The breeze is blowing, dancing the branches and leaves in the afterglow of the sunset, accompanied by bursts of gardenias, as if they are graceful elves, dancing in the air.

Just in front of me, two meters away, a pure white figure was moving slowly, a white shirt, white pants, white shoes, and a white canvas bag.

She's still the same as when I first met.

It's just that when he saw that there was a telephone pole in front of her, he hurriedly rushed over and helped her.

She turned her face to me, smiled sweetly, and said, "Thank you!" ”

Then, he put the blind cane in his hand on the ground and groped.

Letting go of the hand holding my arm, he was embarrassed to explain, "I was thinking about things just now, and I didn't pay attention for a while, thank you for your help." What a nice person you are, sir. ”

The innocent smile is as pure as a blooming gardenia, which makes people fascinated.

I wanted to answer her, but I was afraid that my voice would remind her of those dark pasts, so I couldn't help but say nothing.

Raising her legs to follow her, she suddenly stopped, turned her head, and faced me, her unfocused eyes were staring at me, which inexplicably made me a little panicked.

I knew she couldn't see me, but I still felt that in her eyes, I couldn't hide anything, even if she really couldn't see.

Don't open your eyes and don't dare look at her.

"Sir, are you going for a walk in the park too? If you're sending me, go back! I can do it myself. ”

Then he bowed and said sincerely, "Thank you just now!" He straightened up and smiled, "Have fun!" Good bye! ”

With a wave of his hand, he groped his way forward slowly.

Looking at her back, guilt and distress welled up in my heart and overwhelmed me.

She woke up last month, in early March.

The day she woke up, I fell asleep next to her.

Suddenly, I was woken up by the sound of ping-pong bells.

When I opened my eyes suddenly, I saw her sitting helplessly on the glass slag, crying silently.

"Mu Zi, what's wrong with you?"

Hurriedly carried her back to the bed, she took my hand and cried aggrievedly: "It's so dark, can you please help me turn on the light?" ”

I was stunned.

Because it was about nine o'clock in the morning, and the sky was already bright.

I was stunned and raised my hand and shook it in front of her eyes, seeing that she didn't move, I even had the heart to kill myself.

My girl, she can't see it.

"Don't be afraid, there is a power outage today, and there are no candles, I will accompany you, don't be afraid, it will be fine at dawn."

After coaxing her to close her eyes and fall asleep, I gently left the room and went to the doctor.

The doctor's explanation overwhelmed me.

"Miss Mu's transient blindness is caused by mental paralysis caused by extreme fear, which leads to temporary blindness. In this case, there is no other way than to nourish the nerves with drugs and slowly recuperate. ”

I feel that my hands are numb in an instant, and I can't put it anymore.

Those clear and translucent eyes will lose their dazzling brilliance from now on.

And she, who longs for the light so much, will be shrouded in darkness for a long time and will not see the light.

How do you want her to bear it?

The doctor looked at me and comforted me again: "But Miss Mu is better at one thing, she has forgotten everything, forgotten the painful past, can keep her mood happy, and her recovery may be faster." ”

Mu Ran replied with a "thank you" and left his office.

Turned back to the ward, looked at her sleeping, and subconsciously reached over, wanting to touch her face, but stopped in the air at a loss.

What right do I have to touch her again?

Nothing else can be given to her except pain.

Finally shrunk back lonely.

Before she woke up, she left the hospital.

Since I chose to let her go, not letting her know about my existence is the most complete way to let go.

I found a nurse to take care of her, and I never dared to appear in front of her again, except for watching her from a distance every day, standing at the door and watching her fall asleep, love, and I couldn't say it anymore.

During her hospitalization, I was also in the hospital for two-thirds of the day.

The nurse took her down for a walk, and I followed her, keeping her distance from me, and staying with her from afar.

She was resting in the ward, and I was standing at the door, and she was sitting on the bed with her back to the door, as if she was longing for light, looking out the window, and I, looking at her back, was full of sadness.

I don't know how painful it was when she realized she was blind. I only remember that day, when the nurse helped her downstairs, she suddenly asked: "Actually, I can't see, right?" ”

The nurse was a little stunned, and didn't think about how to comfort her, but she smiled and sighed: "Actually, I already knew." ”

But when I saw the smile on her face, it was so bitter and lonely.

Laughter is the best optimism she can do.

The night she knew she was blind, after the nurse left, she cried, hid under the covers, and cried bitterly.

Seeing her pounding the pillow and crying bitterly, my feelings are no longer expressive of guilt and pain.

If you are naked and tied up in the ice and snow, you can't see the hope of warmth.

But I never dared to go in, and I didn't dare to give her comfort and support, because I couldn't give it at all.

I thought she would continue to be negative, but the next day, she smiled sweetly like a nobody, just like the light that illuminated me at the beginning.

It's just that her stubbornness is still exposed in front of my eyes.

She did this just to keep her grandfather from worrying.

Her figure slowly became smaller in my sight, and suddenly she chased after her in a panic like crazy.

There was always the illusion that if she did walk out of my sight, she would be gone forever and impossible to come back.

Even though she didn't remember me, didn't remember that I loved her, and I decided to let her go, I selfishly wanted to see her, even if only secretly.

soon caught up with her, and did not bother, continued to maintain a distance that did not disturb her, and followed her step by step.

Try to take your steps as lightly as possible, for fear of frightening her with the heaviness.

But in the end, she found me.

At the entrance of Bauhinia Park, she suddenly stopped, turned around, and stared in my direction.

Puzzled, he asked, "Why are you following me?" Did we know each other before? ”

He didn't answer, just looked around with his eyes away.

Seeing that I was silent, she became a little angry and frowned.

"What a strange person, why don't you speak?"

Slowly approaching me, she couldn't see it, but she accurately touched my hand.

I was stunned.

The long-lost warmth is in the palm of my hand, however, I can't hold that temperature tightly in the palm of my hand again and savor it slowly.

She touched my hand, following the lines of her palm, as if she was exploring something.

"So you're an infatuated person! Then I'm relieved. ”

He smiled stupidly and let go of his hand.

The moment her fingers slipped into my palm, she still clenched it unconsciously.

"You ......" Thinking that she couldn't expose herself, she hurriedly stopped her mouth and wrote in the palm of her hand: "Your eyes are beautiful, and there is a colorful light in them." ”

She was stunned for a moment, then smiled lightly: "Thank you!" Your hands, there is a sense of security. ”

He withdrew his hand, held his cane, cleared his throat shyly, and invited, "If you don't mind, can we sit down and chat together?" ”

agreed to her invitation and reached out to help her, but she avoided her.

politely refused: "I can do it myself!" ”

Stubbornly tentatively, he slowly walked towards the bench.

She is in the Mu family, is she not happy? Or is it because of the eyes, always depressed?

Thinking of the doctor's words, her fists clenched unconsciously, if she couldn't be happy, wouldn't it be possible to recover......

In my daze, she sat down on the bench and put down her bag.

Towards me, he smiled and shouted, "Why don't you come and sit?" So we have to keep shouting, won't it be a little tired? ”

Slowly walked over and sat down beside her.

She looked straight ahead again, as if she could really see it, and a warm smile bloomed on the corner of her mouth as a mother and son passed by.

sighed with envy: "They are so happy!" ”

I didn't know how to answer for a moment, just stared into her eyes.

"Tell me, what's your name? You live around here, right? Do you live alone? ”

He asked me a bunch of questions casually, and then felt embarrassed, and smiled and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to inquire about your privacy." I just think you're kind and give me the feeling of an old friend. Can we be friends if we can? ”

Stretched out his hand and said sincerely: "Hello, my name is Mu Zi, it's a pleasure to meet you!" ”

Looking at her hand, I finally shook it with her, but she didn't seem willing to let go of my hand.

His eyes suddenly moistened, and he said weakly in a low voice: "I like your hands, especially the feeling of being held, like a kind of forgotten protection." ”

"Actually, I had amnesia, I forgot everything, even my own name, I was told. Now I am like a blank piece of paper, and even the most basic symbols have to be drawn by others. I don't like it, I want to know my past and get back to my past. ”

She withdrew her hand, clasped her hands on her lap, her eyes leaping with longing for the past, telling of the annoyance in her heart.

Suddenly I felt that she was so stupid that she dissected herself in front of us because of one hand.

It was so stupid that I wanted to keep her by my side all the time, afraid of being deceived.

"You say, what will I be like in Guqiu? Have you seen me before? You should know about the Mu family, right? Can you tell me, what is going on with the Mu family? And what kind of person is the little lady of the Mu family? ……”

She asked me in a crackling voice, but she was silent.

In fact, she herself knows that even if she asks me again, she won't get the answer she wants.

Not only because I'm "dumb", but because, neither of us will push her into the mire of pain anymore.

In the past, let's really pass.

We sat until about half past nine in the evening, when I was about to take her home when she suddenly crouched down and stroked the bench.

"Do you know why I like it here? Because here, there is the past that I want to get back, and the temperature that I like. ”