I don't know why, this kind of Shen Jingyun just aroused my distress again.

But I can't change my decision.

Once, I planned to hide the fact that he shouted Lin Ruolan's name in his dream for the rest of my life, and I felt that since I had decided to leave, why should I tear that wound and make it look bloody?

Moreover, it's just a person who suffers, and I don't want Shen Jingyun to feel guilty because of this.

It's not that I'm great, it's that the thought of how guilty he is for me makes me even more sarcastic.

But today, when he asked, I decided something.

And Lin Ruolan also appeared, it seems that she still has affection for Shen Jingyun, so what does it matter if you spread things out?

Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, looked up at Shen Jingyun and said, "Do you really need an explanation from me?" ”

Shen Jingyun was a little irritable, took out a cigarette from his coat pocket and lit it, took a deep breath, then looked at me and said, "Do you still think that you don't need to give me an explanation for such childish behavior?" And, are you stupid? Don't you know how dangerous it is for you to run out like this? ”

Is this his concern? But I don't need it anymore. As Nanfeng said, concern is not verbal, if he was really worried and anxious, he should have appeared a long time ago, instead of waiting until now to blame me for running out.

I won't be moved anymore. Looking at Shen Jingyun frowning slightly, smoking a cigarette, this is also what I used to indulge in, but now my heart is as cold as ice, I smiled lightly, I didn't want to look embarrassed, and then silently clenched my fingers in my pocket, and then pretended to be calm and said: "The reason why I left is to be fulfilled, is this answer enough?" ”

"What have you accomplished?" Shen Jingyun turned his head to look at me, his eyes were already slightly narrowed, and his eyes seemed more profound.

Only I know that this is a precursor to a complete outburst of his life.

It could be calm, or it could be stormy, and I used to be a little scared because I was afraid of his emotions, but now I don't feel it at all.

I didn't look him in the eyes, just looked at the flowing water and the swimming fish under the porch and said, "What do you say? Seeing you shouting in your dream that Lin Ruolan don't leave me, and then pretending not to know with a dead face, continue to stay by your side? It is better to fulfill you, and now it seems that my fulfillment and exodus are not completely ineffective, do you say? ”

After speaking, I turned around and looked at Shen Jingyun with a smile.

I suddenly wanted to cry, but fortunately at this moment I controlled my emotions to death, and my eyes were just dry.

Shen Jingyun was originally holding a cigarette and was about to take another puff, but when he heard me say this, his face changed suddenly, and his hand stopped in mid-air. His throat moved up and down, obviously wanting to say something, but he didn't expect this answer, so the words that were about to explode choked in his throat, and he couldn't say anything.

I felt that I was very cruel, at this time, I stubbornly didn't give Shen Jingyun the steps, just looked at him quietly.

Actually, I'd love to hear what he has to say? I really want to give myself an explanation for my insistence in the village next to the Shen family, which makes me feel reasonable in my heart.

"You," Shen Jingyun said with difficulty, snuffed out the cigarette even more irritably, and then pulled his collar fiercely, and said, "You mean it really?" ”

"Huh." At this moment, my heart was as cold as iron, and he still didn't believe it? That's what he told me.

I smiled sweetly, looked at him, but said coldly, "No, I'm joking." ”

After saying this, I turned around and left, and at the moment I turned around, I originally told myself that I would not shed tears, but in the end I still flowed out of my anger.

Forget it, this is the final result, I didn't want to tear this wound in the first place. But when I tore it apart with some luck, it was still so painful, and there was no soothing.

My steps are getting faster and faster, and I really want to stay away from Shen Jingyun.

As a result, just as I was about to step out of the next garden, I felt a gentle bump on my back, and then a pair of arms wrapped around me from behind, at first hesitating, then tightening hard. I looked at the drifting snow in front of me, and there was no trace of emotion in my heart, in fact, I was stupid, from the time he appeared with Lin Ruolan, what else was there to explain between us? I suddenly didn't even want to shed tears, this is the realization of hindsight.

With a sinking shoulder, Shen Jingyun's chin rested on mine, and his voice was full of helplessness and pain: "Xiaoshuang, I don't know how to explain?" I dreamed ...... I......! However, I would like to say that when leaving the village, I asked you to wait for me, and every word was sincere. ”

I quietly wiped away my tears, and then spoke: "I really don't doubt your sincerity, if you even deny it, doesn't it seem that I am more stupid to be offended in the Shen family village?" It's just that your sincerity is worthless, so you gave it to me and Lin Ruolan. It's a real thing, there can't be much at all, just like a unique product can be valuable. Once it becomes a pair, it will immediately plummet in value. Shen Dagongzi, as the CEO of a company, don't you understand the basic knowledge of this kind of sales? ”

Shen Jingyun didn't speak, just hugged me silently.

I smiled weakly, and then tried hard to break free, but Shen Jingyun didn't let go, he said in my ear word by word: "Can't you give me some time to sort out my feelings?" Between me and Lin Ruolan...... Sorry, that's some very trivial story. I don't want to go and talk nonsense about it now. I just want to tell you that I once thought that Lin Ruolan was unshakable in my life, and from the first time I saw her, I felt that she should fit with me, and there was something that I couldn't explain connecting me and her. However, from the first time I saw you, to be more precise, when I saw you when I was a child, you left a deep impression on me. ”

"At that time, I was only a teenager, and I didn't understand feelings. What you leave behind cannot be called love or heart. However, I can't tell. When I met Lin Ruolan, I can only say that I felt the same familiarity, and at that time, I already knew what it was like to be tempted? Later, when I met you again, although I doubted my emotions and had great obstacles in my heart, because I was not qualified to like your obstacles. However, many times, I am still confused in action, such as stubbornly keeping you by my side, using a lot of excuses to live with you. ”

"These ...... I used to think that it was because I saw you and thought of Lin Ruolan, which was unfair to you. You know, there's a resemblance between you and her that you can't always say. If it's really because of the substitution, wouldn't it be irresponsible for what I promised you, and besides, I'm not qualified. Later, I really couldn't help it. ”

While speaking, Shen Jingyun suddenly forcibly pulled my body and looked at me deeply: "I can't help the impulse in my heart, I want you, I want you in my life." ”

Saying that, Shen Jingyun sighed with a look of frustration: "Do you know? I've never said this to a girl, even Lin Ruolan, I haven't done this. Although I can't explain why I call her that in my dreams? ”

Shen Jingyun's confession, if my mood does not fluctuate at all, it is impossible.

However, my palms were full of cold sweat, and I looked at Shen Jingyun and said, "But there is only one feeling." Yes, you've said those things to me now. What about Lin Ruolan? How are you going to deal with her? Okay, why don't you take my hand now, walk in front of Lin Ruolan, and tell her, you like me completely and wholeheartedly, have you done it? ”

Actually, I'm not forcing Shen Jingyun, I'm just forcing myself.

This kind of person who has a new love and does not forget his old love is the most torturous. Otherwise, give me a simple break, or give Lin Ruolan a simple break.

A trace of confusion and hesitation flashed in Shen Jingyun's eyes.

At this moment, I was completely disappointed, if he was really so affectionate, why hesitate? I am not a woman in ancient times, I can tolerate you really love this, and pity that, and let you have three wives and four concubines.

If you can't make a decision, I'll help you do it.

Thinking of this, I felt relaxed, and the numbness in my heart was also ignored by me. I didn't bother to think about what kind of feelings it was, I just desperately thought about my persistence in Shenjia Village. At least in this relationship, I am worthy of Shen Jingyun, worthy of myself, I am in pain, I am crazy, even if I am sad to death, I don't want to have anything to do with Shen Jingyun anymore.

Therefore, I smiled, smiled very sincerely, very easily, I deliberately looked at Shen Jingyun with pity, held his hand around my waist with my hand, and then gently took it down: "Fortunately, you didn't answer me, if you really want to do that, I don't know what to do?" ”

Shen Jingyun raised his head all of a sudden, looking at me puzzled and painful.

"Yes, I am unwilling to be you, think about my insistence on being for you in Shenjia Village, but in the end you called others. But that's about it. Do you know? When I was at my worst, there was a man who came to me like a hero, who took care of me, and even went down to the river to catch fish for me in winter, and went to the fields to find food, just to cook for me. It's really delicious. Every day I wake up and see his smile, but he doesn't ask anything of me. ”

Shen Jingyun grabbed my hand and suddenly forced, and he looked at me angrily.

I looked at him apologetically: "He's very warm." I found that in the past few days since I left you, I have been thinking about him the most. I don't like you anymore, Mr. Shen. ”