I knew the man in the summer of seven years ago, and I became pregnant with his child in the winter of six years ago.

He was drunk that day, and he was staggering alone in the country ridge, and as I passed by him, he suddenly pounced on me, and I rolled with him into the muddy pond next to him.

I struggled to get up, and he kept shouting, don't go, don't go.

At that moment, I suddenly felt a sense of fate.

I work in a bar in a small town, to be precise, it is a Taiwanese girl who dances and sings in a bar, and it is just a façade saying that the price is high enough, and I can also break through the sea of swords.

But I've never heard anyone shout to me, don't go, even though it's not calling me.

I helped him home and skinned him clean.

looked at him carefully, with a scholarly face, but he was born with flying eyebrows and sideburns, and he was vigorous. A pair of hazy and drunken eyes, partial to peach blossoms, seem to sleep but not sleep, full of naivety. A straight eagle hooked nose, warm lips, and a hard chin.

He asked me, Who are you?

I said, "For your wife." ”

He laughed: "I, Mo Qian, will not marry in this life!" ”

"For whom is it so sad?" I asked.

"You don't understand, I just want to be brothers with him for the rest of my life! Drinking wine for a lifetime and singing songs for a lifetime, I am getting farther and farther away from him! He looked out the window at the night with his eyes wide open, and his unwilling look was too charming.

"Do you want a girl to be your brother, or are you so sad for a man?" I found it amusing, and I stroked his messy hair, which was thick and stiff and a little prickly to the touch. I kissed him softly on the lips, convinced that no man could resist a woman like me.

He pushed me away hard: "Don't touch me! ”

I won't touch you, you're not drunk and suffocated in the mud! What's more, you knocked me down first, you were so fast, you don't remember?

That night, I was in the bed with him, and he had no resistance to me. However, I was never able to get him to the last step.

However, he stayed with me for a while, and one day, without saying hello, he actually ran away.

The next time I saw him, he walked in with an older officer-like man, the officer was black-faced and thin, but also dignified, and I sang a song on the stage, and the whole house applauded, and even the officer flocked to me, but he actually ignored me.

The first time I made an exception, I didn't ask for a penny, and I wanted to spend the night with him, but he didn't agree!

I followed him, and saw him help the officer to a park, where I heard them drunken and singing.

The songs are old-fashioned, they are all red songs.

"The east is red, the sun is rising, and China has a Mao Zedong...

"The red glow flies in the west mountain at sunset, the soldiers return to the camp when they shoot targets, the red flowers on their chests welcome the colorful glow, and the happy singing is flying all over the sky. . . ."

I have never heard such a hearty and heroic singing, I have never heard such a bold mind. I walked in silently, and I sang whatever they sang. Mo Qian wanted me to go away, but the officer waved me and asked me to stay, and he said that I sang very well.

That night, I sang with them all night, and the moon went from west to east, and the brightest star in the sky rose, and when the sky was bright, the officer's wine also woke up.

"Mo Qian, it doesn't have much interest to follow Chen Pai, it's better to go with Lin Pai!" The officer shouted.

"Chen Pai is kind to me." Mo Qian said.

"Why don't I know?" The officer asked.

"At that time, you were sent out on a mission. Besides, Lin Pai refused to ask me, and I was transferred by him many times... ”

"That's to train you, and I've been transferred many times." said the officer.

"Then you go and tell Lin Pai to transfer me back, as long as he can agree, I will definitely not go to Chen Pai again." Mo Qian said.

The two discussed it like this, grabbed their shoulders, and walked back with a hangover. Mo Qian has no conscience, and he doesn't care about my girl's family to accompany him all night, or the officer, and said to send me back first.

I was relieved to let them take me to my house, and then one of my sisters said very unruly, "You just want that Mo Qian to do you, right?" I think the other officer is very powerful, and it's not bad! ”

Later, I learned that his brother's name was Hongxuan.

Although I don't read much, I have heard the names of several ancients, such as: Hongli, but even if I worship money, I will not take a fancy to him, I like the man who shouted at me that night, I don't want to leave.

Later, I heard that Hongxuan did not persuade any Lin Pai to transfer Mo Qian to work together.

Mo Qian didn't react at all.

He is like a Tang monk, facing beautiful women, sitting still, and facing the loss of the most desired position, it seems that nothing happened. Does this man have joys, sorrows, or sorrows?

But no matter what, Mo Qian has developed a habit that once he is in a bad mood, he will come to me to listen to songs and drink, although his consumption is very small, I am also very happy. He drank, I accompanied him, he had no money, I paid the bill, he was drunk, I pushed away all entertainment and helped him to my room.

Late one night, Mo Qian was drunk again, and seeing that he was walking a little crookedly, I helped him out of the door and was stopped by a regular customer. He's a street bully, and I kept apologizing to him, hoping for his forgiveness, but he was unmoved and insisted that I stay with him tonight. Mo Qian staggered, suddenly became angry, grabbed the man and beat him. Mo Qian and an ordinary person are not a problem, after all, he was born in the army, and when he meets a bully who fights and fights all year round, he is not an opponent, he was beaten by the other party and broke his blood, if I didn't call the police, I don't know what would have happened.

After Mo Qian was injured, he didn't dare to go back to the countryside, so he asked me to call his Chen Pai to ask for leave. That Chen Pai seems to have a good temper, let me take care of Mo Qian, so I won't mention it. Mo Qian stayed with me to recuperate, but he seemed to be very aggressive by nature, obsessed with the bully, and so angry that he almost came to his senses.

As for him, it wasn't because he lost his mind that he went to fight, but because he had our first time.

There is a first, and there is a second.

Mo Qian officially became my boyfriend, and for him, I also quit my job at the bar, which was a well-paid job, and I had to go there because I had to take care of my father, who was seriously ill. I changed to another bar, but I really sold my body instead of selling my body, if I sold my body, I would only sell it to Mo Qian, for free.

Mo Qian seems to be getting richer and richer, and he is getting more and more vigorous. It didn't take long for him to find a group of people and teach the bullies on the street a hard lesson, and I heard that he was beaten so that he didn't dare to come out again, and for a while everyone on our street was praised, and then I heard that the bully was unarmed by someone, and I felt creepy. But I see Mo Qian's peaceful appearance, white and pure, not like a bad guy at all, he is not short-sighted, but a little astigmatism, so he often wears a pair of glasses, with a silver frame, wearing more Sven, Mo Qian likes to read books when he has nothing to do, like "Thick Black Studies", "Caigen Tan", "Villain Dezhi" and other books. He doesn't look like a villain, he laughs heartily, although he has been a soldier, he doesn't look like a soldier at all, he looks gentle and elegant, I really, like it, I don't believe it, but he did such a vicious thing.

Anyway, he's for me.

I was relieved.

Mo Qian helped me buy a house and send my father away, but he also became more and more fierce, drank more and more, and became more and more short-tempered.

The first time I got pregnant, I was kicked in the stomach by him and had a miscarriage. It was a three-month-old child! Me and Mo Qian's child! Just because I accidentally scratched the silver edge of his glasses, he was angry, he was irritable, and I complained a few words.

Mo Qian was sad, I could see it. At that time, I also thought, is he sorry for me, or is it for our children? But later, too far away, I realized that he was sad only because he thought he had betrayed someone.

After that, I lived carefully, I only knew that as long as I didn't mention Hongxuan as a person, as long as I didn't touch that pair of glasses, as long as I didn't want him when he didn't like it, I could stay by his side with peace of mind. I'm scared, but I'm happy.

My second pregnancy was and I was careful to keep an eye on my body changes, and it was detected in two months.

At that time, it was a very shameful thing to get pregnant before marriage, and I wanted to take advantage of this time to tie the knot.

Mo Qian and I proposed to get married.

Originally, he should have mentioned it, and he should have brought the dowry to my house and married me in style. But even though I was pregnant with this child, he still didn't want to marry me. On the contrary, he didn't want the child!

He said that he was still young and that carrying children was a bit of a burden.

He said I was still young, and he said I didn't deserve to do this for him.

He offered to break up, only saying that he didn't love me anymore.

I do know that he doesn't love me anymore, but why did he keep me with him for so much a year? When he is warm, when he has a good temperament, he is so good to me, and so good to my family, why is this?

I'm not reconciled! Even if he doesn't love me anymore, I still want this child. I heard that a child can keep his father's hurried departure, and I hope that my child can also help me keep his father.

That day, he suddenly became lingering and warm, but he added abortion pills to the water handed to me.

Fortunately, he was not familiar with pharmacology, and the abortion pill was of inferior quality, and I had abdominal pain in the hospital for three days, but in the end I was able to save the baby.

I began to wonder if he still had a little affection for me.

The answer soon became known.

He didn't come to visit me in the hospital for a minute, he went to the countryside to attend the wedding of his brother, Hongxuan! I heard that after the wedding, he cried and got drunk! I even heard a friend of mine say that Mo Qian's glasses were given to him by Hongxuan!

I lost a child because of my glasses being scratched, and I almost lost another child because of Hongxuan's wedding! Everything about Hongxuan and Mo Qian appeared vividly in front of my eyes, and I, in a few pieces of waste paper accidentally left by Mo Qian, saw his thoughts - Hongxuan, brother, do you know that the sea was once difficult to water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud!

Such a poetic sentence, he never said to me! Even, I love you, three words, he didn't say to me! I suddenly realized that for more than a year, everything was just a lie!

Shocking joke! I can't believe that the man I love so much, but the man he admires in his heart is another man! I want to send the letter to Hongxuan, so that he can see what kind of obscene thoughts his brother and his friend have for him! And I've always been just a tool for him to vent when he has desires! But I'm afraid, I'm afraid of being caught by Mo Qian...

I chose to escape, and before Mo Qian heard that I had failed to have an abortion and rushed to the hospital, I was helped by Zhang Jianli from the same village.

fled far away and went to the most remote mountain village in Tianfu Township.

I didn't expect Mo Qian's net to be able to spread far away at that time, but at least every country man, he had his own eyes and ears. Later, Zhang Chengli told me that he was actually Mo Qian's subordinate, and in order to send his younger brother to school, he signed a contract with Mo Qian and did something that was unconscionable.

In order to let me give birth safely, Zhang Chengli arranged for me to be at his house. In my hometown, Mo Qian's eyes and ears were only Zhang Chengli, so Mo Qian searched all the towns and villages near Tianfu Township, but he didn't find my hiding place.

It's just that when I gave birth to my daughter, I was still caught by him, and when he appeared in the hospital, he was going to forcibly rob his relatives, if it wasn't for Zhang Chengli to secretly call the police, presumably even if it was a newborn child, it would be snatched away by him, and life and death were unpredictable. With the help of Zhang Chengli, I took the baby, my child, who had just been born for a few days, and ran far away. It wasn't until more than a year later that I returned to another township, where Zhang Jianli already had the ability to arrange for me.

I lived tremblingly for five years under Mo Qian's nose.

The establishment was very good to me, food, clothing, shelter, transportation, and good care, but he didn't dare to fly away with me, because he joined a small organization of Mo Qian, did a lot of bad things, had a criminal record, and his younger brother and family were under Mo Qian's control. It was only then that I realized that Mo Qian was terrifying!

I hate him! I have been played with by him for so long, because I took his abortion pill, after giving birth to my daughter, my body is very weak, no matter how I take care of me, it will be difficult for me to recuperate, and I will not be able to recover.

Seeing that my body is getting worse day by day, Seeing that my mother is about to pass away, my only daughter, An An, my mother hopes that she can treat you well and raise you after she is established. You inherited your mother's singing voice, and maybe you can become a little star in the future.

I wish that my beloved daughter will be safe and sound, from now on your surname is Zhang, your name is An'an, you must always remember.

When you are an adult at the age of eighteen, the establishment will hand you this letter of mine.

Mom is very reluctant to you, don't hate Mom, Mom loves you...