I don't know, I really don't know!

Do you want to try again? Do you want to try again?

The answer seems to be very clear, at this point, I'm still thinking about this, isn't it because I'm unwilling? Isn't it because I thought of it? Is there any need to ask questions?

No, there is no need to ask again, when I asked myself if I wanted to try it again, I had already made a choice at that time, and I was going to try again! I still want to see the final result, as long as I still exist, as long as I still breathe, this is not the end, since it is not the final ending, why should I give up!

In the past few months of decadence, I realized that this is not me, this huge change, not what I want, the future is still very long, I still have to move forward, let the past pass!

What's more, I found myself ignoring one thing, for so many days, I have only seen the horizontal groove, but what I have not seen is that I have worked so hard and also gained a lot of things.

I'm not the same person I used to be, I'm not in high school anymore, my heart has become more resilient, I've experienced life and death, and this broken love is not a big deal at all. I can still live a good life without him, although life may have shortcomings, but it can also be wonderful. It's like I didn't take the initiative to talk to others before, but I can joke with others later. In the past, I was alone, but in the end, I was able to travel with others, how can this not be said to be a change, how can it be said that it is not a harvest? Although that person played a big role in this, it was me, and I was the only one who made the decision.

I don't know how I suddenly figured it out, but maybe I remembered that sentence again, the one that inspired me to come out of the darkness and bring me into the light. At this moment, it is the same belief that has brought me out of the darkness again, and I believe that this time I can move towards a brighter future!

Maybe the front of this ditch will still be a horizontal ditch, but what about going further ahead? After climbing this mountain, what about going forward? One day, I will see what I want, and one day, I will be able to walk on the ordinary road!

I didn't dream all night, and the next day I woke up hungry! It's dawning, it's very bright, at least not like it used to be, maybe because my heart is also bright!

"Sister Liu, good morning, I came over early today to take a look, I finished eating everything I bought the day before yesterday" I smiled and greeted the vegetable stall owner I had frequented many times. This is the first time I have taken the initiative to speak to someone, and it is one of the few words I have spoken since I came here, and the first time must have been when I was looking for a house. It can be imagined what kind of surprised expression Sister Liu will have. Sure enough, listening to my words, she was stunned, her face full of disbelief and disbelief.

This man actually spoke, and said so much at once, "You, not dumb? Sister Liu accidentally said what was in her heart, and she was suddenly a little embarrassed, she actually said in front of others that they were dumb, she really lived in vain at such an age, can she ask in person? Sister Liu be careful

Yiyi looked at the face of the person in front of him, hoping that the other party would not be angry. After watching this person for a long time, he was still smiling, and he was relieved.

However, this relaxation, Sister Liu suddenly found that this person seemed to be a little different, but this difference has nothing to do with whether she can speak, she can feel that this person's spirit is obviously different, she doesn't know what this person was like before, but the impression of the first time she saw this person is obviously different, "Girl, you pick casually today, pick the one, Sister Liu, I will give it to you, don't want money, this young man, how can you get over the hurdle, it will pass, just figure it out, smile more, You look so good when you smile, but you're too skinny! ”

"Yes, it's all over, thank you, Sister Liu, but I can't take your things for nothing" I replied, there is really nothing that can't be passed, people, you still have to look forward, such a simple truth, but I have been entangled for so long, thinking about myself is also quite stupid. "However, Sister Liu, then you have to help me calculate a little cheaper today, this may be the last time I buy something from you, and in two days, I will go back."

In fact, I haven't figured out what I'm going to do next, but no matter what way I go, I believe I'm going to be able to do well. The future is very confused, but my heart is clear, this time I have become more tenacious than before, maybe it can't be called tenacity, but I feel more open-minded, more like a kind of free body, calmly watching myself come to the end, what kind of answer will I get, this is very important to me, I want to see, what kind of trajectory this fate has arranged for me, everything that happened, how it explains!

"Hey, okay, it's okay if you don't need money, girl, you can pick" Sister Liu smiled, she was very kind, which really gave me a lot of encouragement, but when I came out of the darkness, I felt the warmth and sunshine that could encourage me to continue to move forward. "But you're leaving, are you coming back? You don't look like a person in our small place, although our place is poor, but our environment is good, in the future, it is a good tourist attraction, you can also come to play more, when the time comes, Sister Liu will give you free food."

"Well, okay, thank you, Sister Liu" I replied with a smile, this is really a good tourist resort, the air is fresh, there is no haze, the vision is also excellent, you can see far away, you can see more clearly, and the mood is also a lot more relaxed. It turns out that I have missed so much in these days!

However, it is a good choice, travel, look around, walk around, you can always see more, see more thoroughly! But in front of me, there is a more important thing waiting for me to do, it's time to go back, not for anything else, but also for the grandmother who has hurt me for so many years and paid so much for me!

In the end, in this unknown town, I stayed for one more day, and after talking to the landlord about quitting the rent, I walked around the town and went to see a lot of the scenery I had missed before, but it was okay not to see it, and I regretted it even more when I saw it, this simple, not so much disturbing

, The quiet environment is really what I have been looking forward to, but I missed so much because of that little bit of love and love. I really want to stay here for a while, but I have no choice but to buy my tickets, let's go, next time, next time I will definitely come over to have a good look!

This time, I still chose the hard seat, not because I have no money, although I really have no income in the past six months, and the money is indeed not much, but the main reason is that I like the feeling that all the scenery is fleeting, leaning against the window, looking at the passing scenery outside, I just feel like I am in a quick memory, and the scenes are like a movie, rushing by. In what seems to us is a very short time, maybe it's a lifetime!

"Hey, sister, do you want to play cards with us?" The position next to me, is no longer the person I got in the car, back and forth I don't know how many changed, maybe a lifetime, we will also meet like this, but maybe the person who just sat down next to me can accompany me for a little longer, see that they are so well prepared, eating, drinking, and playing, it should be a little!

"Okay" I answered, in fact, there were four of them, there were a lot of people, and there was no need to call me at all, but they still said, I thought, maybe it was too boring for me to sit here alone, so they called me, of course, it was also because they were in a circle, and they only ignored me, the person sitting in the innermost, both me and they were a little embarrassed, so they opened their mouths.

Either way, I'm happy! Look, when you come out of that little dark room, there are still a lot of beautiful people and things in this world, and they are still worth looking forward to! "But I can only play one, and I don't know how to play anything else" I laughed very embarrassed, very embarrassed, I can't play, I really didn't agree to it, who is this a problem!

"It's okay, let's play the one you will" The girl who asked me before was very good-tempered, and she didn't say anything, and just made up her mind. Completely ignoring the person who was a little dissatisfied and depressed, of course, this person was depressed.

Naturally, I followed. When I saw the girl's face before, I thought about it, but as soon as this enthusiastic little beauty said it, I couldn't refuse, after all, this person was so accommodating to me, and it would be really hypocritical to refuse!

Then, I really played with the group of children, of course, children are a little inappropriate, but these four look like high school students, aren't they children to me! But the advantage of age, did not bring me any advantage, at least in the play of cards, I really can't, the card skills are too poor, by those children to play the flowers.

But fortunately, we didn't play anything too much, that is, my face was almost covered by a note, and only those two eyes were exposed, why only eyes were left, naturally because these two eyes were still useful.

Sneaking a glance at the girl who was a little unhappy before, she didn't have the unhappy look she had before, on the contrary

Yes, she smiled happily because she had the fewest notes on her face, which meant she won the most!

It's really the most carefree time, and sure enough, this is the look that high school students should have, sunny and pure, ignorant and obscure. The temper comes when it is said, but it also says it will go. If, I mean, if I were at this age, at least I wouldn't have to experience the darkness and cold of these months, and I would forget them in the blink of an eye. Of course, the main thing is that I want to go back to that day, the source that caused me pain, and change it all with my own hands. But now it seems to be good, I can see it, I have no desire and no desire, so it seems to be good.

In the process of communicating with them, I also had a general understanding of the situation of these people, these children, who were taking advantage of the winter vacation, when high school life was not so tense, came out to see and play, because all of them told them that they would not have time in the future, and they could not play, and they had to study hard!

Those people are right, it's time to study hard, and time is also very tight, but in fact, it's not that you can't play, there is still time, otherwise this best year is really only used to study, and that will be the biggest regret. If you don't use it to study, it will cause more regrets in your later life. This is really contradictory! At this moment, it suddenly occurred to me that I really still had a little bit of good luck, at least I didn't have too many entanglements in that most contradictory time, so let's count it!

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