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The drop of ink-like liquid, slid down Zhang Shifei's cheeks, dripping on the chest, but did not wet the placket, but continued to go down, and finally fell on the ground, very strange, this drop of liquid just landed, it bounced up, some similar to gelatinous ink beads, it bounced a few times, and finally stood still. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo####

It's really strange why Zhang Shifei would shed such tears, they turned out to be black, and after that tear flowed, the tear stain actually left an inky trace on Zhang Shifei's face, from the corner of the right eye through the cheekbone to the lower jaw, as if it was a thin black scar that never disappeared.

After shedding this tear, Zhang Shifei also changed, and the tsunami-like pain in his heart disappeared, and with it, there were many emotions, love, promises, fears, regrets, and guilt...... All kinds of emotions disappeared with that inexplicable pain.

may really be like what the yellow hat said, Zhang Shifei wants to love, but he doesn't know how to love, he wants to fulfill his promise, but he can't see where his promise is.

He is just blindly chasing, unable to distinguish the direction, wanting to fly freely, but he broke his wings, he is just an ordinary in, ordinary can no longer be ordinary, for an unattainable ideal and exile himself endlessly, always think that his centrifugal ideal is getting closer and closer, but do not understand that he has embarked on a fork in the road, this road has no end, just like the ideal in the distance, you can see it, but it seems that it can never be touched.

Zhang Shifei's heart seems to be empty, maybe even if he is like this all his life, it is nothing, the dream has been broken, but he has not woken up yet.

The clouds over Yingzhou change, although this place can not be seen as the beginning of the fall, but there is also the alternation of day and night, and when the bamboo forest begins to shine, and the color gradually dims, Li Lanying came back with Chen Tuan on his back, Chen Tuan was drunk, lying on Li Lanying's back has already fallen asleep, and Li Lanying is also shaking step by step at this time, it seems that he also needs wine to anesthetize himself, otherwise the troubles will keep coming to his heart.

Liu Ling, the old guy, doesn't seem to be drunk, it's ironic, the more he loves wine, the less he gets drunk, this is a big hateful thing for Liu Ling, he always said before, if you don't get drunk, what's the use of drinking? If you are awake, what is the use of dreaming?

But despite this, his obsession with wine has remained unchanged for thousands of years.

He also followed Li Lanying here, he may still want to take advantage of Chen Tuan's sleep, and then go to the spring of Yuxi to get some spring water, Li Lanying was really drunk, he threw Chen Tuan into the house like throwing luggage, and then walked out again, came to Zhang Shifei's body, and then glanced at him, seeing that he lowered his head or that virtue, he opened his mouth, wanted to speak, but held back, things came to this point, there was nothing to say, Li Lanying was depressed in her heart, so she called Liu Ling and wanted to continue to go back to the village to drink.

Forget it about being drunk to death, this is Li Lanying's original words.

After saying this, Li Lanying turned around and left, muttering something in her mouth as she walked, which seemed to be scolding the street, and it seemed to be self-deprecating.

Liu Ling saw that Li Lanying was gone, so he stretched out his hand to buckle the nose feces, then wiped it on the front placket, and also raised his steps to walk back, but when he passed by Zhang Shifei's side, he was stunned, only to see him looking at Zhang Shifei, and after hesitating for a while, he lowered his head and picked up the inconspicuous ink-colored bead beside Zhang Shifei.

Under the bright green light of the bamboo forest, Liu Ling looked at this bead carefully, his expression was very complicated, surprise, surprise, emotion, many emotions mixed in his eyes, he seemed to understand what this thing was, and also understood the importance of this thing, this bead, is the last regret in his life, and it is also the ultimate goal of his stay in this Yingzhou land for more than a thousand years.

However, there was no trace of a smile on his face, I saw him think about it, then he clenched the bead, and then bent down to lift Zhang Shifei's chin, when he saw the trace on Zhang Shifei's right face, he was silent, and then he let go of his hand, and after a long time, he said softly: "I really can't think of it, you are the last one I have to wait for, miscellaneous chicken, I can ask you, if your heart is really dead, then the road ahead, how do you choose?" ”

Zhang Shifei was silent and did not answer, Liu Ling sighed when he saw this, maybe not a choice, but also a choice, so he did not hesitate, and said softly to Zhang Shifei: "Okay, I know what to do, until the dusk of tomorrow, you still have nearly a lifetime to think." With that, he left without looking back.

Yingzhou has not been so lively for a long time, this night, some are asleep, some are dead, some are busy, and some are drunk.

Zhang Shifei really doesn't know how to choose, as for whether his heart is dead or not, it is estimated that only he may know.

Sleepless all night, maybe he has slept for too long, maybe because he will have nightmares when he closes his eyes, Zhang Shifei stared blankly ahead, as if his soul had left the shell, and his body seemed to be integrated into this nature.

In fact, Zhang Shifei didn't know why he didn't dare to close his eyes again, obviously his heart was already empty, wasn't it, so why did he have to do this? What am I afraid of, and why should I be afraid? Zhang Shifei kept thinking about this question in his heart, until it was already very late at night, and he still didn't understand it.

Until a night pot rolled to his side, he didn't realize that the night pot was the first thing they found before they came to Yingzhou in this hut, Chen Jian said, this is filled with the fierce god Tai Sui, for Tai Sui, the previous two did not know much, but now it is different, it can be said that Ran Xi and Zhang are not their tragedy, and this guy has a constant relationship, it is precisely because of its skin, so it will evolve many egg demons, so they will have so many ends.

The night pot couldn't even move before, but now it's unbelievable that it actually rolls to this side, but it seems that just this distance is already the limit of the urinal, so that it is now upside down on the ground, motionless.

Although it stopped moving, a hoarse voice came out of the urinal, which had not been seen for a long time: "Hehe, little brother, are you very sad?" ”

This voice sounds a little ironic, but it can't hide a tiredness, Zhang Shifei didn't speak, still lowered his head and didn't move, that night pot saw Zhang Shifei still didn't answer, and he wasn't as annoyed as before, I saw it continue: "I know, you're very uncomfortable now, hehe, I expected it a long time ago, in that Wu ...... I expected that the fate of untimely death would come here, and you would not end well. ”

After a long sleep, and the pain of drilling his heart, after hearing the word fate again, Zhang Shifei's heart was always blank, but he also trembled slightly like a conditioned reflex, but there was still no words, and the night pot seemed to have noticed his slight movement, so he grinned, and then said to Zhang Shifei in a sharp and hoarse voice: "How about it, do you want to cooperate with me, let me out, I can help you find him, and he should be defenseless against you, you add me." , let's join forces to eliminate the fate of that thief, and then I can help you save your little beauty, how about it? ”

Zhang Shifei moved, only to see that after he heard the words of the night pot, he actually raised his head and looked at the night pot, and the Tai Sui in the night pot was suddenly overjoyed, thinking that Bacheng was really a play this time, thinking that it was sealed in this urinal and I don't know how many years have passed, and now it is finally going to see it again, how can it not be happy?

But it didn't know that at this time, in addition to Zhang Shifei, there seemed to be a pair of eyes staring at it in the small wooden house.

And unexpectedly, Zhang Shifei just looked at the night pot blankly, and then lowered his head again, still didn't say a word, the night pot didn't want to look forward to the opportunity that was finally expected, it turned out to be another empty joy, so it hurriedly said: "Don't you want revenge?" Do you want to be toyed with like that? Don't you want to...... Don't you want to save your beloved daughter? ”

Silent, Zhang Shifei was silent, and that night fox saw that this kid was motionless like an elm pimple, and couldn't help but be angry, only to see it yelling at Zhang Shifei: "Waste! You are really a waste, the waste apprentice taught by the waste master is just like your waste master who has no backbone at all! Thanks to Lao Tzu, who used the gas he has saved up for so many years to talk to you, you deserve it...... Wait, hehe, do you still have expectations in your heart? ”

After the night pot scolded a few words, it seemed that he suddenly thought of something, so that before he finished scolding, his tone suddenly changed, and then he sneered, only to see him say to Zhang Shifei: "I tell you, no matter what you think in your heart, and no matter whether your heart is dead or not, I have to tell you, you think it is true now, in fact, the falsehood still exists, don't think that the guy who only knows how to sleep will help you and tell you that he has been lying to you!" Since you came here, you are destined to live in lies all the time, in fact, he is not Chen Shu at all, I am the real Chen Shu! Got it? Only I can help you!! Trust me, get me out and I'll take care of everything for you............"

The night pot has been chattering and nagging, but the right and wrong is still indifferent, the night pot seems to have found that the current situation is a little tricky, so it endured the unhappiness in its heart, and then softened its tone a lot, only to see it say to Zhang Shifei: "Look you don't speak, don't you believe me?" It's no wonder that you are mortal in the flesh and can't see the truth clearly, okay, then I'll explain it to you to prove that my words are right, our affairs have to be ...... from that thousand years ago" "You, can you be quieter? Zhang Shifei finally spoke, only to see him look at the night pot with an expressionless face, and the night pot saw that Zhang Shifei finally spoke, and his heart was suddenly overjoyed, but this kid was finally tempted, how could it let go of such an opportunity? I saw it hurriedly say to Zhang Shifei: "You finally spoke, believe me, give me some time, I will tell you what you really want, how about it?" ”

Zhang Shifei shook his head, although his heart was blank, but he didn't want to listen to this urinal talking nonsense to himself, he just wanted to be quiet for a while now, what truth and what lies, it seems that it has nothing to do with him, this urinal is originally the master of two lies, besides, Zhang Shifei even does his own things mess up, how can he have any leisure to take care of Chen Sesame Rotten Grain thousands of years ago?

It's ridiculous that the more you avoid a lie, the more likely you are to encounter a lie. ####

Seeing that the night pot still didn't want to be quiet, he dragged his weak body, slowly walking like the forest, he needed to be quiet, he needed to think about nothing, walked into the bamboo forest, leaving only a night pot behind him to scold his father and mother, the night pot saw that Zhang Shifei was so not on the road, he couldn't control it anymore, and the vicious language kept coming out, as if he was going to explode the grievances he had suffered for thousands of years.

The scolding behind him is getting farther and farther away, Zhang Shifei has walked into the depths of the bamboo forest, the bamboo forest is like a labyrinth, a brightly lit labyrinth, but now Zhang Shifei's eyes are blurry gray, as if he was a young man turned out under the bed at home, turn it on, it is full of snowflake-like points of light, and the light emitted by the bamboo forest reflects the confusion in Zhang Shifei's eyes, as well as the shocking black tears on his face.

Zhang Shifei didn't know where he was going, so he walked aimlessly, his heart was not empty, although the pain was no longer there, but what was left behind was indeed endless emptiness, he was like a wandering soul wandering in this bamboo forest, and when he came back to his senses, he found that a pool of shining spring water appeared in front of his eyes.

In Zhang Shifei's eyes, this spring water is also gray, like cement slurry, and on the edge of the spring, Zhang Shifei saw a monster that he didn't know whether to hate or forgive.

Ranxi, it has been sitting here, motionless looking at the reflection on the water, and after Zhang Shifei appeared, it raised its head, two deep-rooted rivals, at this time across the pool looking at each other, looking at each other, they thought that when they said goodbye, each other's hearts would be full of emotion, but at this time, their hearts were surprisingly calm, without a trace of waves.

It turns out that there is not only pure black and white in this world, but also the boundary between black and white, and there is still gray.

And in this world, the boundary between black and white is so blurred, everything has a cause and effect, and it is destroyed by reincarnation, and the cycle of death has never changed.

Only attachment to karma is like a shadow, only born and immortal, and all kinds of suffering are derived.

The suffering of death, suffering from the cold wind and three thousand snows, the suffering of the earth, the vicissitudes of the sea and hundreds of peaks, the suffering of entering, the difficulty of knowing the cause and effect of falling into the fog, the suffering of the beast, and the waste of life is a lifetime.

All things in this world are as blurry as the blend of black and white, and they can also be monsters, and in the same way, monsters can be like monsters, maybe everything under the bottom has the same root and origin, which is the same thing, but we couldn't see it at the beginning.

When all the prosperity is gone, the so-called good and evil are all gone, and only two bitter people are left, their fates are not the same, but in the end, they have the same end and get the same fate.

Whether it's 'good' or 'evil'.

Ran Xi looked at the right and wrong, for a long time, it finally spoke first, very ironic, although time took away its face, but did not take away its voice, its business is still like a hundred spirits out of the forest, I saw Ran Xi said to Zhang Shifei: "You are here." ”

Zhang Shifei didn't speak, just sat on the ground, and then looked at his reflection in the Yuxi like Ranxi, the water surface of the Yuxi did not have a trace of waves, as if it was a mirror, Zhang Shifei had looked at himself reflected in the water countless times, but not once, it was so down.

The face is yellow and thin, the cheekbones are high and bulging, the dark circles are thick, even the eye sockets are slightly sunken, a very piercing black tear stain, Zhang Shifei's eyes, there are only three colors left, black, white and gray, so this tear stain is very eye-catching, Zhang Shifei looked at himself quietly, as if he was thinking about his own life.

He looked at it for a long time, then raised his head, and subconsciously looked at Ran Xi, he found that Ran Xi was also looking at himself at this time, in their hearts, maybe they all had something to say, but they didn't know how to speak, Zhang Shifei looked at its eyes, and was a little scared for a while, what a terrible look it was, not like he was empty, but full of persistence, so Zhang Shifei lowered his head again and continued to face his reflection in the water.

How similar are their experiences, but what about their state of mind? Zhang Shifei looked at Ranxi, he knew very well that the dusk of tomorrow night was the time of its death, they were actually the same, Zhang Shifei felt that his heart was dead, what was the difference between heart death and body death? Zhang Shifei thought of this, and said to himself: "Have you ever regretted it?" ”

Do you regret it? Zhang Shifei looked at the reflection in his sleep, this sentence seemed to be mentioned to Ran Xi, and it was also like asking himself.

As for why it asked this, maybe he didn't have an answer now, maybe it was because his eyes were as dense as what he had seen, as if this was his questioning of Ranxi and at the same time, he also questioned the depths of his soul.

After listening to Zhang Shifei's words, Ran Xi also lowered his head, and while looking at the water, he said to himself: "I regret it, why don't you give me more time?" ”

Zhang Shifei didn't look up, but sighed: "Without hope, what can I do with more time?" ”

When Ran Xi heard his words, his eyes were staring at his beautiful face on the water for a long time, only to see it said stupidly: "I'm old, this is a problem that I haven't wanted to face, even if the cultivation is high, it can't be higher than time, I once tried to chase, chase the faith of my life, but in the end my hands are still empty, how I want to get, get time, get his praise, even if it's just a sentence, even if it's only a blink of an eye...... Only, as long as it ...... again"

When Ran Xi said this, he stretched out his trembling hand to touch his reflection in the water, as if it was grasping that beautiful face in his hand, but as soon as its hand touched the water, the ripples disrupted the shadow, and its reflection kept shaking and swaying on the water, as if it was laughing at it, laughing at its little monster and crying.

It cried and kept saying, "Again, once again, if you give me some time, let me try to fulfill my wish again, how good would it be?" ”

The ripples on the other side of the waterhole did not affect the shadow here, Zhang Shifei heard Ran Xi's cry, and the heart that he thought was blank turned out to be like a water ripple with a trace of sourness, I saw him sigh, and then said to Ran Xi: "How do you know if your choice is right or wrong, maybe, you are wrong at all?" Perhaps, even if you are given endless time, you will still live in endless pain? "Until the last minute, who can know if their choice is right or wrong?" Ran Xi smiled miserably, at this time, the water gradually returned to calm, only to see Ran Xi muttered: "I'm not in, there is no big reason to talk about, I only know, what I want......"

What do I want, what is it, Zhang Shifei was stunned, he muttered this sentence repeatedly, and at the same time fell into a boundless contemplation, that Ranxi obviously knew that he was going to die in Mingyao, for a spider, it did live too long, but it felt that the time it had passed was just a blink of an eye.

Into and animals are the same, whether you are a mayfly who dies in the twilight of life, or a hundred-year-old man, when you die, you will feel that your life is just a moment, the key is that your life, whether there is a pursuit, whether there is regret, Burning West has, at this time it is full of unwillingness, this great regret it really can't accept, but it is powerless to escape.

After a lifetime of pursuing flowers, but without fruit, should such a life be spent like this?

Ranxi has been fishing for the reflection with his hands, he has never given up, he has never succeeded, the reflection is still the reflection, it is still it, it used to be as beautiful as the reflection, but those years have passed, and it can no longer be obtained.

Zhang Shifei finally understood that this is persistence.

He didn't speak, and Ran Xi's constant movements finally made the small pool ripple, and Zhang Shifei's reflection in the water began to sway, like a fate that changed in the wind.

He began to think, rethink, but he didn't know if he could choose again.

Until the color is bright, until the sky becomes warm yellow, until, Liu Ling's appearance, Liu Ling, who is not sloppy, is not dressed sloppily, neat hair is combed behind her head, even the dirty clothes are gone, replaced by an old but pure navy blue robe, he seems to have guessed that Zhang is right and wrong will be here, so he went straight to the side of the jade stream, and then put his hands on his chest, and a small jade bottle appeared in the left and right palms, this small bottle is ruddy and shining, Zhang Shifei should recognize the origin of these two small bottles, which are the two empty bottles of water in the secret compartment of Liu Ling's wine cellar, but at this time, among these two bottles, they are not necessarily filled with water anymore, maybe they are things that can change his fate.

Seeing that Liu Ling's face was a little pale, it was obvious what he had done last night, he sighed, and then said to Zhang Shifei and Ran Xi in a tone that seemed to be very emotional: "Okay, it's time for you to 'decide your fate'." ”

(To be continued)