With people talking to each other, this boring journey is over quickly, I don't know where these people are going, but my destination has arrived. After saying goodbye to some of the friends I knew on the train, I got off the train with my things. After a few months, there is really a sense of trance, things are not people!

Think about it, when I left before, I was so depressed and heartbroken, at that time, I really planned to go forever. But who would have thought that now, I am back again, with a new life, with an open-minded and bright me.

Before going home, I went to the cemetery again, and I had never seen Jia Qi at this time. It's not that I don't want to come, but I don't dare, I really don't dare, so except for the necessity, except for that day I have to come, the rest of the time I really don't dare to step into half a step. But I'm here today, and I have something to say clearly.

I still remember the last time I bought flowers, I left my luggage here, and then bought a bunch of that person's favorite lilies, and went to Jia Qi's grave alone. The person in the photo is still smiling brightly, and in the past he would only feel guilty and uncomfortable, but now it is more of a pity.

"Jia Qi, I've come to see you" I said softly, every time I came back in the past, I wouldn't say that I was born, I only silently repented in my heart, prayed silently, and blessed silently, but this time, I said it "I figured it out now, in the past, I didn't dare to come over, I was afraid to see you like this, but now, I still feel uncomfortable, and I'm still afraid." However, I want to talk to you from the heart."

I regret it a lot, actually, I regret that I didn't reach out to hold you at that time, I feel very guilty, and I also blame myself, I always think that I killed you, and the people around me also think so, even if I didn't think so at first, but after a long time, I don't know if I killed you or not. The panic and sadness at that time also made me think that I was the one who killed you, but now I realize that it is not, I dare not say that I am not responsible, but at least, I feel that I can be relieved and relieved, and in the future, I think I can see you in a better state. In the future, I will not feel sorry for myself and feel sorry for myself like before, so no matter whether Jia Qi will blame me or be happy for me, I want to live according to my own ideas in the future, I want to live my own life!

There are some things that will really feel much easier after saying them. Looking at the bright smile on the photo, I couldn't help but smile with relief on my face. It's obviously a cold winter, but I feel that today's sunshine is very sufficient, shining on myself warm, very comfortable, even the cold wind, there is a little gentleness!

Of course, for me, an unemployed vagrant, the most important task is to find a job, no matter how good it is, how high the salary is, as long as I can support myself, this is enough! But this task will almost have to wait until the end of the year.

When I got home, it was dusty, and I couldn't even see the original color of the table. Glancing at the dust on the table, then looking out

The sun on the face, well, it's going to be dark, so let's just clean up today and get some sleep, and the rest will be talked about tomorrow.

I thought to myself, that's what I did, after all, I'm really tired today!

Well, I've always been done today, and finally put things off until tomorrow for the first time, and it feels really good to think about it before I go to bed, but when I wake up the next day, I think it's really bad! I don't want to clean, I don't want to move at all, I don't even want to get up! It's so cold outside.

Why didn't you do it yesterday, since you were tired yesterday, why don't you finish it all at once, and you're tired? Well, I'm still tired again!

It's extremely unhappy in my heart, but no matter how unhappy I am, there will be no less things to do, and time will not come again!

After inking on the bed for a while, he finally got up ruthlessly, and then he hurried to work while the iron was hot, thinking that he would not be this lazy painting when he was busy! And then I don't have time to do anything else on this day, but this day is really comfortable, sure enough, the gold and silver nests are not as good as my own kennel, not to mention that the place where I lived before is not even an iron nest!

After half a year, I'm going to go back to my old business.,Before, because of my mood problems.,I don't want to pass on my negative emotions to readers.,Of course, it's also because I don't want to see that ID anymore.,When I knew that person was Jiangxi Yan.,I just felt that this was fate.,But now it seems that even if it's fate.,It's only a bad fate.。 Suddenly thinking of that person, I still feel very painful in my heart, very uncomfortable, he actually said that to me, I only felt that I deserved it, but now that I think about it, this person is really ruthless, Jia Qi is the person he likes, am I not? Or is it me and Jia Qi, he likes Jia Qi more, or maybe, he doesn't like me at all, at least not as much as I thought!

Thinking of this possibility, my heart is still a lot darker, although I am open-minded, but some things still take time to smooth out, he is already in the past tense, although I may never have the present tense again! Come to think of it, this kind of thing is really hurtful, and I don't want to be hurt once. Alone, it's good! No worries, do whatever you want!

When I turned on the computer, there was no movement for half a day, well, I thought too much about it again! However, I really want to forget a very important thing, looking at the web page that I can't load, okay, there is no Internet! What a demoralizer for me! However, I'm really a little scared to face those readers, who have been with me for so long, and as a result, I just cut off without saying a word, and people who don't know will probably think that I am just some accident! But what does the breath that just came out of my heart mean, well, it's a blessing, this task will wait until the next year!

As a result, I went to set up an online network the next day, because it was so boring, well, I just looked for abuse by myself and wanted to go and see it. Log on to your account and look at those messages, the latest one is today, heart

It's hot, it turns out that there are so many people waiting for themselves, caring about themselves, how can they say that they don't have anything, how can they say that they are not lucky, what else is unfair about this, they are too paranoid! I only see what I have lost, but I ignore what I have.

There are hundreds of comments, it took a day, one by one, to reply, although the replies are basically the same, but I typed it word by word with emotion. In the end, I saw the name I was familiar with, I chose to ignore it, I didn't want to read what he wrote, I didn't dare to read it, at least not now, maybe when I can really face it calmly, I will read it!

Looking at his steamed white and chubby steamed buns, I feel very relieved that this afternoon's hard work has not been in vain! I prepared a lot of dishes for myself, after all, is it Chinese New Year's Eve, I don't want to be too cold to mix myself, although I really have no money this time, but I can't earn it back, I should use it, I don't want to treat myself at a loss in the future.

Turn on the TV, sit alone at the table, although it is Chinese New Year's Eve, but in the face of this table full of dishes, I secretly complain that I am really a waste, but the mood is also very good!

It's okay during the day, I'm busy and busy, and I don't have so much time and thought, but now I'm nested on the sofa, and I really don't have the heart to watch the show at all. Last year, I didn't have a mind because someone was by my side and my attention was on that person, but now, there is no one on the left and right, and I still don't have a mind. The reason, or that person! Obviously he is so gentle with me, obviously I can feel his liking, but why can he still say that sentence without hesitation! The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable it became.

This was the first time I had given up the habit of keeping the New Year, climbed into bed and completely wrapped myself in the quilt, as if I would feel much safer and warmer. It is also because of this that I can be unscrupulously uncomfortable and let my tears flow!

"This is the first time I've come to the cinema to watch a movie" Looking at the movie ticket in my hand, I couldn't help but be excited, as for the reason, it used to be because I had no money, and later, when my life was a little more comfortable, I felt bored, so that now I am in my twenties, but I don't even know where the door of the cinema is.

"It's the first time I've come here to see it" Jiangxi Yan's words came out, I felt a little surprised, he didn't have no money, why had he never come, and then he gave me the answer "Because there is no one to be with." Well, I didn't expect it to be because of this, but, that's true, there is no one who wants to be together, what's the point of coming and watching by yourself, it's better to watch it alone on the home computer without crowding, and you can adjust the speed at will!

However, Jiangxi Yan only said half of this, there was one sentence he didn't say to the person in front of him, he once had someone who wanted to watch a movie together, and he wanted to take her to watch a movie on the day they met, but that person suddenly had no news, so he never came. But now he has that thought, and the eye, again

The former man.

"Then let's go in quickly, it'll be time later" I pulled him to follow the flow of people and walked in, and then found his place, the first time I came, it was really novel, it felt different, I was curious, and even I deliberately leaned forward to see if I could hear what the little couple was saying, laughing so happily!

It's just that we really suffered a big loss for the first time, and the position we bought was too high! I thought that I could see and hear more clearly by being a little bit ahead. As a result, the screen is so large that you often can't see the right when you look at the left, and you can't see the left when you look at the right! In order to see a complete picture, I can only move my neck back and forth, and I can not feel tired because of novelty and excitement in a short time, but after a long time, after the novelty disappears, I really don't want to move my neck at all, I am so tired! No wonder the two people sitting in front of us didn't look at anything when they came here, but concentrated on chatting! Come to think of it, it's really a bit of a pit!

After coming out, "Don't come to see it again, my neck is going to be sore" I complained, but in fact, I was the only one with a sore neck, and that person gave up as early as halfway through it, only I felt that I couldn't waste the money for movie tickets in vain, and I kept insisting on it, and the result was naturally like this!

(End of chapter)