Chapter 32: Happiness Stills Fear of the Future

Liu Ze came out wrapped in a bath towel.

Ning Xiaonuma stared at the TV and didn't watch it, but Yu Guang still unconsciously sneaked a look, and his heart beat fast.

"You go wash it too, it's coming."

She pursed her lips.

Liu Ze said this three times, and Ning Xiaonuma finally went.

The door of the bathroom was closed, the sound of rushing water came, and Liu Ze's heart was also rattling, and the photos of Ning Xiaonuan inside without clothes kept coming to his mind at this time, especially the places he had touched and eaten.

Even if the sound of the water stopped, it was another half an hour before Ning Xiaonuma came out.

She took a shower, put all her clothes back on, and put on her jeans well, and then continued to watch TV on the other bed.

The private space is a young couple in love.

"Take off your jeans outside, it's so uncomfortable."

"It's fine."

"Isn't it necessary to sleep in clothes? How hard. Liu Ze half-jokingly, she pursed her lips and was silent.

"It's up to you." Liu Ze said, sat next to her, gently hugged her shoulders, watched TV, slowly hugged her waist, rubbed the fragrance of her hair, and gradually couldn't help herself, and kissed her lips.

Liu Ze kissed very carefully, just like a porcelain, like a boutique, pecking the lip beads a little bit, pecking from the left to the right, the upper lip, ****, and the shell teeth.

Ning Xiaonuan closed her eyes, and with a sound of um, she would quickly bite her mouth and not say a word.

Gradually, he was not satisfied.

Kissing the chin, neck.

It's so sensitive, itchy.

His hands began to move, and he disarmed him again, and he couldn't take off his bra and clothes, but directly pulled them off, and touched the most precious work of art again, and lowered his head to eat.

I don't know how long it took, but he was still not satisfied, and his hand went to undo her pants.

The buttons of jeans are notoriously difficult to solve.

She was also lost, as if an electric current was passing through her body, and suddenly her whole body stiffened, and her two hands clutched her pants desperately, and she said firmly: "Turn off the lights!" ”

There is a posture that she will not obey if she doesn't turn off the lights, and she is a lot more sober.

Liu Ze dared to say that this was the quickest move he had, so he ran out of bed and turned off the lights and jumped on again.

The jeans were taken off, and the autumn coat inside was also taken off.

He also wanted to kiss and be pulled by her.

"No, don't."

This progress made Ning Xiaonuma very panicked, how could he not do that step, her resistance, Liu Ze also sobered up a lot, the two of them really wanted to do everything, what was pregnant flashed in his mind, the fate of Wei Sixin and Kou Chong, he was unwilling.

He finally didn't touch the last line of arms, but at this point, he was really uncomfortable, and finally solved the problem on her thigh.

A piece of slimy.

He was lying on the bed and dressed in rough clothes.

She didn't move.

The darkness, he relieved himself to touch it, it was a pair of rabbits.

Ning Xiaonuma got away, just now, her brain was confused, it was the original sin that burst out of her body, no one could control it, now that she was awake, she had a deep sense of disgust, disgusted with herself, and felt that lying like this with Liu Ze was very ugly, like an animal, and the emotions in her heart were very complicated.

"I'm going to turn on the lights? The game may be about to start. ”

Liu Ze asked.

"Wait a minute."

All at once the lights came on, from darkness back to light.

Liu Ze was only wearing shorts, and Ning Xiaonuma was almost all dressed neatly, Liu Ze was going to look stupid and put it on again?

"Don't you wipe it?"

Suddenly said such a sentence.

"Wiped it over."

Ning Xiaonuma said as calmly as possible.

Well, I watched a ball game all night.

When Liu Ze returned to the dormitory, the three guys were still coaxing, and he opened up directly, the three of you haven't lived outside, ask a fart.

The relationship between the two is slowly developing, there will be contradictions, every time Liu Ze will persuade, reason, and dissolve, every time Ning Xiaonuma does not speak, does not reply to text messages, does not answer the phone, no matter how long Liu Ze has not contacted her, it is such a cold war, Liu Ze always tries his best to resolve it in order not to leave any regrets between the two people.

For a long time after that, the two did not have too close contact.

In the summer of 2006, the two were separated for the first time after falling in love, Liu Ze not only studied circuits, but also started tutoring work, after all, in the less economically developed ice city, the technology he knew was not easy to exchange for money for a while, it was very hard, but it was also fulfilling, and he called Ning Xiaonuma every day.

Whether it's a text message or a phone call, the two can always chat happily.

Until mid-August 2006, there was not a single quarrel, Ning Xiaonuma always had a cold war, and Liu Ze always took the initiative to seek peace and resolution.

After a day of not seeing each other, Ning Xiaonuma was finally going back to school, and Liu Ze was looking forward to seeing his girl again, and hugged him tightly.

It's just that it's unfortunate.

On the way from home to Jianghai to take the train, the bus encountered an accident, Liu Ze flew to Jianghai as soon as he learned about it, fortunately it was not serious, the two of them went back to Bingcheng in a sleeper together, and in the next few days, he took good care of her, very considerate and gentle.

After this incident, Ning Xiaonuma became more dependent on Liu Ze, but she would never say it.

has also been in love for almost half a year, she never expresses it, she never says to Liu Ze that I miss you, I love you, etc., she is a person who is ashamed to express it in words.

During the eleventh long holiday in 2006, the two went to the Songhua River hand in hand to play, and came back at noon.

"I've always wanted to go to BJ."

Ning Xiaonuma said.

"Then go."

Liu Ze has always spoiled her, since she wants to go, let's take a trip that says go.

"I didn't buy a ticket, so where is it too late now, forget it."

"What if there's a ticket?" Liu Ze went to the queue to ask without saying a word, the green car was gone, he directly bought two express tickets, and walked towards her waving the tickets, with a smile on his face, the sun shone on his face, Ning Xiaonuan looked at him, and suddenly felt so warm in his heart, and wanted to cry, but suddenly another emotion came up and made her cold down.

Too long, too long.

I don't know when it started.

She didn't expect to meet a man she knew in her life and live happily together.

For this reason, she always jokes with her best friend that she is the one who sees through the red dust.

"Let's go, go back and pack your bags."

Just go.

Yes, young people like to talk about the trip that they say the most, Liu Ze will not leave regrets for the relationship between the two, he is emotional and romantic to Ning Xiaonuan, and he wants to give her everything that other girls get.

BJ's trip, because I didn't prepare in advance, it was difficult to find a place to live.

Liu Zetuo asked a high school classmate to book a room in the guest house of the National People's Congress, the conditions are average, not as complete as a hotel, two beds, more like a dormitory.

The two are going to live together again.

Chapter 33: She always doesn't say what is in her heart

The first night was not very pleasant.

Liu Ze wanted to get close, but Ning Xiaonuma resisted.

She still sleeps in her pants.

I've never seen her in a skirt.

Liu Ze hasn't even seen her legs, there is always a little strange feeling, she is different from ordinary girls, it seems that she lacks the softness she should have, just like Su Weiwei's gentleness, and even Zhang Qi has shown softness.

In the process of traveling later, once she is unhappy, her cold war temperament makes both of them unhappy, Liu Ze is not happy, everyone is happy to come out to play, why can't they be considerate of each other, even if there is any unhappiness, can you hide it first? Why make everyone uncomfortable.

Ning Xiaonuma's temperament, in fact, only shows her temper to familiar people, if it is to ordinary people, she is a very quiet girl.

The five days of the whole tour were not very pleasant.

Some people say that to test whether a couple is suitable or not, it is enough to go out on a trip.

Along the way, Liu Ze was as accommodating as possible, and suddenly felt tired in his heart, why is this happening? He tried his best to suppress this thought, since he chose her, he had to tolerate her, just thinking about it, he wondered again, is this what I want?

On the way back, the relationship between the two was much more normal, and they were playing cards with another couple on the train, and the loser had to be punished, Liu Ze and Ning Xiaonuma did not cooperate well and lost.

Of course, it was Liu Ze who took it, and he wanted to stand up and shout loudly and introduce himself.

For the other passengers in the carriage, it was like watching a nervous disorder.

The couple snuggled up to watch a movie together, biting their ears and talking, the girl giggling and occasionally kissing the guy on the face, and the two were particularly natural and harmonious.

And Liu Ze kept a little distance from Ning Xiaonuma.

In public, Ning Xiaonuma is very resistant to intimacy, and it is even more impossible to take the initiative to hold her boyfriend like that girl, and she can kiss her.

Seeing the warmth of others, Liu Ze's heart suddenly became depressed, he thought of the girl he met on the train when he first went to Bingcheng, the two of them also talked and laughed, and watched movies together, he couldn't help but be in a daze.

During the Spring Festival in 2007, Liu Ze returned home.

During this winter vacation, the two kept talking, Ning Xiaonuma did not buy a train ticket from Jianghai to Bingcheng, so they discussed, Liu Ze bought two train tickets from Xucheng to Bingcheng, and Ning Xiaonuma followed his uncle to Xucheng to meet Liu Ze.

Her uncle works in Xucheng.

I haven't seen you for a long time, and I rely on the phone to contact, and the lovesickness is strong.

Finally, in Xucheng, the two met.

There is an uncle next to him, Ning Xiaonuma is very quiet.

Liu Ze politely chatted with her uncle, a rare young man, her uncle was very satisfied with Liu Ze, and took the two of them to eat a vegan banquet invited by a friend, after the meal, her uncle went out to play cards, and the two stayed at home.

Lovesickness is bitter.

Liu Ze was crazy about Ning Xiaonuma, and it was very rare for her to respond.

I haven't seen him for so long, in fact, she misses him very much, but she never expresses it, and she never wants to show weakness in her temperament.

He kissed her upper body until the last of the arms were unwilling to get rid of it.

Still turn off the lights.

He only thought she was shy.

In the end, on her thighs, a sticky ball was made, and the problem was solved.

He gasped and hugged her, the two of them were not wearing on top of each other, this kind of contact was so beautiful, it felt so close to the heart, he thought to himself, my girl, I will spend my life to be good to you, make you happy and happy, one day, you will let me take off your last armament, so that we are really together.

By 2007, they were about to enter their senior year.

Liu Ze's grades were very good, and he also won a national scholarship, and basically decided to go to Jianghai University for graduate school, and Ning Xiaonuma decided to take the postgraduate examination, from the original material major to finance, and was also admitted to Jianghai. Liu Ze supported 100% and collected information for her to prepare a full set of materials for the postgraduate entrance examination.

The days of working together for the future are simple and fulfilling.

It's just that there will still be occasional quarrels.

She refuses to show weakness or bow her head.

Liu Ze said helplessly: "Won't you take the initiative to contact me once?" Won't you give me my first head too? ”

She was silent.

"Okay."

Many times, Liu Ze would feel helpless, after getting along for so long, he still couldn't change Ning Xiaonuma in the slightest.

"Aren't you afraid that because of a little misunderstanding, none of us will contact anyone? Don't get in touch for the rest of your life? ”

She remained silent.

By the middle of 2007, it seemed that something was quietly changing, and the atmosphere was different.

In a class, someone chooses a job and starts buying a suit to prepare a resume; Some people struggle hard to get into graduate school; Of course, the happiest students are the students who have studied hard for three years and decided to go straight to graduate school.

Dormitory for four people.

Liu Ze decided to go to Jianghai University for direct research.

Wei Sixin took the GRE and TOEFL, and went all out to apply to American universities to study PHD.

Kan Dang was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination and later decided to work, looking forward to the day when he and Bai Qin would no longer be in a different place.

And Han Xiucao listened to his mother's words and was admitted to the graduate school of this school, it is conceivable that he and Zhu Zhu will continue to live in different places, and for this reason, the two had the biggest awkwardness and broke up.

The depression of high school, the carefree when entering college, and now you have to face your life and decide what to do next.

Zhang Qi also fell in love, the boy who has been pursuing her since his sophomore year, he is not good-looking, and it is said that he is also very obscene, Liu Ze once met the two of them walking around the campus with their arms.

Time passed silently.

Liu Ze took care of this relationship carefully, but there was a suppressed emotion in his heart that gradually accumulated, and he felt more and more tired, when there was a problem between the two of them, Ning Xiaonuma always didn't say a word, and he always communicated with her as soon as possible to solve it.

The pace of graduation is very close, and Liu Ze is lying on the bed very sentimental and tired.

"I love you, I love you, I love you, Han Xiucao loves Zhu Zhu, all her life, okay?"

Han Xiucao suddenly screamed a few times.

Liu Ze was not surprised at all, this is the second time that the two have reunited after they separated, and they have quarreled countless times, Zhu Zhu always thinks that Han Xiucao is not good enough and not active enough, and listens to her mother so much, she can't stand it and has to be in a different place, but after being separated for a while, she can't stand the pain of breaking up, and she hasn't met the right person, so she naturally gets together again.

Kan dared to run to the capital and did not come back for several months.

Liu Ze sighed, got up from the bed and made an appointment to have dinner with Ning Xiaonuma, after the meal, the two walked together, and they didn't talk very well to each other, the longer they got along, the more silent and passive Ning Xiaonuma became, this emotion was depressing, "Do you love me?" ”

Liu Ze asked suddenly, Ning Xiaonuma was stunned and didn't speak.

With a long sigh, Liu Ze had a deep helplessness, he always felt that he was fully invested in his body and mind, but it was difficult to get a response from Ning Xiaonuma, she had never even said a word of love for Liu Ze, which made him very frustrated.

"Let's break up."

The ghost sent the god to say this sentence, thinking of this result countless times, pressing it down countless times, once, Liu Ze insisted on talking about a lifelong love, and with this sentence, his outlook on life and future plans also collapsed.

How much he wanted Ning Xiaonuma to take the initiative, even this time, as long as she said a word, Liu Ze would not hesitate to turn back, and from then on she would continue no matter what she did.

However, Ning Xiaonuma snorted and looked at Liu Ze, "Then I'll go back." ”

Is it really the end?

Liu Ze never thought that his heart would really hurt, and it quickly spread all over his body, Ning Xiaonuan's figure became farther and farther away, and there was a sad emotion, it turned out to be just my unilateral love!

It's painful.

Liu Ze persisted for a day and couldn't bear the pain anymore, found Ning Xiaonuma, and reconciled.

Ning Xiaonuma nodded, and didn't say anything superfluous.

Chapter 34 Splitting Legs?

The heart-to-heart after each conflict will always ease the relationship between the two people.

Ning Xiaonuma is still preparing for the graduate school entrance examination.

One day, in the library, Liu Ze asked, "I haven't seen you wear a skirt, don't you like skirts?" ”

Ning Xiaonuma was silent for a while and said, "I don't like it." ”

"Why?"

In fact, Liu Ze wanted to ask why she had to be fully armed after intimacy for the few intimate encounters she had and didn't even look at her legs.

"My legs are not good-looking, they are ugly."

Liu Ze felt a lot in his heart, stroked her shoulder, and said seriously: "Xiaonu, we are going to live together for the rest of our lives, no matter what you do, I will not dislike you." ”

Ning Xiaonuma made a lot of determination, and took Liu Ze to the hidden window on the basement floor of the library, and slowly pulled his pants on the pipe until a terrible scar was revealed under his knee, which was very large, concave inside, and protruding again.

"How could it be ......" Liu Ze's heart was full of pity at this moment, what happened to this girl, why did it fall on her, he was willing to bear it for her.

"When I was 5 years old." Ning Xiaonuma fell into memories and said, "The boiling teapot has no lid, and I tripped all of a sudden, and a large piece of meat was lost in the soup at that time, and my grandmother believed that the treatment was delayed, and an aunt said at that time, the little girl's family was injured like this, how to marry in the future, and I thought from then on, I will not marry anyone in my life." ”

She said these words in peace.

Liu Ze hugged her tightly.

"It's all gone."

A student passed by, Ning Xiaonuma pushed Liu Ze away, and said angrily, "Someone." ”

She is especially shy about showing intimacy in front of people.

Liu Ze lifted the hem of his trousers and pointed it to her, "I used to have a lot of white spots here, and I was always teased when I wore big pants, so I always wore long pants, but the white spots grew more and more, and I went to the doctor, saying that it was because I couldn't shine on the sun and lacked melanin, so I applied an ointment, and then put it in the sun to expose it, and then it got better." ”

Ning Xiaonuma knew what he wanted to say and remained silent.

Liu Ze thought, is this the reason why you have been reluctant to take off your pants in front of me? Is that why you have to turn off the lights all the time?

In 2008, Ning Xiaonuan took the postgraduate examination, and Liu Ze was responsible for finding a place to live and planning a travel route.

Ning Xiaonuan's two best friends said that they would come over to see the ice and snow while she was still in the ice city.

Liu Ze didn't expect that this time would bring him so much distress.

The two went to the Bingcheng Railway Station to pick up the station, Liu Ze heard Ning Xiaonuma mention of two high school girlfriends, and she didn't have much introduction, she didn't like to talk about the past.

The two waited at the station, the two girls walked out, Ning Xiaonuma hugged them together, talking and laughing and talking in their hometown, Liu Ze gentlemanly carrying the luggage with a smile.

When the girls separated, Liu Ze was stunned when he saw it.

One of the girls was also stunned, and for a moment she looked away from looking at it and talked to Ning Xiaonuma.

Su Wei turned out to be her, the girl who had long disappeared from Liu Ze's memory.

On that winter day, a girl carrying a huge woven bag alone and dressing out in disharmony with the wearer.

Before seeing Su Wei at this moment, Liu Ze couldn't even remember what she looked like, or the details of the original encounter.

There was only one image that he remembered from time to time, on that makeshift bus, he fell asleep tiredly, and when he woke up, he saw the girl sitting across from him, and the sunlight outside the window shone on her face, giving him a great warmth.

"This is Su Weiwei, she is Zhou Shu."

Ning Xiaonuma introduced, Liu Ze came back to his senses.

Zhou Shu is very tall, her hair is not long, she is a bit like a boy, and she has a big personality.

The four of them went to eat together, and the two girls could be regarded as seeing the heroism of the Bingcheng restaurant, Zhou Shu shouted: "Oh my God, a pot of vegetables in the Northeast is really so big, Xiaonuma said it before, and I thought it was an exaggeration." ”

"You're exaggerating, Xiaonuma never lies."

Su Weiwei said.

She is a gentle woman, very good at taking care of people, and she also likes to take care of people, Liu Ze still remembers that she said at the beginning that she will be quite a kindergarten principal in the future, and she will feel a sense of accomplishment when she takes care of people.

Liu Ze's eyes looked at Su Weiwei from time to time, he was very curious about how much love a girl has in her heart, so she will take care of people for pleasure, and she can always take care of the people around her properly.

Clothes are neatly packed.

Even cleaned up Zhou Shu's messy clothes, which should be washed, and did it in an orderly manner.

What the hell happened to make her so desperate at the beginning, the huge woven bag, and the sleeve inside.

This simply subverted Liu Ze's cognition, and he was puzzled.

The next day, the four of them went to the central street to hang out, and the two women saw that they were buying Russian products like crazy, playing with plows by the Songhua River, and then going to the ice and snow world in Jiangbei to play on the side, and they had a lot of fun.

It's just that it's cold.

Zhou Shu said: "This is minus 20 degrees, and I don't feel much colder than Jinling." ”

Liu Ze said, "There is no wind in Bingcheng, and the air is dry, not as cold and windy as Jinling, but you can't let the cold wind enter your body, otherwise you will get sick." ”

No matter how cold the weather is, it can't stop their enthusiasm.

Have fun in the world of ice and snow and watch Russian girls dance on the ice in suspenders.

Su Weiwei was very envious.

The three girls were very enthusiastic and refused to sleep after going back.

The next day's itinerary was arranged to ski, but when Liu Ze arrived, he learned that Su Weiwei was sick with a fever of 38.3 degrees, and she got up early in the morning to buy breakfast for everyone, but Ning Xiaonuma saw that something was wrong with her.

"You don't have to worry about me, it's all skiing."

"No, I can't leave you alone in the hotel."

"We'll go back when you're well."

Neither woman agreed.

Liu Ze considered how to deal with it, skiing is a booked itinerary that cannot be changed, and if you don't go today, the cost will be in vain.

"That's it, Su Weiwei's illness can't be delayed, I will be separated from Xiaonuma, I will take Su Weiwei to see a doctor, you two go skiing, or, Xiaonuma will take Su Weiwei to see a doctor, and we will go skiing."

This is the best arrangement, leaving someone who is familiar with the local situation to accompany you, so that the money for four people to ski will not be in vain.

After discussing it, it was still Liu Ze who took care of Su Weiwei, at this time, she was a little dazed, lying wrapped in the quilt, and said apologetically: "It's dragging you down." ”

"It doesn't matter, I'm still in the ice city for half a year, and there are many opportunities for skiing."

Liu Ze took care of her to drink water and take medicine, and caressed her very intimately, she didn't have many clothes on her body, reflecting her perfect figure, Liu Ze was heartbeat, how considerate of other people's girls, if he did this for Ning Xiaonuan, he would not say a warm word to him.

Alone, Su Weiwei's face turned even redder.

After taking the medicine, she still didn't get better.

"I can't wait, I have to go to the hospital."

Liu Ze took her hand and hand, it was very soft.

She was in a very bad spirit, and her movements were very slow, so Liu Ze helped her put on a sweater, down jacket, and pants.

A girl is always weak when she is sick, and she is not wary of the man who takes care of her.

Liu Ze half carried her to the school hospital to draw blood for testing, she was most afraid, and nervously held his hand tightly, full of sweat.

"It's okay, it's okay, it's like a mosquito bite, and it's all right at once."

Patiently soothing, holding her head in her arms and not looking, her hands clenched tightly.