I looked at the dean at this time, my heart was very sad, I knew that this was my medical accident, but now the dean, I have to bear a lot of pressure for me, I know that these pressures, in fact, should be borne by me, so I can't make a decision in this way, I said firmly: "Dean, I know that the hospital is under a lot of pressure, and you are also under a lot of pressure, but I can't let the reputation of the hospital decline because of me." ”

"As long as everyone can get better, I am willing to resign." I nodded and said, "In the future, I will never do it again, I will resign now, so that the old aunt can have a better life!" ”

"This, this, Li Feng, don't be impulsive." The dean looked at the old woman again and said, "Auntie, you have also seen your daughter, you go home now, and I will definitely give you a satisfactory explanation." ”

"Well, dean, you must not shield the murderer just because he is from your hospital." The old woman burst into tears, looked at the dean and said, "You must help my daughter get justice." ”

"Hehe, aunt!" The dean said with a smile: "If it's not Li Feng's business, it's just an accident, you can't kill her because of this!" Now we are all in a society that stresses the rule of law, we can't let go of a bad person, and we can't wronged a good person, so you can leave first! I'm measured. ”

"Hmm."

The old woman wiped away her tears, and they left the morgue with the cold corpse, and the dean saw them leaving, and hurriedly asked, "Li Feng, what do you think?" Why did you say you were going to resign as soon as you came over, fortunately, I changed quickly just now, if that old lady wants you to resign, do I really want to fire you? ”

"Dean, I know my situation, since that woman died in my operation, I know that my career as a doctor is over." I sighed: "I know, I can't be a doctor anymore, I spend my days here every day, and at night, when I lie in bed, I can dream of that woman, the phenomenon when she dies, I am really in too much pain, only if I quit my job, I can alleviate the pain." ”

The dean looked at me and said, "I know, what you mean, but Li Feng, it's not your fault, it's just an accident, you can't always live with memories, you should look forward, I believe that you will come out." ”

"I, I really don't want to live like this again." I trembled and said, "I know, I'll never get better, I made a resignation report a few days ago, I hope the dean can approve it, let me get out of here!" I'm in so much pain here, I really don't want to be in pain anymore. ”

The dean glanced at me and said, "In this case, I don't have anything to say, so you can leave your post temporarily, and you go to a mountain village hospital and become a director!" It just so happens that there is no dean there, and it is also our branch, so you should go on vacation, adjust well, and if you want to come back, you can come back. ”

"That's not good, that's not good!" I said.

"Okay, let's just agree!" The dean said: "Otherwise, I will not let you resign, I know that you are conscientious and will not deliberately harm people." ”

......

"It's fine." I finally nodded.

"Well, it's just this time, I'm afraid these family members will come back to make trouble." The dean said, "You just go out to hide, adjust your spirits, and when you recover, you can come back!" ”

I sat on the bus, thinking about what the dean said to me, this bus was driving here, the trees on the side of the mountain road were flying, and not far ahead, a very small hospital appeared, and the bus stopped in front of the hospital, and I took my suitcase and stepped off the double-decker bus.

As soon as I got out of the car, I looked up at the two-story building in front of me, here is a branch hospital, I will work here in the future, the mountains and rivers here are beautiful, there is no city, so noisy, and I sighed slightly: "This is here, the environment here, it's really good." ”

I took the gift box and walked into the hospital in front of me, just after I entered the hospital, there were a few nurses here, chatting here, and some cleaning, cleaning here, but the people who registered here were very rare, one of the nurses, seeing the door, said, "Huh? Someone came in, looking at the person's dress, it should have come from the city, could it be from the city? ”

I took one look at the nurse and walked towards here, I walked to the registration desk and said, "Excuse me, why are there so few people here?" ”

"Sir, you're from the city!" The little nurse smiled: "We are a mountain village hospital here, so naturally there are very few people, by the way, what kind of disease are you seeing?" I'll help you register! ”

"I think you're mistaken." I hurriedly took out my ID and said, "I'm Li Feng, I just came from the city, and I'm the dean of this branch, I believe you should also know!" ”

"Ahh This little nurse was surprised at first, and then smiled: "It turned out to be Dean Li, hello Hello, we have been notified, I thought the dean who came to us was an old man, I didn't expect you to be such a handsome man, Dean Li, you come with me!" ”

With that, the nurse walked out of the counter and walked in the lobby of the hospital, and I followed behind the nurse and asked, "I see that you nurses here, why are they all chatting here?" ”

"Huh...... Dean Li, you are from a hospital in a big city. The nurse smiled: "Of course, I don't know, we are in the hospital in the countryside, very idle, at the end of the day, I don't know, there are one or two sick people coming, so we are bored, here to chat blindly." ”

"Oh!" I continued to ask, "How many chief doctors and nurses do you have here?" ”

"Hehe......" The nurse smiled: "In a small place like ours, we don't know how many people are sick, let alone the chief doctor, and we have a total of fifty doctors and nurses." ”

"Ahh I exclaimed, "Actually, it's not more than half of the big city?" There are too few doctors and nurses here. ”

"yes." The nurse smiled and said: "We have very few sick people here, so there are few people who are doctors here, by the way, Dean Li, I heard that you are the chief surgeon of our hospital, and you are doing a good job in the city, why do you want to go to the countryside?" ”

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"Ugh." I was suddenly stunned here, and remembered the woman's death, and her family, crying in front of me, blaming me, I was very sad in my heart, originally a living life, but now I was killed, I was originally a chief surgeon in a big hospital, with a great future, but now it was destroyed by my own hands.

"Dean Li, Dean Li."

The nurse's voice rang out.

"Hmm." I suddenly came to my senses, and we walked to the back of the hospital, where there were many dormitories, and the nurse pushed open a dormitory door, walked in, and said, "Dean Li, this is where you live in the future, there is a morgue to the south of your room, and a toilet to the west. ”

"Okay, thank you." I nodded and smiled.

"Hehe, don't thank you." The little nurse said, "By the way, Dean Li, my name is Zhao Xiaomei, you can call me Xiaomei in the future." ”

"Okay." I said.

Then Zhao Xiaomei walked out, I closed the door, took a look at the room, this room is quite clean, but the bed is a little dirty, I simply put some water, wiped the bed, and the whole room, roughly tidy up, and then I took out some clothes and quilts and put them on the bed.

Inside my suitcase, there is also a frame, there is a woman in the frame, I hugged the photo of this woman, I saw this photo, the tears in my eyes remained, and said: "Sun Yan, wife, we are here, you can also have a good rest." ”

This is my wife 'Sun Yan', originally the two of us were very affectionate, but because of a cancer, Sun Yan left me ruthlessly, I wanted to be treated, but it was found too late, the cancer spread, there was no way to cure it, Sun Yan died in my arms, and when I didn't save the woman, I saw the woman's husband, when he said those words to me, my heart was very touched.

I really blame myself in my heart, I can understand very well the pain of losing my beloved, because my beloved left me like this, but no matter what I do, what has happened, we have no way to retreat, we can only face it bravely, I walked to the desk, put Sun Yan's photo on the desk, I was very tired, sat on the stool, looked at the photo in front of me, and said slowly: "Wife, you went to a very good place, there, there is no pain, no unhappiness, no complaints, I really envy you. ”

"Wife, you're waiting for me." I laughed to myself, "Maybe sometime, I'll get out of here too, and we'll meet again, hey." ”

These days, I was overwhelmed by this thing, I haven't been in a good mood for a day since that incident, I always feel very tired, now I just want to sleep, I don't care about anything, I don't ask anything, every day, I feel like a walking corpse, I feel like I don't have any motivation to live.

I'm emaciated, I don't know that feeling now, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to think about anything, I just want to sleep well, I can't wake up.

I glanced at my wife's picture, walked over to the bed, got the quilt ready, took off my shoes and went to bed.