I shuddered, looking at the bright gray sky in confusion, and I looked sideways at the clear lines on Xiao Jincheng's face again.

He slept very quietly, with a faint smile on his face, and he had never seen him sleep with such a quiet smile after sharing the bed with him for so long.

I couldn't help but stretch out my fingertips and gently stroke his face, and he moved, and I immediately withdrew it, for fear of waking him up.

Soon he fell asleep comfortably, and a sweet smile crossed my face as I looked at him. I wish I could see a serene and masked laugher like him every day, but I know it can't be, there are too many obstacles between us. Even if there will be regrets in my heart, it will be an eternal concern, and it is not a good thing for me and him.

Thinking of this, I quietly got out of bed and put on my shoes, and walked lightly to the bamboo door to pull it open, and although I used a small amount of strength, I still made a small sound.

I looked back, Xiao Jincheng was still lying quietly on the bed, sleeping very soundly, I stared at him deeply, and said in a low voice, "Jincheng, you must be a good emperor." Without hesitation, I turned and left the house, and it was drizzling outside, and the sky was very gray.

For a few seconds, my face was covered with raindrops, but I never stopped, stepping through the grass full of morning dew, and the weeds on the edge of my cheeks, with a slight pain.

You can't turn back, you can't turn back, you can't turn back......

I arrived on the shore alone, picked up the oars and carried the boat away, and the mist rose on the cold surface of the lake, and my eyes were dazzled.

Riding the boat and gradually moving into the middle of the lake, with the breeze, I looked back at the bamboo house of Zi me and Xiao Jincheng on the shore in the distance.

In the future, those two plums, only bother you to go to see them every year, and An Huaixin can no longer accompany you.

You are a good emperor, no matter whether you can unify the world in the end or not, you are still a good emperor in my eyes, you must help the world at the same time, and don't be controlled by demons anymore. Even if I am separated from you, please be sure to cherish it, cherish it.

But the fate of the world, look down on the world. Yes, to get rid of the hatred and confusion in my heart, I must turn away from the dust and look down on the world.

"Heart! You don't go! ”

A sound drifting in the wind pulled my thoughts back, and I looked at Xiao Jincheng who was crying anxiously on the shore of the lake in amazement, and my heart ached.

Why does he have to chase it out, he has his own responsibility, and he can't ignore the personal feelings of his children. And I don't want to hold him back, he should go his own way.

You used to be so cruel to me, so this time, please be ruthless again.

I couldn't see his expression clearly, but his long figure made me feel inexplicably painful, and I waved at him hard to say goodbye. Although I knew that he couldn't see my expression clearly, I kept a smile on my face and didn't want to show more sadness.

As the boat drifted farther and farther away, he gradually blurred out of my vision on the shore, and I slowly turned around and rowed the boat harder towards the opposite shore.

And the sound of the "heart" behind me was accompanied by the cool breeze and cold rain on my face, and I couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain on my face.

……

I hugged Xin'er tightly on the bamboo bed, although I closed my eyes but didn't sleep all night, and the heart around me didn't sleep all night. I thought a lot about what had happened before. I personally pulled down the mother and son who had killed my mother and concubine from that high position, and their shocked and painful eyes undoubtedly did not make me happy!

Yes, joy, this joy with blood, little by little, invaded my heart and lungs, melted into my blood......

I poisoned my only brother, who was much younger than me, in front of the Queen Mother, and watched him scream and beg for mercy in horror, but I was indifferent, and finally watched him fall in front of me bleeding...... And then the woman went crazy!

Who knows if it's crazy or not! I imprisoned her and made her more miserable than dead. And then what did I do? Oh, by the way, I pushed out Chunrui, who was very affectionate to me, in order to consolidate the throne. Even if I protect the woman I love, I will lower the vigilance of the Xia family, and then send Ah Qi to kill that woman to cause trouble, and even I will use her completely until she dies. Then I began to use my heart to get rid of the Xia family...... I've done so many cruel things, is this really what I want?

Xin'er, can you really forgive me for the wrong things I once did to you? Can you really let go of that child being killed by my own hands?

Suddenly I felt a pair of cold, slightly trembling hands caress my eyebrows, and my breath was suffocated, but it soon calmed down.

Suddenly, I felt that she immediately withdrew her hand, and the silence around me panicked, and for the first time such silence made me feel ...... It was as if I was going to lose her.

For a long time, I only heard her sigh softly, so small that I wondered if she had ever sighed.

She quietly climbed out of bed and opened the bamboo door, but I never opened my eyes, I didn't know if I should keep her, if I left me, it was her choice, so that she could be happy...... Then I'll let you go.

But why is my heart so painful?

"Jincheng, you must be a good emperor."

She whispered a word, and I suddenly opened my eyes, sat up from the bed, and looked at the open bamboo door, and my mind went blank.

Is she leaving? She's really leaving...... She wants me to be a good emperor...... But she didn't know that I also wanted to be a good husband and make up for the pain that had been inflicted on her. If I could, I would rather not have this throne, just be an ordinary person, if I had known that I would have to lose so much sacrifice to snatch this throne, I would definitely not choose to take this throne.

She has always wanted to be free, from the first time I saw her, I knew that she did not belong to the palace, maybe not to this world, since when did I feel that she did not feel like a person from this time and space? Maybe it's her novel idea, maybe it's her maverick, Prime Minister An Cheng will never give birth to such a special daughter! Maybe my idea is strange, but I keep it in my heart......

She should do what she wants to do, I forced her to pull her into this bloody power struggle, and turned her originally kind and tenacious into such a worldly one.

I should have let her go, I should have let her go, but ...... I can't bear it, I really can't help it.

You can't go!

As soon as I thought of this, I hurriedly chased after me without wearing my face and shoes.

There was only one thought in my mind, if I let her go this time, I would regret it for the rest of my life.

When I chased to the shore, I saw that Xin'er had gradually moved away from me in the boat, and the cool breeze was hitting my body.

I knew that Xin'er was going to Kongmingtang, and Master Jinghui told me that the only way for her to be free now was to go to the dust.

I don't want to let go, and I can't let go!

"Xin'er, don't go!" I shouted to the middle of the lake, and she looked at me, didn't speak, just waved at me.

I couldn't make out her expression, it seemed to ...... Laughing at me.

After a long time, she turned around, leaving me with a sad back, and gradually moved towards the shore. I shouted her name again and again, but she didn't look back and stepped on the other side.

Can't go, can't go! I jumped into the lake and swam towards the other side of the lake, my eyes soaked with the cool water and drizzle.

I had never panicked so much in twenty-nine years, and it was only now that I realized that my heart was so important in my heart that it even surpassed the throne that I had worked so hard to manage.

After a while, I swam to the other side, and with my tired and wet body did not stop for a moment, I ran towards the empty hall.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and I walked barefoot over the rough and muddy path.

However, when I arrived, the door of the Kongmingtang was tightly closed, and I slapped the heavy Zhu door hard, and shouted with a panting voice, "Xin'er, you come out, I have something to say to you!" ”

I don't know how long I patted, but no one inside responded, I leaned my forehead on the Zhumen weakly, my hands clenched into fists, and deeply calmed the excitement in my heart, "Xin'er, I beg you, I beg you...... Come out and meet me, for I have something to say to you......"

The heavy rain kept beating on me, and the raindrops flowed down my forehead one by one, and I didn't know if I was crying, but I felt that my eyes were sour and painful.

"Squeak"

The door was slowly opened, and I looked up happily, but what I saw was not Xin'er, but Master Jinghui.

She held her long black hair in her hands and bowed to me, and I stared at her angrily, "An Huaixin is my virtuous concubine, the queen I just canonized, you are not qualified to lose her hair, what qualifications do you have to lose her hair!"

It was the first time I had been so disrespectful to her.

"Your Majesty, the poor nun did not fall into Mrs. Lady's hair, this half of the green silk was cut by Mrs. herself and asked me to hand it over to you, she said, break the green silk, break the love silk!"

I trembled and took the half of the love silk in her hand, and my eyes lingered, and I swept over Master Jinghui again, and looked towards the inner hall behind her.

Xin'er knelt in front of Maitreya Buddha with her hands facing away from me, her originally beautiful black hair had been cut in half, and her mind was so resolute!

"Xin'er......" I called hoarsely, she didn't look back, and smoothly kowtowed to Maitreya Buddha, "The emperor, please go back, the poor nun has lost her hair, and the relationship with the emperor has been cut off, please don't entangle it anymore." Her voice was steady, unhesitating, as if she was genuinely determined to escape into the void.

I stared deeply at her back, "Can you really let it go?" Me and you...... feelings? ”

"Yes."

She didn't hesitate, and the affirmative word made me breathe as if I couldn't breathe steadily.

"I know you want to live an ordinary life!" I paused, and made a big decision in my heart, "As long as you say it now, I will definitely leave everything and go away with you." ”

Not only An Huaixin's body suddenly stiffened, but Master Jinghui looked at me with disbelief on his face, and knelt down in an instant, "Your Majesty!" You can't be impulsive! ”

An Huaixin's body relaxed, and he said with a smile, "Your Majesty, you know that I will never ask you to let go of everything, aren't you embarrassing me when you say this now?" ”

"I'm serious."

"No, you're impulsive! It is impossible for you to lay down the throne, because you are an emperor who helps the world, and giving up the country for a woman is not something you will do. You're saying that now, just to keep me, to do everything you can to keep me. If I really nodded and agreed, you would regret it, you don't belong to the ordinary, you belong to the world. Therefore, please leave, the emperor, taking it up and letting it go is what an emperor should really do. Today's broken hair is all but everything, hatred, love, has nothing to do with me in the future! ”

I listened to her words in a daze, and there was unspeakable bitterness in my heart, perhaps...... What she said was true. Now I am still in the throne and love, hesitating, maybe I really can't give up the throne!

If I were just an ordinary prince at this moment, I would definitely not hesitate to give up the throne, but at this moment I am the emperor, and my helplessness and bitterness are only known to me. I have a responsibility to the world, and I have a responsibility to the people. If I leave, who will take over this world, I don't even have someone to replace!

"Has the emperor ever heard the phrase 'at that time, only the ordinary way'? Now please put it down, and think about it again after many years, but it will only be a very ordinary thing. ”

An Huaixin still turned his back to me, and said in that voice as light as water.

I took a few steps back weakly, stepped into the cold muddy water, and sneered, "Okay, okay, I'll let you go, I'll let you go......"

I repeated the words, turned abruptly, threw myself into the heavy rain, and left the Empty Ming Hall.

Always facing Maitreya Buddha with his eyes closed and indifferent, An Huaixin still knelt in front of the Buddha as usual, his palms trembled slightly, and a tear dripped from the corner of his eye.

Obsession, resentment, delusion, hatred, love today, she can finally let it all go.

- Born a generation of a couple, really called two ecstasy, lovesick not blind date, who is the spring of the day!