This is Chiba calming down and writing a memoir about sex, and it is also a journey of sexuality's growth. The following is the first part.

Chiba recalled: During the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school, we participated in an English remedial class, and each person paid 60 yuan. We brought quilts from home. The rice seems to have been bought with money together, and the place to sleep was on the fourth floor of a newly built girls' dormitory, when the students all went back, we just spread the quilt and slept there, and the dormitory next to it was where the girls slept, and the coal stove, pot, and coal were borrowed from the teacher who went home. I cook there by myself, only some of them are brought from home when I come, some of them are bought when I go to the market, the things to eat and sleep are separated from the boys and girls, the classrooms are communal, many girls watch TV at the teacher's place after class during the day, that kind of romantic drama is very popular, sometimes we go there, watch TV, play cards and so on. Some of the closer ones do not have accommodation. In the beginning, there were more than 10 boys and 10 girls. It seems that it was about a month to make up, and there have been many changes in the living situation in the middle, and at that time the play was at the teacher who taught us, and it seems that there is a small house next to the teacher's house, and some of my classmates slept there, and I also played the tape recorder there.

Chiba recalled: Later, the girls in the dormitory next door to us seemed to disappear, and there were two girls living in the classroom under our building. I have a very vague impression, there have been a lot of changes in the whole make-up process of classmates and where they live and where they usually play, memory is like a dream, which place is vivid, it feels deeper, composed of a group of unconnected occasions, the middle is like a jump, how can it not be combined, jumping from one scene to another, what happened in the middle, some people, I don't remember, always intermittent, vague, just like suddenly waking up will forget who you are, don't know where you are, If you look at the light outside, you won't know if it's evening or early morning. A few students who were impressed by the impression were: Wu Fuxian, Liu Xingshi, Wu Tianming, Wu Lianhui, Old Chaoqi, Old Tianqu, Long Zhu, and a student who was no longer studying at that time or was one grade higher than us. Wait a minute, Wu Tianming seems to have moved to Muli in the third year of junior high school, and it is possible for me to merge people and events in different time periods into the same thing in the same time and space.

Chiba recalled: In the teacher's house where the two girls lived, there were a lot of books, and the old Chaoqi saw a book of that kind, forget it, let's put it bluntly, which color of the book, HH, not suitable for children. A thick book like a novel, which is not a magazine type, is full of that kind of story, and the book is made up of independent short stories. To tell the truth, I also watched some when they circulated it at that time, originally I was very introverted and introverted at that time, and after reading some of them, I felt more introverted, and they took it back to the dormitory after seeing it and continued to look at it, and after reading it, they deliberately did not put it back in the original place, but placed it in the most conspicuous place, the easiest place for the girls who lived there to see, they wanted the girls to read it, they couldn't help it, and then pulled them in to sleep together.

From his recollections, we can see that he was forced to come into contact.

Sex isn't the best thing, it's not the worst thing, but it's unique.

Sex is the source of human life and an integral part of life as a whole. Whether we are actively involved or not, they are part of our daily thoughts and emotions. It is rooted in our dreams, longings, fears, and frustrations.

For some people, sex controls them, and they spend most of their time and energy on it; For others, because of chance or personal choice, sex has no significant role in their lives. For most of us, however, sexual attractiveness depends on our inner needs and changes in external circumstances, sometimes strong and sometimes weak. At every level of life, sexuality manifests itself in different ways.

His memories keep going......