I've been prepared for a long time and never hesitate to open this door, but, what about you? I looked at her, she was a little nervous, a little hesitant, as if it would take more effort to move forward towards this door than before, but she only paused slightly, and did not mean to stop completely. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

I think I've understood her will.

"You're strong, huh." I said to her.

She just looked at me with a puzzled expression, as if she didn't know why I was saying that, as if the sentence was very boring and not nutritious. There was no understanding between us, there was always a gap between our hearts, but I could feel the warmth from the depths of her heart in her expression, from the nonsense that might seem meaningless to her.

Unlike her neat and capable fight, she is actually a very soft woman.

"Do you know how to open this door?" I asked.

"Just find the switch." She replied, as a matter of course, but she didn't understand why I asked. Propelled by the power shoes, she quickly searched her surroundings, observing the direction of the lines and mechanisms, trying to find a hidden way to open the door. However, she didn't find it, and maybe it would have been more time to find her, but I stopped her.

Before I left her, I tried my best to pass on my experience to her.

"The real switch is not in the eyes, but in the heart." I pointed to my eyes and said, "Don't look with your eyes, feel with your heart, your intuition will tell you the way to open the way—if materialistically it is wrong to do so, then think about it, how far is the materialistic thing from the idealistic mind?" In fact, the distance between the two is shorter and more blurry than you think. In this world, the state of consciousness and the state of matter are never so distinct, and the difference between them is actually determined by your attitude, consciousness and perspective, which is a very subjective distinction. ”

“…… I'm not a consciousness walker, and I don't have a reserve of gray mist. To her, it seemed that what I was talking about was only for the Consciousness Walkers, and only for the Governing Bureau's Grey Mist technology. But in fact, this perception is very narrow, maybe she can't understand what I'm saying for the time being, but as long as this seed is planted, maybe it will sprout at some point and help her in the most dangerous time.

I nodded calmly and said, "It's okay, look, I'm not a consciousness walker either, and I don't have gray fog." ”

She pointed to the magic mark on the back of my hand.

"You don't need permission to use the Demonic Emringer, either." I smiled and said, "I'm not a natural Marker, I'm not a genius Marker, and my Marker power may not even be my own, maybe it's just a morbid symbol - I'm not a Consciousness Walker, nor am I a developer or user of the Grey Mist Technique. I'm just a stupid, terminally ill patient, but even so, no matter where I am, it will not be wrong to do things from my own heart - even if the actual results are not satisfactory, as long as you look with your heart, not with your eyes, you will definitely be able to draw warm strength from the results that make you feel painful. ”

-- In the apocalyptic fantasy, this warm power is more powerful than anyone could have imagined.

This is the only power I have found that does not allow myself to stop, the only power that can preserve my sense of self in the midst of madness, that I am not afraid of fear and despair, and even beyond the death of my own personality. At the same time, it is a force that exists in the manifestations of each person and non-human person. It's so pervasive, so profound, so elusive that many people seem to subconsciously ignore it and instead look for forces that seem easier to understand and easier to "upgrade".

I don't think what they're doing is wrong, but what I want to make Mi understand is the power of warmth, not the power of other manifestations.

I was too stupid to tap into my inner strength, and I had to let her experience it for herself. I can only show the power of this power by action, and thus leave a seed in her heart - a power that is not unobservable in itself, but whose limitations make it difficult to observe, but it is possible for me to observe only the effect it exerts on external objects.

"How?" He asked simply and clearly.

"What do you do with your eyes? It's nothing more than seeing the switch and then turning it on. It's the same with the heart. I try to explain it in language that is easy to understand, but my stupid tongue makes it difficult to say it directly and correctly: "Look with your heart, and then pluck." It feels like an intuition, a sudden intuition, and when you want to open the door, it speaks to you in the bottom of your heart, in a voice that seems to be your own voice, but is not. You can't hear every word, but you can understand what it means, and subconsciously put it together in your own mind in the language you know. Sometimes it's like an enlightenment, sometimes it's like a song, it's like a poem, it's a flash of light. So, your thoughts go up and down, and you strongly hope that things will be like that, and then, what you expect, will appear in front of you in some clue, some kind of performance, some way - this kind of expression may not be so straightforward, sometimes it is more like a coincidence, a chain reaction of chance, but in this world, there is no such thing as a real accident, everything is inevitable. ”

-- When you look with your heart and move with your heart, the inevitable chain has already begun, and the process of producing observable changes in the state of matter from thinking to putting it into action is actually already in the second half of the process.

"Do you mean that the beginning of an event, when you start thinking about it, is actually the beginning?" He asked.

"It's not the beginning of a specific thing, but when you start thinking about it, there's already a reaction happening on a level that you can't see, and it's going to continue to be a chain." I replied, "When you start doing something, the reactions of things that you have thought of that that you haven't been able to observe will really affect your behavior and the final result." ”

"So, do you want to? Is the door open? He questioned me in a calm voice.

Just as she stopped, there was a gradual movement from the door that stood in front of us. I was stunned to see that on the gate more than 300 meters high, a wheel with a diameter of tens of meters was slowly rotating, making a sound like rubbing rust.

"It was like a song, a poem, a fleeting light, a soft, faint whisper......," I whispered in my ear.

She also seemed stunned by what was happening, and she seemed unable to gather her thoughts for a moment. In the past, this was probably a mysterious phenomenon, no, even now, if you can't connect all the clues, but just get the conclusion that "the door opened on its own", it is completely mysterious. To think about it with human logic, we have to guess that "some tricks must have been used", but what are these "tricks"? How does it work? How does it work? Who is the operator? No evidence was found. If you are a mediocre scientist, you will definitely have to say boring nonsense like "this is absolutely impossible". I don't think she was that kind of person, but she really couldn't see the "chain reaction" itself that led to the "door opening" that was beyond her observation. This is not anyone's fault, but a strong demonstration of the limitations of the form of existence itself.

“…… It's as simple as that? As the door slowly opened, he finally broke his silence.

"Yes, it's as simple as that. It's easy to say, but it's impossible to do without a clue or a feeling. I explained: "I have not studied the process of creating and reacting to this force in depth, and I have not been able to observe the causes, processes, and consequences of it." But, in terms of effect, there is indeed such a chain reaction that we cannot see that leads to the occurrence of results that we can observe. I don't recommend digging deeper, if you go too far, you won't necessarily get the results you want, but you may fall into a deeper maze. ”

"So Mr. Takakawa, are you the kind of person who doesn't ask the truth?" He took a deep breath and said.

"It turned out that I was also a person who got to the bottom of it, but in the process of getting to the bottom of it, I realized my limitations. I was not a genius and could not get to the real roots, and this innate limitation could not complete a breakthrough before the end of the world destroyed everything, so I gave up. I replied, and that's what I really thought.

Whether as a mystical expert in the apocalyptic fantasy world, or as a patient and test subject in the reality of the hospital, I have the heart to trace the origin of the "virus", capture its true face, and contribute to the elimination of the harm it brings. However, the brutal truth lies in front of me, and even a researcher more gifted than me can only admit that the "virus" is unobservable. "Gao Chuan" died and lived, alive and dead, there are still geniuses fiddling, using the collective power of human beings, but they have not been able to make breakthroughs in fundamental problems, even if they count the efforts of the "color center" and "Super Dorothy", they have not been able to change the situation of patients with doomsday syndrome - not only can they not prevent the onset of the disease, but they also cannot alleviate the pain, even if they weave a "script" and put it in this apocalyptic fantasy, the result does not prevent the coming of the apocalypse, and they fail to find out the true body of the "virus", let alone figure it out. In what way and where exactly does it exist?

Those theories that seem to be profound and correct, as if they can solve all the problems in the universe, those theories that seem to be able to make people become gods, and belong to the most advanced theories that human beings currently have, none of them can solve the problems that have already occurred, let alone discover the problems that have not yet happened in advance. In terms of "possibility" alone, it does make people feel confident, but in terms of actual results, it is not only that it does not meet expectations, it is simply useless.

This is a very acute question: what is the use of theories and methods that fail to solve problems at the necessary moments? Is a theory that can only be improved after the dust settles on the results is really the most important theory? After all, it is impossible for people to live in the world of theory all the time.

Curiosity and the search for the root cause have always been regarded as important driving forces of human development, but if curiosity and the search for the root cause cannot solve the problem, cannot come up with a real solution to the problem, or exceeds the time to solve the problem, then what is the point of wasting time on the root cause?

Is the unknown infinite or finite? It is simply impossible to prove until it is truly omniscient. But before reaching omniscience, mystery has already appeared, as if to tell people that the unknown is infinite. However, after the mystery, the end also followed, to show people that the seemingly infinite unknown is actually limited. In this way, the investigation of everything that is unknown to oneself is completely an infinite spiral in a finite time, and theoretically there must be a day when it will be achieved, but in practice it is impossible to achieve.

If the dream of exploring the unknown and mysterious in the timeline of human existence can be passed on through the continuation of races and civilizations. However, in this world, humanity is about to perish, and the carrier of civilization and dreams is about to be destroyed in essence. All the idea that "the unknown will eventually be discovered" will eventually become empty talk.

"It's not just me, it's everyone else, there's no need to get to the bottom of it. In this world, it is a nightmare in the end. I told him, half-warned, half-admonished, that I knew exactly what she would find herself in if she continued to let her curiosity and inquisitive mind run rampant. The most similar thing about her and me is that she is not a genius either. She had to understand one thing and sum up a set of theories, which was about the same time as I did. With such a stupid brain, such a dangerous environment, and such an embarrassing time, trying to get to the bottom of everything mysterious is equivalent to making it so difficult for the egg to imprint the essence of the entire earth's civilization from the time it is not fertilized.

No, I sometimes wonder how much unknown can be explained in the face of the depth, vastness, and darkness of the universe even if the essence of the entire earth's civilization has been imprinted since the time of the egg, and then studied twenty-four hours a day, accumulating five thousand years. Five thousand years is too short in astronomical units, even in terms of the lifetimes of stars, or even galaxies.

Thinking about the "mystery and the unknown" in terms of astronomical units expands to a completely unimaginable scope.