I was lying on the bed, Zhang Teng was sitting in the living room, and we didn't talk to each other. The afternoon sun condensed into a quiet gasp throughout the room.

When I chose to rent a house in Yuzhuang Community, I deliberately chose this house, because I could find Shaoyang's home by lying on the bed and looking through the window to the riverside home. Come to think of it, Shao Yang has never discovered my elaborate little secret. Zhang Teng thought I was asleep and didn't come into the house to disturb me, but in fact I kept staring out the window and at the place where Shaoyang lived.

It wasn't until it got dark that Zhang Teng came into the bedroom and asked me what I wanted to eat, and I casually said that I wanted to eat small wontons, and he went out the door to buy them.

After he went out, I reluctantly got out of bed, walked to the window, took out my mobile phone and tried to call Shao Yang again. I was unwilling because I didn't know what was going on between me and him, so he sentenced me to death without leaving any room for it. Is he in love with a short-haired girl? Reason, I always need a reason. Or maybe I don't want to be separated from him at all. At this moment, all those pride and self-esteem have given way to love. Because love doesn't want to lose, because love wants to keep.

To no avail. As I guessed, his phone was still turned off.

Looking downstairs, memories began to roll over, Shao Yang had drawn two hearts connected in the snow. Inadvertently, I saw his car! That white Malibu! Because it was the fourth floor, his license plate number was clearly visible, and the familiar string of letters and numbers had long been familiar to him. I didn't think too much about it, so I put on my slippers and ran downstairs. At that moment, I had only one obsession in my heart, and that was that he was sitting in the car and missing me. But when I ran downstairs, I found that his car was empty. Like crazy, I looked for him around the car, and frantically dialed his phone, turning off the phone, but I still dialed over and over again. Until I was exhausted, until the pain in my legs made me sweat. Leaning against the car door, I stubbornly wondered why we were breaking up.

Zhang Teng, who came back from buying small wontons, saw me slumped on the ground and ran quickly, and the soup of the small wontons was spilled on the ground by him, and when he ran in front of me, he simply put the small wontons on the ground. His eyes were full of rage, and he roared, "What are you doing here? ”

I don't want to look him in the eye. Growing up, I was strong in front of everything, but in love I became vulnerable, weak and even cowardly. I have been waiting for Shao Yang's verdict on whether he wants to be with me or not, and whether he will be separated from me.

Seeing that I didn't pay attention to his roar, Zhang Teng said with distress: "I'll help you go back to rest, and take you back to Jiangcheng tomorrow." ”

I stubbornly refused to stand up, "This is Shaoyang's car, I'm going to wait for him here." ”

When he heard me say this, he let go of his grip on me. He stood up, looked at my window on the fourth floor, took a deep breath, and said, "Okay, you are willing to wait, I will accompany you." ”

There was silence between us for a long time, and after a while, he said as if to himself: "When you had your birthday earlier this year, I also stood here and looked at your window all night. ”

As the night deepened, Zhang Teng finally squatted down, his voice became very weak, as if he was pleading, he said: "Xiao Lu, I beg you, go back, don't wait any longer." Your current body can't handle it. ”

For some reason, when I heard him say this, my tears kept pouring out. I was sick, and in order to cure the disease, I had to kill my child and Shaoyang, and at this time Shaoyang left me. I have lost the crystallization of love, and I have lost love. It's ridiculous, it's pathetic.

Tears blurred my eyes, but I could still see Shao Yang's figure walking towards me. I struggled to stand up with Zhang Teng's support.

"Why?" I asked Xiang Shaoyang, and I just wanted to know why.

"I don't love you anymore, that's all." He understated it, as if to say it was extraordinarily lighthearted. With that, he went to open his car door.

I got rid of Zhang Teng and stepped forward to grab Shao Yang's arm, unable to accept this answer.

"I don't believe it, tell me why." I was almost pleading.

He threw my arm away, frowning with an angry expression, "Do you want to know why?" ”

I nodded, tears streaming down my face. At this moment, he is no longer the boy I admired when I was younger.

"For a girl, her name is Sun Yingke. She is welcoming, nice and beautiful. We have been in the same class since our freshman year of high school, sitting at the same table. She gave me a lot of new ideas, rebellious but not deviant. We studied together, ate together, participated in debate competitions and speech contests together, and I played the guitar when she sang. In my junior year of high school, many boys from outside the class pursued her, and I was scared, so I began to pursue her as well, and she agreed to me. We worked together, and F University was her dream. But after graduating from high school, she did not take the college entrance examination, but went to the United States to study, and since then, we have started this long-distance relationship across the Atlantic. In my junior year, I worked hard to study English and take IELTS, so that I could go to the United States after graduation and go to her place for graduate school. Later, at the end of that semester, I said goodbye to her forever. Her father was sentenced to life in prison for being accused of corruption, and he committed suicide in prison that night. Yingke called me, and she walked the streets of the United States, crying like a child. I didn't know how to comfort her, and I wanted to be there for her right away. However, I heard a sharp brake and a phone shattering as it fell to the ground. Then I never heard her again. I bought a ticket to the United States that day, and the plane was delayed, and I waited at the airport all night, and that night was the longest night of my life. When I arrived in the U.S. and her classmates told me she had left, can you understand how I felt when I flew back from the U.S. with her urn in my arms? ”

"You must be wondering, what does this have to do with you. Oh, yes! It has nothing to do with you. After returning to Ting Nan, I tried to start my life again, start to accept love again, so I met you, and you broke into my life with such a familiar figure. I thought I could go on like this, stay with you, until that day I went to your house for dinner and saw the picture in your living room, and I saw Yingke's father. Later, I finally learned that the person who gave evidence of Ying Ke's father's corruption was his subordinate, that is, your father. I can't take it, Xiao Lu. When I think of Ying Ke and her father, I will feel sour in my heart one after another. I don't know how to face you, how to face your father, how to sit at the same table with you to eat and talk. You know, when I think of your dad going to send your hand to me for surgery, I think of Yingke and my heart aches. ”

"Xiao Lu, forget it! Let's forget it! You just don't love you anymore, forget about me, and find someone who loves you. ”