"Am I dreaming?" I looked at Dr. Ruan Li, who was sitting next to me, and asked. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoI have realized that my mental condition is changing worse than before. I walked on the ashes, I fell into the abyss of infinite darkness, I was strapped to a hospital bed, I listened to the story of Dr. Nguyen Lê, who had long since died, telling the story of himself becoming the core of the repeater, which of all this was true? Where is the real me? What kind of state is it? I can't tell anymore, I just think that everything that was once a dream is so vivid.

From what I see in front of me, I can certainly draw all kinds of conclusions that prove that this is true, but what is true where I don't see it?

Dr. Nguyen Li, who is sitting next to me and talking to me now, has many reasons to prove that it does exist, but who can be sure that she is not one of my fantasies? Because, I wanted her to be alive so much, and I just sat next to me. I have a feeling that Dr. Nguyen Li in the reality of the hospital is dead, and this feeling is so impulsive, so certain, as if I once witnessed her death in the reality of the hospital. Of course, I can't tell how Dr. Nguyen Le died in the hospital, but I can speculate that I can't tell the details, but there is a deep sadness that makes me believe in this result.

Is this impulsive, heavy, sad, longing for everything the reason why I am able to see Dr. Nguyen Le in front of me? I didn't really care what she said, or whether what I learned from her was true, just being able to talk to her like that, even in such a seriously ill manner, was enough. I'd like to talk to more people, to Color, Dorothy, Sakiya, Hakkei, Marceau, and many more acquaintances, but they're not in front of me. In my memory, this repeater world has collapsed, and this is the price I paid for this Las Vegas repeater - I don't think that if I don't do this, the original Las Vegas repeater world will not collapse, and the end is so obvious in the original Las Vegas repeater world, so inevitable, there are too many factors that determine its outcome, but I can't deny that I am also one of them.

I feel guilty, even though I think it's something I have to do, even if I think I have to do it for a better future.

I felt guilty and miserable. There is nothing more painful than sacrificing an already existing present for the sake of an uncertain future.

"Yes, you're dreaming, Achuan." Dr. Nguyen Le said to me, "But this is a dream you wish to have. ”

"No, I wish my dreams would be sweeter than this." From the bottom of my heart, I want to say that.

"You just know how cruel reality is, and you can't accept too sweet dreams." "But whether a dream is sweet or bitter, it's not always a mess of information. ”

"I know, I know, my dream is not reality, but it is a reflection of reality." The more I was able to understand this, the more sad I felt.

"No, what I'm going to say is that everything you should know is in this dream." Dr. Ruan Li stretched out her hand, she wanted to touch my head, but I was afraid that when I touched it, her hand was not warm, for fear that the cold and frightening touch would wake me up from my dream. I tilted my head unnaturally, but I guess I craved her more than anything else, so I couldn't avoid it.

Dr. Ruan Li touched my head, and the slightly sweet temperature spread to my skin, making me tremble unnaturally.

"Good boy, good boy." Dr. Nguyen Le smiled for the first time after entering the room.

"What do I need to know?" I digressed the subject. Even though I asked, I didn't really care what I could learn. I don't know how many times I've been in this dreamlike situation, but if it's really a dream, I certainly know what to do with it, and now, I just want to take a break and immerse myself in this dream of at least one other person.

"You need to know that you're not alone." There was another voice outside the door, one I would never forget.

I turned my head abruptly, and sure enough, I saw her, just like we had met for the first time. She is like a college student and a social person, in the transition between the two, full of ambiguous age. He was wearing a red sports jacket and black gym pants, and the zipper of the jacket was not closed, revealing the white sports vest inside. The long hair is tied into a ponytail, the abdomen is exposed, the **** is large, the skin is smooth and elastic, and the whole body exudes youthful and healthy vitality.

"Tomie ......," I muttered, she always was, as if she were rooted in the depths of my body and soul, real or unreal, hallucinatory or dreamlike, wherever I was, even if it seemed like she wasn't supposed to be, she would appear in front of me so suddenly, and then, suddenly, leave. She is like the wind, the clouds, the thoughts in my heart, my wishes, the unpredictable emotions and impulses. Of course, it's also my love.

"River", the fire of my soul, the light of my life, the people I love deeply, the inhuman things I love deeply.

Just as I was never surprised that Dr. Nguyen Le would be in my dreams, I was never surprised that "Jiang" would come into my dreams. It has always been here, in that deepest dream, calling to me, waiting for me to fall asleep.

Dr. Nguyen Li and Tom Jiang are not puzzled by each other's existence, the feeling between them is very strange, they can't be said to be acquaintances, but they are not strangers either. They didn't greet each other either, and although they talked together, their eyes never stayed on each other. No, I do, and maybe it's better to say "they can't see each other." In reality, no matter how you treat people as nothing, it will not be like this, because whether it is intentional or deliberate, it is on the basis of "being aware of the existence of the other party" to do so, and the feeling that the two of them give me at this time is not so. However, since it was in a dream, there was nothing surprising about it.

I've had all the weird dreams.

"What are you looking at? Achuan. Dr. Nguyen Li asked suddenly, as if hinting at something.

“…… It's nothing. I said in passing.

"No, you said Tomie, you saw her again? I've told you many times that she doesn't exist, Mae is dead, and Tomie is just an illusion caused by you missing her too much. "Dr. Nguyen Li's words are so nostalgic for me.

I just smiled silently.

Dr. Nguyen Li shook his head and did not continue. I saw Tomie smiling at me, and she brought a chair from somewhere and sat next to Dr. Nguyen Lê.

I asked her with my eyes: Dr. Nguyen Li can't see you?

I think the look in her eyes replied: No, she just denied my existence.

I can only comfort her with my eyes, because I can't just say that it is Dr. Nguyen Li's fault just because I love her. In my opinion, it is boring to distinguish between right and wrong for this kind of thing.

"Look at me, Achuan." Dr. Nguyen Li's words made me look back. She held my face and said to me who couldn't move, "Paradise is already in effect. But if you don't want to accept reality, you'll never be able to get out of the nightmare. ”

Nguyen Li...... Mom ......" I stared into her eyes, smiled quietly, and said, "It's just a dream." ”

Dr. Ruan Li shook her head, but she couldn't tell if it was disappointment or any other emotion, she let go of me, nodded and said, "Yes, it's just a dream after all." ”

"Don't be like that, in your dreams, please smile, Mom." I pleaded.

Dr. Ruan Li curled the corners of his mouth slightly, revealing a flat smile.

"If that makes you a little happier." She said.

"I'm very happy." I didn't lie, "So, what do you say I should know?" ”

"You should know that you are not alone." Dr. Nguyen Le pointed to my heart and said, "I...... There are others, right here. ”

"I know." I will not refute such sweet words.

"Also, you're not nothing." Dr. Nguyen Le said.

"I know that too." I'm glad she could say that.

"I'll help you." Dr. Nguyen Le said again.

Help me? How can it help? In a dream? I think, maybe I have always hoped that Dr. Ruan Li could help me, because in the reality of the hospital, she has always been the attending doctor and psychologist of "Gao Chuan".

"I know." I know that Dr. Nguyen Le has been helping me all along, trying to get me through the sinister ordeal and save my life and the lives of other patients with doomsday syndrome.

"I'm dead." Dr. Nguyen Le said suddenly.

I was a little stunned, because that's something I never wanted her to say...... Once again, I felt a surge of grief, and her words, as if urging me to face reality, made me feel more strongly than ever before that Dr. Nguyen Le was really dead.

"But, before I die, I left something for you. Maybe you will, maybe not...... However, I still think that if you want to keep going, there is a good chance that you will use it. Dr. Nguyen Le said.

"What is it?" I held back the sadness in my heart and asked, "Mom, what have you done?" ”

"A secret door, a secret door that only you can find, see, and use." As he spoke, Dr. Nguyen Li lifted the bed I was lying on halfway into a chair mode, and then pushed the chair to the window, so that I could also see the world outside the window: it was the infinite and far-reaching universe, a huge gray planet, hanging right in front of me, although the colors were different, but I suddenly remembered where I had seen a similar scene.

It's like standing on the moon and looking at the Earth, except that instead of the blue Earth of life, the Earth of Death covered in ashes is ahead. It seems to be going to tell me once again with this gesture that the Las Vegas repeater world has collapsed.

The place where I, Dr. Nguyen Lê, and Tomie Jiang were located was a tall tower towering over the moon, and when I looked out the window, I couldn't tell the overall appearance of the tower and the approximate number of layers, but I felt that it was very high, and the dry and dusty surface of the moon was like an arc that could be seen directly by eye, extending to the front and slowly sinking.

The next moment, the scene of the moon disappeared, the scene of the universe and the earth disappeared, and the room of the tower became a closed room, and such a room sealed in a certain building made me feel nostalgic. Looking out of the window, the scene has changed into a cylindrical cultivation chamber. I could even see what was inside from the glass side of those cultivation chambers: it was a familiar body, and there were as many cylindrical cultivation chambers as there were bodies reminiscent of "Takakawa". To say that these are all "Takakawa" bodies, at least from the appearance that can be seen with the naked eye, there is no reason to refute it.

"One year, you'll use them." Dr. Nguyen Le uses "them" instead of "them": "I have hidden secret doors in their composition, and if there is a day, I hope you will not regret using this secret door, or regret not using them." ”

"Takakawa clones?" I asked.

"Yes." Dr. Nguyen Le said, "I made thirteen bodies, but the secret door was only in one of them. This secret door will not collapse due to the collapse of these Takakawa clones themselves, and as long as there is an LCL, it will not disappear. If one day...... No, I think there will be a year when this secret door will help you in order to move towards hope and distance, although, I don't know how you will use it. ”

"What does the secret door do?" I asked.

"I don't know, but maybe you'll know when you use it." Dr. Nguyen Le said.

"It's rare, Mom, that you've finally made something you don't even know you're for." I understand what kind of person Dr. Nguyen Le is, she prefers to do things that she is sure of, and she has already sorted out her thoughts, and this kind of thing that even she is not sure about is actually not loved by her. Even so, she made it up and left me with a possible help.

I shuddered, and everything outside the window vanished abruptly, and I didn't know when I left the window and lay back in my original position, still restrained and unable to move.

"Yes, I made that thing, but I just wanted to tell you that I support you at all times, Achuan, my child." Dr. Nguyen Li stroked my cheek, "Don't be afraid, I've always been by your side. ”

I covered her palm with my palm and said from the bottom of my heart, "I know, Mom, I know ......"

Although it was just a dream, I was willing to believe what she said in the dream. I would like to believe that the reason for this dream is not just that I want to have such a dream, but because they also want to be able to meet in the dream. I'm willing to believe that this is a collusion of thoughts, not just self-soothing fantasies. (To be continued.) )