Why was the originally well-hidden state of mind suddenly caught by Shi Xiangnan?

He could see me through.

I care, I do care, but at this moment I just can't admit it, it's not that I'm more serious with myself, but that I refused so ruthlessly before, and I can't let myself lose face no matter what I say now.

I turned my head and tried to calm my heart down and looked at him: "You really feel good about yourself, I've always been like this, it's the same for everyone, I know that you have gum allergies, just like I know that Qiao Chenfeng is afraid of pollen, and Xiang Hao is afraid of eating kiwifruit, so it's that you think too much." ”

After that, his face was very ugly, but he ignored me and turned to wash.

I couldn't help but sigh in my heart, and in this mental battle, I almost exposed my heart.

How do I know what Xiang Hao is afraid of, what Qiao Chenfeng is afraid of, I just said it casually, but fortunately I deceived him, so I hooked the corners of my mouth and proudly took Mia out of the sleeping bag, and the two of us were lying on the dilapidated wooden bed, and I left the sleeping bag to Shi Xiangnan.

But as soon as I closed my eyes, I felt someone sitting on the edge of the bed, and I immediately sat up: "I left you that sleeping bag." ”

As a result, he didn't care, just took a towel and kept wiping his hair, and glanced at me inadvertently: "The wooden bed is so big, it can fit three people, not much more than me." ”

Of course I refused, I just wanted to push him away, but he relied on his own people to ignore my pushing, pulled the blanket on my body and lay down directly.

Although this bed seems to be not small, with a width of 1.8 meters, I think that no matter how much you live in the same room, you shouldn't live in the same bed without a bottom line.

I was a little angry and went south for this kind of scoundrel behavior, but he didn't think so, and didn't forget to make some open space for me to lie down.

I was about to yell, but he smiled at me with a 'shhh ”

"She doesn't have hearing aids, she can barely hear anything, Shi Xiangnan and my temper is like this, of course I was good-tempered when I loved you, but now you are doing these things that make me lose my temper."

On the other hand, Xiang Nan leaned against the wall with a smile, and my anger rushed up, but I still tried to talk to him calmly.

"Shi Xiangnan, I have already asked you to live in a room with me, the lonely men and widows have seen it, there is already a lot of gossip, do you think it is appropriate to sleep in the same bed Mia and wake up? In her eyes, her father and mother are a couple, and they are qualified to sleep in the same bed, but suddenly a strange uncle sleeps next to her mother, she will feel that her previous cognition is wrong, what will she think? ”

This time, he restrained his smile, sighed and said, "I sleep in a sleeping bag, and you sleep in a bed." ”

I watched him say nothing, took the towel in my hand and went straight into the sleeping bag, and turned his back to me.

I know that from the beginning of the encounter to the present, I have behaved a little cruelly, but only in this way can he slowly let go of me.

There have been countless nights, I will habitually close my eyes and miss him quietly, and this night I almost didn't sleep, closed my eyes and thought a lot, from me and him to meet, separate, meet again, get married, divorce until now.

I can be sure that I love this man, but at this moment I can't love without scruples like before, I have looked down on love, because I am afraid that sometimes when I look at him, my sister will inadvertently appear in my mind, and I can't wave it away, which is a huge obstacle.

In fact, many things have been premonited from the beginning, just like the fact that he wants to redeem me, there are too many interference factors from reality, and all the tosses in the future are just to delay the ending of the end, and it is destined to be separated again.

Just as I closed my eyes and was about to fall asleep, my face was rubbed by a pair of small hands, Mia was already awake, she stood on the edge of the bed and looked at me and pointed at the man in the sleeping bag, looking curious.

Seeing this, I sat up and told her, "Uncle can't find a companion, my mother knows him, and the environment here is chaotic, so I let my uncle come with us." ”

"Hot, hot" Mia patted her head and shouted twice, I was scared, for fear that Mia would get sick.

When I was in South Sudan before, I was afraid that she would be infected with diseases like Ebola and dengue fever because of fever, and it took her more than half a month to get rid of the fever, so I touched Mia's head with a heart, and it was okay, not hot.

Komia shook her head and pointed to the south: "Out, hot." ”

I understood what she meant, probably saying that my uncle was hot, and my newly fallen heart was hanging again at the moment, I walked up to him and touched his forehead with my hand, it was very hot, it was very hot, it was indeed a fever.

Then I pushed him: "Shi Xiangnan, wake up, you have a fever." ”

But no matter what I called him, he just closed his eyes tightly, frowned, and even had fine goosebumps on his arms.

He must have been chilling, and Mia quickly brought a blanket from the bed and covered him.

Fever in Africa is not a trivial matter, and in addition to worrying about what is happening in Mia, I am also worried about the situation in the south, so I immediately wanted to call the internist and laboratory doctor who went with me.

But just as he got up, his arm was suddenly grabbed by someone, and he only heard Shi Xiangnan muttering: "Don't go, don't leave me!" ”

"I'm not leaving, Shi Xiangnan, you let go of me, I'm going to go to the doctor for you to check it out."

But when Shi Xiangnan turned his body slowly, I saw that his face was flushed, and he even looked at me with a little misty eyes: "I won't let go of your hand until anything I say." ”

Seeing this, I pointed to the suitcase and asked Mia to bring the thermometer, and I measured Shi Xiangnan's temperature while patiently saying: "Shi Xiangnan, don't make trouble, the fever here is very serious, you need to seek medical attention in time, I will call the doctor to check you first, is it good to be obedient." ”

"You're the doctor, just look at me." He was so angry that he didn't have any strength at all.

I had to squat down, picked up the thermometer and looked at it, it was already 40.2, and I was in a hurry.

But he sat up slowly, hugged me, hugged me in his arms, and said in a faint hoarse voice: "I haven't hugged you for a long time, let me hug me, don't go, even if I have a fever and burn me, I won't let go." ”

I wanted to move, but I couldn't, and I felt the burning breath from his neck, and I knew he was burning hard.

Even through the thin clothes between each other, I could still feel the heat coming from him, and I was even more worried.

At this time, Mia ran out, I don't know if she would have thought anything when she saw such a scene, but I couldn't care so much and broke his hand with all my might, but before I could turn around, I heard a clang, and he fell to the ground.

I quickly lifted his head and leaned on my body, patted his face, and shouted anxiously: "Shi Xiangnan, wake up, can you hear my voice?" ”

But no matter how much I called him, he was indifferent, and in a hurry, I just wanted to give him CPR, when someone ran in.

Dr. Wu of the Department of Internal Medicine and Dr. Lin of the Gastroenterology Department saw Mia standing behind me, stretching out her little arms to hug me.

Just as they were examining Shi Xiangnan, he suddenly coughed and retched.

At this time, I was just about to run over, and Dr. Wu looked at me with a heavy expression: "Director He, I have checked, your friend's illness is suspected to be the initial symptoms of Ebola and dengue fever, the high fever is more than 40 degrees, there are countless small white spots in the throat, and it is accompanied by vomiting, muscle aches and other symptoms, which need to be further examined to rule out, in order to prevent it, you and Mia will also have to be taken to the CDC for isolation and observation, and if it is determined that your friend is, we will have to send it to the Ethiopian Infectious Disease Center." ”

In the past two years in Africa, I have been in contact with a lot of patients, large and small, and I have also caught up with two large-scale outbreaks of infectious diseases in Africa.

I couldn't bear it anymore, I didn't want to believe that he had this disease, I had only pulled him back from the hands of death two years ago, how could God take him away again at this moment.

I looked at the medical staff wearing protective clothing who came in from outside, carried Shi Xiangnan onto the stretcher, and was in a hurry, desperately ran to the stretcher to hold his hand, stroked his forehead, and tears couldn't stop flowing: "Brother Nan, it will be fine, believe me." ”

Shi Xiangnan began to cough non-stop, and in a voice that was weaker than just now, he threw me away with a mask: "He Anning, you stay away from me, the farther away the better, if you choose to hurt you to protect you, then I would rather hurt you." ”

Even though he chased me out with such expelling words, I knew he must be worried that I would be infected.

But I wanted to say something more to him, and he had already turned unconscious.

I tried my best to catch him, but a lot of paramedics stopped me, all of them were my own people, so Mia and I were pushed and put on isolation equipment, and then sent south to the isolation center.

The CDC here is not large, and the isolation area is not large, and each isolation room has glass so that you can see each other.

When Mia and I were sent to the isolation cell, I could see through the glass on the wall to the south.

The doctors in protective suits were busy with him, some drawing blood, some giving him infusions, some recording his temperature, and the only thing I could do was to stand in front of the glass with Mia in my arms and silently support him.

He could look at me through the glass when he was awake, gently raising the corners of his mouth, and I knew he was smiling, he was telling me that it was fine, followed by endless vomiting and coughing.

I looked at his bloodless face, and my heart throbbed badly at the moment.