That day was red for me......

I can't even feel the warmth of spring, there is only the endless cold......

What scared me was not the human skin that was skinned alive, not the hoarse scream, and not the ruthless and resolute methods of the Ninth Elder Brother......

I told myself, don't be afraid of him, whether he's a devil in human skin or not, don't be afraid of him---- the distance between us is already far away, and I don't want fear between us anymore.

However, the way he looked at the young lady that day made me completely devastated--- I lay on the cold ground, convulsed constantly, and let the darkness engulf me---- I was not afraid of such cruel methods, for I never thought I would betray him, but I was afraid of this desperate wait......

I've always known that he has no feelings, and that's true to me, and it's the same with Jiufujin. I can still have a little hope, hoping that one day......

Because, he is the same to everyone, there is no special existence.

But that day I saw him holding the young lady's hand, and even saw a look of regret in his eyes!

The ninth elder brother who is like a god in my eyes, no matter what he does crazy things, he will not hesitate at all, he hesitated for the first time. It was only for him that she scared her---- my young lady, my only relative in this world, I can't be jealous or hateful!

"Be careful!" I saw Brother Jiu jerk Miss into his arms. Wrap your arms around her like a guardian: "Tell you to be careful with your shoes!" What did you just say again, you almost ruined the shoes you offered in Suzhou!

"Ahh After following Brother Jiu for so long, it's not the first time I've seen him deal with traitors like this, and I've long been surprised that it makes me scream. It is the affectionate eyes of Brother Jiu......

Nine Elder Brothers. You can fool everyone, including Miss, including yourself. But you can't fool me ---- that moment. Your expression is never a sign of revenge, and there is no anger of betrayal in your eyes. In the face of this earthly woman who wants to kill you three times and twice, you only have pity ---- you in your eyes now. A person who is called a poisonous snake and is destined to kill can actually know how to take pity----

It's just that that person is not me......

At this moment, I realized that it turned out that you would swear to let Miss go that day, not because of my insistence. Your roughness that day was only to punish me for being disobedient. You never wanted Miss to die. Even if she betrays you again and again; Even if you know it in your heart, even if you die, she will only clap her hands and laugh; Even though. Even if I help Miss hide it, you know that Miss secretly calculated you again and again......

You give yourself reasons, you always say that Miss is still useful to you...... You've found one reason after another for the young lady to be immortal......

On that day, I finally got to know you---- you, it's not that Brother Jiu doesn't understand feelings, it's just that your feelings have already been given to another person--- who is as ruthless and ruthless as you, a person who is less worthy of love than you......

It turns out that my lover is as pitiful as me, the same as a hopeless relationship, and there is no chance to come to what you say---- no, you are more pitiful than me, because you have to lie to yourself, not like this, I can't fall in love with such a despicable and shameless woman, I just want to use her, that's all!

I hate ---- Miss so much, you've got so much, why don't you know how to cherish it? You have obtained the affection that I have worked hard all my life to get and can't get, why are you so blessed, why do you still murder Brother Jiu three times and twice?

Miss, do you know how hard it is for me to be caught between the two of you?

I want to protect my lover, no matter how heinous he is, at least he is pitiful in front of you---- what he does for you is considered malicious by you, his concern for you can only be expressed by command, why can't you coexist? Why do you have to die for him?

Don't you really understand, even if there is no guarantee from Brother Jiu to me, he will not hurt you, even if he wants to, he can't do it, do you understand?

"Tiantian, why are you dressed like this?"

If I hadn't put on the clothes that this young lady often wears, it is estimated that even if I stood in the study until night, Brother Jiu would not have paid attention to me, but this time, he paid attention to me, but his face was angry: "Who let you wear Qiyun's clothes, you are becoming more and more presumptuous!" "Brother Jiu, you once said that I am a human being like Miss, what's wrong? I just stole through her clothes and you're angry? It turns out that in your heart, Jiuye, after all, we are still the difference between cloud and mud, heaven and earth. I stroked the silk fabric on my body---- this dress was the auspicious dress that the young lady wore on the first day of entering the palace, because the young lady preferred plain, so it was different, and it left a deep impression on many people.

"Brother Jiu, doesn't this dress look good on me?" Although I came from a humble background, but because of my mother, my appearance is very good, and even the young lady often praises me, saying that I am more beautiful than her, but why I have been by Brother Jiu's side for many years, but he doesn't even look at me more? "Brother Jiu, you also know that if I help you cheat your aunt and concubine tomorrow, Miss will hate me to death, and I will be a relative of her in this world!"

"Do you want to go back on it?" Brother Jiu still didn't look at me, and the words he said froze all the temperatures in the summer.

"I can't go back, it's not that I'm afraid of your punishment, but I have never been able to disobey you." It's just that I'm not reconciled, because Brother Jiu is haggard these days---- I can't believe that he even wanted to kill Chenxi to fulfill Miss's love before this.

And now, he is suffering from what he has to do---- because Miss, Brother Jiu is becoming less and less like himself, becoming more and more indecisive. I didn't want to go, not because I was afraid of Miss's hatred---- I had been mentally prepared for such a day. I'm just worried that when I'm done with this, in the face of Miss's hatred, how much chance will such a soft-hearted Ninth Brother have to win?

"Good, you can go back." Brother Jiu pressed his forehead. I don't care about what I'm saying.

"Just. This time is different, and this time I'm not going to do it. I looked up and let him see my determination in my eyes: "I know what punishment you should get for disobeying. I'm willing to take it! Merely. Even if you skin me and tear me apart, I won't go. "This is something that only I can do, as long as I don't deceive the Seventeenth Elder Brother, there will be no hatred. The young lady can live happily ever after. Brother Jiu won't be in danger either, so let this end on me!

"You are so daring, you think I don't dare to kill you?" Brother Jiu's eyes are full of murderous energy, at this time, no one will doubt that I may be spared.

Of course I know that Brother Nine will, because I'm not a young lady. I don't qualify to be a monkey. I can only be a chicken, a chicken that has been killed to show the monkeys......

"My land destiny was originally given by you the Ninth Master. Ninth Master, take it back! "I closed my eyes, I didn't want to look at his face that didn't show any affection for me, I was human, and even if I understood everything, my heart would still ache.

"I'd like to see how hard your bones really are!" Brother Jiu has been irritable these days, how can he pity my little hard work---- sometimes, I am also thinking, perhaps, as smart as he is, he understands, but he doesn't understand it as he thinks.

I was suspended on the iron frame of the dungeon--- this underground palace was originally a place for the ninth elder brother to train the dead, and the dungeon where I am staying now is a special torture chamber for punishing the dead who have made mistakes.

I just arrived in the capital, and I was also sent here by Brother Jiu to train for a period of time, and the training at that time was very cruel, and I was not unpunished, but I was never severely punished.

I have secretly rejoiced because of this, and I even fantasized that this is because maybe I am a little different from others in Brother Jiu's heart.

But later I found out that it was because Brother Jiu was afraid that I would leave too many strange scars on my body, and over time, it would cause Miss to suspect that I had never been different----, I was just one of the many chess pieces in his hands, one more and no more, one less and no less chess pieces, it has always been like this, there is no other possibility......

"You are so bold, you dare not even listen to your master's orders!"

The whip behind me rained down on my back, and I could only tense my muscles, try to raise my head, and scream one after another.

"How? Have you changed your mind? Brother Jiu sat in the corner, still smiling, but his current smile was equivalent to a life talisman in my eyes.

"It's better if you beat me to death, I could resist death in prison at the beginning, and I'm the same now." I gritted my teeth and stopped my cowardly tears---- I wanted to cry, this scene had appeared in my nightmares countless times, but I could not have imagined that it would actually become a reality today.

I'm finally going to die at the hands of the people I love the most. Hakka is not as good as ---- at least she did what she wanted to do, and she could die with peace of mind, but what about me?

"Please, kill me!" I'm fed up with such ugliness, my life is desolate, and now I can die at the hands of someone I love, is it a kind of happiness?

"Okay, I'll fulfill your ----" When Brother Jiu heard my answer, he repelled everyone, picked up the whip, and whipped it at me hard.

"Woo----" I gritted my teeth to prevent myself from losing the last of my dignity.

The tattered clothes, which had already been whipped by the whip, turned into pieces of butterflies under the destruction of such a great force. In just a few clicks, my body was almost completely **.

"What if that's the case?" Brother Jiu's lips were pressed to my ear, and the hot air sprayed on the most sensitive part of my ear: "Do you still want to die?" ”

"Master? No...... No, ...... "I tried to dodge, but I couldn't dodge his attacks because I was hanging, so I had to let his lips go all the way down and finally land on my whip-scarred chest......

"You, really, don't you want to?" He grinned wickedly, and suddenly untied the rope that bound me.

I have long been exhausted by the Alone, and I can only let my scarred body fall in his arms and embrace you.

"When you put on your young lady's clothes, don't you think that there will be this day?" Brother Jiu raised my head and hugged my waist like he hugged Miss that day, and I saw my reflection in his eyes: "If you refuse now, I will fulfill you and let you die with full loyalty, but, do you still want to die now?" ”

My reflection kept flickering in my eyes, giving me the illusion that he was watching me attentively---- and I knew that this was just a means for him to control me, and I knew that it was just a transaction, a play.

It's just that I want to have this dream now, this dream that I don't even dare to do in my sleep----

I want to die in his arms like this, I want to be like this, like this, to remember for the rest of my life......

"Are you still holding out?" Brother Jiu unbuttoned his shirt and smiled like a triumphant general, and I was a prey he swore to win.

"......" tears gushed out, and I could no longer feel whether I was sad or joyful, or rather, despair---- despair of my hopeless feelings for him!

"Please, want me!" I admit that I was selfish because it was just too much of a temptation for me. I thought it would never be possible in our lifetime, and we would just pass by like this. But today, I can really be his woman---- even if it's only for a moment, even if it's all fake......

"This is like the sweet ...... I trained with my own hands"

The clothes are gone----

I never thought that I would be in the torture room when I spent candles in my cave room......

And what makes me the most sad is ----

He knew, and he had always known my feelings for him----

It's just that for the sake of his plan, for his purposes, he pretended not to know---

Because, he used my feelings for him as a sharp weapon, and he wanted to stay at the most critical moment----

Subdue me with my love for him......