Since this date, I feel like I've grown, completed an important milestone in my life, and started to envision a new path in life. In the past, Dick Silk lived a carefree life, but once you have a sweetheart, you will think about more things, because you are not one person anymore, you are two people, and you may have children in the future, all of whom need you to take on the heavy responsibilities of life.

However, I was too young to understand the true meaning of life.

An important reality of life is that people are mainly here to suffer, suffering is the staple food, happiness is just a seasoning, and even the son who has been reincarnated as the richest man cannot avoid it. His father didn't give him much money when he was studying abroad, causing his girlfriend at the time to leave him and marry a wealthy middle-aged uncle. When he is rich, he can no longer feel the love of other women, because he cannot distinguish whether they love him or love his money.

People always avoid suffering and seek happiness, but they don't understand the true meaning of suffering, and I will use my painful experience to tell you where the true meaning of suffering is as a human being.

At this point, you already know that the happy period of my life is over, and that endless suffering is next.

The day after my date, I came home from work and couldn't fall asleep anymore as I lay in bed and reminisced about the details of my date.

I closed my eyes and curled up under the covers, and swore secretly:

"I must make her happy!"

"How much do you love her?" asked another voice in my head.

"All love, all the love of the universe, give it to her!"

"It's not enough. ”

"I could die for her!"

"That's pretty much it, what else?"

"If I can be with her, I will not hesitate to destroy the world!"

"Oh~~~~!, it seems that you really love her. ”

"Yes, no one loves her more than I do. ”

After thinking about it, I finally fell asleep in a daze.

When I got up in a daze, I found that it was almost time to go to work, so I immediately jumped up to get dressed, wash my face and brush my teeth. The house I rented was a two-bedroom apartment, I slept with Ah Chao, and the other room was where one of my college classmates, Xiao Fang, lived with his girlfriend, and we shared the rent. Because I don't have the same schedule as theirs, when I wake up and go to work, they're all already back from work.

"Ah Zi, the rice cooker is still hot, and the dishes are still there, do you want to eat before leaving?"

"It's too late today, it's almost late, I'm leaving!"

"Oh, okay. ”

Since I went to work at the Internet café, I bought a second-hand bicycle and pedaled it every day to and from work, and I live about 20 minutes away from the Internet café.

After arriving at the Internet café, another network manager was still there, he was a college student who was still in the internship period, named Xiaoyu, a native of Jiangxi, who was white and short.

"I'm sorry, I'm late today. I greeted him as I walked in.

"It's okay, Brother Zi. He stopped the game he was playing, turned back to me and asked, "I heard Uncle Wang say that you went on a date with a beautiful woman yesterday?"

At this time, a few customers who were surfing the Internet next to me actually turned around to look at me, which made me very embarrassed.

"No, that's my former classmate, just looking for something about me. "I don't want to talk to him about feelings because I think it's a human affair.

"Hey, hey~!" the kid laughed wickedly, "Then I'll go, Brother Zi!"

"Okay, let's go back quickly!"

After he left, I sat down in the exclusive seat of the network administrator he was sitting on and opened QQ, and found that her Athena avatar was flashing.

A little surprise rippled through my heart.

I clicked on her profile picture and found that she had sent me a long, long message, and suddenly I had a bad feeling, and I settled down to take a closer look.

"Hello, Wu Zi.

Thank you very much for taking the time to walk with me by the West Lake yesterday, leaving one of the best memories of my life, and I will always remember you in my life.

You weren't my first love, but you were very, very similar to the person I had my first love, and I felt like I was with him again when I was with you. I'm really sorry, I can't tell if it was you or him when I was with you yesterday, but when you hugged me and kissed me, I really thought of him again, and it was very unfair to you.

You have a good personality and are very handsome, but the person I fell in love with for the first time was not very good, very authoritarian, and lost his temper with me all day long, but I think he is still the one I really love in my heart. You're so handsome, there will definitely be a lot of girls who like you. When your true love comes, be sure to seize the opportunity!

I'm about to graduate, I'm going home next week, the end of the world is vast, we should never meet again in this life, I feel very sad when I think of this, why does fate arrange for you to meet me.

It's all my selfishness, it's all my fault.

I hope you can forgive me!

Are you free tomorrow?

I want to treat you to a meal before leaving, as a farewell.

If you're angry and don't want to see me again, I don't blame you.

If you want to come, wait for me tomorrow at 11 noon at Romez Pizza Steakhouse, diagonally across from our school. ”

After reading the message, my heart felt like a pile of boulders, so depressed that I couldn't breathe, the whole person was completely stunned, my thinking stopped, and I wanted to read the content of the message again, but the structure between the words and sentences was vague and could no longer be understood.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and spit it out.

"She should still love me, otherwise why would she want to see me?"

"Everyone has a first love, that's the first time a child has a relationship, what's it?"

"She must have something to worry about!"

The next day I went to the shop on time, and she was waiting for me in front of the store before me, and she smiled when she saw me, but her face was very pale, and her cheeks were not as pink as they used to be.

"What do you like to eat, today I invite you. "I spoke first.

"Let's go up and talk about it. ”

The two of us went upstairs, there were not many people above, we found a corner by the window and sat down, and a waiter came over to order for us.

"What would you like to eat?" I asked her.

"You order first, I can do whatever I want. ”

I looked at the menu, and because it was a cheap western restaurant, the price was not expensive, so I ordered myself a sirloin steak, a snowflake steak for her, and a small pizza.

"What would you like to drink, there is freshly squeezed juice here. I showed her the drinks on the menu, she pointed to apples and pears, and then the waiter left.

Then I looked at her eyes, looking at me with great pity, and there was a trace of indescribable sadness, a picture that I will never forget.

Looking at her like this, the suppressed sadness in my heart also began to surge, from my chest to the upward surge, and when it rose to the nasal cavity, I finally couldn't help it, my nose became very, very sour, and large tears fell down the empty plate. I was afraid of losing my temper too much, so I immediately covered my face with my hands, but I couldn't stop sobbing.

"Well, don't be too sad. "She reached out and touched my head to soothe me.

After a while, my emotions slowly calmed down, and I wiped away my tears with my hands, and found that she also had tears in her eyes.

"I don't mind if you have a first love, I've had a first love before. ”

"Well, first love is wonderful, but I didn't leave you for that reason. ”

"Why?"

"There's no way he's going to get back together. ”

"Then why did you leave me, I can go with you, I don't mind that you still love him in your heart. ”

"No, I can't. She looked at me meaningfully.

"Why, can you tell me why?"

She just looked at me like that, maybe thinking about things, but I couldn't figure out why she had abandoned me.

After a long while, she spoke: "My mother is a very snobbish person, and she will never accept you." ”

When I heard this reason, my heart instantly became like ashes.

Yes, what qualifications do I have to fall in love, there is no poorer person in the world, a person who can barely support himself, who is so fucking self-defeating, who is so fucking stupid! It's fucking too naïve!!!!

There is no more stupid person in the world than me, and I am silent when I understand this.

The waiters finished serving the dishes one after another, but I didn't move.

"You eat some, it'll be cold in a while. "She felt a little sorry for me.

"I'm not hungry. ”

She may have regretted saying that sentence a little earlier, and came to comfort me again: "I swear that I will never fall in love with anyone else again in my life, my first love is no longer there, only you are still in my heart." ”

To be honest, I didn't believe what she said, it must have been just to comfort me, but there was a glimmer of hope in my dead heart.

I looked up at her, and she was smiling at me, like an older sister encouraging her frustrated little brother.

"Eat. ”

"Hmm. "I didn't think much about it anymore, and started to cut the steak in front of me with a knife, to be honest, this is the first time I have eaten steak, but fortunately I learned to cut meat with a knife, not as difficult as foreigners to learn to hold chopsticks, otherwise I will lose face again."

After finishing the meal, when I left, she took my arm and walked down the stairs and down the street like a couple in love, and many people on the other side couldn't help but look at us.

I had the illusion again for a while, as if the broken love had long since left me, and I was back in love with two people.

It was only a hundred meters from the store to the school gate, but it seemed like a whole century, and I knew in my heart that when we got to the school gate, we would go our separate ways and never see each other again.

"Would you like to come and sit in our school for a while?" she asked me as I walked to the school gate.

I knew it was just her sympathy for me, so I pretended to be happy and said, "No, I still have to go to work!"

So both of them pretended to be happy, waved their hands, and Bye Bye.

I walked past a stereo store next to the school, listened to a familiar melody, and left alone.