Sitting on the ground, I held my forehead and calmed down for a while, the phone was still buzzing, I took it and took a look, it was Shen Mingya's text message again, several in succession.

"Miss Xue, my son will hold the engagement ceremony directly in Toronto, but unfortunately, you can't go." ’

Next, 'How long are you going to hold out, oh, there's something for you to see......'

Click on it again, it's all numbers, I wiped away my tears and looked carefully, it was the date of birth......

The first string is my second uncle's, and then my second aunt's, and the rest should be my eldest brother's, sister-in-law, that heart......

The phone was clenched in the palm of my hand, but I still didn't reply, I got up and took a few deep breaths, flipped through the address book, found Xiaoliu's number and dialed it, "Hey." ”

"Fourth sister? You finally took the initiative to call me, I thought you forgot about me! ”

I smiled and walked to the window, "I have to lose my memory to forget you, you ...... over there"

"Wait a minute, why are you hoarse, are you crying!"

"Cold, it's autumn here."

"I've got a cold!"

Xiao Liu exhaled with confidence, "You have to pay more attention to the change of season, our climate is cold when it is cold, how can it be like this, and now it is still enthusiastic!" ”

I laughed, "How is it with An Jiu." ”

"Ah, okay, give it to me every day...... Ay! Don't hit me! I'll tell you the truth, it's sweet, fourth sister, we're in love! ”

I bit my lip hard, afraid of being heard over there, "Fourth sister, what's wrong with you, my mother called me yesterday, saying that you and Brother Lu feel like something is wrong, let me educate, Brother Lu, I don't dare to say anything else, you have penetrated into his bones, he doesn't dare to bully you 100%, it's just that I didn't expect Brother Lu to be so ......"

"Don't talk about that."

I interrupted Xiao Liu's words, "Let's have some fun, let me sit on the time machine again, let me see you in two or three years......"

"I'll be in two or three years, okay!"

Xiao Liu responded happily over there, and first cleared his throat vigorously, "An Jiu!" Go and see! Why did the child cry again! The old lady doesn't know how to take children, you know! ”

He also learned An Jiu's dialect, and he laughed himself, "But Fourth Sister, this child is not ours, it's yours, and my uncle is helping you take care of the child!" ”

I covered my mouth and laughed, but I burst into tears.

Xiao Liu was not serious for a while and then whispered, "Fourth sister, you really have a cold, didn't you lie to me?" ”

I took a deep breath, "Why am I lying to you, this is not in good health......"

"This body ...... Wait, fourth sister, An Jiu grabbed my phone, don't grab it, here you go! ”

After a while, An Jiu's voice sounded over there, "Sister Bao, you're fine." ”

"No, it's just a cold, I heard that the white woman is still looking for you, right?"

"I'm fine! Run! I feel it and I'll run! You don't have to worry about me, on the contrary, I'm afraid that you will compete with yourself, Sister Bao, I know you very well, I know, you are not a person who accepts your fate, but everything, too much competition, the most hurt is yourself, you know. ”

I nodded, "I know, I'm not competing......"

I used to be always worried about this, afraid of that, but now, I can really go with the flow, who am I, I'm just a mortal, without me, nothing will become.

"An Jiu, if the matter of the mother-in-law is resolved, in the future, you and Xiaoliu will go back to my hometown, and my second uncle and second aunt will definitely treat you well."

"Well, I know, Sister Bao, do you have something on your mind?"

"Nope."

An Jiu sighed over there, "You must be in a bad mood now, eighty percent, you are also anxious about your body, forget it, let's think of something good, it's man-made!" Like me, I thought about it now, and I want to go back, too, but that mother-in-law is always playing surprise attacks with me now, and I often think about what you said now, and I want to say it, gold...... Six, that's what you told me yesterday! ”

"Gold wears gold armor in a hundred battles, and Loulan will never be returned if it is not broken!!"

I listened to Xiaoliu's voice, the corners of my mouth were still leading, and Loulan would never be returned if I didn't break it......

This time, I'm really going to break the boat.

After thinking about it, some sour words were still suppressed, and after chatting for a while, I put down my mobile phone and dialed Pang Bi again, she was still typing on the keyboard over there, saying that she was replying to Bao's mother, I saw that she was in a good state of busyness, and hung up after a few jokes, and the rest, I looked at the number, Sister Chaoyang......

The mobile phone rang a few times and was connected, and there was some confusion over there, "Bao Si?" ”

"Well, it's me."

When I heard her voice, my heart warmed.

Sister Chaoyang smiled softly over there, "Why did you call me, how are you?" ”

"How am I, how are you?"

"I'm fine, now I'm a member of the Wildlife Conservation Society, and I'm drilling around in the mountains every day, what are you doing?"

"I don't do anything, I'm just idle."

Sister Chaoyang smiled gently, "Bao Si, I'm going to get married." ”

I looked at the sea in the distance, and for a while, I still hummed.

"You'll be happy."

Sister Chaoyang said softly, "Bao Si, you have all my luck, you will definitely become the happiest bride in the world, you must tell me when you get married, I have to go." ”

I suppressed my emotions, "Okay. ”

I didn't talk much more, and when I heard someone over there call Sister Chaoyang, I dropped my phone, I was afraid of losing control, I was afraid.

All the luck......

Probably just look away.

I made a phone call for a whole afternoon, then went downstairs with the DV machine, put it on the bedside table and wrote a note to Qin Sen, pressing it under the centipede bottle that An Jiu gave me, this thing, I think it's the same for Qin Sen to take care of.

As soon as I was about to put down the pen, I still tore off another page of my notebook to explain some of my things, and even brought it, and wrote a few words to my second uncle, I told him that I love my family, and I miss them so much, and I want to be reunited with them.

Night.

I pinched the time, didn't call Lu Pei, made sure he got on the plane, turned around, and went to the bathroom to put water in the bathtub.

I can't tell my psychology clearly, but when it gets dark, I am calm.

I have never had a calm in my life, I took off the ring and necklace bracelet that Lu Pei gave me, pulled up my hair, watched the water in the bathtub slowly rise, my eyes were dry, even if there was still a text message from Shen Mingya in my mobile phone, I turned it off directly, and I didn't bother to look at it again.

The so-called great sorrow without tears, laughter without sound, and great understanding without words, as if he really understood.

Letting go, it's easy.

'Knock Knock~~Knock Knock~'

There was a knock on the door, and I walked to the door in confusion, "Uncle Xu?" ”

"Mrs. Lu, have you rested?"

It was Uncle Xu's voice, and I answered, "I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep!" ”

"Okay, then you can rest!"

Uncle Xu's footsteps went away, I locked the door, walked into the bathroom again, swept around the bedroom when the door was closed, shook my head, and still locked after entering the door, I closed it when the water was almost full, and then slowly lay in, very comfortable, warm, I like water, but now I only like warm water.

My eyes unconsciously swept to the mirror, and the fluffy fox face seemed to reappear, I smiled softly, reached out and took the prepared dagger, and looked at it in the mirror, "You can put down the ......"

As he spoke, the blade slashed at his wrist......

It was very sharp, and it didn't take much force, and I could see the wisps of red dissolving in the water, and in an instant, it was really beautiful.

I put the dagger back aside, my arm along the body lying in the bathtub, there is an illusion of bathing, the corner of my mouth remains a smile, looking in the direction of the mirror, the fox face is gradually disappearing, faintly, a big tree appeared again, I saw the huge green fruit, I wanted to reach out my hand, but I didn't have the strength, just watched it get bigger, redder, the skin thinner and thinner......

Damn, it's up to the limit, 'bang'! exploded in the mirror, "Uh!! ”

I felt like I was being hit by this red pulp, the pain was radiating from head to toes, and my body was bounced up in the bathtub, but it was 'snapped'! The splash of the water splashed and lay down, the pain at this moment was like the whole body was broken at the same time, but after a few seconds, there was nothing left.

I lay there panting, not knowing if this vat of red liquid was my blood or the slurry from which the fruit had exploded!

My mind began to be in a trance, I rested my head on the bathtub, I felt my teeth still chatter slightly in my mouth, my memory began to be disordered, and my mouth unconsciously muttered, "Exploded...... The last one, ...... exploded"

So what.

I've never felt so tired that my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier, and I think that as long as I close my eyes, I can be comfortable forever......

There is no longer those hesitation and helplessness, no longer have to crawl on the shore like a fish for survival, there is no self-torture, I have broken the obsession of the white fox, and its wish, I can go with peace of mind......

It seemed as if a door had opened in front of me, and I struggled to move my eyes to see someone coming in in the white mist, gradually, more and more clearly—

Grandma, grandma, grandpa, mother......

I smiled, "I've finally seen you." ”