I could see that Jiang He was starting to be a little nervous, and she said to me very solemnly: "This is the most critical step in treatment, you have to try to stay awake at all times, keep your account so that it is not really stolen, there is no way to recover it at all." ”

I also started to get nervous: "How long will this treatment last?" Are you now sure that you can distinguish between primary and secondary personalities? ”

Jiang He looked at me with tears in his eyes: "Whether you can tell it is actually up to you, I have nothing to guarantee." ”

I was a little unbearable, and said to Jiang He: "Don't be pressured, if it's wrong, it's wrong, my mother's son is still here, maybe that person also likes those fox friends you like me." ”

Jiang He's tears slid down, she quickly wiped them away, jumped up and stared at me and said, "Wait a while, maybe you will be unconscious from time to time, you try to keep yourself awake, tell me that you will work hard, look at me!" ”

I don't know if it was the hanging medicine or those patches that worked, I felt that my eyes began to spew outward, and I tried to look at Jiang He's face and the tears in her eyes, as if I saw the little girl in the poplar forest holding my arm and saying to me, "You are not allowed to leave me too far in the future." "My tears rolled down in strings.

Just like Jiang He said, I fell into a half-dream and half-awake, the time of waking and coma I felt very short, as far as the eye could see, there were colorful lights, even when I was awake, the surroundings were distorted, I seemed to have entered a time tunnel. Many memories came flooding back, some familiar and some unfamiliar, and it was difficult to distinguish the true from the false.

My sense of time is gone, and I can't tell how long it has passed. As soon as I woke up, I had an urge to say something to Jiang He, and in fact I did keep saying it, but I didn't know what I said, and I couldn't even tell if I really said it.

I sat on the bench in the hospital again and read a book, someone sat down behind me suddenly, I turned around and saw a pale boy of fifteen or sixteen years old sitting there looking at me in a panic, I asked him, "Who are you?" ”

He cried, there were many fewer traces of wrinkles on his face, but there were still some remains, and he said, "Why don't you remember me, I'm Lou Lanyu." ”

I was surprised: "How have you changed, I always thought you were a girl." ”

He shook his head vigorously: "That's what you think, I didn't say I was a woman." ”

I said, "I haven't seen you for a few days, and you've grown up a lot." ”

He said, "Isn't it always up to you what I look like to you?" ”

I asked, "Why?" ”

He looked at me with despair and helplessness in his eyes: "Because you have always been like this, you ignore my existence, you dominate the world, you dominate everything about me. ”

I suddenly understood who he was, if Jiang He's analysis was correct, he was the twin brother whose body was absorbed by me, his ego survived tenaciously and lived together in this body, he is not a secondary personality, he is another person! But I'm still arguing: "How did I take it? I didn't want to take anything. ”

He stared at me and said: "We are brothers, I have always treated you as an elder brother, you are better than me in everything, and you were willing to share it with me when you were a child, but then I became weaker and weaker, and I couldn't get everything, and you didn't want to take care of me at all, and even completely forgot about me." ”

I shook my head and denied: "I don't understand what you said at all, I never knew you existed." ”

Tears flowed down his eyes: "I know you don't know exactly, I don't really blame you. ”

I leaned close to him and put my arm around his shoulders and said to him, "The doctor said I had multiple personalities. ”

He shook his head and said, "We are brothers, we were born into this world together, I am me and you are you, understand?" He continued: "I don't know why my life is like this. ”

He quickly continued, in complete a hurry: "I never wanted to have everything to myself, I only sneaked out once in a while. Then you became less aggressive, I found a way to talk to you, and you were so nice to me that night, and I was really touched. I try my best to please you and share everything I know with you. ”

"I approached you carefully and never intended to hurt you. But then things changed, these people said they were curing the disease, and they did a lot of things, but it became more and more clear to me that they were actually trying to kill me! ”

He was like a wounded fawn hiding in the bushes, and I felt his trembling, his fear hitting the softest places inside me. I grabbed his shoulders and looked at him, and I actually vaguely saw the young man's self: "I think everyone may have misjudged, they all think that I am really sick, we don't know that you have been alive, no one wants to kill you, they think that what is eliminated is a secondary personality." ”

His already pale face was even more bloodless: "I know that during this time I have tried to bear more of the pain of treatment, and I have tried to pretend that you fantasize that they will change their minds and stop treating the so-called personality disease. Can you tell them that they will not continue the treatment, I promise you will not appear in any form again, and I will continue to hide in a corner and study my favorite sutras until this skin decays and dies with you. I beg you to speak to them, I beg you! ”

I looked at him, tears flowed down my face, I didn't understand what the previous treatment had done to him, at least he had grown up in a clearly healthy image, whether he was my twin brother or a secondary personality, it would undoubtedly be cruel to eliminate him.

Suddenly, he vanished like a golden flame before my eyes, and I stood up and stared blankly at the long hospital hallway.

He's not a night wanderer, what should I call him? I shouted into the corridor: "Lou Lanyu! ”

Then I saw that my feet also began to turn into golden flames, and when the flames engulfed me whole, I opened my eyes and saw Jiang He in the golden light. I tried to organize the language to tell her everything that had just happened, and Jiang He's voice was distant: "I've heard you say these words three times. I hysterically shouted: "Interrupt the treatment, they are murderous!" ”

Jiang He tried to calm me, but it was difficult for me to calm down, I couldn't control my brain at all, I shouted to Jiang He: "Life and death!" Interrupt the treatment! ”

Jiang He burst into tears: "A few days ago, you insisted that there must be a key factor for my father to believe that he can use your condition to recall me, and I said that at some point in the treatment, maybe you will create an opportunity for me to tell you." I'll tell you now, that's because I couldn't hold on halfway through the treatment and wanted to commit suicide, my father threatened that if I didn't persevere, one day you would get sick, he wouldn't be able to save you, I was fighting for you, you owed me a lot, you looked at me, promised me that you would never give up for me! Look at me! ”

I was confused and watched Jiang He crying with pear blossoms and rain, reaching out to wipe her tears, she held my hand and hugged it to her chest: "You promised me when you were a child that you would not leave me, you look at me now and say it again!" ”

We looked at each other for a long time, her eyes were pure and bright in tears, like a moon star, I looked at her and wanted to say something but couldn't say it for a while, then she suddenly raised her head behind me and said, "It's okay!" ”

I tried to look up, and there was a row of doctors standing behind the bed, and Dr. Wang looked at me with eight teeth exposed, and then my whole head exploded as if it were exploding.

When I woke up again, I don't know what time it was, the equipment on my body was removed, and there was a hanging bottle hanging on my left hand, and I touched my head with my right hand, and the patch on it was gone.

Jiang He walked in quickly, I think there must be a camera watching me indoors. She walked up to me and leaned down at me: "Awake?" ”

I said, "Wake up, what are you staring at me?" ”

She looked at it for a moment and said, "Inspection." Then he said, "You can get up and take a shower later, it stinks to death." ”

I asked her, "Is the treatment over?" Looks like you recognized me at the critical moment. ”

She shrugged: "Maybe it's wrong, it doesn't matter." ”

I said, "The doctor said I couldn't touch the water for three days." ”

Jiang He said: "It's been five or six days. ”

The nurse came in and pulled out the hanging bottle, which seemed to be nothing more than nutrient solution or something, and also took my own clothes in and set them aside. I can go out.

My steps are a little weak, and my muscles must have decreased a lot after lying down for half a month, Jiang He avoided me: "Don't expect me to help you if it's so stinky, you can climb over by yourself." ”

The nurse put me in the bathroom, and I sat in it to rinse and slowly felt the blood flow in my legs. Except that I felt that I had lost a little weight and had a few more rows of needles on my arm, I didn't feel that there was any change in my genetic nature. At this time, Jiang He said outside the door: "I put your clothes at the door, and call me when they are ready." ”

There are not a few hairs on the body, and it is washed quickly, and I am afraid that it will take a long time to consume physical strength, after all, I haven't eaten much for half a month. Although things like nutrient solution are useful, psychologically I always feel that eating is more reliable.

I got dressed Jiang He came in and helped me out, I asked her if she should say hello to anyone, it was not good to get up and just leave. Jiang He said: "Who else do you have to find to settle the treatment fee?" If you are harmed like this, this account really needs to be settled with them. I have to take half a month's medicine for the next month, I've already taken it, let's go directly. ”

I said, "I mean, I signed a contract to participate in their trial, and I should have paid for the trial." And you have to add interest to your accounts from the year, which is torturous. ”

I didn't go far when I saw Dr. Meng standing there smiling at me: "Congratulations on the success of your treatment, Mr. Jiang is waiting for you." ”

Jiang He said: "It just so happens that the elevator is closer to the garage." ”