With a bang, my already chaotic thoughts collapsed instantly.

What do I mean I would commit bigamy?

Obviously we ......

Jumped in shock, "What do you mean?" ”

"Literally."

“……”

With a black line on his face, he wanted to slap him twice.

One of his jokes, I actually believed it, and I was a little happy.

"Heh, Huo Nanyi, you're kidding me again. Since you're all right, I'll go home first. Remember to take your medicine! ”

Endured the heartache of being hurt by what he thought was broken, and ran out of his villa without giving him a chance to explain.

Just like he didn't believe me before, now, I can't trust him casually. Even if it was an explanation, I would only think that he was deliberately teasing me. It doesn't matter if you listen or not.

I don't remember how I got home, except that when I got home, I was worse than the scruffy beggars.

He wore a pair of black dried blood shoes on his bare feet, and he was so cold that he couldn't even breathe.

Looking at that embarrassed self, I really wanted to kill myself with a knife.

can be made so ridiculous by his joke!

Feeling the ticket in my pocket, I felt that even it was laughing at my self-inflicted feelings.

finally mustered up the courage to escape, but the plan was ruthlessly broken by him.

He also said that he wanted me to go back and give me happiness, but he didn't know how difficult it was for me to take a step.

Even if he loves me, he really doesn't know, he never understands.

In the morning, I felt a fire burning in my body, hot and weak. My consciousness was also confused, I don't know how long I had been asleep, and I woke up the next morning.

When I opened my eyes, I thought I was dreaming, because I was so scared that even the dream was a terrifying reality.

Lin Ziyu sat on the edge of my bed, looking straight at me without blinking, holding my hand with both hands, looking anxious.

Consciousness returned, remembering his city, he withdrew his hand in fear, and hurriedly moved back, trying to stay away from his reach.

He pounced, suppressed me, and said excitedly, "Mu Zi, you finally woke up." ”

"You let me go! Lin Ziyu, please let me go! For my cowardice's sake, please spare me! Let me go......" cries of almost despair, kicking his hands and feet, just trying to get rid of his shackles.

But I didn't expect that God would be so cruel to me, and even in my dreams, I didn't have the ability to get out of my predicament.

Still pressing me tightly, but terrible, gave me tenderness. Warm fingertips brushed my cheeks, and little by little he was encroaching on my defenses.

The warmth I am powerless to resist, no matter from anyone.

"Don't cry, okay? I didn't think about anything, I just wanted you to be with me. Mu Zi, accept me, is it really impossible? ”

The sadness in my tone was too real, and I finally realized that this was not a dream. While he wasn't looking, I pushed him away, climbed out of bed, and ran to the farthest corner from him.

"Your so-called love is to use my weakness to force me to comply? If so, I'm sorry for your love, I can't afford it. Please leave! ”

"Mu Zi, am I so shameless in your eyes? Do you really think I'm going to force you with those things? You are really cruel, you rejected me, and you want to hurt me like this. ”

I don't care about his loss at all, I only care about what I care about.

"You really won't? But you said it so desperately that day, I can't believe you. ”

My suspicion hurt him completely. The face collapsed suddenly, gloomy, like a dark cloud day about to rain.

The room was silent, but there was no longer embarrassment, and I couldn't care about whether it was embarrassing or whatever.

All I want is that he doesn't dwell on it anymore, and he doesn't slander me with those things, that's all.

But reality once again reminds me that I have always lived a greedy life.

After a long silence, he threw me only one sentence: "The engagement banquet has been postponed until December 1st, and you have a week to think about it." ”

Lonely with his coat on his shoulder, he left my room.

When he closed the door, he turned his head to look at me again and said, "Mu Zi, I hope you can believe me, I never wanted to hurt you, and I won't." You can believe it or not, but I'll prove it with my actions. ”

The door closed softly, and he also left the wooden house.

But his words were locked in my heart.

He said it wouldn't hurt me, and I wanted to risk believing that. If it's true, you can escape completely that night. Even if it's fake, it's just another cut in the heart, and it's insignificant.

Believing it to be true, I began to plan an escape.

I even spent a lot of money, forged a new identity, planned an escape route, and even planned my life as a person for the rest of my life.

Just as I was about to act, I received bad news from the doctor.

At that time, I was drinking milk, and before he could finish speaking, his hand slipped and the cup fell to pieces, accompanied by the sound of tears falling to the ground.

Touching his stomach weakly, he couldn't believe that it would be so terrible.

The child in my womb, three and a half months, will never grow longer, and he died, and he died in my womb.

He collapsed to the ground, clutching his stomach, not wanting to believe that he was dead.

Although I had thought that he could not be healthy, I never thought that he would not even have a chance to live.

Looking out the window at the withered garden was like looking at my own heart, bare and lifeless.

The room was dead silent, only the so-called tears "snapped" and fell non-stop, playing its joyful music solo.

My health is not good, coupled with the cold palace, I can get pregnant, which can be regarded as burning high incense.

I was pregnant with Mu Li before, although I didn't want it, but I didn't flow it out in the end, the main reason was that I was afraid that I would never be able to get pregnant again, and I would feel that my life was incomplete, so I left her.

But at that time, life was poor, malnutrition during pregnancy, and when the due date was approaching, he accidentally rolled down the stairs and injured his uterus, which made matters worse.

At that time, the doctor told me that my chances of getting pregnant again were almost zero. But he broke through many difficulties and came to me.

However, he was brutally only three and a half months away.

Three and a half months, for me, is too little.

Even my belly was just a little round, and he deprived me of the right to continue to suffer.

If it was for him, I would have hurt a little and I wouldn't care. But he was too cruel to give me such a chance.

Buzz Buzz...... The phone was ringing, but there was no strength to turn it on.

Awkwardly turned his head and glanced at the screen, it was Huo Nanyi's number that jumped.

Tick-tock, a tear smashed on the phone screen, blurring his number.

I still remember when he said, "It's a pity that there is no such blessing", and before I could tell him, in fact, he was already in the blessing, but the child had already left us.

I was just afraid that the child would be unhealthy and make him sad, so I never told him.

Now, how can I tell him that he has a child, and before he can recover from his joy, I will cruelly tell him the truth that the child is dead.

My finger accidentally touched the answer button, and his voice came to my ear.

"Mu Zi, where are you? Don't be afraid, I'm always there, with you, no matter when. ”

Listening to his voice, the cry that had been suppressed finally couldn't be held back and cried out.

I don't know if he can hear my desperation, or if he can understand my guilt.

"Huo Nanyi, I'm sorry! I couldn't keep him, our kid. ”

He didn't say anything to comfort me, just told me not to run around, he came right away, and hung up.

By the time he broke into my room, I was crying half to death, and even consciousness had withdrawn from my body.

I only felt his warm embrace, and then, unconscious.

"No, don't go! Please don't go! Don't leave me, don't! ……”

It was pitch black, and I saw only a figure, he was slowly approaching, and the shadow was getting smaller and smaller

After approaching me, she shouted in a milky voice: "Mom~"

staggered, but smiled, revealing the only few milky white teeth, and his fleshy face was full of laughter.

"Mom~"

He was getting closer and closer to me, and I reached over to hug him, but suddenly a wolf appeared behind him, with its mouth wide open, facing the back of his neck.

"Don't! Don't hurt my child, don't! Please don't! ”

But in the next moment, blood flowed and swallowed my vision.

There was only a pool of blood left, like a raging torrent, coming straight towards me, and it was violent, but it could not sweep me away, but only wrapped me in his blood, reminding me that I had failed to protect him and caused him to be devoured by wolves.

"Don't! Don't do this to me, don't~"

"Mu Zi, Mu Zi, don't be afraid! I'm here, I've been here, don't be afraid! ”

Huo Nanyi's comfort became clearer and clearer, and I woke up to see him sitting nervously on the edge of the bed, anxious.

"Mu Zi, don't be afraid! I'm here. ”

He could only be held by him, as if he was half dumb by poison, and he couldn't make a sound at all.

Relying on him, he can't soothe my heart at the moment.

I also want peace of mind, I don't want fear, but how can that despair be driven away?

"Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault! I don't blame you, and the kids don't blame you! Don't be afraid! Don't be afraid ......."

His comfort faded in my mind, and I felt only a pain, unbearable pain, and I fainted again.

I only vaguely remember that in those days, my mind became more and more confused, and only occasionally I could clearly remember what was happening, and I couldn't see anything clearly, just like a blind man.

Huo Nanyi has been with me, in order to let me get out of the shadows as soon as possible, he took me out of Maocheng and went to New Zealand.

But looking at the blue sea and blue sky, all I saw were painful blue tears, surging, rolling, attacking me, but they couldn't sweep me away, just drowned me and didn't give me breath.

In my very little waking hours, there was nothing but grief.

At most, it is blurry, it is unconscious.

I also wanted to sleep for a long time, without any memory or pain.