One.

In fact, Mosang lied, and it may not be called a lie, but there is always a deviation.

Wealth is Mosang's first love; Fugui is her nickname, and her big name is Liu Ziyi. At that time, her friends around her used to call her like this, so Mo Sang also called her like this.

However, Mosang is not the first love of wealth. In fact, when it comes to the question of first love, Mo Sang feels that he may be Fugui's first love, although he makes it clear that Fugui has had a relationship with other people before dating him. But Mo Sang is a person who loves more truth, and pays attention to the meaning of everything, he said that this is because he has the spirit of learning from things.

He feels that the first love is not necessarily the first love, especially like Fugui. Mo Sang said: "Can love in elementary school be called love? When you are so naïve, where do you know what love is! Even if it is a love in junior high school, high school, or even college, it may not be called a love, it has to be a love affair that you have a sense of understanding from it! ”

So Mo Sang firmly believes that Fugui is his first love, even if it is a childish love in junior high school. As for Fugui, Mo Sang said: "I was definitely not her first love in my first relationship with her. At that time, I didn't think about the definition of first love, and I felt that the first love was the first love. So I was quite entangled after I got along with her at the time, because I wasn't her first love, and her first kiss wasn't mine, but my first kiss was hers, and I heard that she had a more intimate relationship with her ex-boyfriend. And as for my second relationship with her, I'm still not sure......

Mo Sang didn't make a shrug expression, just had some interesting writhing on his face; But the cause understands that this is helplessness and meaninglessness when looking at the past.

"But if she doesn't have any feelings in those relationships, I think I should be her first love. Because after we broke up completely, she was also heartbroken, and she also felt something, I can feel it! ”

Mo Sang and Chen Xiangyin were classmates who met in secondary school, but Xiangyin transferred in the second grade, but he has always been in contact with Mo Sang, and he has always been very chatty, even if he went to college later, the two were still not in the same school, and the two did not become estranged. The story of wealth and wealth is what Mo Sang told Xiang Yin when he was in secondary school.

Because the two of them talked freely, so even if it was such a thing that exposed a man's weak side, Mo Sang would tell him, but because there was no suitable environment for chatting at that time, he only said part of it briefly. And although Xiang Yin kept it in mind at the time, he wanted to hear the story completely. But then I always didn't get the chance, so I slowly forgot about it.

Until the summer vacation before meeting Fang Mu in Mosang. One afternoon, Xiangyin was basking in the sun by the window of his home, and suddenly heard someone downstairs shouting "Fugui", and he looked down. There was a girl in a pure white T-shirt squatting on the ground, because she was squatting, so she couldn't see what she was wearing on her lower body, and the angle of the fourth floor made it impossible for Xiang Yin to see her face, but it gave Xiang Yin the feeling that it should be a beauty. Her arms were stretched forward, and her hands were fiddling, as if to greet something. In fact, there was no need to worry about this action at all, and Xiang Yin immediately looked in the direction she was facing, and sure enough, a golden retriever was running towards her with his mouth open and twisting his ass.

"It seems that Fugui is the name of this dog." - Xiang Yin muttered in his heart; In an instant, lightning flashed in his head, and he immediately remembered Mo Sang. Remembering the story that Mo Sang once mentioned to himself when he was in secondary school, that story is simply a plot that can only appear in love, and it was more like a textbook for himself who had never been involved in an object at that time. - "I must let him tell me more about that past, it is an absolutely valuable story." ”

Thinking of this, Xiang Yin immediately called Mosang. Fortunately, Mosang has nothing to do, and he is lonely at home. Xiang Yin explained the situation to him, and he thought that Mo Sang would take the opportunity to take advantage of himself, but he didn't expect to hear him laugh on the other side of the phone, laughed for a while, and said, "Okay, okay, then you can pick me up." Well...... I want to think about where we're going. Well...... Say this thing has to be in the right place, go get some coffee, have some bitterness. ”

Xiang Yin hurriedly washed and cleaned up, tidied up his hairstyle, changed into slightly more formal clothes, and drove to pick up Mo Sang. Before he could go downstairs, I saw him walking over to this side, straight, with navy blue trousers on his lower body, and his upper body seemed to be wearing a French shirt, brown shiny brogue style Oxford leather shoes, I don't know what brand it is, but it is estimated to be 200 yuan free shipping.

Xiang Yin hurriedly turned the car around, turned around, and Mo Sang also walked over. Mo Sang got into the car, and Xiang Yin took a closer look at his cuffs, and sure enough, it was a French shirt.

"How is your part-time job? A small suit is worn. ”

"Hey! People look like dogs! Dressed like a successful person, you have to crowd the bus; I'm afraid that others will say that I am pretending. ”

Because it was very close to the coffee shop I was going to, I only chatted casually in the car, and I went through the part that I had already said in the secondary school.

Entering the coffee shop, the two of them walked towards the stairs and went up to the second floor; Xiangyin looked around and asked Mosang where he wanted to sit.

"That's it." Mo Sang raised his finger for a moment.

Xiang Yin looked in the direction of Mo Sang's finger, which was indeed good. It is a corner, next to a large floor-to-ceiling window, on which is a square glass flower pot with vivid white roses. In fact, there is a table behind this position, but the floor-to-ceiling windows do not extend there, and it is estimated that no one will want to sit there.

It was very comfortable to sit in the seat. It's now a little more than half past four in the afternoon, and in Tianjin in July, this time is still hot, but fortunately, the sun is just blocked by a building in front. The chairs still have the residual temperature of the sun, and the air conditioning in the store makes people feel comfortable and sleepy. The two asked for two cups of black coffee and chatted.

"We are not from the same village, they are more than ten miles away from us. We all have elementary schools in each village, and then we go to junior high school in our junior high school. Actually, I didn't want to be with her, but I thought she was pretty good-looking, but I didn't have any intersection. She was always with one of their gangsters at the time, and she didn't know what their relationship was at the time, so she didn't dare to get close to her, and she didn't know her well when she first started. ”

The little gangster Mosang said was later determined to be Fugui's boyfriend, but they broke up soon after. Later, Fugui dated Mosang, and he never troubled Mosang.

"Later, one of my buddies at the time liked her, and I helped him create opportunities to talk to Fugui. At that time, he rode an electric car to school, and he didn't buy it yet, so I took him with me every day. I parked my electric car next to Fugui's electric car every time, and then asked my buddy to push the cart after school. ”

"Push and push and it becomes yours?" Xiang Yin teased.

"Hahaha...... Not really. Fugui doesn't look down on him, so he doesn't blame me. Later, I forgot what it was, and she asked me if I wanted to date her. I was so moved that it was the first time someone confessed to me! I didn't care about my buddy, so I said yes. Haha......"

After saying this, Mo Sang smiled and looked behind Xiang Yin. As soon as he was about to turn around, two people walked past him, with a faint fragrance. They sat at the table at the back, a small couple. Xiang Yin turned his head to look at the other seats, and there was still a good position. Turning around, Xiangyin raised his eyebrows at Mo Sang, and the two of them smiled lightly, and then the waiter also brought the coffee, and the two of them nodded to her. She also smiled and said, "Please use it slowly."

"Every time I go out on a date after that......"

"It's pretty handsome." Xiang Yin turned his head back with the waiter and said this, but he didn't expect to interrupt him.

"Huh?"

"It's okay, it's okay, you say yours, I say her."

"Ha, it's pretty handsome." Mo Sang looked at her and paused for a moment after speaking, not knowing whether he was admiring the stunner or thinking about the words that were interrupted by Xiang Yin.

"Later, every time I went out on a date to see her, I didn't know what to say. Really, it's really silly to think about it now. Mo Sang propped himself on the table, lowered his voice and continued. Xiang Yin also sat closer.

"Pretty shy, huh? The little heart is fluttering, but I don't know what to say. ”

"Isn't that much!"

"I know it's not good, but it's okay. If there were people around, it would be even more wasteful! ”

"Yes, yes, she's always with a friend of hers. I'm even more embarrassed to speak, alas...... "Originally, Xiang Yin and Mo Sang were grinning and laughing at the stupidity of their childhood, and they both laughed very openly, but soon Mo Sang became a skin laugh and didn't laugh.

Anyway, I always didn't say anything, rode an electric car side by side, and looked at her like that. I feel very embarrassed, but when I think about it, it's simple! The most pure and youthful feelings, now I can't find it, my brain is too dirty! ”

"Well, yes. If you don't go out on a date now, you're a good person, ha. ”

"No, I didn't have a mobile phone at the time, so I finally played with the computer for a while, and I always played games and didn't chat with her. Now that I think about it, it's really stupid. Mo Sang picked up the cup and took a tentative sip.

“CF？” Seeing that he was drinking happily, Xiang Yin also picked up the cup after saying this.

"Yes, yes, good guys, you had a lot of fun. I also bought a CF number when I was in secondary school, and it cost a thousand, and now I don't play anymore. ”

"Yes, now I don't touch the computer much except for homework, one has a mobile phone, the other is not interesting to play games, even mobile phone games are, I really have nothing to do and just play for a while."

"Actually, if you think about it, it's because you can't play all the time at that time, and the family is in charge. If you can play all the time, you won't like to play. ”

"Not really! Look at those teenagers who are addicted to the Internet. Think about your roommates, don't they all play hard! Saying this, Xiang Yin's face revealed his dislike for those boys.

"Yes, we still have to divide people."

"Okay, let's talk about wealth, what happened later."

"You're going to break up with me later, because I'm so immature! If you can't ask for anything, you have to divide it. Within a few days of separation, she got along with a junior high school student. Speaking of this, Mo Sang couldn't help but grin. Xiang Yin couldn't help but laugh out loud when he heard it.

"me off! How embarrassing is this! At the time, my friends thought I was green. Mo Sang laughed to himself and said, "But no one has mocked me too much." If asked, I said that we had already separated. ”

Mo Sang picked up the cup on the table again, took a sip, and smacked the taste. Xiang Yin also took a sip, looked at the halfway point in his cup, and stopped holding it. Waiting for Mo Sang to put down the cup, Xiang Yin deliberately glanced at how much he had left, and there was actually three-quarters of the amount in the cup!

"The boy still has money in his family. I bought a couple of mobile phones, one for each of them. She took the phone to the class, there was a girl who was with her who was quite able to speak, maybe she knew about it in advance or what, I forgot about it. Anyway, when the girl saw Fugui entering the class with her mobile phone, she began to shout, and a group of people in the class surrounded her, saying that they envied her and so on. I was sitting next to me, and I was dying. ”

Mo Sang and Xiang Yin talked about it when they were in secondary school before, and when Mo Sang and Fugui split the table at that time, there was only one girl in the middle. Xiang Yin's name is Wen Yun.

Later, when the two of them got together, Mo Sang asked Fugui and Wen Yun to change seats, and the two of them became intimate. Later, the two broke up, and Fugui changed back, Mo Sang said that it was not changed immediately, but it took a few days to change, so he was even more angry at his stupidity at that time, because he couldn't understand that she was giving herself a chance in those days.

"How did it get better again?"

"I've never let go of her, but I've never taken the initiative to have any intersections. It's the third year of junior high school, and it's nothing, but then I don't know if it's because of the pressure of studying or what, and I miss her more and more. I told myself, this can't be done, you must forget her, she doesn't have me in her heart, and she can't be cheap. And I've heard a lot of gossip about her, all of which are about how bad she is, how crazy she is, and how sassy she is. ”

"But no, I just can't help it!" Xiang Yin changed his tone, and he felt the same as Mr. Storyteller, and he was talking to him.

"Huh! I can't help it! Mo Sang's eyes widened and he tilted his head. I still remember her QQ account, I logged in to the account once before, and I logged in the wrong way. I looked for a problem for a long time, and I said that the account and password are all right, why can't it. I looked again, the account number was correct, but it wasn't mine, and it was her account number that was entered. ”

"Hahaha......" Mo Sang also laughed with Xiang Yin, his laughter felt a hint of self-deprecation, and he tilted his head to look out the window. Mo Sang looked at it for a while, and Xiang Yin felt that something was wrong with him, and he also turned his head to look in the direction he was looking; But I don't know if he's looking at the traffic downstairs, or looking at himself reflected in the glass.

"What's the matter, what are you looking at?"

"It's okay - I missed her at the time! I kept suppressing myself from thinking about her. One night I found out that I couldn't remember her QQ account, and I laughed at the time, but that feeling," Mo Sang looked back at Xiang Yin, "my heart hurts, and then I laughed and cried." ”

"Yes, I can understand, it's like happiness and sorrow, but that's not quite right. Anyway, I was happy because I was relieved, but I was a little reluctant, so I cried. I can't tell! Xiang Yin thought that he was seeking his own recognition and understanding, and Xiang Yin did have some feelings.

Mo Sang picked up the cup and took another sip, smacked his lips and said, "Yes, it can only be understood that it cannot be spoken...... as he spoke," he said, and turned his head towards the window again. Xiang Yin didn't have the heart to speculate about what he was looking at, but he still subconsciously squinted his eyes and looked outside. But this squint caused a lightning bolt to slash out in Xiang Yin's brain again, and Xiang Yin didn't see anything special, just the building. He poked his head into the glass and saw that the people on the ground were shrouded in the shadows of the building, apparently because of this, another girl who made him cry.

Mo Sang took a deep breath, turned his head, and asked Xiang Yin as he exhaled, "Where did I go?" ”

"Laughing and laughing and crying."

"Ah...... I cried and cried and fell asleep, and the next morning I suddenly woke up and sat up directly, with a string of numbers in my head, big and small, like a slideshow, and muttering 402*****52 in my mouth, I said in my heart what is this? Then I reacted, this is her QQ account. ”

"Crying again, aren't you?"

"Hmph, crying again," Mo Sang's "hum" was not spoken, but woke up with his nose. "Then I'll add her QQ. It's not good to add, there are verification issues. I'm trying to find a way.,I still stole her number.,I forgot how it was added in the end.。 Then I told her everything I had been going through in the past few days, and she agreed. ”

"And ......," Xiang Yin interrupted him before he could ask.

"It's not over! Listen steadfastly. He said that he was listening, but he was speechless for a while.

Two.

Mo Sang called the waiter and asked for two more cups of black coffee, and told her, "We're going to go out for a while." ”

The two of them went downstairs and out of the door of the store, straightened their waists, and looked at the people passing by.

"Have you ever wondered what you would be like now if you hadn't broken up with her?" Both of them lit cigarettes, took a puff, and asked him.

"I must have thought about it! My most unrealistic wish is to go back to junior high school with my current memories and current mind. And then go through that period of youth again. ”

"Back in the day, do you think you'll be able to get along with her?"

"I've thought about this too, but I can't get an answer. So I don't regret it at all, I don't regret all the past. It has come to this day step by step, the previous step has changed, the next step may or may not change, it may or may not change, it may become better or worse. No one can say for sure, after all, no one has this kind of experience. ”

"Ang...... Pragmatism, knowledge comes from experience. What is behind the experience is unknowable, and there is no point in knowing. ”

"Yo Yo Yo, look at you awesomely, cultural person."

"Hahahaha......"

"In fact, if I really do it all over again, no matter how good or bad my life is, when I am about to die, I look back and look at the past, and I may regret it. I wonder what my fate would have been like if I hadn't gone back to junior high school – would it have been better? ”

"Yes - that's how people are, not satisfied! So don't worry about losing the other person, it's hard to make a person content and have no regrets. It's good to live up to this life, and to walk the path you want to take is to live up to this life. It's easy to do in this life, and if you are happy, you will be content. If you can really do it all over again, I don't know how many people will be trapped in this endless time vortex. ”

"Yes, human existence has no meaning in itself! The meaning is all given to me, good, bad, happy, painful - I know that it is impossible to start over to have this delusion, if I can really do it again, I will definitely refuse - have you heard "Do it again"? Mo Sang took out his phone.

"Existentialism!"

"Huh?"

"What you just said is an existentialist point of view, you can understand it when you have time, I am also an existentialist."

If you can be honest again

If you don't suspect each other, there's no reason to separate

If you can relive the memories as dust

A love that is unblemished if the heart is not hurt

But starting over does not guarantee the success or failure of love

How many times do you have to do it all over again to understand

After listening to this song, I went back to the store, tried the coffee, and drank it just in time.

"After adding her back, I told her about my past days, and I asked her another question." Mo Sang looked at Xiang Yin, who should be waiting for his response.

Originally, Xiang Yin was still thinking about where he talked before, but he didn't expect him to be so active, so he started first.

"What's the problem?" ”

"I asked her, 'Are you still a virgin?' Maybe it's not the original words, maybe I'm asking, do you have a first time? I don't remember exactly, but that's what it meant. When I was a virgin, I was always a virgin, you know. ”

"Well, you're a scumbag!"

"Let's play! I didn't say I wanted that film, I wanted it because it was my first time, so I hoped that the other party would also be the first time, and I had always been clean and self-loving. Although later ......"

"Okay, okay, I know, I'll tease you, go on." Xiang Yin interrupted him, because Xiang Yin didn't want to hear Mo Sang mention the story of him and Jiang Yuyan again; Although it is equally exciting, Mo Sang is like a different person when he talks about it; It's not going to be like a madman or something, it's going to be very serious, like he was looking out the window just now. Maybe it was because I was trying to pretend to be relieved at the time, but that would make the cause uncomfortable in my eyes. And he knew that Mo Sang would scold himself as a scumbag, so he scolded Mo Sang for him, so that he wouldn't scold himself anymore.

Mo Sang glanced at Xiang Yin playfully, and added disgust on his face, and then suddenly returned to normal and continued.

"She replied with five words - 'Yellow Flower Girl'. Honestly, I was really overwhelmed and happy, but I wanted to find a crack in the ground to get into. I actually asked her this kind of question directly, taking it as a condition. ”

"Well, I understand."

Xiang Yin was still a little uncomfortable, and his expression still became too serious.

"I didn't realize the virginity complex at the time, and I thought — I think most people should have sex after they get married, and that's what I've always been planning to do. Later, after breaking up with Jiang Yuyan, I thought that maybe I had a virgin complex since the time of Fugui, but my brain was still clean at that time, so I didn't realize it. ”

"It's not wrong to have a virgin complex, but it's not right to ask the other party to be a virgin if you're not a virgin."

"Yes—and then, we got together. During that time, I said a lot of sweet words, but they were all sincere, I said that I would be with her for the rest of my life, and I would go to see her parents when I graduated. Really, I was going to cry when I sent him those words! Mosang exhaled, it seemed that he had just fallen into the feeling of memory. Mo Sang was stunned for a moment and said, "Alas, it's really, dare to promise because I'm too young!" ”

The two took two sips of coffee, and Mo Sang continued.

"Later....... One morning, we were waiting in front of the school to open the door. I talked to her, and I forgot what she said. After entering, after putting the electric car, I hurried to chase her, she didn't ride, she came as someone else's car, she went directly to the teaching building. ”

"Hmm."

"I wanted to kiss her, so I ran to her, and she turned back, and I didn't bother, so I went over and kissed her. It's over, oh my God, guess what I'm saying? ”

"What?" Mo Sang smiled self-deprecatingly and asked Xiang Yin, and Xiang Yin also smiled curiously.

"It's so cool! It's so cool that I actually said it! Mo Sang covered his face and laughed, feeling a little embarrassed. After listening, Xiang Yin also laughed out loud.

"This is your first kiss?" Xiang Yin asked him with a smile, expecting him to reply, "Yes." "You can smile a little more because of this.

"No, the first kiss was when I was with her for the first time, in the class." After hearing this, he was a little disappointed, so he let out an "oh".

Mo Sang took another sip of coffee, and he did have a lot to say. Because this listener felt that his throat was a little dry, although he had been drinking coffee.

"Then, one day, she said she was going to be separated from me for a while—for a while. She said: 'You are smart, the teachers say that you are smart, you will definitely be admitted to high school if you work hard, let's be separated for a while, you study hard.' When the exam is over, we will get back together. ’”

"You agree?"

"Ah......h Let's go, go to the toilet, and come back again, it's suffocating me. ”

"Let's go."

From the way to the toilet to the time when he came back from the toilet, Mo Sang said, "How can I agree!" ”

After coming back and sitting down, Mo Sang looked out the window again. Xiang Yin looked at the time, it was almost six o'clock, and the little couple behind didn't know when they had left.

It looked a little gloomy outside, which made Mosang feel very lonely. He feels this way every time this happens; It's still noisy, but it seems to be quiet, or rather bleak. Maybe it's because that time is the darkest time in the world; The sunlight is still there, but it is not bright enough, and you can't feel the vision become clear when you turn on the light.

"Let's talk in another place, eat and drink, I'm hungry too." Xiang Yin stood up and raised an eyebrow at Mo Sang and said to him.

"Okay, remember—we'll get back together after the exam." Mo Sang nodded, raised his eyebrows and said.

"Ahh Xiang Yin was stunned for a moment, and God reacted and agreed.

Three.

The two drove to an izakaya. Mosang doesn't often come to this kind of place, but in Mosang's impression, there are usually unknown yellow lights and slightly quaint dark decorations, although there is some dull and depressing, but there is more or less hustle and bustle, and this atmosphere makes people have the desire to talk.

It was the evening rush hour, and it took more than half an hour to travel not very far. This store is something that Mosang has never been to, but it basically matches the impression of the store Mosang has visited.

The roof is lined with incandescent lamps, and the pale yellow light shines on the brown log tables and chairs, which makes the tables and chairs even more exquisite. The walls are framed with old black and white photographs, and there are some bright red stickers, posters, and flags. Some pictorial magazines also have some graffiti painted on them, which is colorful and lively but calm.

The two found a corner spot. As soon as they sat down, a waiter dressed in Japanese style stood at the table with a side dish, a towel and a menu, and asked the two of them what to drink. Because Mo Sang and Xiang Yin had no experience in ordering, and the time was still early, there were not many customers, so they told the waiter their budget and asked him to recommend a few dishes. There are many types of sake, so I don't know how to order it. Maybe the waiter was not surprised, and knew that the two of them didn't matter, so he recommended two kinds of wine.

"Next time, come early, while there is no one, I have to ask the rules here." Mo Sang looked at the back of the waiter and whispered to Xiang Yin.

"Hahaha...... It's embarrassing! ”

Mo Sang didn't respond to him, looking left and right, presumably trying to understand the environment and rules as much as possible.

"I've been here twice, but I've been in the same mess." Xiang Yin peeled edamame and chatted with Mosang. After a while, the dishes were ready, and I couldn't wait to get down to business.

"Then say, 'We'll get back together after the exam.'" Xiang Yin said, picked up a skewer and picked it up.

Mo Sang picked up a skewer and took a bite without speaking, his eyes staring at the skewer, as if thinking about something.

"It's too expensive!"

"Huh?"

"Hahaha......" The two laughed a few times and continued to eat.

"She said that it was really silly to get back together after the exam." Suddenly, Mo Sang said seriously.

"I told her that she was my motivation to learn. She is in my heart to let go. It's hard to say it, it's really too self-righteous. Xiang Yin felt a slight anger in Mo Sang's tone.

Self-righteous - Xiang Yin can understand the meaning of Mosang, but I always feel that this word is a little inappropriate, and "self-assertion" may be more appropriate.

"Did you ever think that was her excuse?" Xiang Yin asked.

"Excuse, seriously, I can't be sure ......" Mo San's torch-like eyes stared at Xiang Yin, and raised his eyebrows. Xiang Yin knew that he was waiting for himself to confirm to him what he had just said, and he wanted to make himself respond to him, more intensely than before.

"What can't you be sure about?"

Maybe Tianjin people really need people to tell stories.

"I'm not sure if I thought about it that way at the time - I was in a trance, but I'm not sure, maybe it was something I was obsessed with when I looked back later." Mo Sang's facial expression showed the feeling of shrugging his shoulders and spreading his hands.

"Can't remember?"

"Yes, but not as you think."

Xiang Yin raised an eyebrow and motioned for him to continue.

"I have amnesia! It may be an exaggeration to say that it is amnesia. But I really can't remember anything about me and Fugui after graduation, I don't know if it's because I didn't get into high school and was stimulated, or because I stayed up late or something during that time, I just don't have this memory. Mo Sang looked at Xiang Yin expressionlessly, was stunned for a moment, and continued, "It was later that Fugui contacted me, and I only knew about this." Or rather, in retrospect, it turns out that I still have such a thing. ”

"When? What did she tell you? "Xiang Yin is a little confused about the temporal logic of her story.

"It's not long after the exam, and I forgot whether it was before or after the results."

"Oh oh oh ......" at this time the cause will be understood, and then it will be the last breakup.

"She said that after the exam, let's get back together. But I didn't agree, I said I was frigid. Hahaha...... That's when I was sure she had me in her heart. ”

"Frigidity? Hahaha, really, I've convinced you. ”

"Really, I was, I was, that feeling of being loveless, you know? It can't be said that there is no love in life, anyway, there are some walking dead? It's not suitable for ...... either."

"Okay, I understand. I mean, you're a junior high school student, and you know frigidity! ”

"I don't know where I heard this word, but I just know that I knew more than my peers since I was a child."

"Even if the teacher taught it, it wouldn't be!" Xiang Yin asked him with a smile.

"Hahaha...... Let's not say anything about anyone. ”

"Finished?"

"Later, I contacted intermittently, and she waited for me for a year! But I just don't want to be nice to her. I don't know why, maybe it's because I want my heart back. Actually, I don't think I'm going to come back to me, but at least not with her! Mo Sang's hand was not idle when he said these words, and he kept sending food to his mouth, and it was difficult for him to speak clearly.

"Then why didn't you engage in a partner for three years?"

In fact, Xiang Yin was more interested in the question of "where is the heart" mentioned by Mo Sang, but it seems that Mo Sang didn't understand it himself, so he asked this. In addition, Xiang Yin's hand is actually not idle, and he is also chewing and talking, but he can't be as clear as Mo Sang speaks.

"I'm not sure, I remember it seems like I promised her that I wouldn't have a partner for three years, or it was my own secret promise. Actually, I once asked her if there was such a thing, if I had promised her such a thing, but she said she couldn't remember. So—so confused. ”

"Moreover, you also know during the days of the secondary school, my capital and situation are not suitable for the target, including the unwillingness to be with Fugui. Even if I don't have a promise not to have a partner for those three years, I won't have a relationship with her or anyone. ”

This is the end of the story of Mosang and Fugui. But there is a question that I haven't figured out, where is Mo Sang's heart? Xiang Yin continued to eat, drink and chat with Mo Sang, but he was also absent-minded all the time, because this question had been haunting Xiang Yin. Xiang Yin thinks he must have thought about this problem a lot, but he can't solve it yet, maybe it's still in the game.

"Mo Sang, when you want to understand where your heart is, you must remember to tell me."

"I know, I already know. After breaking up with Jiang Yuyan, once I went to see Haihe, and as soon as I saw the vitality of Haihe, I suddenly understood - my heart has always been there, but it was hurt in Fugui; Later, he reconciled with Fugui, and his injuries healed again. But the pressure of the high school entrance examination and the fact that Fugui proposed to temporarily separate these two things made my newly recovered heart unable to bear the pressure, so it was broken. It's just that I thought he was gone. Later, when he was with Jiang Yuyan, 'he' grew up again. Later, I broke up with Jiang Yuyan, and I thought that this heart was gone; But it's still there, it's just hiding. Because of the virginity complex, low self-esteem, selfishness, etc., there was too much pressure, and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to bear it, so I hid. But as soon as I saw the comfortable Haihe River, 'he' also came out to see the scenery, and I found it. ”

Mo Sang and Xiang Yin were stunned for a while, and Mo Sang continued: "Many people are like this, and after their feelings are hurt, they always think that they have lost something, especially a true heart. But in fact, it is not lost, the heart, like the brain, will grow and accumulate experience. After being injured once, the heart will have a long memory, will be afraid, will avoid it, and will not be willing to give itself up easily. But in fact, it has always been there, never far away; As long as she meets the right person, her heart will jump into her arms with a smile. ”