When he got home, Lei Ming would be planted on the bed, he didn't want to talk to Xiaoxia, he was afraid that if he missed his mouth, he would shout out the deepest sentence in his heart: "Xiaoxia, if you weren't running around, my son wouldn't be without it!" ”

Lei Ming didn't have the courage to hurt Xiao Xia, he knew that Xiao Xia would never suffer less than himself! Lei Ming wanted to avoid all this, wine is a good thing at the moment, drinking it, at least for the time being, is happy.

During the day, Xiao Xia was the only one in the lonely room, maybe the blow was too sudden, Xiao Xia had not yet woken up from her mother's dream. One day, Xiaoxia had just woken up from her sleep in a daze, she involuntarily touched her stomach, but when her hand fell on her shriveled belly, her heart hurt like a pinprick, she quickly retracted her hand, and for a moment, her hands had nowhere to put it, Xiaoxia couldn't help but cover her face with her hands, crying too much, even her tears were tired, Xiaoxia comforted herself "One day it will pass, it will definitely pass!" ”

Xiaoxia, who is on bed rest, often turns on the TV to the loudest sound, although she doesn't know what is playing on the TV, but at least the sound can fill her ears so that she can stop her thoughts a little. She didn't dare to think about the child, she wouldn't be able to control her emotions, and Xiaoxia didn't have the courage to step into the baby room. That once beautiful place now looks like a demon that has been calling her. Once she enters that room, Xiaoxia will not be able to control her thoughts, she will think of the baby who grew up day by day, and was about to be born, and in an instant, it disappeared, and she walked so quickly, without even a little mental preparation, the baby left. The photo of the star baby in the house smiled at her, as if mocking her for not being able to protect even a child. The cabinet was full of baby clothes and baby toys, every piece of clothing and every toy was carefully selected by Xia, and now it was indeed so redundant and so dazzling. The crib is also like asking "Where is my little master?" Where is he? I'm waiting for him here, I've been waiting for him for too long, too long. ”

This heavy blow has made Xiaoxia forget what happiness is, the gloomy atmosphere envelops her, and now she can only lie motionless on the bed most of the time, there is nothing to do, which makes Xiaoxia even more painful, sometimes she will get up like crazy, start mopping the floor, start washing clothes, she wants to do something to occupy her time, but just after doing it for a while, her stomach hurts again, and it hurts so much that Xiaoxia can't stand up, she has to hold on to the wall, walk back to the room step by step, and lie down honestly, She had to continue to think about the things that had already made her miserable - Xiaoxia lost her child!

At this moment, how Xiaoxia hopes that Lei Ming can comfort and comfort herself, even if it is a simple comfort, at least let Xiaoxia feel that her heart has something to rely on. But every day Thunder has to wait until late in the evening to get home. When he got home, he either fell into the quilt and covered his head to sleep, or turned on the TV very loudly, Xiaoxia could see that Lei Ming was avoiding himself, Lei Ming didn't want to talk to himself more, and he didn't even want to look at himself more.

Sometimes, after listening to Lei Ming and watching TV, Xiao Xia, who was lying in the bedroom, fell asleep directly on the sofa, she would silently walk over and cover the quilt for Lei Ming, in fact, Xiao Xia knew that Lei Ming was not asleep. Xiao Xia really wanted to lean over and ask Lei Ming why he refused to pay attention to him, but looking at Lei Ming's pretending to be asleep, Xiao Xia had no choice but to leave silently again.

Women, that's it, when you need this man, even if he only gives you a hug, you will dig out your heart and lungs with him; But if all this man can leave is his back, the woman is willing to keep the pain in her heart, at least to retain the last bit of dignity.

Xiaoxia had no choice but to wait, she hoped that time could wash away everything, erase her pain, and erase Lei Ming's indifference to herself.

Two weeks later, Xiaoxia's body gradually recovered, and she didn't have to lie in bed every day. Xiao Xia walked slowly in the house, walked to the living room, she hesitated, plucked up her courage to walk to the mirror, Xiao Xia was frightened by herself in front of her, only to see a woman with a cloak standing there in a daze, there was no trace of blood on her pale face, her eyes were dull, if it weren't for the eyes that would still turn, it would be hard to imagine that this was a living woman, a woman who was just thirty years old.

Xiaoxia couldn't bear to look at it anymore, and when she looked back, she saw the clothes stacked in the house, the coffee table was full of dust, and there were bursts of wine from time to time, which was the wine that Lei Ming had left from yesterday.

Xiaoxia was stunned, is this still her home? Is this still a home that gives her happiness and makes her happy?

Xiaoxia sat down slowly, she looked ahead, thought for a long time, and finally she figured it out. Xiaoxia told herself that she couldn't go on like this, and if she did it again, the family would be scattered! Even if I wash my face with tears all day long, the child still can't come back, but life still has to be passed. Even if Lei Ming borrows wine every day to kill his sorrows, even if Lei Ming can't figure it out for a while, but after all, we are husband and wife!

Think about the thunderous "I can't lose you" in the hospital, think about the thunder that once loved me deeply, I shouldn't give up this home easily, I must not watch a good home fall apart like this! Since I can't change others, I have to change from myself! I'm going to pull myself together, even if it's pretending, at least to make Thunder think I'm strong. As a wife, I have the ability and obligation to go through this difficult time with Lei Ming, and I want him to know that only home is the eternal home. Because I love thunder!

Xiaoxia has figured it out, if she wants to change, she will change from now on! She began to tidy up the house slowly, first replacing all the bed sheets in the bedroom with new ones, and then wiping down the living room, Xiaoxia sprayed some detergent again, and felt almost done, so she went back to the kitchen and washed the accumulated dishes and chopsticks. Xiaoxia opened the refrigerator, and there were some quick-frozen foods that she bought before the hospitalization. She took out the quick-frozen buns, prepared to steam them for a while, and boiled a pot of millet porridge.

At this time, it was almost five o'clock, Xiaoxia took out her mobile phone and sent a message to Lei Ming: "Husband, I have already made dinner, I am waiting for you at home, let's come back for dinner together." Love your summer. ”

Xiaoxia, who had been busy all day, was a little tired, so she leaned back on the sofa and rested while waiting for the thunder. Xiao Xia looked at the clock and watched the time pass minute by minute, but she didn't wait for the thunder to come back. Xiaoxia couldn't help it, and called Lei Ming, the sound of the tick on the other side of the phone, after a long time, finally connected, Xiaoxia hurriedly said: "Hey, husband, it's me, did you see my text message?" When to get home elegantly? ”

Lei Ming "I'm working overtime, you can eat by yourself, I'm a little busy now, hang up." ”

Before Xiaoxia could speak again, the phone had already hung up.

Xiaoxia holding her phone. Suddenly, she felt that the man on the other side of the phone was so strange, his tone was cold, and the person was also cold, Lei Ming didn't want to go home, it was just a normal dinner, but he didn't want to come back to eat, did Lei Ming really want to give up? Xiaoxia didn't dare to think about it, and she didn't want to think deeply. She knew that all she had to do now was try to save the thundering heart. Xiaoxia told herself that she would take her time, and one day, she would use her sincerity to melt Lei Ming's cold heart.

In the evening, it was more than nine o'clock, and Lei Ming came back drunk. He opened the door in a daze and found Xiao Xia standing at the door, Lei Ming glanced at Xiao Xia and asked, "You, why are you here?" ”

Xiaoxia turned out the bag in Lei Ming's hand, helped Lei into the house, and she said softly: "Husband, I'm waiting for you to come home, I've prepared the bath water, come, change your clothes, it's time to wash." ”

Saying that, Xiaoxia helped Lei Ming take off his coat, and the half-drunk Lei Ming took a step back and said, "I'll do it myself." ”

After speaking, he dragged into the bathroom with heavy steps.

Walking out of the bathroom, Lei Ming saw the prepared pajamas and changed his clothes. At this time, he found that the living room was clean and clean, and there was a cup of hot tea on the coffee table, when Xiaoxia came over and said with a smile: "Drink a cup of hot tea, sober up." ”

Lei Ming hesitated, pretended not to sober up and said, "It's too late, I'll rest first." After saying that, he walked into the house and went straight to bed. He didn't want to, and he didn't have the mental preparation to face his wife's love for him.

The next morning, Xiaoxia got up early, began to prepare for breakfast, and then ironed Lei Ming's shirt again. At about half past six, Xiaoxia walked to Lei Ming's side and gently called him to get up, as soon as the sleepy-eyed Lei Ming opened his eyes, he saw Xiao Xia, still smiling faintly, still so softly speaking, she said, "Husband, it's time to get up." Hurry up and wash up, it's just ready early, it's still hot, and I'm waiting for you to have breakfast together. ”

Lei Ming walked to the bathroom and found that Xiaoxia had even squeezed out the toothpaste and set up the towels. Lei Ming hurriedly washed up and came to the living room, where Xiao Xia sat at the dining table, waiting for Lei Ming. As soon as he came over, he naturally said, "Eat quickly, I boiled your favorite millet porridge." ”

Lei Ming took the bowl and wanted to say thank you, but he couldn't say it, he had to keep his head down and eat breakfast silently, Xiao Xia instead seemed to see nothing, and helped Lei pick up some small dishes while eating, in this embarrassing atmosphere, Lei Ming ate for about ten minutes, and then left in a hurry. He got up and said, "It's time for me to go to work, you can rest at home by yourself, don't be tired." ”

When he arrived at the company, Lei Ming sat quietly in the office alone, he remembered Xiaoxia's weak body, and she still looked weak when she spoke, but she didn't care about recuperation, but she was anxious to take care of herself, Lei Ming felt very guilty; He didn't expect that Xiaoxia, who had not yet recovered from her illness, would be able to take the initiative to let go of her sadness and care for herself.

Lei Ming's mind couldn't turn for a while, he was still immersed in the pain of losing his child, at least for now, he didn't want to face Xiaoxia. He couldn't do it in disguise, especially to Xiaoxia. I want to talk about "Sweetheart Assistant: Gao Leng's Husband's Private Love" with more like-minded people, and pay attention to "excellent reading literature" on WeChat, talk about life, and find a confidant~