Li Yue'er

My father finally survived the catastrophe, and when I heard the doctor say that the operation was successful, I suddenly spit out the breath I was holding, and my whole body was relieved of it, and the whole person fell on Chen Ran's body, like a dying fish finally struggling to the shallows with water, looking at the dark blue not far away, and finally there was a light of hope in my eyes.

Even if you can only look through the glass window of the intensive care unit at this moment, it is better than the white miserable door blocked a few hours ago, and under the dazzling three big words "operating room", the distance is one step away, but I don't know whether it is goodbye in this life, or yin and yang.

Looking at my father in the pile of instruments not far away, I have thanked God for his mercy and favor countless times in my heart, and if my father suffers misfortune because of me today, I will never be able to forgive myself for the sins I have committed in my life.

So when I heard Chen Ran holding my hand and saying to me, "Yue'er, I'll go back to H City next weekend and divorce Xiaojuan", I was disengaged for a few seconds. I don't know why he suddenly made this decision so quickly, maybe his father's words finally stabbed his self-esteem as a man, or maybe he was eager to give an explanation to his seriously ill father and me, in short, I saw that the determination and coldness in his eyes when he said this were very different from the usual thoughtful and calm Chen Ran, so Chen Ran changed for me, I didn't know whether to be happy or sad.

Glancing at my father on the hospital bed, I lowered my eyes and said softly, "Have you thought about it, Chen Ran?" Even if you and Sister Xiaojuan divorce, my dad may not be able to accept you. ”

"But I can't always talk to my uncle about my love for you as this married man, right?" Chen Ran took a deep breath and clenched my hand, "I also want to wait for everything to be arranged step by step and then go to my uncle to ask him to marry his daughter to me, but God doesn't intend to give me such enough time, now that I have come to this point, a long pain is better than a short pain, since I have decided to divorce Xiaojuan, I will continue to suffer from it, and now only by cutting through the mess can I protect you to the greatest extent, Yue'er, do you understand?" ”

I was silent for a long time, Chen Ran was right, my father even refused Chen Ran after the divorce, let alone the situation of stepping on two boats in his eyes now. What's more, he is now sick in bed, and the doctor has repeatedly told him not to be excited, not to be angry, not to be stimulated, and the current relationship between me and Chen Ran is an unsolvable dispute after all, which will only cause him endless disgust and anger. It's better to let Chen Ran take this step, he is better than the embarrassment and embarrassment of the moment without identity ties, and over time, maybe he can get his father's consent.

Right? That's all there is to it...... I raised my head and looked out the window, the summer thunderstorms came and went quickly, and now the wind and rain gradually stopped, but the summer heat did not subside much, and the mud stained with moisture rose, but it made people feel more uncomfortable. I looked at the windswept leaves on the trees, the withered thin stems crumbling, only dripping downward, looking dejected, and suddenly felt that everything in this world seemed to have its own body and could not help itself, drifting like duckweed in the torrent of the world.

The only one who feels sorry is Sister Xiaojuan. In this unintentional love migration, it was because of me that I was innocently implicated and injured. Do not do to others what you do not want to be done to yourself, but now I also rely on Chen Ran's love for me to no longer back down, and I watched her come to an end in the long time with Chen Ran......

Sister Xiaojuan, I'm sorry, women are selfish in love, and I am no exception. I'm sorry......

The corners of my eyes were sour, and tears fell, I hurriedly wiped them with my hands, turned my head and squeezed out a smile at Chen Ran, "Okay, Chen Ran, after all, it's going to come this far, isn't it?" "Looking at my father's old figure, I only feel that I am too busy to take care of myself at the moment, and I really can't think about more other people, and even if there is a little hope with Chen Ran, I don't want to let it go.

Chen Ran smiled and nodded at me, and took me into his arms again, but in his smile, I couldn't see the slightest bit of ease and heartfelt happiness.

In the following week, I thought that I was worried about the irritation of my father's body, except for the few days in the ICU when Chen Ran accompanied me in the hospital every day, my father did not come to visit me after being transferred to the general ward, but only called and texted me every day to ask about my father's recent situation, and thoughtfully took leave for me and the company, allowing me to go to the hospital for half a day every day before my father was discharged from the hospital to take care of my father.

As Chen Ran said, his father's condition recovered quickly due to the timely rescue, and he was able to walk on the ground after being transferred to the general ward. It's just that because of Chen Ran's incident, he finally fell into trouble with me, no matter how I took care of me before and after, he turned a blind eye to me and said nothing, and the previous father-daughter relationship was gone. Knowing the original situation, I have nothing to say, just continue to do my filial piety as a child, waiting for the news that Chen Ran brought back from H City, hoping to melt the iceberg that suddenly rose between me and my father.

After Pleasant Goat and Manager Shen learned the news that their father was sick and hospitalized, they both came to visit the hospital. Although Pleasant Goat did not ask about the cause of my father's illness, he saw that my father was indifferent to me, and he must have guessed eight or nine points. But she only sighed lightly, didn't say anything, and only told her father to rest and take care of her body. When I saw her off, before getting into the car, she thought about it and pulled my hand again and again, "Yue'er, it seems that the colleagues in the company know about you and Mr. Chen...... I don't know how, I didn't tell anyone...... I heard that when the city leaders came to inspect the company that day, the previous Mayor Zhao wanted you to accompany the wine, and Mr. Chen actually said that you left your job and directly helped you block it" She paused, quite angry, "He found another excuse to resign, can't he say that, don't you want to let everyone know that your relationship is not ordinary?" This is helping you, putting you on the fire to roast! "Pleasant Goat's eyebrows have been saved up in a bunch," everyone talked about it, saying that you are, you are Mr. Chen's, lover, that's why he protects you like that!" …… Alas, there is also that Tang Hai" Pleasant Goat bit his lip, as if with great anger and contempt, "I didn't expect him to be such a person, thanks to me and Shen Dazhi who used to help him say good things." Even if you don't have a fate to come together, you can't fall into the well like a woman chewing your tongue everywhere, I heard that he has hinted to many people openly and secretly about your relationship with Mr. Chen, I have a classmate from the Industrial and Commercial Bureau, once I was still asking me if there was such a thing at dinner, you don't know how surprised I was at the time, this man's revenge is too terrible, and he can't get a bad reputation, it turns out that he is a very polite person, how can it be such a li, alas, I know people and faces, but I don't know my heart, I don't know how to persuade you now, and even, I don't know whether to persuade you or not......" Pleasant Goat sighed and lowered her eyes, "Yue'er, don't blame me for talking too much, I'm telling you this, just to make you mentally prepared, you and I both know that people are terrible, we all live in this very realistic world, there is no way," paused, she finally asked, "You and Mr. Chen, what are you going to do?" Now everyone knows that your days in Kairan ...... Alas, I'm really worried about you, and since so many people know, it's hard to guarantee that it won't reach the ears of Mr. Chen's wife, in case, if she is like Guo Xin's wife, I can't imagine what you will do then......"

Pleasant Goat's eyes were full of worry and apprehension, but my heart slowly sank and sank in her words, until it reached the deepest depths, and I could no longer see. It turns out that everyone already knows, heh, no wonder I always feel that my colleagues look at me at work these days with indescribable strangeness and ambiguity, I still only say that I have a lot of heart, I never thought that this man and woman are the most unfooted and run the fastest, especially in the eyes of the world, the boss and the little secretary's affair, when it is the best gossip condiment, to provide people with after-dinner conversation, ridiculous I still think that it is well hidden, but I don't know that I have already become a joke in the eyes of others to be pointed at, How many unbearable words and stories have been derived.

Thinking of this, I laughed silently, and finally came to this point, and the fear I had once tried to hide, was now naked in the sun, and there was no shelter at all. The sun is so good at this moment, although the sun in the summer season is not as fierce as in the summer, but it is also the sun shining brightly, and all the dark corners of the dregs and redundant are not hidden.

Hehe, what should I do, what can I do, just know it, it doesn't matter, it's already like this anyway, look, such a sunny summer day, hasn't it changed the sky?

Just looking at my bitter helpless self-deprecating smile, Pleasant Goat was startled, "Are you okay Yue'er?" She looked at me uneasily, "If you want me to say, don't care too much, everyone in this world is like this, who doesn't talk about people behind their backs, who doesn't say anything behind their backs, the matter has come to this, and then I mind that the eyes of people are only bitter, so it's better to discuss it with Mr. Chen, although I don't think he really should let you face such a problem, but objectively speaking, Mr. Chen is still responsible, and a stinky man like Guo Xin is different." Pleasant Goat held my hand, "Yue'er, be brave, now is not the time to be depressed, uncle needs you to take care of it, there are many things that you need to face and deal with, no matter what, you still have me as a friend, I will always be by your side to support you." ”

I looked up at Pleasant Goat, there was spotless care and sincerity in her eyes, and her heart couldn't help but be hot, Pleasant Goat was right, now is not the time to be depressed, Chen Ran has not been working hard for our future, I must not be discouraged at this critical time, no matter what, since I have come to this point, since there is no way back, I have to fight for myself, to practice all the possibilities of me and Chen Ran.

Therefore, when I returned to the company on the second day, I no longer cared about everyone's eyes and whispers, but only buried myself in my own business, consciously blocking out those redundant noises. It's just that when I went to Wang Hao's office to deliver the report and was about to leave, he stopped me, stared at me for a long time, and finally spoke, "Yue'er" He called my name again, but there was no other temperature than before, and he paused, as if he was finally considering, "Mr. Chen, he is a good person." It's a pity that you are at the wrong time" said and got up and walked in front of me, looking at me, "I don't know how much he can do for you, I can only say that between you, hard work is inevitable, especially you, you have to be mentally prepared......" sighed, he continued, "It's just that if you have the opportunity to go in the future, you must go, don't be nostalgic!" You must remember to give yourself leeway! Then he turned and walked to the window, with his back to me, and could no longer see the expression on his face.

"Remember what you told me? Companionship is the most affectionate confession, heh, I used to think how numb this sentence was, but now I feel it very deeply...... Zhang Xiaoqi and I, we are together. ”