"So, because of this consideration, you decided to forgive Wang Ziman, as if nothing had happened, and continue to live with her?" Tang Hongye felt that as a man, Zuo Ankang accepted such a sudden blow, and it seemed that the process was a little too fast, too smooth, and unbelievable.

"How can it be so easy," Zuo Ankang shook his head, "I don't seem to be a difficult thing to talk about now, in fact, during that time, the mental torture I experienced was only known to me, how many times I was sad and wanted to cry, and even felt that I was too a failure, or did I do something wrong in my previous life, so I encountered such an encounter, I thought that I had a child anyway, it would be better if I could have another one, and if I couldn't, I would admit it, but I lost my fertility because of an accident before I got married, The only son is not my blood, and I have not suffered retribution for my sins in my previous life? And I also thought that at that time, my wife was pregnant with someone else's child, at least at that time, whether to follow me to the end, she must have hesitated, and when I thought of this, I would also feel as uncomfortable as digging my heart. ”

What Zuo Ankang said was quite in line with the state of mind that a person in such a situation would have, Tang Hongye nodded when he heard it: "Then how did you convince yourself that you could accept all this calmly?" ”

"When I was in the hospital before, didn't I ask you, do you have someone you like, to what extent, do you want to live with her for the rest of your life, and I wish I could really have the next life, so that I can continue to be with her, you said yes, so I think you should be able to understand my feelings, so I proposed to ask you out, let's sit down and talk about it, I'll talk to you." Zuo Ankang replied.

Du Juan listened to Zuo Ankang's words, was slightly stunned, and subconsciously glanced at Tang Hongye, Tang Hongye's face was flushed with a layer of ruddy blood at a speed visible to the naked eye, and he covered his hand in his mouth and cleared his throat.

"You should tell me about your mental journey, it doesn't matter how I answer." He said with some embarrassment.

Zuo Ankang didn't have the heart to pay attention to Tang Hongye's emotional changes, nodded, and continued: "You may think it's a bit false for me to say this, but I really love my wife to the core." I fell in love with her at first sight, when I first saw her, I felt that my heartbeat was speeding up all of a sudden, my eyes were like the kind of iron beads that were sucked by a magnet, I couldn't move away at all, and I had an idea in my mind that if I could marry such a wife in this life, it would really be a big winner in life! So then I chased her, she agreed, I felt that I was so lucky and too happy, and then she had a child, and the two of us were preparing to get married, at that time I felt that my life was really worth it, and I got what I wanted! ”

"If I know that I am infertile, and the child is definitely not mine, I have not resented because I have been emotionally betrayed, and I want to end it, it is unrealistic, but I am really reluctant. Maybe you think I'm unproductive, and if I'm not productive, I'm not productive, but that's the case, and I don't want to hide it. Because I was reluctant, so I found a lot of reasons for myself, I carefully recalled the days of our family of three in the past few years, I can feel that my wife is really good to me, I am doing business outside, and when I am busy, I really can't take care of the family, and she has never messed with me, and she has made the home very warm. Not to mention children, I have been in pain since I was a child, and in my son's heart, I am his only father, and there can be no one else besides me. ”

When talking about children, Zuo Ankang's facial contours, which did not look very gentle, were softened to the maximum, with undisguised love in his eyes: "So I thought, when I wanted to marry my wife, what was the life I was looking forward to?" Isn't that what it looks like now? Even if she may have hesitated at the beginning, when she married me, she definitely didn't have the attitude of finding a wronged person to be responsible for her, which I know very well, so I also want to believe that she was just confused for a while, and finally chose to lean towards me. In fact, each of us is the same, who dares to say that he has not wavered in front of his feelings? Maybe it's just that my wife was more unlucky, and when she was shaken, she accidentally conceived a child, and she didn't know it.

I later thought, since this is the life I want, it is not easy for the two of us with children to work hard step by step to this extent, so why destroy it? Breaking up a family, punishing her with the mistakes Xiaoman made before marrying me, and punishing myself, and because my son will not have a happy and complete home in the future, will it have such a big impact on him for the rest of his life, is it worth it? I thought about it and thought that the answer was not worth it, so I figured it out, stopped dwelling on it, cheered up, and turned the page. As long as Xiao Man is single-minded to me and this family in the future, I am willing to keep pretending to be confused. ”

"It's quite open-minded for you to think so," Du Juan said to him after listening to Zuo Ankang's mental journey, "But this should be before Leng Zhiqiang appeared, right?" Did you feel threatened after he appeared? ”

"Yes, after all, he is my son's biological father." Zuo Ankang nodded with a wry smile a little melancholy, "At the beginning, when Leng Zhiqiang came back to pester Xiaoman, I vaguely guessed whether it would be related to him, and whether the child would be his bloodline, but I didn't dare to think too deep and too detailed, this matter has always been a scar on my heart for me, if I don't look at it, I won't have anything, but if I really touch it, I still feel a little uncomfortable." So at the beginning, I was also self-deceiving, so I thought that Leng Zhiqiang was the ex-boyfriend who came back to pester Xiao Man, and he almost had a conflict with him, and I told you last time, and then he saw that I had a very tough attitude, and Xiao Man didn't pay attention to him at all, so he looked for me in private, saying that he wanted to tell me a shocking secret, and then told me that the child was his, so this time he was determined to have a child with Xiao Man, a family of three, and live together in the future. When I told him that there was no way he could succeed, he said something insulting to me, and I hit him, and when he saw that I was in a hurry, he ran away. ”

"And after that? Have you dealt with anything else? ”

"No, I also think it's weird, I thought he would definitely find other reasons to come back to pester Xiaoman or find trouble with me, but then he never came back, I was worried for a while, and I saw that he never looked for me again, Xiaoman seems to be normal, how should our family live and how to live, I was relieved, and I didn't think about it again. And then you came to me. ”

"Dude, I didn't say this to you," Tang Hongye looked incomprehensible, "You have a very big heart, if I were you, I guess it wouldn't be so easy to rest assured, what if the other party stalks?" ”

"It's not that I haven't thought about this problem, but then I also figured out one thing, if Leng Zhiqiang really loved Xiaoman and cared about Xiaoman, he could have come to her a long time ago, after all, we have been coming to City A for some years, and we have been living there all the time, and we have never moved, Leng Zhiqiang has the intention to find Xiaoman to renew the front edge, don't wait so long, if he is famous, maybe I will think that he is waiting for the opportunity, in fact, he is very poor, so this possibility does not exist. In addition, I recalled again and again afterwards that when he mentioned the child, he didn't bring any emotion, it was completely an attitude of scaring me with the chips, so I am very sure that his so-called reunion with Xiaoman and the continuation of the front edge of the family of three is probably also a disguise. ”

"So what do you think he's actually trying to do?"

"I don't know, or there is no better choice, so I want to come back and pick up a wife, and I will give a very good son, or I will have some other calculations." Zuo Ankang waved his hand, "It's not that I'm talking big or pretending to be anything, I'm so don't have the energy to guess what the idea of such a garbage fight is, for me, knowing that my wife is not tempted, it's enough, the child's feelings are not maintained by blood, I really love the child, be good to the child, he will recognize me as a father, I don't care about anything else, I still have to spend my energy on my business, and I want to train my son into a high-achieving student in the future, and train him to be the kind of person who asks questions in college!" So I don't want to mix anything else, whatever I love. ”

"Then what do you think after knowing that Leng Zhiqiang is dead?"

"I don't have any ideas, really, I felt very happy at first, and I have nothing to worry about when he dies, but then I thought about it, there is no need for this, the key is not Leng Zhiqiang or Re Zhiqiang, the key is in Xiao Man's body, as long as she has no outside heart, she lives with me wholeheartedly, runs this family, no matter who wants to insert a lever, it is useless, it is not a threat to me, if Xiao Man has that outside heart, it doesn't have to be Leng Zhiqiang, just one Zhang San Li Si, it can still let me out."

Tang Hongye and Du Juan nodded, Zuo Ankang's words can be said to be very open-minded, and he thinks very thoroughly, although when he encounters such a thing, whether he can really maintain such a fiery mentality, this question is still up for discussion, but this is also a later story, not only different from person to person, but also from person to person.

After Zuo Ankang finished speaking, he was silent for a while, then took a deep breath and spit it out slowly, as if the whole person was relaxed: "I've been holding back for many years, the feeling of having bitterness and secrets, and having to rot in my stomach is actually not comfortable at all, and now that I say it, I feel much better." It seems that people still need to have a way to vent, otherwise they will hold everything back, and it will be too hard. ”

"And what's next for you?" The cuckoo asked, for Zuo Ankang.

"I don't have any special plans, how to live, just how to continue to live, anyway, this matter does not have much impact on our family life itself." Zuo Ankang replied naturally.

"I have another question," Tang Hongye gestured to Zuo Ankang, and pointed to the physical examination results on the table with his finger, "You went to the hospital again for a special examination, are you not completely dead?" ”

Zuo Ankang tugged at the corners of his mouth: "I said that I was completely dead, can you believe it?" I probably don't believe it myself. I can swear to God, I treat my son, that is really my own child's heart, but I still have a little fantasy, I think the thing can be recovered, even if there is a slight chance, I also want to give it a try, if I can really have another child with Xiaoman and the two of us, whether it is male or female, it is also the bond between the two of us, the meaning is not the same after all. When Leng Zhiqiang said to me that he was my son's father, I was indeed a little stimulated, and I thought at that time, I was not afraid that my son would recognize the thief as his father, but I was afraid that Xiaoman would take into account the child's blood problem, and he couldn't help but be a little shaken. Of course, now this kind of concern is gone, I just have a glimmer of hope and want to have another child, but as you can see, I still have no fertility, so ...... It's estimated that I'm going to die. ”

After chatting for a while, Zuo Ankang estimated that he finally had a chance to talk about his heart, so after the whole person finished talking about those core issues, he seemed to relax a lot, and then the topic was slowly pulled by him to topics such as difficult to do business and difficult to support a family, until his mobile phone rang, Wang Ziman called to ask him if he would go home for dinner on time at night, which interrupted Zuo Ankang's confiding.

"Oh, look, that's embarrassing!" Zuo Ankang looked at the time, "I finally have a chance to talk to someone, and suddenly the conversation box opened a little uncontrollable, delaying you so much time, then let's get here today, I promised Xiaoman to go home for dinner, so I won't greet you, I'll go home in a while, you don't leave, stay and eat something, this store has a good income, I'll treat you, okay?" It's rare that you are willing to listen to me and understand my situation, and you don't laugh at me or anything, and I am really grateful in my heart! Really, after all, I don't have anyone to say these things. ”

Tang Hongye stood up and patted Zuo Ankang's shoulder: "Good intentions, such a small matter, we are embarrassed to take advantage of your meal." Hurry back, the wife and children at home are still waiting, some things are said and it will be good, and the days after that will have to be lively. We have to go, and there are other things that we have not yet taken care of. 2k reading network