"What did you say?" At that moment, I felt like the air around me was being emptied. I couldn't breathe.

I felt all the blood rushing to my heart again, so my heart beat wildly. The rest of the place was cold because of the loss of blood, and even the fingertips were cold.

Shen Jingyun naturally wouldn't answer my question, but still said in a low and vague voice, "Don't leave this time." ”

Yes, I don't want to go, I want to stay with him all night. But the person he hopes for the most is not me.

I struggled to break free of his hand, and he let out a low cry in his sleep, and one rolled over to grab my hand again, only to remove the quilt and reveal his blood-stained shirt.

Looking at the bloodstains on his shirt, I was distressed and sad, but I couldn't believe any of his words.

Since you can't forget Lin Ruolan, why bother to provoke my feelings? I waited for three months, just for a promise from him, saying that he would sort out his mood in these three months, and then be with me simply and happily.

I didn't ask him to fix his mood, but he didn't have to lie to me like this when he came back. Tell me frankly, it's a thousand times better than cheating on me.

Looking at Shen Jingyun's side face, it still makes me so addicted, but it is difficult for me to face him with a calm mood. My heart was filled with the blood of sorrow, and then it was like being poked countless times by a sharp knife, making these sorrows flow wantonly, but I couldn't breathe in pain.

I can't take another second in this room, I don't want to see Shen Jingyun again.

I couldn't help but look at him and smile inexplicably, but the tears fell in large pieces, and I turned around and walked out of the room a little numb.

But I didn't want to go back to my room, I found that I couldn't even be under the same roof as Shen Jingyun.

I walked straight out of the house and found the river still playing in the yard.

Seeing me walk out of the house, Xiaohe raised his face and asked me innocently: "Sister Xiaoshuang, can't you sleep?" Where are you going? ”

yes, where am I going? I suddenly realized that the world was so big that I had nowhere to go.

But even if I have nowhere to go, I don't want to stay here anymore. Seeing Shen Jingyun's face makes me feel heartache, and I feel suffocated when I think of being under the same roof as him. I wanted to stay away from this person.

I even had a vague idea in my mind, but I wasn't quite sure about it.

So, I reluctantly squeezed out a smile at Xiaohe and said, "Yes, my sister can't sleep and wants to go out for a walk." You play here for a while, remember to go to bed, don't let Mom and Dad worry about it. ”

Xiaohe nodded obediently and said, "Then sister should come back quickly, don't be like last time, I won't be able to find you." ”

While speaking, Xiaohe scratched his head, smiled and said to me: "I didn't know anything last time, it was Brother Shen who woke me up, and as soon as I woke up, he asked me anxiously, where are you?" In those days, the people in the village were so fierce to my parents again, but fortunately, Brother Shen was there, and he beat away a few people who came to find trouble. Otherwise, our family will be taken away. ”

I wonder what happened in the days I was missing? Xiaohe's family endured some embarrassing situation, but presumably Helian Guang and Shen Xinglin didn't have time to take care of Xiaohe's family. Perhaps, they all stayed in the basement and didn't know about the so-called altar, otherwise the news of Shen Jingyun's appearance should have reached their ears a long time ago.

However, when I heard about Shen Jingyun and thought of him, I felt uncomfortable. I don't want to listen to it anymore and I don't want to speculate about what happened in those days.

Therefore, I could only reluctantly smile at Xiaohe and said, "It's true that Brother Shen is very powerful, right?" My sister went out for a walk. ”

After the conversation with Xiaohe, I walked out of Xiaohe's house.

At this time, it is not late at night, but the village is also very quiet.

Most of the life of a cultivator is in cultivation, and as I walked through the village, I felt confused one after another.

Even now, I have no clue where to go or where to spend this embarrassing night.

I just walked very casually, until I came to a relatively remote place, and I suddenly came back to my senses, how did I get here?

More than a month has passed, and there are still faint traces of the fire here. The pool where the water was drunk is still there. It's just that a few stones have fallen, and there is no spiritual spring flowing into that pool anymore, and it has long been blocked by people from the Shen family's side.

I saw the flat stone next to the fire, which Helian Cheng had specially asked me to sit on. Today, it is still in its original position, motionless.

I walked over and sat down on the rock.

Looking up, on a waning moon night, the sound of the river is still pleasant and cheerful.

I went back to those days in a trance, as if Helian Cheng would appear later, carrying a string of fish, smiling at me, and saying that he would let me try his craft.

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but cry out.

I really want to confide in Helian Cheng about all this, he will definitely comfort me very gently.

I thought of Nanfeng again, and she would definitely sneer and say, "Dead girl, I persuaded you not to be emotional to people like Shen Jingyun, you want moths to fight the fire!" Comfortable now, right? Forget it, don't think about being rich and handsome, isn't it good to find a male dick and spoil you like a queen? ”

I can almost imagine what kind of look Nanfeng will look like when he says these words.

The queen who is pampered by dicks? I thought about it, and I couldn't help but burst into tears and laugh, how can this be so graphic? It seems that I really saw a dick silk man, serving me tea and water, beating my shoulders and pinching my feet.

Actually, that's not bad.

It's just that weird love curse...... I held my chin up, I hadn't thought about it for a long time.

Suddenly, I don't blame Shen Jingyun anymore, I was originally a girl who couldn't fall in love. and Shen Jingyun, it is impossible to go smoothly. If there is no Lin Ruolan, there must also be Lin Ruoju and Lin Ruomei...... Why should I take it too seriously?

But even if I don't blame Shen Jingyun, it's hard for me to return to the same firmness I felt in the previous three months, waiting for him like faith, and it's hard for me to trust him anymore.

If you don't believe in someone, even if you like him, this relationship is destined to be a mirror. Love without trust is like a building without a foundation, which will always collapse.

Besides, I really don't want to stay with Shen Jingyun anymore. If you continue to be entangled like this, it will also hurt.

What he thinks deep down in his heart is Lin Ruolan, who will hurt me, and what is my existence to him? It's better to let him go and pursue Lin Ruolan again, it's better for him.

I had a vague decision before, and now I'm more and more sure.

I want to find the south wind, live a stable life with the south wind for a while, and then slowly try to return to the previous rhythm of life.

I don't know if I'm going to be in danger around me, but I haven't seen it since the crematorium incident.

Besides, Shen Jingyun has been busy for three months, didn't he say that it was not too dangerous?

And in Nanfeng's home, those things that can give me peace of mind...... Presumably, Nanfeng's father should also know some masters, right? By the way, I can still cultivate on my own......

The more I think about it, the more excited I get, the more feasible it becomes, and when my mind is full of things, the feeling of heartache decreases.

Just when I was thinking about it, the bamboo forest behind me came with a "rustling" sound.

I stood up vigilantly all of a sudden, and subconsciously picked up a stone in my hand, who would appear here in the middle of the night?

"Lin Xiaoshuang, you don't sleep well, what are you doing here?" A familiar voice came to my ears.

At the same time, a tall and slender figure walked out of the bamboo forest.

It was still the same black coat, and he didn't even have time to change his blood-stained shirt and slacks, and he appeared in this place.

When I saw him, I couldn't stop my peace of mind at first, and then, seeing his angry and anxious expression, I couldn't help but start to feel heartache.

I put down the stone in my hand and pretended to be relaxed and said, "I can't sleep at night, who has been tossed so many times, can still fall asleep without heart and lungs?" So I went out for a walk. ”

Shen Jingyun glanced at me, didn't speak, put his hands in the pockets of his coat, walked around here unhurriedly, then looked back at me and said, "What kind of place is this?" It felt as if someone had come to camp. ”

I don't know if it's intentional, so I blurted out: "This is the place where Helian Cheng and I used to stay, the last time Helian Cheng came to save me, he didn't want to live in the village, and I stayed here with him for a few nights." ”

Shen Jingyun stopped, the expression on his face had regained his calm, he looked at me deeply, and said, "In this place? You and him? How many nights? ”

I was inexplicably a little weak-hearted, but when I thought of him frowning and screaming in pain and helplessness on the bed, "Don't go, Ruolan", I felt a nameless fire in my heart.

Why did he ask me in such a tone? Thinking of this, the expression on my face became calm, and I said, "Don't be so dirty, okay?" Helian Cheng is very good, and we didn't do what you imagined. It's a pleasure to be with him, he cooks deliciously, talks with humor, and takes special care of me, why do you question me like that? ”

"Huh." Shen Jingyun didn't speak, but took out a cigarette and lit it.

In the moonlight, the smoke was thick, and his side face looked a little lonely.

I almost relented, but remembering my decision, I sat down as if nothing had happened.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly turned around and walked quickly in front of me: "So what? You're here in the middle of the night? Missed Helian Cheng? ”