"When I have the right to govern, I have to establish my majesty, so that my subordinates can obey me, and I can establish a better environment for the jewels to recuperate, and I am so frightened that I dare not close my eyes, I am really going to vomit. Tolerance and concession have made me lose too much, I let my daughter grow up under the oppression of others, I don't ask for anything, just ask for peace, stay up until she grows up and marries, everything will be fine. But in fact, if you don't fight, not only will you not get what you want, but you will also lose what you have. ”

I don't know why Mrs. Zheng told me this, maybe over the years, she has not had an easy time, although she has become strong, no longer afraid to be oppressed every day, but she is gradually distancing herself from her beloved daughter, she can't open her mouth, she can't complain, she can only find someone who already knows, to explain the reason why so much.

"Actually, things have changed, why don't you tell Jewel about these things, I think she will understand......"

"She doesn't understand at all!" Mrs. Zheng interrupted me abruptly, "How can she understand, how can she understand the pain of watching her flesh and blood ghost linger in front of the door and not return?!" How could she understand the guilt of almost losing her loved ones because of her weakness?! She didn't understand at all the pain of being hurt in her child's body and in her mother's heart?! She couldn't understand the fear that her mother didn't dare to close her eyes day and night for fear of seeing her dead soul bed and come to say goodbye! She didn't know the seven days when she was in a coma and was about to die, how I got over those seven days, I was really willing to exchange my life for her to be able to breathe back, see her open her eyes and call me mother, I cried so much that I couldn't speak anymore, how could she understand? She will only feel sorry for herself, and she will not cherish the day that Nuan Nuan has worked hard with me to create for her, and she actually said to me that she doesn't have to save her......"

My eyes were hot, I really didn't understand Mrs. Zheng's mood at that time, how a weak person could be as strong as iron, if it weren't for this great pain and suffering, how could she overcome her nature and make herself fearless? Jewel's heart is like ashes, why not a revenge for her?

"She is simply an ignorant child, if she is really sensible, she should understand that life is not to please others, but for herself."

"If you don't have freedom, how can you live for yourself?"

"I gave her freedom, but she got into trouble again. If trapping her here can keep her alive, I'll do whatever it takes. It's the same with you, I know your mother doesn't care about you, your father disappeared when you were very young, and you don't know anything about flesh and blood—"

I smiled: "Flesh and blood affection is innate, and it doesn't matter how long it takes." Although my father couldn't give me the most precious things in the real sense, I knew that what he gave me was the happiest for me. ”

"Including that cheap brother of yours?" Madame Zheng scoffed.

I was stunned and said, "Yan Cuo is my younger brother, but he is not a cheap brother, he is my father's flesh and blood, that is, my dearest." ”

"I don't need to discuss with you what it means to be flesh and blood—I called you here just to ask you something." Madame Zheng softened her voice and became arrogant and indifferent again. I feel that she is very blunt to change the topic, to divert this topic about flesh and blood, listening to the conversation between Zheng Jewel and Master Zheng, I think Zheng Jewel is not Mrs. Zheng's biological child, Zheng Jewel is so smart, she should also be aware of it, but she didn't dig deeper, maybe she thinks that whether it is biological or not, Mrs. Zheng's intentions for her have exceeded that of any biological mother.

I followed her words and said, "What's the matter?" ”

"There is a small spar in the jewelry, which has been hanging on the body like a treasure, and the stone was not given by the master, and the color is not of the highest quality, do you know where it came from?"

It seems that Zheng Jewel didn't tell Mrs. Zheng about the past, so I shook my head and said, "I don't know, maybe she was greedy for fun back then, and she picked it up somewhere outside." ”

"She often shouts a name called 'Third Brother' when she is seriously ill and dreams, do you know who it is?" Mrs. Zheng asked me seriously, and I could vaguely see her cautiously leaning sideways and waiting for my answer.

I still shook my head: "I haven't heard her mention it." ”

Mrs. Zheng sighed impatiently, and she probably disappointed me in not knowing what to ask.

I said cautiously, "Actually, Madame cares about jewelry, doesn't she?" Since you're so curious, why don't you ask her yourself? ”

Mrs. Zheng sneered: "Ask her?" In her eyes, I'm just a mean-spirited bad guy who always wants to take everyone's happiness, what can we say? ”

I whispered, "I didn't hear her say that about you, and she explained to me that you weren't like that, and that you had to change yourself to protect her." She said that she missed the days when you were dependent on each other, you would hug her and put her to sleep, she would cry and laugh, and she would call her Ai'er......"

Mrs. Zheng was not only not moved, but laughed even colder: "She is like this, it is meaningless to keep those past that are impossible to go back to." ”

I retorted, "How can it be pointless? She said she would protect you, but now she needs your protection in turn, why don't you try to understand her helplessness and loss? ”

"I don't understand, I don't need to understand, I just need to know, what's best for her is, even if she hates me now and in the future, I'm willing!"

"She didn't hate you—madam, although I haven't experienced what you said, but I know that you must be very tired, and now that the eldest lady is gone, and no one in the Zhuangzi bullies you anymore, why can't you go back to the past and live quietly as before? Do you have to compete like this? She's going to get married here, and there will be fewer and fewer opportunities for you to see each other in the future, so why can't you cherish it? ”

"Cherish what? What is there to cherish?! Anyway, she wants to leave here, and she doesn't need to be so hypocritical in the last time together, she knows it herself! Just stay quietly for a while and get out of here! Mrs. Zheng brushed her sleeves and left.

Outside the door, I faintly heard Mama Bear shouting, "Madame—"

"Get out of here!" Mrs. Zheng shouted angrily.

I sighed and slowly walked out of the boudoir, I felt that it was getting dark and the wind was getting cold.

"Boss Yan." Mama Bear called me not far from the door.

I felt a little embarrassed, pretending not to hear Mrs. Zheng's angry roar just now, and said, "Mother Xiong, why are you here?" Does Madame have something else to explain? ”

Mama Xiong said quietly: "There's nothing else, just let me send Boss Yan on the road." ”

My heart sank, and when I heard this, I was terrified.

Mother Bear stared at me gloomily, and I could see the cold gaze slightly: "I mean, Madame asked me to send you back to the town, walk back to the town at this hour, it is almost dark, Madame is afraid that your eyes will not see, it will be inconvenient." ”

I swallowed, my cold hair stood on end, and I politely excused: "No, no need, Song Ling-"

"You mean Miss Song, right? Just now she asked the doorman to bring in a message, saying that she had something important to go back to first, and asked us to send you back to Xiuzhuang safely. Mother Bear interrupted me coldly.

This night sound!

Actually!

Go first!

As soon as I thought that I was going to pass through that terrible Xihuayuan, I had no confidence, although the yin and yang weirdness of Mama Xiong at this time scared me, but it was better than me going back alone, the big deal was that I closed my eyes in the sedan chair and didn't speak, and I pretended to sleep all the way home.

I gritted my teeth and nodded, "That's—that's going to be a hassle for Mama Bear." ”

Mama Bear came to help me, this was the first time she was so close to me, her hand was very strong, and she pulled my wrist and was in pain!

I frowned secretly, I didn't dare to act too uncomfortable, bear with me, wait for the sedan chair, it's fine.

But after walking at the gate of the courtyard, the sedan chair was not waiting, and Mama Xiong asked the doorman: "Isn't the sedan chair ready?" ”

The doorman said, "It's ready, but just now the housekeeper has something urgent to go to the town, so he will take it away and use it first." ”

Mama Xiong scolded: "There are no rules! The sedan chair that Mrs. prepared for Boss Yan, how could the housekeeper not use it casually? Do you want Boss Yan to wait here for him to come back? She poured all the anger she had just received on Mrs. Zheng on irrelevant people.

The doorman whispered: "The housekeeper said that it was a matter of the master's faction, and I couldn't be the master." ”

Mama Bear snorted, and the hand holding my wrist clenched tighter in anger.

I played a round and said, "That's okay, it's the same when I walk back, Mama Xiong is busy, just stay." ”

Mama Xiong didn't let go, and said responsibly: "Boss Yan, in your situation, how can you walk back alone?" I'll ask Madame, if you really can't do it, I'll prepare Miss's sedan chair for you. ”

Now I took her hand and said, "Don't-forget it, don't bother Mrs. Zheng anymore, I can go back by myself, it's a big deal to go slowly." ”

Mother Xiong was quiet, and seemed to be a little jealous of the tiger's face, and said, "Then, I can only send Boss Yan to walk back." Go in and get me a lantern, so I can come back for my night walk." ”

The doorman immediately went to get it, and after a while he came out with the lantern, and Mama Bear pulled me and said, "Let's go, if you don't go again, it will be dark." ”

I followed her, she walked very fast, maybe she was also afraid of the West Flower Plain that she would pass on her way back, so she wanted to go early and return early.

I kept my mind on the lookout, sniffing the smell carefully, and every now and then I opened my eyes slightly to see where it was.

The smell of pines and cypresses is getting weaker and weaker, and the strange floral fragrance of Xihuayuan is getting stronger and stronger, and my heart is beating faster and faster.

At this time, Mama Bear suddenly stopped, I was startled, and said, "What's wrong?" ”

Mama Bear gasped slightly, but did not answer.