7. Again separately

Huo Heng and Liangzi slept until eleven o'clock before getting up, and after a simple meal at a nearby restaurant, they had to pack up their things and send Huo Heng to the train station.

However, the bad mood has been pressing heavily on Liangzi's heart, holding his hand tightly, oozing fine sweat and reluctant to let go. The sun was a little high, there was a slight burning sensation on the sunburned skin, and cars drove by, causing a heat wave in the air to churn. The taxi driver was talkative but stingy, he didn't turn on the air conditioner at noon, and the hot wind blowing in from the car window ruffled his hair, blowing so that people couldn't open their eyes, but they couldn't blow away the loneliness contained in the chest. didn't want him to go, but knew he couldn't keep it. There was nothing to say all the way, only the driver complained about the recent recession in the rental industry, some arrogant and unreasonable guests, and the recent passenger flow that was slightly driven by some activities in this small city.

After waiting in a long line for the ticket inspection, Liangzi lowered his head and did not speak, following Huo Hengxian step by step, for the first time, he felt that the ticket inspection could be so fast. thought that Huo Heng would give a hug or kiss when they were finally separated, but he just waved his hand and said go back quickly. Ryoko couldn't explain the complicated thoughts in his heart, realizing that tears were beginning to roll, he quickly took out the diary and put it in Huo Heng's bag, and immediately turned around, feeling the burning gaze from behind him, waved his hand, and strode forward. After walking less than ten steps, tears flowed down the face.

The phone vibrates and hangs up.

Shake and hang up.

Shake.

He sniffed in and took several deep breaths until he felt his voice sound as calm as usual before pressing the green answer button.

"Are you crying?"

"How so."

"Don't be unhappy, I'll worry about you."

"Hmm."

"We said okay, I'll pick you up on the day you actually graduate. You're waiting for me, okay. ”

"Hmm."

"You've been talking to me all the time, don't you have anything to say to me?"

His nose was pantothenic again, and he realized that tears might be coming out, and swallowed hard, trying in vain to suppress the choking in his throat.

"No, you say, I'll listen."

"Is the train going?"

"It's gone."

"Okay, let's not talk about it for now, I'm going back to school too."

"Well, it's hot, remember to take a taxi back. Miss you. ”

"Hmm."

"Call me at the dorm."

"Hmm."

"I'll see the journal later."

"What was written?"

"See for yourself."

I hung up the phone and wanted to take the bus back, but I felt in my pocket and had no change, and I happened to be thirsty, so I went into a small restaurant nearby to buy water to drink.

The restaurant is located near the train station, the decoration is general, with the theme of log color, the whole layout is relatively narrow and long, so the indoor light is not very good, slightly oppressive and sticky, and the air conditioning is very sufficient. Because of its proximity to the train station, in addition to selling some common rice bowls, fried noodles and fried rice, it also sells some Western-style fast food and drinks, such as coffee, juice and ice cream.

Liangzi looked at the menu, ordered a cup of mocha, the saleswoman was mixing coffee behind the counter, and did not shy away from taking out a small packet of instant dissolution from the counter, mixing it with boiling water and mixing it evenly and sealing it and handing it to her, Liangzi was a little speechless, and when he checked out, he realized that this small cup cost twenty yuan, and he wanted to say something, and swallowed it back, thinking that if it was better to drink, he misunderstood others.

After checking out the account and going to take the bus, the daylight at noon shone on people through the gaps in the dense and huge sycamore leaves, and it was still extremely hot and dry, so there were not many people waiting for the bus, and after waiting for about three minutes on the platform, the bus arrived, and there were still vacant seats to sit.

Liangzi picked a position by the window, took a sip of coffee, and played Jiang Yuchen's "The Last Page" in the headphones, "I want to hold you into my body, I dare not let you see it, the tears that didn't fall from the corner of my mouth, if this is the last page, before you leave, can you let Liangzi rewrite the story......"

The coffee was so hard to drink, so bad that it made you want to cry.

After another sip, the tears came out, and I couldn't stop it.

I took out the tissue in my bag and blew my nose.

I got off the train one stop in advance, opened myself and cried all the time, the weather was hot, and after walking for a while, my body was sticky, and the sweat beads on my forehead fell one by one, and the discomfort of my body slightly reduced the unspeakable heaviness in my heart. Why didn't Huo Heng understand the uneasiness in her heart? But even Ryoko herself can't describe why she is so frightened in her heart.

"Does he love me?"

To be honest, Ryoko didn't dare to give herself a positive answer, and she didn't know what the standard of love and non-love should be. But Liangzi was very clear about his feelings for Huo Heng.

His words can make her live or die.

As soon as he entered the west gate of the school, Huo Heng sent a video, and Liangzi's eyes were still red and hung up.

Immediately afterwards, Huo Heng called again, and in desperation, he pressed the answer button.

"Are you in the dormitory?"

"Not yet."

"What's the matter, it's been two hours and you haven't been back?"

"I'm out there."

"Are you still in a bad mood?"

"It's okay, don't worry."

"I didn't dare look at you when I was at the station."

"Huh?"

"I'm afraid that if I look at you more, I'll immediately refund the ticket and tell you that I'm not leaving," Huo Heng's voice began to choke, "I noticed your mood changes at the beginning, but I didn't dare to ask, I was afraid that you would cry, in fact, I was even more afraid that I would cry myself, how embarrassing it is for me to cry in front of you a little girl." It's the first time I've felt like I can't live without someone, really. Don't talk about this, you have to be good here, eat and sleep and exercise obediently, so that I can walk with confidence. ”

"I'm obedient. But I don't know what's wrong with me today, I always feel like something bad is going to happen to you this time, I can't say what it is, in short, I feel like you're leaving me. ”

"Liangzi, somehow, when facing you, I am always afraid to tell you my state of mind. But when you cry like this today, I think it's still necessary to tell you how I feel, you are too insecure, and I blame me for not giving you enough security. But Liangzi, I'm the same, when I think about you, I'm always not confident enough, I think I'm too old, no charm, every time you say you want to eat with your classmates, I always have to hang a heart, I know that the person you love is me, but I just can't control the cowardice in my heart, in case you fall in love with another boy, he is excellent, talkative, good-looking, and you are the same age, the same as you, I am more afraid of you standing together, not only others, even I feel right, What would I do if there was such a person by your side one day? Ryoko, I know all my own shortcomings and you are not, that's why you love me. But that's why I'm even more scared, because I know exactly how much my heart likes you. I noticed you from the first day your dad was in the hospital and really liked you the day I saw you cry for the first time. Later, I always stayed in your dad's ward for a while during ward rounds, just to see you a little more, but you always kept your head down. Sometimes when I pass by in front of your father's hospital room, I always sneak a glance at you, and you always quietly look out the window in a daze, frowning. At first, I didn't dare to admit that forcing myself to be just pitiful and sympathetic to your feelings was just pity, but the reed that always appeared by your side made me slowly determine my emotions, more and more irritable, I didn't dare to imagine that you were smiling at the reed, and at the same time I was also very annoyed, for my hostility and jealousy of the reed, for my pickled thoughts about you, how dare I, how could I, you should be a child in my eyes, but I was fascinated by you. After your dad was discharged from the hospital, I breathed a long sigh of relief, thinking that as long as I calmed down and didn't see you, all enthusiasm would fade, and my foolish thoughts would fade over time, but in fact, every day after you left seemed to me like living in a dream, my soul was weightless, I couldn't eat or sleep well, I thought about going to you when I thought so much, I flipped through your dad's case, and wrote your name and your home address on the paper a hundred times, but I couldn't go to you, afraid that you would take me for a pervert, a madman. Just when I was about to despair you appeared again, fool, I just looked at the back to know it was you, chased into the elevator, called your name, saw you look at me with wide eyes in surprise, there were a lot of people in the elevator I deliberately walked towards you, you see what an impure person I am. Later, when I went to work, I always looked around and thought maybe you would be in the next corner, but you didn't. I finally couldn't help but take a half-day leave to look for you in the West Campus, went to your dad's ward and found that you were not there, I talked to your dad for a while, I was very disappointed, and made an excuse to wait at the hospital gate for more than an hour before you came back with a depressed face, and did not hold an umbrella, walking slowly in the rain alone, I ran to you, ran to you all the moments I had ten thousand desperate thoughts to hug you, but my reason told me, I can't, you don't know that I used all my strength to muster up the courage to touch you, just to touch you. Later, your father was discharged from the hospital again, and when you came to work in this city during your internship, you sent me a WeChat message to thank me, and said that you would invite me to dinner when you made money, and we really ate together when you left, but we were all drunk and that kind of thing happened. Liangzi, I'm tearing down my heart for you to see, don't you think about it alone, okay? What have you been thinking about all day, I promise you, I will never leave you. Therefore, you also promised me that if you want to love me all the time, I will also be sad, and even more afraid of losing than you. Don't cry, I'll pick you up on the day you graduate. ”

"Thank you for telling me so much, Huo Heng, thank you. Diary, you see, maybe, you won't be too sad, and you just don't have to pick me up, I'm going to graduate in a few days, and I'll go to your side to find you when the time comes, you don't have to make a special trip to come here again, it's very troublesome. ”

"No, I'm coming, I have to accompany you. All you have to do now is to prepare well for your dissertation defense, graduate safely, and then I will accompany you around your campus, and when you want to come back in the future, we will come back. I'm going to drink your school's milk tea, and I'm going to add a lot of pearls! ”

With a nasal voice that has cried, I laughed out loud, sometimes I really can't do anything about this person.

"Ahem." After clearing her throat, Ryoko, like her father, has chronic pharyngitis.

"What's wrong, are you sick?"

"No, it's just that my throat might be a little uncomfortable."

"I have Chinese medicine tea sent by someone else here, and I will send it to you later."

"Don't bother, just go back and drink more boiling water."

"Oops, you don't care."

"But what the hell is the picture you sent me?!"

"Pink Panther."

"Huh?!"

"Change your avatar, your avatar is ugly! I didn't say it was okay last time, no matter what I find for you, you'll like it. ”

"But that's too pink, isn't it...... Okay, okay, smile for Bojiaren, there were princes of Zhou Youwang Fenghuo Opera in ancient times, so why don't I change my avatar today! I'll just swap it out. ”

"Haha, that's right."

"I'm in the dormitory, I won't tell you, everyone is still taking a nap."

"Okay, you can rest for a while. I'll call you when you get to sleep. ”

"Hmm."

Gently opened the door of the dormitory, the light blue curtains were drawn, and the room was dark, and Ryoko tiptoed in, only to find that everyone was not sleeping, just lying on the bed and playing with their mobile phones.

"Came back so early." The first to say hello was Liang Shan, who was sleeping in the lower bunk, sat up from the bed, picked up the cup on the table, drank a few sips, and quickly returned to the bed to lie down.

"Hmm."

"Your man is gone?"

Wang Xiao leaned over, leaning her head on the edge of the bed, her messy long hair falling down, slightly frightened.

"Hmm."

"Didn't you put on a life-and-death drama at the train station? It's the kind of TV drama that you often play, you cry like a tearful man begging him not to go, he hugs you tightly, hugs you tightly, hugs you until a second before the train leaves, he has to jump on the train, and you look at his hands waving in the window and the train that is gradually moving away and disappearing from sight and continues to cry into tears. ”

Ryoko quickly stripped naked, changed into pajamas, and climbed into bed to lie down like everyone else.

"What kind of emotional drama are you, how can you go to the platform to see you off now, you can't even enter the waiting hall without a ticket."

"Well, this ...... this"

clicked on Huo Heng's WeChat, and it was really replaced by a pink panther sitting in a shopping cart.

Liangzi turned over, let himself face the wall, stared at Huo Heng's WeChat avatar and wanted to laugh and cry, after reading the diary, would he be moved or disgusted......