Chapter 19: Who Am I?

After that day, Gu Qingyang did not reject Li Wenyao's company every day, and even accepted Li Wenyao's adult gift of opening a dessert shop for him after he became an adult, but in order to be less public, just when Gu Qingyang was a part-time worker, although Li Wenyao was a rich young master with a lot of money, but he did have his own ability to create a world, his hobby and talent for hip-hop dance were beyond the reach of others, although he was not short of money, but his parents did not want their son to become an idler who would only spend money, There is a certain amount of control over money, but Li Wenyao will get a scholarship from the school every year, and he often returns to China to compete, but the prize money of the competition is reserved for Gu Qingyang, either to change Gu Qingyang's residence, or to change furniture, buy clothes, buy gifts, all buy the best for Gu Qingyang, in Li Wenyao's heart, he is willing to give her everything he can.

There seems to be a wordless tacit understanding between the two of them, perhaps it can also be said to be a kind of selfishness, Li Wenyao will not share her news in the UK with anyone, because he knows that Gu Qingyang can allow his existence is already the limit, even if it is Wenying's inquiry, it can only be exchanged for a sentence Gu Qingyang is doing well, and Gu Qingyang has changed all communication methods, only occasionally video with home, because she thought she would not go back, never, so she felt guilty about Wenying in her heart, and missed, But she has indulged herself, and she can't indulge again and again...

Therefore, the only spiritual sustenance in the past four years is Li Wenyao.

On the way back from the police station, Li Wenyao kept holding Gu Qingyang in his arms, she had a fever again, he knew that she thought of some unhappy things again, as long as she remembered them, she would have a serious fever, and even fall into a coma, her health has always been very bad, even if he returned home, he still held her, he was reluctant to let go, he felt sad...

As soon as he got off the plane, he turned on his mobile phone and received dozens of phone notifications, and when he heard that Gu Qingyang had stabbed someone on the street today, he was shocked, and hurriedly contacted the lawyer and paid the ransom until night, but he still didn't know why Qingyang wanted to stab others, and who was the person who stabbed him, if he knew, Li Wenyao would probably not be able to help but kill that person.

"All stories, there can only be one theme song....." Suddenly the phone rang, Li Wenyao saw the caller ID and hung up quickly, his face was a little flustered, he gently put Gu Qingyang on the bed, closed the door with twisted hands and feet, and went out to open WeChat, there were n unread messages on it, he frowned slightly, he hadn't sent Qingyang's message to that person for a long time, and was thinking about whether to say something, the phone rang again, and when he was hesitating whether to pick it up, he suddenly heard Gu Qingyang's voice, Quickly turned the mobile phone on silent and ran into the room, Gu Qingyang lay on the bed in a daze, not knowing what he was muttering.

Li Wenyao approached her and asked softly, "Qingyang?" Are you thirsty? ”

Gu Qingyang couldn't hear Li Wenyao's voice, and still muttered....

Come closer and listen carefully to what Gu Qingyang is saying....

Suddenly Li Wenyao's body stiffened and his eyes were dull, he heard clearly, she was calling Gu Yuyang's name, four years, a whole four years, day and night companionship, it still can't be compared, is it Gu Yuyang in your memory? So what the hell am I? Qingyang, what am I in your heart? Isn't everything I've done leaving you a little bit of room in your heart for me?

We always ask, what to do if you love someone? What should you do if you want someone to love you? Good for her? But do you believe in fate? Maybe some people are not around, but they are the thoughts of a lifetime, but some people are so good that they can still only stay in the place of friendship and can't move forward, maybe your thousands of good things are not as good as other people's memories, and they are not as good as the teenager in their memory.

The phone in his trouser pocket kept vibrating, Li Wenyao took it out, walked out, and picked up the phone: "Yuyang...."

Loving someone is a happy and difficult thing, because I love you, so I say no regrets, but who doesn't want to have a response in love? Wouldn't it be better if you loved me, but if you didn't open me, even if I had a grudge in my heart, I still loved you so much.

"You haven't sent me any news of her lately, is something wrong?" The other end of the phone was a little anxious, but these anxieties were in Li Wenyao's ears, and he felt pressure, when he first came here, he couldn't see the heartache and grief that Gu Yuyang showed when the two of them drank together before going to the United States, so he told Gu Yuyang his thoughts, he said that he was going to come to Gu Qingyang first, and he promised him that he would pass on Gu Qingyang's news to him, just to make him not so sad, but now, I didn't expect that the transmission of news for so many years would become Gu Yuyang's drug, making him addicted. Not only did he not forget, but he went deeper, and even now that Qingyang had an accident, he could feel it...

Li Wenyao even regretted his kindness at the beginning, but that kindness was out of brotherly love, but he had to admit that when he heard the unconscious Gu Qingyang shouting Gu Yuyang's name, he was a little angry in his heart....

"Yao? Why don't you speak? ”

Li Wenyao came back to his senses: "It's okay, it's just that she's a little sick, and there is nothing else to do, I'm busy with the competition these days, so I haven't sent you any news." ”

On the other side of the phone, Gu Yuyang stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the company's office, a white shirt, suit pants, some loose ties, a little weak hairspray on the top of his head, a small tuft of bangs fell on his forehead, clean and slightly charming manly, and picked up the red wine next to his hand: "That's good." ”

The two of them were silent on the phone for five seconds, each with their own concerns, Li Wenyao glanced at Gu Qingyang's door, and slowly spoke: "Yuyang, in the future, I will no longer submit the news of your death to you....."

Afterlife? Gu Yuyang heard the death, not Qingyang, he understood, he was not stupid, he knew that Li Wenyao was reminding him that Qingyang could no longer be with you if he wanted to die, and he could not have any contact with you, not only unilaterally, but both parties could no longer hear each other's news, Gu Yuyang had actually been waiting for this day, he knew that there was this day, he drank the red wine in his hand in one gulp, and his eyes were a little moist: "Okay, I know, thank you for the news you have given me for so many years, which can let me get through the most difficult period, and thank you for taking care of me." ..... Afterlife. ”

Li Wenyao chuckled: "Don't thank me, there is no need to be so polite between us, even if it is not for you, I will always take care of the deceased... What's the name of the one around you who always follows you? Yin Yueyu? The name is really tongue-in-cheek, don't let people down, hahahaha. ”

Gu Yuyang smiled bitterly: "Don't make fun of me here, you know, I'm not interested in her, just working under me, her parents and my parents are world friends, and they also take good care of our business here in the United States." ”

Li Wenyao wanted to say something, but a weak voice came: "Ah Yao? ”

Even such a weak voice can be transmitted to Gu Yuyang's ears through the phone, this voice is what he has longed to hear in his dreams countless times, a soft and crisp voice, Gu Yuyang just stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, holding the red wine glass The hand clenched unconsciously, the angular lips were tightly closed, and he didn't dare to move for a while, for fear of disturbing such a beautiful voice, but unfortunately such a voice was not shouting himself, but shouting others...

Li Wenyao hurriedly said: "Hang up" and hung up the phone, but Gu Yuyang over there was suddenly lost, listening to the busy sound on the phone, looking into the distance, but was interrupted by a knock on the door, and turned his head to look: "Yueyu? What are you doing here? The woman was wearing a light brown dress suit, her back was deep to her waist, she was holding a white tweed coat in her hand, her brown wavy hair, and she was painted with light makeup, charming and moving, Yin Yue's tone was naughty: "My parents said that I have to take your boss home for a meal today, I have been in the United States for so long, I haven't come home for dinner, your uncle misses you very much~"

At this time in the UK, Li Wenyao hurriedly went over to support Gu Qingyang: "Why are you up, hurry back and lie down." ”

"Who are you talking to? Is it a lawyer? ”

Li Wenyao was a little flustered: "No, no, a friend casually greets a few words." ”

"Oh, I want to drink water...."

Li Wenyao directly picked up Gu Qingyang and walked to the living room, but Gu Qingyang was a little panicked in her heart, she didn't know if Li Wenyao already knew, the person who had just stabbed herself, if she knew how to answer herself, if she didn't know, should she tell him? Li Wenyao poured a glass of warm water and brought another glass of milk: "Come, drink the medicine first, and then drink the milk after a while, are you hungry?" Would you like something to eat? ”

Gu Qingyang shook his head: "I'm not hungry, when did you come back?" After a day of running, I'm very tired, you don't have to worry about me, you can go back and rest. ”

Li Wenyao scratched Gu Qingyang's nose: "What are you talking about, how can I sleep like you, you are not hungry, look at how thin you have become, you have no breasts, I'll cook you some pasta to eat, right?" ”

Gu Qingyang thought about it for a moment and nodded: "Okay." Just as he was about to get up, Li Wenyao picked her up again and walked to the living room, Gu Qingyang struggled to resist: "I can walk by myself, don't always move your hands and feet." ”

Li Wenyao ignored her: "For so many years, I haven't done much?" Then put her on the kitchen seat, rolled up his sleeves and began to prepare, Gu Qingyang thought silently in his heart, don't ask, don't ask..... In this way, Gu Qingyang stared at him busy cooking, and Li Wenyao was also entangled in his heart how to speak, he was afraid that if he didn't ask well, he would hurt Qingyang.