Seeing Jiang Feng, there was actually nothing superfluous to say, nothing more than care and encouragement, and we came out after sitting for a while. I recovered quickly and was completely fine walking on my own. Jiang He said that it is necessary to start eating in time, otherwise once the nutrient solution is over, the effect may collapse.

Jiang He said that gene therapy has little effect on organ function, and it is better to start eating from a liquid diet in order not to hurt the stomach. We went to drink lean porridge first, came out of the store and looked at the sun, I asked Jiang He if it was morning or afternoon, and my sense of time was already disordered. Jiang He took out my mobile phone from his bag and returned it to me, I looked at the time, it was already more than two o'clock in the afternoon.

We went home directly to rest, on the way I checked my mobile phone, the second uncle, Shi Ting and the intermediary Xiao Wu called me, Jiang He helped me reply to the message that I was abroad. Shi Ting scolded a few swear words in WeChat, blaming me for not asking him to go with me, asking me to come back and contact him as soon as possible, and then go to the Gulangyu villa to play together for a few days. In addition, there was a call from the bank, because it was a strange call, Jiang He ignored it, and then the other party sent a message, saying that there was a business that needed to be postponed and asked me to go to the bank to handle it. I can't do anything in other places, so it's not too late to deal with this when I return to Xiamen.

I called my mom again, with the tone of having just gotten off the plane, and told her that Europe was dead, there was nothing fun, and that if you have money and time, you should go around the country more, and my mom thought so.

I asked Jiang He what to arrange next, it would not be to fly directly to Xinjiang to carry out an investigation, Jiang He said that I would wait until I recovered my strength before planning a trip to Xinjiang. I asked her if she would be interested in going back to Xiamen with me for a few days to rest, and I felt less comfortable staying at her house. She agreed after a little hesitation, and she said that it would be less likely to attract attention when she set off from Xiamen to Xinjiang, so she said that she would return to Xiamen together the next day.

I was confused for a moment on the big soft white bed, then woke up and sat at the head of the bed in a daze as the golden sunlight poured down from the window in the afternoon.

I don't know what to call him, I've always called him Night Wanderer, and since I can't change anything, I don't need to change my name. My mind was full of his panicked and helpless appearance on the last day, and I couldn't get rid of it. The desperate eyes on his pale face looked at me all the time, and his cries kept ringing in his ears: "I beg you to talk to them, I beg you!" ”

Whoever he really is, I feel very pitiful that he has been hiding in a corner of my body for so many years, and now he has been sniped and killed at the slightest appearance. He doesn't have an independent body, but that doesn't prevent me from seeing him as an independent being. Just when my tears of sadness were about to flow, Jiang He gently pushed open the unlocked door to look inside, and then directly pushed the door in and walked to the edge of my bed and sat down: "I thought you were sleeping, but you are secretly crying here, have you been crying all these years?" ”

I shook my head: "I've shed more tears in the past half month than in the previous twenty years. Do you think that we are actually killing people in order to heal the disease? ”

Jiang He asked me rhetorically, "Who do you think we killed?" ”

I looked at Jiang He and said seriously: "I don't know who he is, at least he is a person." I don't think it's the so-called secondary personality that we can get rid of in the end. Maybe you're right, we may have actually merged into a twin and my body was absorbed by me, but his soul or ego remained in me, and this time we killed him. ”

Jiang He disagreed: "Your idea is unreasonable and quite scary, you can't think like this." A person who only exists in your brain cannot be considered a complete person on its own. The secondary personality or twin soul may just be called different, which is currently a pathology in our body of knowledge, and I don't think there should be a moral burden. ”

I said, "You don't see that there is certainly no pressure to hear his pleas, ignorance and savagery are not good excuses for us to excuse ourselves." ”

Jiang He leaned close to me and looked into my eyes: "If it was in the Middle Ages, your disease might have been burned at the stake as a demon, and that would be the real barbarism." If you have to say that we killed someone, please give me a name, I will check if there is such a person, and you can also try to take the legal route to administer justice for him. ”

I know it's ridiculous to go on, as a person with mental illness, confusing imagination with reality is the norm, and I can't convince anyone in this capacity.

Seeing that I was silent, Jiang He reached out and touched my face and said, "Since you are upset, then find out the matter, sadness can't solve any problems." ”

I raised my head and looked at Jiang He: "If this treatment erases the real Lou Lanyu, then it is not considered murder, will you be unjust for me?" ”

Jiang He was silent for a while, and also looked at me: "I have thought about this question countless times, although in law it is not considered murder if you don't kill the body, but if the person left in the end is not you, Lou Lanyu will disappear completely, and it will still be equivalent to killing you by mistake for me, and I don't know how to face it at that time, so I am very stressed in the final stage of treatment." ”

I'm not good at pressing step by step, if I continue to ask her why she kills me, it counts as killing, and killing others doesn't count, this is not only raising the bar, but also a little ignorant of what to do.

The easiest way to escape a topic is to change the subject, so I asked her: "We have been separated for more than ten years, during the treatment I was in a coma except for the pain out of control, we have very little communication, how can you judge which one is me at the last moment?" ”

Jiang He said: "I emphasized to you that whether I can successfully judge is actually up to you. I used to read a small story, said that a gambler and others bet on the size, win more and lose less, everyone thought he would know a thousand skills, and then he drunk and told the truth, he is just good at observing the opponent's pupils, when the other party gets a good card, the pupils are dilated, and vice versa. There is a scientific basis for this, pupil dilation and contraction are mainly caused by external stimuli and mood fluctuations triggering nerve impulses or mobilizing adrenal hormones, so changes in pupil size reflect mental activity tendencies. When there is a strong interest or possessive motive, the pupils will dilate rapidly, that is, when a person looks at someone he has a good feeling, his pupils will naturally dilate; When he meets someone who annoys him, his pupils shrink; If there is no significant change in mood, there will be no significant change in the pupils. ”

Jiang He's intelligence was so admirable that I couldn't help but ask her, "You thought of this method when you promised to finally identify it in the office that day?" ”

Jiang He shook his head: "Of course not, I agreed at the time out of duty, I thought of this method when I went to the teahouse to drink tea and look into your eyes, and I was most of the bottom of my mind at that time." ”

I sighed and said, "That is to say, my pupils must dilate when I look at you, otherwise I will die, and your method perfectly illustrates the sentence: you only have the value of existence if you like me." ”

Jiang He said: "I am based on science, and I have no objection to your understanding of this." ”

I joked, "Aren't you afraid that my pupils were dilated at that time and I was actually going to burp?" ”

Jiang He suddenly changed color: "Bastard, that situation is not the dilated pupils I said, but the loss of reflection to light stimulation after magnification!" The two of us have just been tossing around in that ward for half a month, you'd better not shake this kind of wit with me! ”

I honestly shut up and listened to her continue: "I have exchanged opinions with the treatment team, and they also think that it is technically feasible and that it is the most scientific way to do it in the absence of other methods. I accompanied the whole process of the subsequent treatment, just to observe and compare up close and accumulate experience. Black eyes are actually not easy to observe, so I have the idea of changing the color of your eyes, that day was not a joke with you, I have planned to change you to gray regardless of whether you agree or not, the color of the blue wolf, and it is also cool to have gray hair in the future, the most important thing is to ensure that the last moment of observation is foolproof. ”

I couldn't help but want to say something to fight, but it didn't make sense to think about it.

She continued: "But then when you started the stem cell intervention, your liver reacted violently, you still remember the blue spider lines on your arm, which is a symptom of liver failure, although it was relieved in time, there are still side effects, at that time your pupils were a little discolored and yellow, and it has not fully recovered until now, but this has greatly facilitated my observation." Unfortunately, there is no need to change the color of your pupils. ”

As she spoke, she took out her phone and opened a mirror app for me to observe by myself, and the color of my pupils was indeed a little lighter than usual.

I asked her, "Are you so confident that my pupils will dilate?" ”

Jiang He: "The method is thought of in the teahouse, of course, it is based on realistic self-confidence, my judgment of you is not only after that, if you don't miss the old love, maybe I will directly decide not to wade into this troubled water on the first day I see you." ”

I said: "It's still quite hanging, the eyes of the beautiful woman will light up when you look at it, not to mention that you still have a true love cry at the last moment of treatment, even a dog will be moved." ”

Jiang He glanced at me: "You have to believe that you are stronger than a dog." Then his tone became a little lonely: "Actually, I fantasized about that scene countless times when I was in Japan, but none of them were the same as reality. I know that most of the time we will meet again will be at the bedside, so I was hoping that you would get sick sooner. The treatment I went through was much more painful and longer than yours, so my expectation was that when you couldn't hold on and wanted to die, I would be desperate to scream at you hysterically. I never thought that the reality was more bloody than I imagined. ”

I patted her on the back: "Even you know that I will suffer this crime sooner or later, and I don't know why my dad is still so stubborn." ”

Jiang He said: "Believing that everything is possible is not much different from luck." ”

Although I hesitated a bit, I finally asked, "Can you tell us about my overall performance these days?" I want to know what the other me is like, maybe I can feel better in my heart. ”

Jiang He looked at me and said, "What else is there to say after the matter has passed, you have to understand, don't listen to the crying, then I really think that I am a murderer and owe you a life." ”