I looked at him and couldn't help but feel a little nervous.

He swallowed his saliva and said, "I've only imagined this scene in my dreams." You finally told me that you actually loved me, but you didn't notice it right away. Although I didn't believe it, you were anxious to explain it to me...... You're finally scared of losing me. ”

I couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness and said, "I've always been scared. After saying that, he thought that he would definitely not believe it, and explained: "I am afraid of losing you, but I am also afraid that I will not be able to lose you. Either decision is a painful one for me. ”

For a while, I even thought, I might as well kill myself. But I still couldn't make this kind decision because I remembered what my mom said. If a man had a soul, she would hate me.

Li Yu hugged me and said, "Actually, what makes me angry is not revenge, in my opinion, this matter is understandable, you really have no better way to do it." ”

I asked, "That's?" ”

"It's you who don't love me and hide it from me. But that's okay now. When he said this, he sighed slightly, looking annoyed, "Actually, it's not your fault, if I were a mature person, you wouldn't be so insecure about me and choose to hide from me." ”

I was amazed when I heard him continue: "And, if a few years earlier, when my mother went to your orphanage to do charity, I chose to accompany her honestly instead of slipping away by myself, maybe I would have adopted you back." That way, at least you won't be a pervert bullying you, and you'll know ......" He stopped suddenly.

I sensed that this was an important remark, and I hurriedly asked, "What do you know?" ”

"Find a little bit to resolve the hatred in it." He opened his mouth with a hideous face, "Why do you have a big tongue?" ”

"Liar." I understood, "Actually, you want to say, and let me know that it wasn't your father who killed my family?" ”

He glanced at me quietly, "What do you say?" ”

"If I only had some vague feelings before I met Song Jiayan, I can basically be sure after meeting him." I said, "There were some doubts about this before, but I didn't think about it. ”

Li Yu asked, "What is the suspicion?" ”

"You and I are dating, you are married, your parents are informed, an orphan with a complicated experience is going to come to you, be your closest person, your parents will definitely investigate. Even if they forget, hate me, and love to meddle in our marriage, there is no reason why your sister should not care. I said, "I used to think that maybe it was because your father killed too many people to find out." But I've talked to your sister about Wu Jilang on some topics, and I found that I misunderstood the logic of your investigation, and your way of judging is not 'this person's past is unknown', but 'know this person's past in detail and make sure it is reliable'. ”

Li Yu laughed, touched my head, and said, "You've become smarter." ”

I didn't think it was funny at all, but my eyes couldn't help but sour, "I think it's too late, if I had known earlier, I wouldn't have hurt you like this." ”

"Don't think about it, I hope you regret it, but I don't want you to regret it endlessly." He wiped the tears from my face with his hand and said softly, "You can't give me happiness by living with me with guilt." ”

I took his hand in my face and asked, "Are you afraid I'll feel bad if you're hiding this?" ”

"I'm afraid you'll jump off the building." He said, "Isn't this what sustains you from regretting?" ”

My heart moved, I looked at him, and said, "I now finally understand that my previous evaluation of you was all wrong. ”

That naïve, narrow-minded, domineering, and selfish one is clearly me.

Li Yu shook his head and said, "Your evaluation of me before was not wrong, I am indeed so bad." I've always felt that everything around me has to go with me, so much so that I even have to possess my own sister. If I didn't die at your hands this time, I will definitely die at the hands of others in the future. ”

It's a really uncomfortable topic......

When Li Yu said this, he also glanced at me and said, "Since you sent me candy today, then I will also explain this matter to you." ”

I shook my head and said, "I think it's better to forget it, I don't like to hear about it." ”

"Let's talk about it, lest you keep remembering it." When he said this, his expression was a little strange, and he was silent for a long time before he whispered: "Actually, before you, I had never been in love, let alone thought about which woman I wanted to fall in love with. Because I think it's a hassle. ”

I watched him warily.

He smiled, stretched out his fingers, and scratched my nose, "What's your expression?" ”

I said, "Isn't it between you and your sister?" ”

"No, she was dating someone else at the time, and I didn't refuse other girls." He spoke slowly, with a tangled expression, "I just sensed that I wasn't a child, and she was in her early twenties. She was more beautiful and sexier than the girls around me. In addition, I knew that she was not biological since I was a child, and I began to have Xiao Xiang for her......" He said this, looked at me very unnaturally, and said, "It's really embarrassing to say this kind of thing." ”

I said, "I don't understand this." ”

He smiled, "There is a difference between men and women. ”

I asked, "Then did your sister just agree?" ”

"She never rejected me," he said, "and I had more strength than hers." ”

I asked, "Are you strong...... Target? ”

Li Yu didn't nod or shake his head, only said: "My sister is very pitiful, she already has memories when she was adopted, so she has always been very careful, because my parents have shown more preference for her, she has redoubled her love for me to make up for it." So she didn't want to do it at the time, but she didn't refuse me. ”

I said, "As much as I love you, I want to say that you are shameless." ”

He nodded.

I asked, "But how do you know she wasn't willing to do that?" I mean, did you guess, or did she tell you later? ”

"After that, she kept avoiding me, and I was very unhappy, and when I finally found her, she explained that she was hiding from me because although we were not related by blood, but outsiders didn't see it that way after all, and she didn't think it was good." Li Yu said: "I said that I would take her away, so I took her and ran away." ”

It's really not a happy plot......

But Li Yu didn't seem to notice my sadness, and continued: "But she called my dad behind her back and confessed, and we were arrested. You once asked me how I got the scar on my leg, and that was when my dad beat me up because of it, and he broke my leg. After my parents found out about it, my mom talked to my sister and asked her if she wanted to marry me, and she confessed that she didn't like me at all. Later, she went abroad, and she didn't come back until something happened with the surname Luo. ”

I couldn't help but say, "So you loved her......"

"Loved." He looked at me and said, "But it's not the kind of love you think." ”

I asked, "What do I imagine it to be?" ”

"You think I love her very much, and I was influenced by her when I chose you later." "Even using you as a stand-in," he said. ”

I nodded, I had just said all of this, and until this minute, I still can't shake off such thoughts.

"So, I think you're probably still not going to believe my explanation, but I should tell you anyway." He said: "That kind of love was not the kind of love that I later understood, and I didn't need love at that time. For me at that age, love and responsibility were things that were beyond consideration, and I just needed sex. I didn't want to know her heart, nor was I jealous of her boyfriend. After she went abroad, I quickly found a new woman. ”

I said, "I think you might be telling the truth, but I don't understand your logic." ”

He looked at me and didn't speak.

I thought he didn't understand, and explained, "Because Chi Fengmin is still thinking about me...... Maybe it's not love, but I don't want you to think about her all the time. Besides, I look so much like her. If it weren't for the fact that we looked alike, why would you notice me? ”

"I noticed you because my mom saw your post, and she said that you were really hard and wanted to donate to you, but because you didn't leave a donation account, she asked me to check it out." Li Yu said, "So I went." ”

I was surprised, "What about that one?" "I didn't receive a penny from him, and I paid for him to dinner.

"I've given it to the agency that takes care of your brother's medical expenses." He said.

My brother's medical bills were not paid in full by myself, in which case I would have been crushed and the charity would have helped pay part of it.

I don't remember much about this incident, but Li Yu wouldn't fool me with such a trivial matter that was not worth mentioning to him, so I only asked, "Why do you want to do this?" How nice it would be to put the money in my hands, and even if I can't afford to pay it back for a while, at least I'll thank you. ”

"Then you and I will be psychologically unequal," he said with a smile, "and I won't be able to chase you." ”

I asked, "So you still saw my face and started chasing me." ”

He shook his head: "You're not like her. At that time, she was like a pet cat that was well cared for, very beautiful and well-behaved, and my father always hoped that she could marry some politician, so he kept cultivating her in the direction of dignified and beautiful. ”

Seeing that my eyes were not good, he smiled and pinched my face again, and said, "But you are different, you are a wild cat, although you have a face similar to that of a domestic cat, but you look at people with very wary eyes, and your expression is cold, and you look like you are not easy to mess with." ”

I said, "According to your description, normal people like the first one, right?" ”

"That's what they think in their normal minds," he said, kissing me on the top of the head, "I'm just fascinated by your unruliness." ”

I muttered, "Your sister seems to fit your description right now......"

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