"If anyone still asks me, have you ever been in love" / 2016-03-01

2011.03.** I asked her how often I should call her, and she said she could call her when she missed her, and we had a lot of ridiculous conversations.

2011.03.** She said on the phone that it was because they didn't understand you.

2011.04.** I told her my QQ number and password, I don't know if she has logged in.

2011.04.** With her, although only occasional phone calls, she always asked me to speak, and she herself refused to speak, I asked her why she didn't say, she didn't tell me anything, she wasn't like this before, at that time, I didn't know that she just wanted to listen to me or didn't want me to hear her voice so that it would be easy to disguise.

2011.04.** I was too shy to call her in the dormitory, so my roommates didn't know, I usually went to the lawn in front of the school, or the square in front of it, and once she also came out to pick up the phone outside, I was very touched.

2011.04.** At that time, I felt that love was to make a vow to each other, and then keep it until forever, so I didn't stick to her everywhere, and sometimes I didn't chat with her on the Q line, but I still felt a little guilty in my heart.

2011.04.** I asked a lot of high school classmates about her past, such as personality and hobbies, etc., asked a lot of high school and college classmates about how to treat their girlfriends and other things, they all said very good and reasonable, I seem to know everything, but I can't understand.

2011.04.** I asked our beloved teacher Yan in high school about this aspect, and Mr. Yan said some things, and I seemed to know everything, but I couldn't understand it, and Mr. Yan was happy to say that there were any good things to tell them in the future.

2011.04.** In those days, I often went to the west of the first floor of the library to read books about love and make some excerpts, I copied and copied, as if I knew the meaning of the words in the book, but I could not understand it.

2011.04.** Once, on the phone with her, I talked about how it takes a lot of time to go to graduate school, and she is about to graduate, so let her wait, I feel uncomfortable, etc.; talked about how I was not as good as anyone in my original class, how I could get into the best school in the country, how I could ......; Talking about my younger brother, what is the situation at home, maybe I can't give her a good life, etc., that time I seemed to cry as I spoke, and I cried very sadly.

2011.04.** On the phone, she didn't want to talk much, I was a little worried, what if I didn't know what to say one day?

2011.04.** She cares a lot about many things for me, although I say that I am very confident, but I am still a little worried, what if her expectations of me are disappointed?

2011.04.17 She felt that the identity of her partner had given me too much burden, and proposed, let's still be friends, I don't know why, I really don't know why, and then I asked her, she said that she was in a classmate, at that time, I thought she might think that I was only with her out of sympathy, so she stopped loving me.

2011.04.** At that time, I thought that love was to give everything to each other.

2011.04.** At that time, I thought that love was everything, and everything was up to each other. Didn't Mr. Yi say that a family in which a strong man appropriately gives way to his wife will be happy, I am convinced, after all, I admire our Teacher Yi very much.

2011.04.** At that time, I thought that love was to fulfill all the expectations of the other party and meet all the wishes of the other party.