"But the world is in the world, why do you want to say this to her?" Xiao Jincheng's voice was mixed with a strong anger.

It was also after careful consideration that the poor nun said this. Your Majesty, the poor nun saw the heart of Concubine Xian, it had already been scarred by human wounds, this was her only way out, if not, she would never be able to give up the hatred in her heart, and ...... in the future She will be tormented by the demons of her heart, and she will not want to live. Master Jinghui's voice was extremely sincere, "Besides, the emperor heard her hatred for you, and you can rest assured that you will leave her by the pillow?" ”

"Master Jinghui, you are wrong, in fact, I have always been like a mirror." He let out a long sigh, "I have long known that my heart hates me now, and since that day she ruthlessly poisoned Chunlan with a dead python, I know that her hatred has always existed." ”

Hearing this, I couldn't help but shudder, he knew that Chunlan was harmed by me? He knows?

My thoughts suddenly appeared that Xiao Jincheng hugged me tightly that day, and said anxiously, "Fortunately, you are fine, fortunately you didn't eat eel." ”

"Zhitao, Shen Jieyu, Concubine Lian, Mrs. Qi, I didn't pursue everything she did, just because I owed her. I broke the contract again and again, deceived her again and again, I didn't do any of the promises, and in the end she was infertile for life, which is the biggest harm I gave her, and I can't repay the love in my life. Since I promised her a posterity, it is up to me to fulfill my promise today, having cleared all obstacles, and this posterior position belongs to her. This is not only a debt to her, but also a man's commitment to a woman. I want to tolerate her with love, to dilute her hatred, and I want to give her all the best. The only regret is that I can no longer enter her heart after so many years of promise. ”

Xiao Jincheng's voice was a little choked.

"Your Majesty, now is the time when the smoke is everywhere, you can't put your mind on the private affairs of your children anymore, for the sake of the world, please let go of the poor nun......" Master Jinghui's tone was mixed with anxiety, as well as the comfort, "You are a Ming monarch, you should help the world, your responsibility is to unify the world, this is not only the oath you made when you ascended the throne, but also your father's expectation of you." Moreover, the people of today can no longer withstand years of war, and the world can no longer continue to be torn apart. ”

"I regret it."

"Regret what?"

"Usurpation of the throne. I used to think that the throne was mine! It was they who robbed me of what was supposed to belong to me, but now I realized that I was tired. In order to do this throne, I killed my mother, killed my brother, and used the woman I wanted to protect the most. Just to consolidate this throne, I really sacrificed too much for this throne...... Even my beloved has a hatred for me. ”

Xiao Jincheng's voice was as fierce as a storm, and he roared like a cry for help, "All this is just for this throne!" Just for this throne! How many times have I wanted to abandon this throne, go away to the end of the world with my heart, and live the life of a fairy couple...... But I can't, because I am the emperor and I have a duty to the country...... How I wish we could go back to where we were back in the beginning, no matter how shocking her thoughts were, I would be with her......"

"Poor Ni has always known that you are a good emperor!"

I covered my lips in disbelief, he had always known.

Don't turn my tolerance for you into your capital for bullying the officials and concubines.

It turns out that he has always known, that's why he said such things to me, it turns out that he has always known what I did in the harem, and he has always been tolerant.

Tears finally dripped uncontrollably from my eyes, down my cheeks, and finally on the back of my hands......

Since he knows it, why do you want to keep me by your side, and since he knows that I want to endanger his country, why do you still want to keep me, and even seal the queen.

After the seal...... Just because he owes me a promise. Owe a promise that should have been mine......

The Ninety-Five is also a mortal, and he also yearns for family happiness.

My hand covering my lips quietly drooped, and I stepped out from behind the stone pillar, choked with tears, and I asked, "Why didn't you tell me these words earlier?" ”

The two people in the room suddenly looked sideways at me, and they both had surprises in their eyes.

I walked towards Xiao Jincheng step by step, tears rolling down, and my hazy eyes stared at Xiao Jincheng with tears in my eyes, "If you can say these words to me personally, maybe I can hate less now, but I never said it when you never did, never." ”

"Heart......" he whispered emotionally, and the tears overflowing his eyes slipped quietly.

"Amitabha." Master Jinghui held the rosary in his hand tightly, "There seem to be many inexplicable misunderstandings between the emperor and his wife, and the poor nun just wants to say that if the person who loves each other for a while can't open his heart and talk for a long time at midnight, it will be a very sad thing." She sighed again and again, "I hope that at this moment, you can let go of everything and tell what is in your heart." ”

She bowed deeply at the end, turned away, lifted the curtain and walked in.

In the empty lobby, only Xiao Jincheng and I were left, and we looked at each other quietly, a thousand words, but we didn't know where to start.

The water waves are transparent and blue like scandium, and the remnants of the sun paves the water jade dust pond.

I rowed with him on the lake again, and the twilight and twilight slanted like fire, covering us, dyeing half of our bodies red.

He said that he had always wanted to bring me here again, to see the two plum trees that we had planted with our own hands.

I was a little confused and confused.

What flashed through my mind was those seven days of ordinary life, and if I wanted to talk about true happiness, there were only seven short days.

On the surface of the lake, Xiao Jincheng did not paddle with his hands, but sat still, letting the wind roll up the water surface and spread into the distance......

Well, if it was before, I would have laughed at him, how long will we float like this, but now I am less wanton and happy than before, and I have become silent......

We all looked down at the reflection in the water, silent for most of the hour, still relatively silent.

The warm wind of summer was blowing slowly, and our boat was always wandering and swaying in the lake, never reaching the shore.

"Master Jinghui is right, if a couple of lovers can't open their hearts and have a long conversation at midnight, it is a very sad thing. If you think about it, we really have never really made friends, we have ever felt like a failure, and we have never really come into your heart. But then, I learned that you will always have that line of defense, and that line of defense that no one can overcome, including me. "I was the first to speak, and I will always be me.

He never takes the initiative to confide in me, and unless I ask him questions, he will always be the passive one.

"I thought you knew everything." He looked at me from the reflection in the water, looking me straight in the eyes, and there was a hint of bitterness in his voice.

"Yes, I know that." I nodded a little amusedly, how could he always be the same sentence. No matter when, what, he thinks I will know? Even if I really knew," I'm waiting for you to tell me personally. ”

With a wave of my hand, I broke the calm surface of the lake and shattered the reflections of the two of us.

The water splashed, wetting my sleeves and my hair, "That time I escaped because of your use, but I didn't expect to be caught by you again, you used seven days of ordinary life to keep me, but I didn't stay." Not only because I have Ahuan's children, not only because I have deep guilt for Ahuan, but also because there is a more important reason. After a pause, he said, "In those seven days, you were indeed very good to me, but your kindness to me will only push me further." For seven days, I waited for you to explain to me about the poisoning, but you never said a word to me, which is enough to show that you still don't believe me. ”

There were also many water stains on his body, which fell on his face, and he did not reach out to wipe them, but listened to me very seriously, and then gave me a deep sentence, "I thought, you can understand without me explaining." ”

"Yes, I know that." My heart suffocated, and a wave of annoyance welled up in my heart, and I slapped the waves above the lake hard.

The lake that had just regained its tranquility was broken again, and my whole body was gradually full of broken beads, and I yelled at him excitedly, "Every time you use me, you say, 'I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you' You don't know, in my eyes, this sentence is a great insult to me. Do you think I'm asking for compensation? No, I want your explanation, I want to hear you say your grievances to me...... I know the pain, but I want to hear it from you!"

"Then why don't you ask?" His face gradually appeared confused, stunned, and puzzled.

"Ask? What face do you want me to ask the man I love the most? We got up from the boat and looked down at him who was still sitting quietly, "Ask you, why did you poison me so cruelly in the first place?" Ask you, why do men who keep saying love use me to consolidate imperial power? Q: Why didn't you stick to it in the end after you promised to touch me alone, and did so much for me? You tell me, how can I be embarrassed by all this? I am a human being, a man of flesh and blood and feelings! Could you please let me leave that last shred of pride on myself? Sour tears hit his eyes, layers of fog and fog, I couldn't see his expression clearly, it was really blurry.

He seemed to move, and I interrupted gloomily and continued, "It's like an accident that happened that day in Chidori Palace, I always knew that you deliberately pushed me away. And you, too, understand, I already knew. But you didn't explain, you just said to me again 'I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you', yes, your compensation is to make me the queen, that is, to make me one person in the harem above ten thousand people. But you know what? At that time, you once again made me feel insulted by you. As the queen, my child's life is only enough to replace a throne that should belong to me, do you know? I have never been uncommon to the queen. ”

If I want the throne, I should tell the world after he ascends the throne, I am the rightful wife of Xiao Jincheng, the king of Zhenbei, I didn't escape, I am not a concubine!

Tears slid silently, tears spread, and my voice trembled more and more.