"If anyone still asks me, have you ever been in love" • VI / 2016-03-01

2011.04.17--2011.07.02 During this time, I was like a mad dog, biting people everywhere, intimidating everywhere, mentioning A to hurt B, and at the same time pestering A with no face, then I never had contact with the high school teacher again, Teacher Yan said that there was good news to remember to tell her, but I was like that, I didn't have the face at all, and I didn't have much contact with my high school classmates, I didn't know how to tell others about my relationship with her.

2011.04.** I asked her what she said to her high school classmates, and she said that it was normal to break up in college.

2011.04.29 I asked her where she was going on May Day and wanted to accompany her, she said that her sister would come over, at that time, I thought she didn't want me to accompany her, but wanted to be with her sister, so I didn't reply.

2011.05.12 Due to the May Day incident, she didn't reply to text messages or answer the phone, at that time, I don't know why.

2011.05.13 I told her that I didn't want to live anymore, but she still didn't pay much attention to me, and I was still pestering her.

2011.05.14 I was carrying a school bag, which selected one or two of my diaries, and the hourglass that the class gave me on my freshman birthday, I went to her school to see her, I wrote braille on the side of the hourglass, I forgot what it was, I sat down in the pavilion next to the library and waited for her, she refused to see me, she asked a boy to come out and talk to me, I was very sad, no matter how she cried, she refused to come out to see me, so I brought some dry food, the man told me to go back to eat, when I left, I said that I put my luggage there first, The boy helped me get it, and I don't know if she ever opened my bag or what the man had to do with her.

2011.06..** I kept explaining to her that I had nothing to do with the girls in my class, nothing to do, but she still wouldn't see me.

2011.06..** I begged a girl in the class who often helps me as a passer-over to call her to help me say good things, but she still refuses to see me.

2011.06..** I called her and she asked her roommate to answer the phone, saying that she went out with her boyfriend and I was sad and sad.

2011.07.02 She refused to deal with me, I went to provoke A again, A said I was shameless, everyone made it clear, don't let me hate you!

2011.07.05 She took the initiative to chat with me, I replied a few words, then sent an email to completely drive her away, at that time, I hated her for abandoning me, I always thought that her sentence "let's be friends" is "let's break up" means, so on May Day she said her sister was coming, I didn't go.

2011.07.05--2011.07.19 I've been pestering A, at that time, I didn't want to believe that she already had a partner, at that time, I was very shameless.

2011.07.21 I was shocked to find out that D was the same person, I asked D, and D said, "Yes so what?" Isn't it? And then what? I thought I was out of love, I couldn't do "I don't go to hell, who goes to hell!" "With such a high realm, I also want to leave a way back for myself, so I didn't answer her positively, I'm really bad!

2011.08.** During that time, I thought I was in a broken relationship, and I told several of my college classmates about it.

2011.08.** When I was with B, D was a good friend who could say anything, and I told D about everything and ideas, although D said that I basically didn't understand what it meant, and then I had concerns and stopped contacting D much.

2011.08.** Entered the second club and met E.

2011.08.** I talked a lot about E, and I could talk about it, and I felt that I appreciated me, and I thought I could get in because of her promotion.