Li Yue'er

Chen Ran said that with me, of course he had to choose the movie that best suited his mood at the moment - "Heartbeat", I bowed my head and joked to him, "It turns out that you are only interested in me now"

He seemed to be stunned, didn't speak for a long time, I raised my head and glanced at him slightly, only to see him tilting his head and staring at me with a smile, I frowned slightly, and said shyly, "What are you doing?" ”

In the next second, a warm lip overturned down, instantly drowning out my unspoken words, tossing and turning, and letting go of me for a long time, "I have long been moved, but at this moment, it is better to act than to be moved." After saying that, I couldn't help but laugh.

I gently slapped his shoulder, as if embarrassed, "I can't tell you every time", but he held him in his arms, sighed with infinite satisfaction in my ear, and murmured, "Yue'er, my Yue'er, I really want to hold you like this all the time." ”

I closed my eyes and hugged him, enjoying the warmth of his arms, there was silence around me, only his peculiar smell mixed with the smell of tobacco surrounded each other, I seemed to have never felt at ease and calm, only hugged him tightly, as if nothing could separate us.

After a long time, I patted him on the back and said slowly, "The movie is about to start", he nodded, reluctantly let go of me, and kissed me lightly on the lips, "Girl, let's go"

Perhaps due to the influence of the name, at first we all thought that "Heartbeat" was just an ordinary youth love idol drama, and we didn't pay much attention to it. After all, the first date with Chen Ran, the movie is just a carrier, and the meaning of the date itself is far better than that. It wasn't until the words "Director: Zhang Aijia" appeared on the screen that I got a little in mind.

I couldn't help but shout softly, "What about Zhang Aijia's movie", Chen Ran sat next to me, gently held my hand, turned his head and asked, "Like her?" ”

"Hmm" I nodded, Zhang Aijia has always been an artist I like very much, a song "The Price of Love" has made me cry in middle school for many nights, and therefore I remember this woman with a gentle temperament. Later, I learned that her life is quite legendary, with rich experience and many titles, whether it is a singer, actor, screenwriter or director, she can find a world. Such a woman, her love life should also be colorful and maverick, so she married her ex-husband who was 16 years older than her at the age of 25 despite the opposition of her family; After 6 years of love, he gave birth to a child out of wedlock at the age of 37, burdened with the pressure of a third party and his unmarried mother, but he was still lonely and proud.

Unexpectedly, now I overlapped a part of her life, sitting next to another man, quietly watching the wind and snow she was about to show. Is this a kind of fate? Perhaps, women in the world, in their fate, love and freedom will be eternal propositions.

The curtain slowly opened, and outside the musical instrument shop, 17-year-old Xiaorou accidentally hit the floor-to-ceiling glass; In the musical instrument industry, the same young Haojun fell in love with her at first sight. Later, the two meet again at a friend's ball, and she accidentally vomits on him when she gets drunk, so he has a reason to get close to her. At a roadside food stall, he shook her hand. Later, they watched movies together, took the bus, kissed in the dark alleys, and hugged each other affectionately in the cold night breeze...... Early love has never been favored by the elders, reprimanding, scolding, persuasion, tears followed, in the face of all kinds of pressure, they quarreled with each other and finally broke up, never met again.

An unexpected reunion in Japan after many years. At that time, the face was still familiar, but things had changed. She is a fashion designer who travels everywhere, shedding her childishness and becoming capable and mature. But he is already married, and he is no longer the boy who dreams of music. Circumstance is a sharp knife that cuts through illusion, and no one can escape the hard stabbing of reality. Drink a glass of sake and smile. She rubbed her hands on the streets of a strange city and said it was cold, just like at the beginning; He wrapped his coat around her and embraced her as he had done at the beginning. The past and the old things came to a bang, and they finally desperately resisted and lingered, and in the emotional moment, everything seemed to return to the beginning, and they were still the people they loved each other.

He divorced, returned to the old place to find her, and said clumsily: "You work hard, when will you have time to marry me." He placed the ring in the clear glass and waited for her choice. She said, "Why do you have to let me choose?", and she put on his ring instead of drinking the water from the glass. He felt sorry for her and wanted to take care of her, but he couldn't take her away. She loved him, she accepted his love and expressed her love, but she couldn't accept his marriage proposal.

It was a step short at the beginning, just a step short, but it was always a step behind......

At the end of the film, he put the time in a wooden box and gave it to her, and the thin piece of paper like a cicada's wings wrote: "This is the day when I miss you, give it all to you." ”

She saw those photos of the years, one sky after another, hazy, cloudless, faint, clouds in different postures laid out in an unchanging mood, called longing.

They live under the same sky, but they can't see each other, they can only look at the common blue sky above their heads.

She looked at the heavy memory in her hand, turned her head, and left her side face for the camera, and the tears in her eyes did not fall after all.

"It's been a long time since I've seen you

Thought you were where

It was in my heart

Breathe with me

How far away

I thought I couldn't smell you

Who knew your back was so long

I'll see you when I look back

The past lets it pass

It's too late

Like you from the beginning

White clouds wrap around the blue sky

yes

If not able to walk together forever

Also at least to us

The courage of remembrance

The right to hug

So that you understand

Traces of my heartbeat

Always want to see you again

Also try to find out your news

It turns out that you live in my body

Guarding my memories"

The song of "Heartbeat" sounded, and Lin Xiaopei's calm and distant voice came eloquently, counting the heartbeat and heartache in the passing years, but the vicissitudes of the world were helpless. I was in such a plain voice, in the silent dark theater, holding Chen Ran's hand, tears like rain.

Out of the theater, Chen Ran saw me with tears in his eyes and sighed, "I wanted to take you relaxed, I thought it was a romantic comedy, but I didn't expect to cause a pear blossom rain." Gently stroked away the undried tears in the corners of my eyes, "Girl, that's a movie, it's all fake." Don't cry, huh? ”

"I know, but I just feel so uncomfortable, and so moved" He didn't say okay, but what he said reminded me of more sorrow, "In the last scene, Haojun sent Xiaorou so many cards, from 1978 to 1992, so many days of missing, but he couldn't even speak, only relying on those silent cards to express for him, I saw this, I was really moved...... "My tears welled up again, choked up."

"Okay, okay, don't cry" Seeing that I was sad, Chen Ran couldn't care about the people around him, and took me into his arms, "It turns out that my Yue'er is so easy to be moved, then I will also write down every day I miss you and give it to you, so aren't you even more moved?" He coaxed me and said, "Those are just the methods of making movies, good, don't cry, so many people are watching." As he spoke, he took out a tissue to wipe my tears.

Although Chen Ran's words did not mean to care about everyone, they also reminded me that I was in broad daylight at the moment, and I was busy gently leaving his shoulder, taking the tissue in his hand and wiping it by myself, muttering and muttering, "I'm a girl, of course it's easier to be moved than you men, why laugh at me" Suddenly thought of the end of the movie, although Haojun Xiaorou loved each other, but never walked together, and felt that he said that the card he also gave me was ominous, so he changed his words, "If you want me, I'll just say it to me directly, so I don't want to accept your bunch of things without a sound......" Don't forget to look at him when he said it.

When Chen Ran saw me like this, he couldn't help but smile dumbly, and pinched my face lovingly, "Okay, okay, listen to Yue'er." He smiled slyly at me, "Girl, I miss you." ”

I was stunned, glanced around, and glared at him, "There are people everywhere, how can you say it directly?" Am I not with you? I still want to ......"

Chen Ran sneered, "Didn't you tell me to say it directly?" ”

"You ......," I realized at this time that he was deliberately joking with me, and I couldn't help but be ashamed and anxious, "I always can't talk about you, you scoundrel." He turned his head and pretended to ignore him.

Chen Ran laughed, "Okay, okay, don't be angry, tease you, don't cry now, right?" He handed me the drink in his hand, "Help me get it, I'll go to the bathroom." You're waiting for me here, and we'll go together later."

"Hey, hey," I stopped him, hesitated, and said, "Let's go?" Isn't it good? Otherwise, I'll wait for you in the garage first."

"No" Chen Ran's voice was firm and powerful, and he quickly intercepted my words, "Listen to me, it's okay, you just wait for me here." He smiled at me, nodded, and turned away.

I bit my lip and looked at the two drinks in my hand, one large and one small couple's glass, the orange juice was thick and sweet, full of love flavor. Looking at Chen Ran's back, thinking of his unquestionable tone just now, something called luck crept out of my body, and I heard it say to me, "It's okay, Li Yue'er, City C is so big, how can you meet an acquaintance when you go out so coincidentally." Don't worry, no one will see it. Chen Ran asked you to wait for him here, just obediently, why do you always hide in Tibet, just once, listen to him, go with him, and give your date a complete ENDDING, isn't it? Don't worry, it's okay, just once, just ......once, just once" I kept cheering myself up in my heart, and finally made up my mind in repeated self-persuasion and stood in the same place.

Time passed quickly, I stood in the center of the hall, holding me and Chen Ran's two drinks, looking forward to it, a few minutes was really fast, I had already seen Chen Ran, he was there, more than ten meters away from me, beckoning to me from afar, I looked at him with a smile, I was a little excited, and the next thing will be the first time I tried to walk side by side with him in front of the public, and there was a faint expectation in my heart, there can really be such a moment, I haven't looked forward to it. At this moment, everything around me seems to be hidden in the background, and he is the only one in the flowing picture in front of me, with a smile on his eyebrows, walking towards me firmly, step by step, step by step...... It's coming to me soon.

"Yue'er! It's you again! How did I always meet you recently! Hey, what a coincidence! ”

That familiar voice, I knew it as soon as I heard it, I knew it as soon as I heard it! …… It's just that at this moment, I didn't have any surprises from the other party, as if I was hit on the head by a heavy hammer, and I was only stunned in the moment.