase that came to mind was, 'If one person is good to you, he can give it to another person, then I don't want it'

Before I knew it, I was stunned, and when Yaxin came over and patted me on the shoulder, I came back to my senses, and she said, 'What are you doing, go back to the dormitory,' and pulled me away.

Oh, I forgot to mention that Yaxin moved to our dormitory after Yiling left, so Yaxin is the only one I can talk to now. It seems that before I know it, I am back to the way I used to be, and I don't like to talk much.

Back in the dormitory, I stood alone on the balcony for a long time, and all that came to my mind was Ye Jingxun's kindness to me, and I seemed to like him unconsciously. But by the time I was slowly falling, he had already withdrawn from my world. But it's clear that he was the first to be tempted, and he was the one who provoked me first, but the feelings seem to have always been like this, and those who pay more are destined to suffer more damage.

It was already an early summer night, but I felt extremely cold. I don't know how long I stood there, but when Yaxin came behind me and hugged me with one hand, tears came out of my eyes after holding back for a long time.

I turned around and hugged her tightly, burying my head in her arms and sobbing lowly.

When you are sad, you will understand that someone gives you a hug when you are sad and sad, and that hug is so warm and unforgettable.

I don't know if I'm sad because of the gods and demons, anyway, it's very painful and reluctant.

Although reluctant, I will not be stupid enough to entangle, I can't do that, no matter how deep the love is, I will not allow myself to do senseless entanglement, that will only grind away the simplicity and beauty of the past.

I spent half a month in a blur, and I haven't been very happy for half a month, and I don't love to study anymore.

One morning, when I was reading in the morning, I received a text message from Ye Jingxun, who said, "Xiaomeng, I'm leaving"

'Go? What do you mean? Is it dropping out? Why? I confess that I panicked the moment he told me he was leaving, even though we are not together now, but sometimes I am very satisfied to see him, but if he is gone, then it will not be a luxury for me to even see him?

'Well, I don't want to read anymore, I don't want to say,' he replied

'Has it already been decided?' ’

"Well, it's decided"

In that case, no matter where you are or what you do, remember to take care of yourself, and if you can, I hope we can still be friends." Since it is irretrievable, I still hope that he can live well.

"Thank you for still being willing to be friends with me, what about you, you have to take care of yourself at school, you know? It's me who I'm sorry for you, and I'm not worthy of your liking, so keep it up! He said

"I know, you have to be good." I replied with tears in my eyes, maybe we'll never see each other again.

The classroom was full of reading, but I felt that the whole world was quiet, and inexplicable sadness welled up in my heart, and I tried to divert my attention to make myself less sad.

I also took out the textbook and read it aloud, but the tears unconsciously dripped on the textbook as I read it, I don't know what I was sad about, and the feeling of speechlessness and choking filled my whole body, making me cold and unable to break free.

Suddenly, I heard the voice of the Chinese teacher, "Su Xiaomeng, what are you doing, raise your head, and suddenly the whole classroom is really quiet."

The eyes of all my classmates were fixed on me, and the feeling of embarrassment that could not be hidden swept through my body, and suddenly I opened my eyes, gasping for breath, and my heart beating violently.

Looking at the familiar room in front of me, I realized that it was just a dream, and I raised my hand and patted my chest to calm myself.

He turned his head to look out the window, as if the sky had just turned white, and then stared aimlessly at the ceiling.

I wondered if it was because I was so sad that I remembered the pain I experienced when I fell in love for the first time. But because of the comparison, I realized that the pain this time was much deeper than the last time.

He Yufan, you can really do it, you can do it! I sat up, crunched my legs and hugged tightly, crying uncontrollably, and I don't know how long I cried.