Three hundred and thirty-eight, centrifugal blade

At the beginning of May of the thirteenth year of Yongzheng

I didn't expect that the seventeenth elder brother's illness had passed a whole spring, and by the time I could help him out and walk around a little, it was already early summer......

There has been no bad news from the imperial court, although everyone knows that Emperor Yongzheng's body is weakening day by day, and excessive exertion is corroding his life, but there is no definite news that he is critically ill. Everything is still so peaceful, calm I almost forgot the fear brought to me by this forbidden era, and I even kept praying to God, since I am not a person of this era, can I change history - I don't ask much, I just want the fourth elder brother to live a few more years.

May 13th, this day is nothing unusual, but this day is the birthday of an old man - Jiufujin, although Brother Jiu's whole family has been confiscated into slavery, but she has been living a stable life under my care. Every year on her birthday, I ask people to bring things to her, but every year she refuses to see me, and this year she actually offered to see me.

This is the only good news I got in this early summer - I have always felt indebted to Jiufujin, not only because she looks exactly the same as Li Yanyan; Also, this kind woman is indeed because of me, I have lost the only husband I rely on. (Although I think that Brother Jiu is almost the same as not losing to her)

But my past with Li Yanyan is almost my life's heart, and I almost have a delusion - my death back then was because of God's retribution for me, and God wanted me to come to this era to compensate her. I really want to get a lifetime of forgiveness from her, which can be regarded as the redemption of Zhang Xiaoying's short life.

"Fujin is unharmed." The last time Brother Seventeen jokingly called me an old woman, now it seems that Jiufujin in front of me looks like a veritable old woman. I couldn't have imagined that she could age so much in just ten years, and her wrinkled face looked like an old lady in her sixties.

"I'm a sinner, not a Fujin, you are Fujin, the Fujin who is proud of the spring breeze!" There was a bit of irony in that as it sounded, but I tried to ignore it.

"I'm no longer a Fujin, and the Seventeenth Fujin has long since died." In order to eliminate her hostility a little, I personally put the things I brought on the table one by one: "But as long as I can, I will do it for you whatever you want!" ”

"Are you giving alms? I'm not going to ask for anything from someone who killed my husband, I'll leave all the possessions you've sent over the years, I'll wait for you to come, and I'll throw them in front of you with my own hands!" ”

Then I understood why she was so old—tormented by poverty, and even more ridiculous than the fact that she had not touched the slightest of all the belongings I had sent!

"Brother Jiu's matter, I'm sorry for you." I tried to keep her from dying in hatred for me every life: "But I don't regret killing him, and my affair with him can only be solved by death." ”

Originally, I didn't care, but now that the seventeenth elder brother is like this, I really want to leave him a child and a continuation of his life, but I can't do it - it's the ninth elder brother, for his interest group, for his selfishness, he forced me into the filthy muddy waters of the palace. So many deaths, so much pain and despair, even if his last maintenance confuses me. But my hatred for him really can't be forgotten like this, unless he dies......

"Really? That's right, what do people like you know other than killing? She looked at me with disdain and disgust: "Do you think my husband is damned?" No, he's worse than you! Qiyun, do you know why I'm looking for you today? ”

I shook my head - I'm glad you're willing to take the initiative to see me, even if you're just looking for me to vent. Seeing you, just like seeing Li Yanyan who is still alive, you will make me feel the beauty and tenacity of life-

After all, I've seen too many lives go by, and it's good to be alive......

"Because my husband's dead man actually brought back something from distant Yunnan, which is said to be an antidote to Gu poison." She burst out laughing, but laughed with tears on her face: "Ridiculous, right? My husband has been dead for ten years, but even though he is dead, he has not stopped looking for an antidote for you—this order was given before he died, saying that he would continue to ...... when the time comes."

She glared at me, "Niu Colu. Qiyun, do you still have any conscience? You know that he sent almost half of his elite to Yunnan, and when he died, there was no one left around him......"

"Is there an antidote?" I muttered to myself.

"Originally, there was no, but as long as he didn't give up hope, he said that as long as there was a little hope...... Jiufujin couldn't cry......

Brother Jiu, it turns out that you have long regretted it, you regret that you only used me as a chess piece - it's a pity, you regretted it too late, when the antidote was sent, you had already become a dry bone, I can only sigh except sigh!

"Niu Co Lu. Qiyun, don't you want an antidote? Dong Eshi asked.

"The antidote doesn't mean anything to me anymore...... "I'm old, and the seventeenth elder brother is so weak that we have lost the opportunity to have a child:" Moreover, I know that you will never give it to me. "A woman's jealousy, even if it is a good woman, can do a lot of undesirable things.

"You're very knowledgeable." Dong Eshi suddenly showed me a smile, this smile made the hairs all over my body stand up in an instant - this smile is too familiar to me, in every nightmare with Li Yanyan, before she jumped from the tall building, she would smile at me like this: "But do you think of it, I don't give you the antidote, but I can give the antidote to another person." ”

That cursed smile, like the wheel of fortune, brought me back to the last moment of my death—I felt like I was back in the suffocating car, and in the dust, I looked through the blood in my eyes at her pale and miserable face in the newspaper......

Retribution? Hiding in the Qing Dynasty, I still can't escape her curse before she died?

"Don't you ask who I gave the antidote?" She was curious.

"No, I know who you've handed it over." She was handed over to the current emperor, the sworn enemy of my power, the man whose fate was entangled with me all his life.

"Hahaha, well said!" Jiufujin's always gentle face was not distorted and terrifying: "It is the same as Brother Jiu's secret letter back then, it is ironclad evidence that you can't have children!" The eldest princess is not your biological child at all, you hateful woman can even use her child as a tool for her own interests, and you can't even use your child as a tool to disrupt the royal bloodline haha You can't even think of dying! ”

"I want to see if the seventeenth elder brother can spare you when the time comes, I want to see how you are beheaded by the emperor when you are pushed out of the noon gate, hahaha, Niu Colu. Qiyun, I will definitely hold my husband's spirit card to sacrifice to you when the time comes! ”

Sure enough, it's retribution!

I would have planted a man who I was willing to lose everything and save all I had......

"Ha, ha, ha!" Compared to her laughter, this time I laughed maniacally: "Ha, ha, ha! That's fine, that's fine......"

Li Yanyan, I can finally stop you in front of you - because I have always felt indebted to you, I have reached such a desperate point......

Jiufujin, you are not very smart, if I can kill you at this time, I still have a chance to strangle the disaster invisibly. If you die, there is no proof of death, I just need to carefully destroy the dead soldiers sent to Yunnan by Brother Jiu, an antidote, an unknown letter that I don't know if it is true or false, whether it is framed or framed, what can it represent?

But I can't!

Maybe it's true, everyone has a destined nemesis, and you are my doomed catastrophe in this Qing Dynasty......

"Niu Co Lu. Qiyun, don't you regret it? Do you regret letting me go when I was soft-hearted? Jiufu Jin was confused by my attitude, but his attitude was still tough: "I know you are ruthless, come on, I'm not afraid, I should have died ten years ago." I just hate that I can't see your blood splattered in the Forbidden City! ”

"I'm not going to kill you." I interrupted her, and suddenly I felt as if I was really old, and even my steps began to stagger.

"What did you say?" She couldn't believe it.

"I'm not going to kill you no matter what you do, you know?" I looked at her, without love or hate: "You are what I bought with my life, you know?" I don't kill you, you can't even die if I die, you know? ”

You're not me, and you won't understand: "You can keep the stuff!" You can also be regarded as revenge on me, you can't be angry with things, be kind to yourself, maybe I can't bother you anymore in the future, take care! ”

I staggered out of Jiufujin's residence, there was no direction along the way, I walked aimlessly, and my mental side was also thinking aimlessly - such a big thing, Yongzheng will definitely check carefully, so he won't make trouble now, but it will be sooner or later.

Mei'er is a girl, even if it's not the fourth elder brother's blood and blood, it doesn't matter - at least that's what Yong thinks, but Hongli is different. It was not easy for me to convince Yongzheng that Hongli was really his blood and blood, although I didn't lie, but now due to the ironclad evidence that I can't have children, the most true truth I said in my life has become the most false and the most false false!

Why, why is it so difficult to tell a lie in this life? I've planned it all my life, but now I've forced myself into such a predicament!

Once the fact that I can't have children is confirmed, Hongli will definitely die - no matter how confused Emperor Yongzheng is, he will not let a wild seed of unknown origin inherit their love for Xinjueluo, not to mention that Yongzheng is not a confused emperor! My sister will die, the entire Niu family will be wiped out, and even the seventeenth elder brother will be under the wrath of the emperor......

My body shivered, I was so cold, and I thought that this wasn't the worst, the worst thing was - it was really a father and son cannibalism! I am entrusted by my stupid big sister, the respectable and lovely mother who resolutely decided to save me even if I wanted to kill her, and I can let her watch the man she loves the most kill her own flesh and blood underground?

Li Yanyan, you really took revenge on me, you can really rest in peace!

At this time, a terrible hope suddenly launched in my heart - the thirteenth year of Yongzheng is the limit of Yinzhen, can it, can it be before everything happens, he will ......

I know it's a terrible idea, but—Yinzhen, believe me, I don't really want you to die early, it's just ......

What is it that causes us to be in such a sad situation?