I didn't hide my speculation from John Bull, the Demon Summoner is of unknown origin, and in the worst-case scenario, it may carry some mysterious information about the user's own. In any case, the leakage of one's own mysterious information is a first-class matter for mystery experts. Of course, I won't be sloppy on this issue, and if the theft of the disk was done by John Bull and Zuo Chuan, then they should have a valid reason as well.

"Mr. Takakawa, your gaze stresses me a lot." John Niu's gaze drooped for a moment, raised it again, exhaled deeply, glanced at Zuo Chuan, who was expressionless, before saying, "Yes, your demon summoner disk was taken by us, but it is no longer in our hands." ”

John Bull began to explain to me the ins and outs of the matter. After obtaining the demon summoning program and making her own electronic demon, she and Zuo Jiang met by chance. However, the accident at that time actually had an unnatural flavor in hindsight, but there was no evidence, it was just the intuition of the occult experts, in fact, the occult experts were the group of people who did not believe in chance. However, whether it was accidental or inevitable, the meeting between the two was a fact, and it was not a bad thing. However, when they decided to go to Asia, an email arrived at them.

The content of the email is very simple, one is to explain the situation of the demon summoning program, in order to prove that the sender understands the demon summoning program, and make people feel that the other party is the maker of the demon summoning program.

"Do you think this sender is the maker?" I asked John Bull.

"Perhaps, I am inclined to assume this as true." John Bull replied.

The second is to inform the two of them about me and the mysterious person "Carmen" of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in the Repeater World.

"Carmen!" I nodded, already confirming in my mind, "My Demon Summoner Disk is in his hand?" ”

"Yes, that's what the sender told us to do, and the other party wants Carmen to have a meeting with her when she gets the disk." A synonym for John Bull made me a little concerned.

"She? Woman? ”

"Nope. It's a monster with a feminine appearance! John Bull mentioned the man, his face became gloomy, and his tone was not very good, and it was evident that he had been hit on a psychological level, and he still did not recover.

"You fought her?" I asked.

"No, there isn't." John Bull said cautiously, "That's just to see." I would never think that it was normal...... No, it should be said that as soon as you meet, you know it's a monster! It was as if it was made entirely of anomalies, and its outward appearance could not describe its essence at all. After a pause, he said, "I've never seen anything so anomalous, like an anomaly above all anomalies." She was a little hard to describe, so she could only say, "It's because it's so abnormal." So, we didn't fight at all, and we didn't object to doing what it demanded. There are many uncertain doubts about this matter, but, one thing I know for sure, what the monster is going to do, it would be even worse if he refused, and. There is a possibility that an irreparable situation will arise. ”

"The reality is known only to you, the people involved, but—" I said to John Bull unabashedly. "I trust your judgment."

John Niu breathed a sigh of relief: "Mr. Takakawa, I know what you are worried about, but I don't think there should be a perfect copy of the mystery of others in this world. The user is operating an electronic demon. The power that can be exerted by the Electro Demon cannot be equal to the power that the Electro Demon may exert when acting independently or in the hands of others. Indeed, the mystery can theoretically do anything. All imaginable and unimaginable effects are achieved, but this does not mean that the mystery, when it comes to a certain reality, is completely beyond the scope of the known number jù. Nine out of ten of the mysteries that have emerged so far are impossible to do without restrictions, even with the support of repeaters. Netball has counted the existing known mysteries and found that there is an upper limit to the effect that the mystery can achieve, although it is not easy to judge when it comes to a mysterious event. Moreover, in the number jù of the net ball statistics, there have never been two mysteries that are exactly the same. Therefore, even the leakage of one's own mysterious information is not enough to cause too much trouble to the user. For example, this time, if Mr. Takakawa creates an electronic demon that is controlled by an enemy, it is unlikely that the other party will be able to use the Mystic at the same level as it was when you used Mystery. If this enemy uses your electronic demon against you, his defeat is inevitable, and I'm sure you know that. ”

"Even if it's only a percentage after the decimal point, I want to be cautious." I cautiously warned John Bull, "If Carmen uses my demon summoner to gain access to my electronic demonic powers, there is a risk of extremely terrible changes. "Carmen's origins, and his relationship with Jiang, in the Doomsday Vision, are extremely special, and the Night Raven Quark is also a manifestation of my particularity, I can't imagine what will happen if the two particularities merge into one, but I don't want to see anything like that at all.

However, when I learned that my demon summoner had fallen into Carmen's hands, I had a strong premonition that the changes I didn't want to see had already begun. Therefore, it is useless to blame anyone at this time.

"What are you worried about? Mr. Takakawa. John Bull asked.

"I don't know what Netball says about Carmen, but I think you're still underestimating him, no matter how much you think you're underestimating him." I confessed, though, that I couldn't explain to them why I thought the way I did. The personality who has been stuck in the apocalyptic fantasy cannot truly understand the impact of the "hospital reality". To say that everyone is only in a world of consciousness, and that the higher reality that determines the fate of all people does exist, is at best regarded as a philosophical assumption, and in most cases, it will be regarded as my imagination. What's more, when the body has become LCL, there is no way to "log out" again. This is one of the reasons why I think that in order to rescue Sakuya and Hakkei from the height of "hospital reality", and even to liberate all the patients with doomsday syndrome, it is necessary to pass the guò "river".

Dr. Ender, the Lurker, the Chromochromic Repeater, and Dorothy in the "Hospital" have prepared a series of plans for the "virus" and the "patient", but. They are still helpless about the LCL changes, and the most they can achieve in the end is to cure patients who have not yet been LCLIZED - if we only aim at this process, Dorothy and the other plan I am working on is still hopeful, the best outcome imaginable. Probably Sakuya, Hachiké and Marceau, they can also be saved, although the state of the color system and Dorothy is more special, but because there is also no LCL, so, there is also the possibility of being saved, so, the other I did not hesitate to do it, to carry out this plan, even if it is the LCL myself. It is also impossible to be saved from this plan.

I don't think it's wrong to sacrifice myself, to sacrifice the possibility of Mae, to save Sakiya, Hakkei, Marceau, Isai, and Dorothy. I don't hate the other me, because he didn't do anything wrong, and even the plan he was carrying out might be more realistic in human logic. It's just that it's not ideal. Yes. It's just not ideal, not everyone is saved, at least, not everyone loved by "Takakawa" can be saved.

I sometimes feel that I have been able to recover precisely because there is an idealistic side to Takakawa's ideas. Looking forward to that dreamy and perfect ending, the "Takakawa" personality, who can lead the immediate action, has to follow a more rational side, so there is a conflict in his heart, and he is interfered with by "Jiang". Will resuscitate me.

I have stored in this world with unreasonable miracles, which may itself be the embodiment of the end of the "Takakawa dream". That's why while I feel contradictory and painful because of the unreality of "idealization", I will never waver because of the unreality of "idealization". Because of this, I never doubted whether I was "Takakawa" or not.

Obviously, the recognition that I am "Takakawa" has been given meaning since I was born, when I was revived.

However, although the existence of this "Gao Chuan" is already like a miracle, if there is no greater miracle, it will still be nothing, because "Gao Chuan" has been LCLIZED, and it is impossible to interfere with the "hospital reality" in a general way, and if the "hospital reality" is the real reality—even if I can't be sure, I can't deny this possibility—that means that I no longer have the possibility of saving anything from the reality level, contrary to me, What Dorothy is doing is the real act of having the possibility of self-help. From this conclusion, the other me is indeed on the path of "the hero of the person I love", and I am just a "pseudo-hero" who can only live in delusion.

Yes, if there is no greater miracle, I am such a thing—the end of dreams, idealized vanity. However, because of this, in the world of consciousness of the apocalyptic illusion, I can theoretically be stronger than any "Takakawa", because, in a sense, this kind of existence is already above the end of the will of "Takakawa".

I don't know if these occasional thoughts are true, but that doesn't prevent me from taking them as assumptions that govern my actions, and my actions are actually based on assumptions. Because I can't understand the real reality, I only have an idealized dream, or rather, I affirm that the realization of this dream is the only meaning that I have in it.

Because I think so, I feel that Carmen's existence has a lot in common with me, and therefore it is a particularly powerful anomaly. All in all, in the current LCL of "Takakawa", Carmen is also unable to interfere with the "reality of the hospital", and knowing this, his actions must also be centered on the greater miracle of "interfering with the reality of the hospital".

It is precisely because of the similarity of our paths in this sense that I can better understand what kind of consciousness and means Carmen will give to achieve this goal. If I am strong, then how strong he will be, if I am indomitable, how indomitable he will be, if my thinking is so far away, then his thinking will be so far away. I see Carmen as an equivalent deposit, while Cyberball can't do that, they don't even know that my deposit. My thoughts, my plans, my realizations, what is the end of things?

Therefore, maybe John Bull made what he thought was the right choice based on the information of the cyberball, and I also think her choice was wrong. Moreover, it is extremely dangerous.

John Bull and I looked at each other and tried our best to express my seriousness, if Carmen really had a change because of the Raven Quark, it was definitely not a matter of "there is no danger, there is a backhand, so there is no need to worry". Even if the matter is irreparable at this time, as a comrade-in-arms, I still hope that John Niu will pay attention to this point and avoid future actions. Additional losses due to underestimation of Carmen. Although I will be an enemy of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult, the Nazis, the NOG, Area 51, and even the entire world when it comes to seizing the Spiritual Integration Device, there is no absolutely irreconcilable contradiction between me and the Las Vegas Special Operations Force at this time until the situation naturally develops to that point.

In other words, without the help and containment of the Las Vegas special operations forces. A man confronts the Doomsday Shinrikyo and the Nazis, who have already begun to carry out their plans, but have never revealed their true form. The difficulty will definitely skyrocket. I'm not afraid to face any difficulty, but that doesn't mean I can ignore it and let it get bigger, because what good does that do for my plans?

It seems to be a little uneasy to be stared at by me. John Bull looked away from me, and pondered for a while before saying, "Mr. Takakawa, your origins have always been a mystery, and it is impossible for us to treat him as if it were another Takakawa-sama. However, we also believe that your existence must be involved in the deeper mysteries of this world, and it also has a greater significance than that one Takakawa-sama.

Of course, this view is not my own, but the result of an analysis by a group of Netball's think tanks based on the prophecy of the Prophet Mayne. I don't know if that's true, but I'm inclined to say it's true, because the fire and the Mayne prophet never let us down. They told me something before I joined the operation, so that even if it is difficult to understand what your relationship with Carmen really is, how you made such a judgment, I will take your admonition seriously. I do hope now that you are only exaggerating in the case of Carmen, but in no way will you bring this sentiment into action. ”

"That's it." I say. The look in John Bull's eyes made me want to believe that her answer was not perfunctory.

"I'm here to confirm your situation. I'll be back in Europe soon to join the team, are you really not with me? What you do will make the world move in the same way, and all the troubles from the mystery will gather in Europe and the United States, and I believe that that there will soon become the core of all plans, and it is also the place where we should pay the most attention. John Niu said sternly and looked at Zuo Chuan, "Zuo Chuan, there is a lot of pressure from Europe and the United States, and you must have such instant combat power." ”

"No, I'll follow my master." Zuo Chuan said, "Compared to your plan, I believe that the master will do more." The master has proved with facts that even if he confronts the Doomsday Shinrikyo and rivets them at the same time, he will not be left behind. Even with the cooperation of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Church, didn't the NOG plan be aborted for a while? Therefore, the center of trouble will move away from Asia and return to Europe and the United States. ”

"Is it the strongest?" John Bull patted his forehead, "I really don't understand, why those crazy people in the mercenary association would make you with this kind of personality tendency as the core, the facts have proven that such a character is not excellent, and it is difficult to become strong in the real sense." ”

"Wrong, the value of ninja is not to rely on the strong, this is just a means of survival, not the meaning of existence." Zuo Jiang's speech made me can't help but look sideways, although Zuo Jiang in the past has already expressed a very strong character traits unique to the ancient profession that has been annihilated in history in the eleventh district of the Central Principality, but now she is even stronger, as if she has shaped an image in a refined way. The description of "ninja" in history is actually very different from her expression today. To put it simply, what Zuo Jiang expressed at this time was like a "ninja" template in the mainstream ideology.

Although I've not been with Zuo Chuan for a long time, I don't have enough insight into her past, but I think that the artificial human "Zuo Chuan", who only existed as a mercenary in the past, is definitely not what she is now. What happened to Zuo Chuan? What made her make such a change in a short period of time? Is it related to Dorothy? These questions are intriguing, however, it is probably impossible for Zuo Chuan to answer them himself.

"Do you really think you're a ninja? As far as I know, the ancient profession of ninja has long been impossible to actually prove. John Niu looked at Zuo Chuan with interest, "You don't know if you are a ninja in the real sense of the word, and the guy you made is just cultivating you into such a character as you imagined." You are very good, Zuo Chuan, if you can change this rigid character, you can become a strong person in the real sense. ”

"John Niu, you should know that this weapon named Zuo Chuan has long been abandoned as a waste product." Zuo Chuan said expressionlessly: "It was the master who gave me the meaning of a second life, from the moment I signed the contract, I was no longer the person that others wanted me to be, to become such a person, but I wanted to be such a person, and I became such a person." In my understanding, to revive the ninja profession, it may be different from the ancient times, but it must be more helpful to the master than the form at any time. ”

"I see, from this point of view, the mercenary association's waste utilization can be regarded as a result." John Bull mentioned the Mercenary Guild, and there was a hint of sarcasm in his eyes, although it quickly disappeared, but it was still caught by me, and I don't know if this was John Bull's personal feelings, or the attitude of the whole Internet ball. If you look at the current apocalyptic fantasy with the past experience as a reference, even if the mercenary association has a lot of ability, it will eventually be completely digested by the behemoth NOG dominated by the cyberball.

I didn't expect that Zuo Chuan would have such an idea, in the past, she never revealed it. I do have a contract with Zuo Chuan and Jiang Chuan, not only on the level of contract and personal will, but also on the basis of the power of "Jiang". The power of "Jiang" is enough to swallow personal wishes, so Zuo Chuan's attitude at this time is somewhat interfered with by "Jiang". However, it is precisely because "Jiang" is too terrifying, so when getting along and cognizing, we have to put aside its existence, otherwise, a qiē personal consciousness expression will become a "meaningless pseudo".

After all, what evidence is there to prove that at this time, all patients with doomsday syndrome, including me and Dorothy, are autonomous and free? 1. Are thoughts and actions based on personal wishes? Is this kind of personal will indeed purely personal, and not imposed by the "virus" and "Jiang" in the game?

If all our thoughts and actions are "viruses" and "rivers" that need to be so, so that they exist, then we ourselves have no meaning at all.

Such a thought is extremely dangerous. But it seems that it can be related to the behavior of the Doomsday Shinrikyo - for example, it is precisely because of the subconscious recognition of this meaninglessness that we seek the end of the apocalypse, and in the process of the end, and even in the result, we find and obtain meaning again.

It's horrible.

I lock this thought in the deepest part of my heart, and only look at most of the thoughts and actions in the apocalyptic illusion in a way that ignores the interference of "Jiang".

"Forget it, although it seems that your decision is a pity now, but who can say in the future? Perhaps Mr. Takakawa's choice between you and Zuo Chuan at this time will become the most critical part of the plan. John Bull smiled relaxedly, "It's not a decision to put all your eggs in the same basket." After that, she stood up, patted her trouser leg, and said, "I should go, there are many more things, and the Asian side will have to rely on the two of you." (To be continued......)