I have nothing to say.

He's right, even if he kills me now, he can't guarantee the safety of his will.

He buried his head deep in his chest and bit his lip and cried silently.

He glanced at me and said coldly, "What are you crying about?" It's going to be fine, put away your tears! ”

The frightened held back his tears, pinched his thighs helplessly, and regretted it.

If I hadn't been sympathetic at the time, hadn't practiced with her, picked her up at the agreed time, and went home earlier, would nothing have happened at all?

It's all my fault, it's me who disappeared at will.

The back of my head suddenly gained a lot of strength, and I leaned into his arms again.

"Don't cry, nothing will happen if you want. Fei Ying has already brought someone to look for it, and there will be news soon. ”

I've been crying, looking forward to the news they can bring.

But a day has passed, and there is still no news.

On the evening of the second day of my disappearance, I stared at the Qingjiang River with empty eyes, helpless and wanted to jump off to get out of this predicament.

Suddenly, the sound of eager high heels came to me, and then, my shoulders were choked, and my body was like a wilted cabbage, swaying and crumbling as she shook violently.

"What else can you do but cause trouble and hurt people? You can't even take care of your own daughter, what's the point of your life? Why don't you die! ”

I was stunned by the shaking, and the angry roar seemed to engulf me, and it took a long time for my faint eyes to slowly focus and see Huo Nanxi's angry face clearly.

She wept bitterly, and her hands slapped me unceremoniously, and at once, like a thread pulling a clockwork, she twisted more and more tightly, and blamed herself for devouring what little reason I had left.

As if crazy, he pushed her away, jumped into the Qingjiang River.

Perhaps, she was right, a loser like me has no point in living at all.

Let the river pour into my nostrils, encroach on my lungs, and then slowly expand my body, my consciousness was confused, and I gradually lost my breath.

This time, I escaped with death, ending this cheap life, and they who knew me were at peace.

……

Quiet, silent, feeling revived again, and all I saw was such a cold silence.

Propping open my heavy eyelids, the light irritated my eyes, and I turned my head to see a layer of ice on the window, blurring the unbridled snow.

At this glance I understood that I was still alive.

"Ahem, ahem, ahem......" coughed violently, and the door opened, but I didn't turn my head to look, no matter who came in, it couldn't drive away the gloom and self-blame in my heart.

"Mom, you're really a snooze, you've been sleeping for three days."

The moment her voice sounded, tears welled up in my eyes, and I was already wet with the pillow towel.

Sitting up suddenly, Huo Nanyi led her to stand at the door, she smiled sweetly, and looked straight at me.

After confirming that it was her, I shrank up, buried my face in my thighs, and hid my face and wept.

Luckily she's fine.

She opened her arms and hugged me, trying to comfort me, but I threw her away.

"Go away! I don't want you anymore, get out! Get out of my house and never let me see you! Get out! ”

I smashed the pillow over in a rage, and I didn't care if the strength was appropriate, I just wanted to be alone, just me, and no one cared about me.

Dead or alive, I don't want anyone to be with me.

"Mu Zi, calm down, come back safe and sound, don't ......"

With a bang, I grabbed the lamp on the bedside table and smashed it, hitting him on the head.

In an instant, blood rolled down his face.

"Get out! I don't need you! Get out of here! Don't bother me, leave me to fend for myself, get out of here! The farther you go, the better! ”

smashed the things that could be smashed in the room, Huo Nanxi heard the voice, ran in and took him away, and pulled him away, but he didn't leave.

Standing there like a statue, not moving or speaking, just looking at me like that.

I knew what I was doing, and I knew what I wanted.

Once, I was so desperate, I just wanted someone to be with me. Nowadays, I hate all the people who are there for me with wishful thinking.

"Why don't you get out? Get out! I don't want to see you! Everyone is so disgusting, I don't want to see you! I don't care about you! ”

I went crazy for a long time, I had no strength, I couldn't sit on the ground weakly, and my whole body was cold, very cold, very cold.

Hold yourself tight, your body hurts terribly.

I wasn't hurt, but my breathing was painful.

He walked over and warmed me with his arms, "Mu Zi, don't be afraid, I don't blame you, and I won't leave you alone." Don't be afraid! I've always been there. ”

Reason told me that I had to do the whole thing, and I should fight to break free of him, and then drive him away in a frenzy, so that he would give up on me completely.

But the body is like an onset of drug addiction, instinctively approaching the only salvation.

The blood on his head fell on my face, warm, but shivering with cold.

I really don't know what to do? What can I do so that the person I love doesn't get hurt? What do I need to do to be a good mother? A true lover?

The drop of blood clotted on my face, and I calmed down and helped him bandage his wound. Fortunately, I didn't smash it very accurately, and I didn't break the phase.

packed up the medicine box and said indifferently: "You all go!" Take Huo Suixin away, I don't want to have anything to do with the person surnamed Huo, I'm tired. I just want to lick my wounds quietly alone. Huo Nanyi, I've loved for so many years and suffered so many injuries, I really can't stand it. ”

He took off the necklace around his neck and placed it on the table, "This time, we're going to break it cleanly." I'm going to purge you from my heart. ”

"Mu Zi, are you still not human? Are you like this, aren't you afraid of hurting your heart? She owes you nothing and is not obligated to put up with you......"

"So! I don't need anyone! I hate you so much. They all thought I was good as an excuse to hide me, and scolded me behind my back. Am I Mu Zi owing you even to live? I don't care what deep hatred my mother has with your Huo family, if you want revenge, go to hell to find her! Is it right to put all the hatred on me, and to be virtuous? ”

"Yes, I was a failure, and I got hurt again and again and stupidly threw myself into the flames. But you are even more failures, all of them are hypocritical, two-faced and three-faced. ”

Picking up the fruit knife on the table and walking in front of Huo Nanxi, she retreated, as if she was afraid.

I shoved the knife into her hand, and my hands gripped hers closely, close to my heart.

I could feel her hands trembling, and she was really scared.

"Huo Nanxi, don't you hate me? Then you can kill me to vent my anger, I will write a will before I die, and no one will be held responsible. Come on, do it! ”

She fought hard, not daring to hurt me.

Looking at her appearance, I couldn't help but laugh and laugh uncontrollably.

"Why don't you dare to do it? Didn't you try to hurt me several times? Then let you have a good time, poke it hard, your unwillingness, your resentment, all unhappiness will disappear. Do it! ”

Taking advantage of her shock, I pulled hard, and the tip of the knife pierced into my skin.

But I didn't have pain, but I felt more steadfast than I had ever been.

As long as this knife continues, I will no longer be bullied, and I will pay back ten times the amount of anyone who slapped me.

She panicked, but she couldn't withdraw her hand, looked at Huo Nanyi nervously, and asked for help: "Brother, you persuade her, this ......"

"It's none of anyone else's! Don't you feel like I owe you? Whatever it is, it's good to get it back all at once! ”

"Don't do that, I was wrong. I shouldn't blame you for the things of the previous generation, you let go. I beg you, don't do this! It's still there! ”

Even though she whispered and begged me to let go, I didn't let go. The knife was inserted into my flesh for a few more minutes, in front of Huo Nanyi and Suixin.

He never said a word, as if he felt that this was a farce and that it would soon be over.

He looked at me in a daze, his round eyes full of fear and supplication.

I know everything, but I don't want to give up because of others, and push myself into a cycle of death that will never recover, and I am always indebted and hurt.

"Plopping", Huo Nanxi knelt on the ground, crying and begging me to let go.

She even promised to stay away from me in the future and never come out to obstruct my eyes.

Boom!

As I let go of my hand, the fruit knife fell to the ground with a clear thud.

"Get out! Don't let me see you again! ”

She ran out of my house crying aggrievedly.

For a moment, there was a dead silence in the house.

I stood there, looking at my heart, and she stood across from me, her eyes fixed on the fruit knife.

There was silence for a long time, and no one wanted to break the silence.

I crouched down, slowly picked up the fruit knife, took it to the kitchen to clean it, dried it, and put it back in place.

Silent, silently walked away, to go upstairs.

But somehow, he suddenly turned back and threw the cleaned fruit knife into the trash.

Relieved as if he had solved a big problem in his heart, he went upstairs slowly.

Exhausted, I took a shower and slept solemnly.

When I got up, it was already twilight.

I was a little hungry, and I went downstairs to find something to eat, but I saw the two of them busy in the kitchen, and they were very happy.

I thought they were gone, and they were going to stay.

Have pity on me?

I don't need to!

Anger rushed to the top of his head, irritated back to the bedroom, changed his clothes, and rushed out angrily.

Since they want to pity me, then I will show them that I don't need their mercy at all.

Pressing the gas pedal hard, the wheels slid through the thin layer of ice in the snowy night, sending out a series of calls that resembled hell.

The next moment it could be fatal, but I don't care anymore.

I just want to indulge as much as I can, to have the pleasure of this moment, and to die is nothing at all.

I went back to the city and went to the "You, Me and Him" adult club to feel the thrill of drunken dreams and death.

The cocktail is poured into the stomach one after another, and at the same time, it is an unprecedented pleasure, and it is so relaxing to be paralyzed by alcohol.

If it weren't for the churning in my stomach and vomiting, I wouldn't have put my glass down.

But as soon as he put it down, a restless dirty hand was put on his shoulder, and the anger came up, and he picked up the wine bottle regardless of it and smashed it violently.