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Man cannot observe the world in its entirety.

The limitations of one's vision are even narrower than one's own thoughts. The set of methods that human beings have summed up to study all things is limited by its own limitations, and it is inevitably narrow. Moreover, the manpower is limited, and it is impossible to achieve a result that is truly centered on "completeness and truth".

If the world we see is only one side of the world, and the side where we observe ourselves is constantly corrected by information from other sides, then the powerful force that we can feel that guides our destiny is of course incomparably great. When we only speculate and resist this force with only the corner of what we see, it is inevitable that we will be counterattacked.

It's not that the world has ill will towards us, it's just that we're too small to withstand the world's instinctive response to the attack.

How much power does it take to reach the real truth, to pry the whole real world, not just one side? For humans with a narrow field of vision who can only live in a corner, it is probably completely unimaginable.

I can't imagine it, but this perception is logical enough for me. I think that to make a decision and act on it, it is not really about how "right" the reason is, but only because it is the reason that you need.

A moment ago, I was still preparing a plan to "destroy one world and save another", and my feelings at that time were both tangled and painful, because no matter how much I wanted to destroy Miè's world. I still want to save the world, and the people I love are all "saved". Although it is possible to doubt the authenticity of the world, it is completely impossible to doubt the authenticity of them in such a world.

However, in order to save one of them. Isn't it ridiculous that in order to save a "real" person in the true sense of the word, it is necessary to judge that they in other worlds are illusory and abandon them? However, there was no way, at that time, I was narrow-minded, and I could only see such a path.

I would like to thank Dr. Nguyen Li, I am very, very grateful to her. If I hadn't come to her, I might not have found any other possibility—nay, I should say, no reason not to carry out that ridiculous plan.

Even now, I still don't think that the idea that the worlds of the hospital reality, the apocalyptic illusion, and the world of the repeater are all real is more correct than any other speculation in the past. However, I need it. It's not cold and perfect logic, it's not hot and unreasonable sensibility. I drive myself with emotion, but not without the influence of reason, and it is enough to use it as a reason to convince myself not to carry out that ridiculous plan.

Give yourself a reason. To do something that cannot be proven completely unrealistic, to go to the next decision that is not 100% impossible. For me, it's more throbbing than doing something I don't want to do with a painful awareness.

Yes. I know very well that my conjecture cannot be proved correct at all, and it is equally unclear what the chances of success of a readjusted plan based on this conjecture are. But—

It doesn't matter, because, no matter how bad or difficult the situation is, it will not get worse than it is now. Even if it is a previous conjecture or a previous plan, it is not the same, and it cannot be 100% proven to be feasible? If there really was a plan with "authenticity and a success rate of more than 50 percent", there would have been no need to be so confused a long time ago.

Now that I can accept it in my heart, I think I should go along with this idea and not ask whether the real situation is really as good as I guessed. This is because one's own vision, knowledge, and intelligence are not able to accurately judge "what is true".

If that's willfulness, then that's okay.

I didn't tell Dr. Nguyen Li about that, because even if I did, Dr. Nguyen Li would not change anything. The information that gave me new ideas was basically obtained from Dr. Nguyen Li, who had read my diary in its entirety, and was no stranger to my past thoughts and behaviors, as well as the situation of "hospital reality" and "doomsday vision", and it was impossible for her to think of what I thought of. So, probably because she doesn't accept this assumption.

And what was wrong with her centering on the world she observed? After all, even though my worldview is grander, I can't prove that I'm right. Only, I hope it's correct. And you can also save your loved ones under this correct guidance.

If all the worlds can be treated as real, what is wrong with treating this repeater world as real, as Dr. Nguyen Le said?

"Got it? Agawa, I'm sorry if you expect me to have any plans. Dr. Nguyen Le said to me apologetically, "Although I told you to be a hero to save the world, in fact, this is not possible. Let you do something that is simply impossible...... I hope you don't resent me. ”

I shook my head and smiled comforting her: "It's okay, whether I can do it or not, I will do it, because, that's my mother's wish, isn't it?" And, I don't think, it's really no longer possible. ”

"Every world is a real aspect, so if you want to save the world, you have to save all the sides. If you want to save your loved ones, you must save everyone who is observed, who is stored on that side. It is difficult to say that it is no easier to plan on the basis of such a judgment, than any of the previous plans, because the first question to be faced is: how to observe all the real aspects?

If it is not possible to observe all aspects, then it is impossible to talk about such an act of saving every aspect. It is necessary to be aware in order to concentrate on influencing it, and this is the rule that human beings must follow. So, observation, cognition, and then more concrete action. And to observe every aspect of reality, just with the present me. It can't be done.

Think, recall.

Combined with the existing resources, the new plan has gradually taken shape in my mind. I have to say that in this plan, the color of "Hospital Reality" and Dorothy's plan. By mistake, it met the requirements of the new plan. It should even be said that without their plan, the new plan would have more twists and turns and waste more time.

Super Takakawa plan, no, it should be a little more visual, it should be the final Takakawa plan. It is necessary to integrate all the stored "Takagawa" information and combine it with Dr. Ender's human completion plan. Forming a "Takakawa" who is unified and powerful in spirit and personality, and incomparably strong in body, in order to take advantage of the particularity of "Takakawa" to restrain the "virus", create "serum", and then attack the hospital - judging from the contents of the diary, the general process of the plan is like this, as for why it is in this plan. It is possible to defeat the "virus" or "Jiang", why can the "Takakawa", which has been LCLIZED, return to the reality of the hospital. The logical theory is completely unclear, but I don't care about that, what I care about is just the content of the "Takakawa" integration mentioned earlier.

This Super Takakawa Project was built on the idea that "the reality of the hospital is the real reality." However, as long as the integration of "Takakawa" can be completed, this is what the current plan needs. If the "Takagawa" of each real side is united. So, this final and only "Takakawa" can observe every real side, right?

In this way, the end of the world can be recognized and affected from a holistic perspective.

Regardless of whether the existence that contributed to the end of the world is "virus", "river" or "white Claudia", it is of course also a existence that affects every aspect of reality, and if it cannot even observe every aspect of reality, it is inevitable that it will appear powerless in front of it?

It is likely that the hospital's real-life Super Color and Super Dorothy are also aware of this, perhaps from different cognitive angles, but the paths chosen are similar. Their plan was not entirely wrong. Moreover, judging from the diary, they have completed all the preliminary preparations and started the plan on the prosthetic body Takakawa. No matter what Takakawa thinks, I really hope to see him right away. I know why he hesitated, in his opinion, the unwillingness to immediately memorize the personality formatting is a selfish expression of an independent personality, no matter what the reason is, it cannot hide this, but in my opinion, it should be said that it is an instinctive rebellion - the prosthetic Takakawa is specially made based on the Super Takakawa plan, and he has an extremely high psychological receptivity to every step of the plan. Therefore, the reason why he hesitated was because he instinctively felt a strong omen such as "start formatting now, and you won't be able to meet the expectations of the plan".

Because, at that time, it would have been impossible for me to merge in this way. Just as the prosthetic Gao Chuan has the support of Super Color and Super Dorothy behind him, I also have the unreasonable power of "Jiang" here. Whether it's when I'm not sober, or when I'm sober but unwilling, no matter how good the Super Color and Super Dorothy skills are, it's impossible to resist "Jiang". In the diary, it has already been recorded once, the battle between Super Color, Super Dorothy, Takakawa, which is similar to Super Takakawa, and "E". The failure at that time proved that their abilities were still too immature in the face of "Jiang".

However, now that I am here, it is possible to ...... No, it should be said that it is necessary to find the prosthetic Takakawa and then carry out the Super Takakawa plan.

Of course, in order to maximize the success rate and ensure that "Super Takakawa" really meets the expected expectations, then perhaps the power of "Carmen" is also needed, after all, it has been explained in the diary that "Carmen" is actually a part of "Takakawa".

My mind was spinning, and the past was like falling into a fog, passively accepting the confusion of various situations, and little by little it was torn apart, revealing a clear path.

Although I thought about it so much for a while, the conversation with Dr. Nguyen Li was still ongoing. There was still surprise on her face, because I told her seriously, "It's not impossible." However, behind the surprise, it is unknown how much will be believed. However, I felt that it was precisely because she thought that I had borne this matter at her request, so that I would not immediately veto my plan.

Although this is a bit excessive, Dr. Nguyen Li probably has no other way but to trust me.

"How?" She asked, "We are here, but we can't even determine the true face of the culprit, although we can observe it." But it's not as complete as it is, let alone inflicting damage on it. It is impossible to communicate with it, nor can it be touched, and once it takes targeted action, it will be detected and fall into doom. If you are light, you will die. Assuming that Claudia White does not have a definite consciousness, but that her existence has produced an avalanche reaction that leads to the coming of the end of the world, it is difficult for us to find the core of this avalanche chain in such a short period of time, let alone prevent this reaction. ”

"The question of what exactly is the culprit, what is Claudia in white, and how its existence leads to the existing observed end of the world, is really important." I replied seriously, "But." As you said, Mom, if you want to get to the bottom of the matter, there are too many restrictions. But as a kind of apocalyptic phenomenon, the existing situation is what we can get involved in. ”

"What do you mean......" Dr. Nguyen Le fell into deep thought.

"Mom is actually already doing it." I say.

"Paradise?" Dr. Ruan Li raised his gaze and confirmed again: "Do you really think so too?" ”

"What is on the spiritual level is solved on the spiritual level." The impact of the real side should be solved from the real side.

"Definitely. We thought about using white Claudia as the main ingredient. Manufacture of a drug called 'Paradise'. Using its characteristics, people who recognize the 'end of the world' can get involved in the mental network of the infected, and the route is probably to use some special mental patients as the entrance. Doctor Ruan Li nodded: "This is the true face of the psychedelic drug 'Paradise' of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in your diary, which can create illusions. But more importantly, it allows people to actively engage with other people's hallucinations. The researchers in the Doomsday Shinrikyo are not only those of us who are experts in psychology and medicine, so the manufacturing plan of this drug. It is only based on our own point of view and carried out independently. Other physicists, mathematicians, sociologists, and so on, also have their own ideas, anything, and plans. Although it may seem too loose, in fact, the number of people dying due to bad luck is decreasing recently. In short, no matter what plan is to be made, human resources are also necessary, and they are also what we lack the most. ”

In this relayer world, there are many differences between the image of the Doomsday Shinrikyo and the ones in the Doomsday Illusion, and there may be a subjective component, but the Doomsday Shinrikyo that Dr. Nguyen Li told me does not give me too much bad feeling. I believe in Dr. Nguyen Lê, and I would like to believe that at least a group of members of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult, especially the group in which Dr. Nguyen Lê regularly participates in activities, are people who can be trusted.

"No, not everyone can be trusted. In order not to be caught up by bad luck, human nature will also lead to some violent reactions. Dr. Ruan Li shook his head and said, "However, Ah Chuan, you don't need to pay attention to these dirty things. I need you to trust me completely. ”

"Of course, Mom, I believe in you." I met her eyes and replied firmly.

"Paradise is not so easy to make, the ones that were made before...... Although it is somewhat accidental and requires further verification in terms of composition and efficacy, it should be possible to redevelop it as a sample. "Funding and equipment have been prepared, and this workshop is all about identifying more companions," said Dr. Nguyen Lê. The research to be carried out is a big project, but we do not have much time. We are not sure that 1999 will be over, or that the world will be ruined one day before the end of 1999. She stopped in front of the observatory's telescope and paced back and forth, although the time was short, but there was no anxious expression on her face, "In order to speed up the progress, we need a lot of real people." ”

"That's why I'm here, aren't I?" I understood very well what Dr. Nguyen Li was trying to say, "I'm the most ideal object, and the previous sample of the paradise was made with my special medicine, isn't it?" Even if it is a coincidence, it does prove that there is an important and crucial place in my body and my medicine. ”

"I'm sorry, Achuan, actually, it wasn't like that at first." There was a hint of sadness in Dr. Nguyen's eyes, and she seemed to feel that it was not the right thing to do for me to be involved in such a situation. However, by chance, things still turned out like this. However, I think, in her heart, I also want to understand my condition and changes, as well as the sample of the paradise of the guide. What the hell is going on? This is the most common curiosity of researchers, and there is also good intentions in it - in the beginning, Dr. Nguyen Li's original intention in participating in this symposium was to find better equipment and solutions, in addition to the research on "paradise" as he is now talking about. Go and treat my illness.

While the ideas that lead to action are complex, there are also ideas that have the best of both worlds.

Even without the influence of Claudia White, I have always been a very special mental patient in her eyes. After the influence of White Claudia appeared, this peculiarity only became more special. However, I am a mentally ill person and her adopted son, and this identity has not changed.

"I'll drink it." I said to her, "As long as it's the medicine from my mother." I'll drink it. It doesn't matter if it's for me, for research, or for saving the world. I trust Mom, and that's the only way we can do our part at the moment, isn't it? Mom, like me, didn't know much about advanced mathematics and physics. ”

"Ah Chuan......" Dr. Ruan Li squatted down suddenly. Holding me tightly in his arms, his voice was a little muffled. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize, Mom." I calmly patted her on the back and said, "Mom didn't do anything wrong. ”

"Can we really succeed? If you drink Paradise, you will be able to enter the spiritual world of people. And then make adjustments to their spirits? Dr. Nguyen Le muttered to herself, apparently, she didn't have much confidence in the plan. In her words, we, the real beings, are to become "consciousness walkers". But. Even if they succeed, how can a small number of consciousness walkers have an impact on the spiritual network formed by a huge number of people? There are many questions, but for now, we can only focus on the first step.

The "paradise" of psychedelic drugs that have been developed must have the effect they envisioned.

And even if the people who are mentally ill under the influence of Claudia White are readjusted, can they prevent the "end of the world"? It has been concluded that the end of the world led by White Claudia is an avalanche chain reaction, and theoretically, as long as the chain is interrupted in the middle, it can be stopped, however, who can be sure that the spiritual problem is already this key node?

Dr. Nguyen Le and the others are only psychologists, and they can only think and implement plans from the perspective of what they are good at.

"Even if it can't solve everyone's mental problems, it should solve my problems, right?" I comforted Dr. Nguyen Li, who rarely saw such a fragile person, and said, "Mom, if I drink 'Paradise', I can enter my own spiritual world, and I will definitely be able to see clearly what my condition is." ”

Moreover, if you want to defeat the Night Raven Quark that absorbed "Carmen", and recapture and absorb the stored information of "Carmen", you must consider the situation of Night Raven Quark and Alienated Youjiang at the same time. In terms of current strength, it is still a little reluctant to face the two at the same time, in addition to needing some helpers, it is also necessary to further improve the ability. In Dr. Nguyen Li's eyes, the meaning of Claudia White and the psychedelic drug "Paradise" is true, it has the potential to strengthen one's own spiritual strength. Of course, I can't give up, as long as Dr. Nguyen Li is here, no matter what I do, the goal is to "strengthen", not "disintegrate", isn't this opportunity?

Conversely, what can you do if you don't? Although it is necessary to find the prosthetic Takakawa, it is not easy to leave this repeater world.

In my mind, relying on the fact that Dr. Ruan Li and they created a "paradise", I can save a lot of work to lay it out. After all, no matter how Dr. Nguyen Le sees herself, her particularity is unquestionable from the perspective of the apocalyptic vision. In view of what happened at the previous resting point, I think that this peculiarity has been exposed for a few days. I don't deny the authenticity of this Repeater world, but I also don't deny the authenticity of the invaders from the Doomsday Realm. Based on two different perspectives, the "end of the world" that can be seen is different, but it must be the same. (The novel "Restricted Doomsday Syndrome" will have more fresh content on the official WeChat platform, and there will also be a 100% lottery gift for everyone!) Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign in the upper right corner to "add friends", search for the official account "qdread" and follow, hurry up! (To be continued......)