On the one hand, Hong Yan and I have a two-year relationship foundation, and I can't talk about how deep the relationship is, but Hong Yan treats me well after all, and we get along very well. At least we didn't betray during our time together. On the other hand, I admit that I still have a place for Shen Qian in my heart, and it is a position that she cannot shake or replace. She was sorry for our feelings, but she still had the grace to meet me. I can't imagine how much my life would have changed if I hadn't joined Zhongdao Law Firm. Maybe I'm still an obscure, inconspicuous little character, worrying about my livelihood every day, and living in poverty.

Such a dilemma made me suffer from my heart. When I hesitated, Shen Qian sent another message: Qin Yuan, I'm tired, I want to live a safe and stable life, do you still want me? The handwriting on the screen of my phone was very eye-catching in the dark room, and a few words touched my heart and made me constantly think back to the past moments. That's right, it's the words "safe and stable"!

(If you assume that you are Qin Yuan, and this line of words also touches your heartstrings, but it is not the four words that touch you, then it can only mean that your life experience is not rich enough.) ）

Although I am reluctant to face my relationship with Shen Qian, I must admit that I have never been able to let go of her, she is like a belief in my heart, or a belief. If a person has no faith, what is the difference between the spirit being withdrawn from the body and the walking dead?

Ten minutes later, I changed my clothes and drove the second-hand Jetta to my appointment. When I stepped into the hotel door and Shen Qian was wearing a gauzy pajamas, I knew that Hong Yan and I were completely finished.

The long-term loneliness ushered in our long-lost heartiness, and we were crazy to tear and entangle that night.

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After the passion, Shen Qian handed me a box of Chinese cigarettes and lit the fire for me personally. She said sincerely: "Qin Yuan, it's all over, we won't mention it again in the future, let's start again, okay?" ”

"Can you really get there?"

"Why not? I'll never talk about you and that girl again, and you won't ask about me again, okay? I couldn't see the slightest shame on her face, and she put on a gesture that she didn't think I was much better.

"Hong Yan and I are in a different situation from you." I said indignantly.

"What's the difference? Do you think I don't know about you and her? How many calls did I call you and how many WeChat messages did I send at that time? You're drunk, didn't I bring you back from the bar? Who cares about you? Yes? I don't owe you anything to you, Qin Yuan. "Her straightforward appearance was strange to me.

"Hong Yan and I are very pure, not as dirty and dirty as you think. And it was you who betrayed first, you have to bear the moral infamy, and I am only the victim. I am fundamentally different from you. ”

"Don't use your lawyer's rhetoric, don't you just want to say that you didn't go to bed? Lonely men and widows have been dating for so long, deceiving three-year-old children, who believes it? Qin Yuan, don't be cheap and behave. I'll just ask you, do you want to go to the middle way? Without me, can you enter the Middle Way? Shen Qian's words were very scoundrel, but they were full of righteous indignation.

I was dumbfounded for a while, and my shame told me that the matter between me and Hong Yan was not clear in front of Shen Qian's vulgar face. "Yes, I admit that I want to go to the middle way, but I want to move up through the normal channels, and I want to rely on my own ability and hard work to achieve success. I don't need you to sacrifice hue for a little bit of my achievement, I don't need it! "My long-suppressed depression ushered in a full-blown explosion, and I used my momentum to raise my fragile self-esteem.

"Qin Yuan, don't be naïve, okay? Your notion is long outdated. Nowadays, society has changed, people only care about whether you are successful or not, and no one cares what means you use. Those bureaucrats who climbed up by embezzlement and bribery, those businessmen who made a fortune by tax evasion, and those intellectual elites who relied on plagiarism and plagiarism to rise to power, their methods are known to many people. But once they climbed to high positions and gained fame, status, and money, they were just as respected and touted. They are just as superior and recognized by this society. There is no way, this is the reality, society is like this. The reality is that heroes are judged by success or failure, and the winners are kings and the losers are the villains. Whoever can achieve the goal is the winner, and no one cares about the means. Qin Yuan, you have to face reality! What Shen Qian said is sonorous and powerful, and every sentence is reasonable, and it is indeed the status quo and unknown ugly side of today's society. It can be said from Shen Qian's mouth, from the mouth of a girl who has just turned twenty-three, I can't accept it. I can't imagine what she has experienced this year that has given her such a deep understanding of life. Is this still the lively, cheerful, and scheming Shen Qian I know?

I kept my mouth shut, even though I didn't want to agree with her statements, but I was an ordinary person, and I couldn't fight against reality. Shen Qian saw that I didn't talk anymore, and turned back to a gentle tone: "I know that you men want to save face, it's all over, okay?" Never mention it again. As long as we still have love, we can still be together. Shen Qian stroked my cheeks, and her hands were firmly fixed: "Qin Yuan, I still love you." I still clearly remember the care you took for me in Ordos, the beautiful memories we had in Yunnan, and the kindness you treated me. From now on, we will be good and never make trouble again. You look at me, do you still love me? ”

The past is recalled, time has passed, and it is no longer a matter of things and people, and I can't help but moisten my eyes. I looked at Shen Qian, I didn't want to admit that I still loved her at the moment, I continued to smoke with my sideways eyes, and the clouds were entangled. Shen Qian reluctantly squeezed out a smile and stopped asking.

Early the next morning, before Hong Yan went to work, I was downstairs at her house to confess everything to her. Since I bought the car, most of the time I will pick her up downstairs from her to work, as usual. Hong Yan's mother stood in front of the window with a smile and watched her daughter get into the car before turning around. Hong Yan jumped up and down the co-pilot, took my arm and asked me where to eat early? I swallowed it back to my lips, and the happier she was, the more cruel I felt.

But this kind of thing is better than a short pain, and it must be courageous. I took a deep breath and escaped from Hong Yan's arm, sat upright and said, "Hong Yan, there is something I have to confess to you. Hong Yan sensed the seriousness of the situation, restrained her smile, and I continued: "I only know now the reason why I entered the middle way, it turns out that everything was handled by Shen Qian. I naively thought I was such a great character, but I was a joke. Oh (sneer), I owe Shen Qian a favor that I can't repay, and I don't deserve to be with you anymore. ”