Of course, she quickly knew that Shangguan Li was not as relaxed as it seemed, everyone in the mansion knew her name, she was innocent, and no one wanted to put the shadow of the fierce Yunqing on her son-

In addition to Shangguan Bo and Shangguan Jing, especially Shangguan Bo, he hated Yunqing very much, and he also brought his hatred to her son, he knew everything a long time ago, so Shangguan Li was almost never cared for by him since he was a child. He always felt that this child must also have Yunqing's evil bloodline, and the more they protected and cared for Shangguan Yan, the more they hated everything about Shangguan Li......

"Because the second brother became the second young master of the Shangguan Mansion, because his mother killed my mother-so, he was always scolded and glared at by his father, and endured the humiliation of the son of a slut, until he couldn't bear it anymore, and left the house like that big brother, preferring to wander rather than come back-" Shangguan Yan's face was calm.

"How do you know this? …… You're really going to complain everywhere! Shangguan Bo still couldn't get rid of his hatred for Shangguan Li, and said with disdain.

"No—the second brother didn't say anything to me, he always behaved well, was happy, and behaved as if everyone loved him as if they loved me...... Until that day, when I saw him with my eldest brother, who threw the wood carving he gave me, and they were arguing, and they were not at all as good as they usually behaved in front of me...... I watched my second brother jump into the lake desperately, no matter how cold it was, to find the wood carving that he had carved for me...... But then I asked him why he had a cold, but he didn't answer the truth and covered up the evil between himself and his eldest brother..."Shangguan Yan looked at Shangguan Li quietly, and the past was vivid.

Shangguan Li was just an empty laugh.

"Second brother, do you remember that day when I went to see you and put my clothes on you?"

"Yes." Shangguan Li nodded.

"Mother treats you as me, as usual, greets you with a tone of voice to me, and doesn't forget to turn back and blame me when it's over - I've always been used to this, and I never felt anything, but that day I was treated as you, only to find out how uncomfortable this situation of being snubbed and misunderstood, it's clearly the same situation, why is it right and wrong, why is it indiscriminately that it's your fault, and you must think that you are bullying me? But you just laugh it off every time, like everything is supposed to be like this......"

Shangguan Li smiled: "I'm used to it." ”

Shangguan Yanquan's eyes were slightly wet, recalling the incomprehensible and profound scene that made him puzzled.

"Yes, you're used to it, and I'm used to it, so I never felt anything wrong. Until that day, our identities were suddenly confused, the kind of rejection you felt for Yun Niang's care, and the loss I felt about the sudden indifference...... Maybe you don't remember, that time you were very sick, very serious, very serious, lying alone in the house for many days and did not come out. I don't know why, I didn't sleep well in those nights, every time you always come to chat with me and make me happy, you are sick, even if it is my turn to accompany you. I didn't fall asleep that night and secretly went to your yard to see you. But I saw that my mother was also there, she kept wiping your sweat and water, and kept covering your quilt so that you wouldn't suffer from the cold again, she was so distressed that she couldn't stop crying, quietly humming a song to accompany you until dawn, and then secretly left. For several nights, she had been like this, and I thought it was strange, why? Why did she do this? Why does she care about you so much, and she can care about you as much as she cares about me, but she has to secretly come to see you behind everyone's back? I really don't understand, I don't understand all along, I can only pretend that I don't know anything, because this is exactly the life you want to give me, the scene that you have so hard disguised to let me see...... But now I understand......" Shangguan Yan's eyes secreted tears, his long eyebrows were deeply furrowed, and he stared at Yun Niang faintly.

Shangguan Li looked at Yun Niang in a daze, but Yun Niang didn't dare to look at anyone again.

They all regarded Shangguan Yan as an innocent child, and used their acting skills to spoil him in fake plays, but they didn't know that this innocent child had already had his own thoughts and insights. And this feeling of being kept in the dark like a fool is too understandable to me.

Song Lingjian and Han San laughed at them, aren't they the same? Shangguan Yan was far smarter than me, and he knew that this deception was out of concern, so he didn't dig deeper, pretending to be happy, and only I was a fool, bent on breaking through this beautiful glass net.

"It was just a few days that I started to feel like everything wasn't as rosy as I saw it was – I thought it would. That night, I also knew my brother's attitude towards you—"

Shangguan Liyi frowned: "How do you know?" ”

Shangguan Yan smiled sadly: "When I came out of your yard that day, I met the eldest brother who was coming in anger, I was so naïve at that time, I wanted to come forward to surprise him and scare him - but I didn't expect that the eldest brother, who has always been kind, would be so fierce, not only did he not feel funny about my prank, but he also pushed me to the ground hard, and then tightly choked my neck, warning me not to approach the third brother again, and not to have any despicable behavior to try to get close to Yun Niang and other words - I know, he also thinks of me as you." , Late at night, I'm in your courtyard again, of course he wouldn't think it was me. I never knew they were in such a bad relationship, and he had such a bad attitude towards you - how did you spend all these years? Shangguan Yan turned his head to look at his brother.

Shangguan Li still smiled lightly: "I said, I'm used to it." Before you came, I knew how I should keep myself out of strife and accept everything. I knew a long time ago that none of this was meant to be mine, and I was always ready to give everything back to the original person......"

"Li'er—you...... What did you say? Yun Niang was surprised.

Shangguan Li looked at her calmly, and two lines of tears ran down his cheeks: "So I said it, I understand, you don't have to explain it anymore, and I never blame you." ”

Yun Niang was shocked, could it be that Shangguan Li already knew her life experience?!

"So you all know it, but you keep me alone in the dark? I have always regarded you as my biological mother, proud of everything I have, and I have always regarded you as a good brother with a good heart...... I listen to the lies you have made up to me, and I live in a world that has never been real......" Shangguan Yan looked at the two of them with teary eyes.

I also wept as well.

"I'm sorry——— I wanted to bury this secret in the ground for a long time - I was so selfish...... It's me who is so selfish......"

"No, you're all good, it's just that I'm too stupid......" Perhaps this was the biggest blow to Shangguan Yan, he staggered back a few steps, looked around at everyone, and ran out of the room quickly.

"Yan'er!" Yun Niang hissed.

"Brother Yan!" Shangguan Li chased a few steps, he cared more about this weak and kind brother than anyone else, even Yun Niang, he suddenly turned his head and stared at Yun Niang sadly, "I said, you shouldn't have continued, you shouldn't have said it, what can you change if you say it?" - But now you have singled out the thorn in your heart, but you want to teach us how to stand on our own? ”

"Li'er—"

Shangguan Li walked out of the room with tears in his eyes, and the sunlight instantly engulfed his snow-white figure, just like the first time I saw him, he was dressed in white as if he was coming by the wind, and now he was going to ride the wind again.

Yun Niang looked at the empty door and cried sadly, she grabbed Shangguan Bo, regarded him as everything that could be grasped, and asked in a heartish voice, "I was wrong...... I was wrong? ”

Shangguan Bo hugged her in his arms distressedly, and said softly: "Yun'er, you are not wrong, it is they who are wrong...... Don't cry, I'm here, don't be afraid-"

Yun Niang cried bitterly, and the cry continued under the supposed cheerful winter sun, like a sad elegy.

Shangguan Li's words are the key to this secret that should not be revealed, the secret has been revealed, how can these souls who have survived in the illusion for so many years settle down?

No one can stay where they have always been, but no one can go to the place where they should be, where are they going to wander?

Yunqing, are you satisfied? This is the truth you want, the child who has not been close to you since childhood is not your own flesh and blood in October, but the child who holds you in the broken house of Nishihara and says that you will always guard you and wants to kill is your bones and your blood. So at that time, you hesitated when you were ruthless, the nature of blood is thicker than water, so that you did not make a big mistake of killing your son, you spent so many years, reminiscing about this indifferent mother-son relationship in loneliness, and finally noticed some flaws, but, can this secret really put your biological son in a better situation? Do you really understand what he cares about?

I was running in the harsh sun, trying to catch up with that desperate figure, and I wanted to tell him that it doesn't matter whose child it is, what matters is that you have an honest and kind heart!

The day was vast, there was no wind and no sound, and I seemed to be swallowed up by another world.

I don't know when I'll wake up, face the real green mountains and green waters, or when I die, accept the eternal parting, and now I'm floating in the chaos of time and space, picking up scattered truths, is this the fulfillment of my wish to know the truth?

Now I just want to close my eyes and cover my ears, and go back to the quiet and trivial life, even if it is ordinary, even if it is full of lies.

A bell is off, ding-piercing, piercing.

"Ahem, how's it going? How is Sister Fei? Awake? ”

Xia Xia's anxious inquiry sounded in my ears, and I breathed a sigh of relief, I finally returned to Xia Xia's side.

The door rang, and Song Lingjian's voice floated outside, wandering weakly in the air: "I'm not awake, but it's not life-threatening." You go and see her. ”

The picture is sometimes clear, sometimes blurry, and I stand in a corner of the room, looking at everything in my room that is slowly becoming clearer, and myself on the bed, the other me with a bloodless face like a dead man.

Although it was expected, I couldn't help but feel a little lost, I thought I would wake up, but no, listening to Song Lingjian's tone, my situation seemed to be very bad.

Xia Xia ran in lightly and quickly, she lay on my side, just like every winter when she called me to get up, she touched my face, softly called "Fei Sister Fei Sister", and then whispered softly.

I wanted to be there for them, but I didn't want to see them blushing for me like that.

Han Sanxiao, who usually choked with Song Lingjian, lost his old thoughts, and looked at Song Lingjian with a worried face: "Your face is not good, if it's okay, go back and rest early." ”

However, Song Lingjian raised his head and glanced deeply at Haipiao, that glance was calm and traceless, but he didn't know what it carried. In the end, she turned her head to look at Han San and smiled, her face was pale, she smiled slightly, nodded and left.

They were so calm, so calm that I felt weird.

I'd rather Han San Xiao find some faults and blame Song Ling for not being good at medicine or something, but he didn't, he was still extremely considerate and understanding, and it seemed that he was desperate.

Only Han Sanxiao and Hai Piao were left in the courtyard.

In fact, they have been together for a long time, but they rarely see them alone, and I don't know what they will talk about.

Han San smiled and coughed dryly, looked around, his eyes took over the place where I was, there was no wave, and he asked, "Where did Yan Cuo go?" ”

"When we went up the mountain to look for you, he said he wanted to stay here and watch Sister Fei. Now, maybe he doesn't want to know the answer. So I hid myself again. Hai Piao quietly digested the faint and distant eyes of Song Lingjian.

Han San smiled and nodded, biting his lip again and again, unable to hold back any other topics.

After being silent for a while, Han San sat up straight with a smile, ran to the door and said to the door: "Since you are here, do you want to leave if you don't enter?" ”

Is there anyone out there? His ears are so good, I didn't hear anything.

The sea floated up and poked out of the courtyard gate.

I saw the people in the alley, and my heart jumped.