Chapter 53: Love You Very Much
Taking a deep breath, Dongxue felt that her heart was breaking little by little, becoming blurred with flesh and blood, and even every time she took a breath, she felt pain into her bone marrow. Even so, Dong Xue still looked at Xu Shaoqing stubbornly, her eyes were wrong, as if she wanted to detect something from the subtle changes in his expression. But Xu Shaoqing knows Dongxue too well, he knows how to fake it and make this stupid girl believe his words, so no matter how much Dongxue doesn't want to admit it, what he sees is still indifferent and stinging. But Dongxue was not reconciled, she gave herself one last chance, if she still failed......
Lowering her eyelashes slightly, Dongxue's voice was weak for the first time, she looked at the ground, with a hint of pleading in her stubborn voice, and said, "I'll ask you again one last time, is what you said true?" ”
"Whew, how many more times do you want me to say it? Do you still want me to swear? It's true, it's all true! I, Xu Shaoqing, don't have any feelings for you, yesterday's words were just drunk and disorderly, and I said nonsense. Aren't you very proud of Dongxue, why do you even keep others teasing you like a baby? Are you in wisdom and dignity? ”
"Enough!!" Dongxue's eyes were a little moist, and they became red, like a group of fierce beasts, staring at Xu Shaoqing fiercely, his voice was like a thousand-year-old cold pool, and said, "You just thought that what I just said was a dream, and I was dizzy to say those nonsense." Don't worry, I won't pester you again in the future, let's treat it as if we've never known each other! After saying this, Dong Xue didn't even look at Xu Shaoqing, turned around and ran away quickly.
It was precisely because Dong Xue didn't look at Xu Shaoqing that she didn't notice the pain in Xu Shaoqing's eyes and deep remorse. Although he wanted to run in front of Dongxue and hold her in his arms with all his injuries, Xu Shaoqing's feet seemed to be fixed to the ground, and he couldn't move at all. He knew that as long as he said something, he and she would fall into a catastrophe!
"Everyone is gone, what else to see? If you really don't want her, why did you say those things just now? ”
Just when Xu Shaoqing was in a daze, a man's voice suddenly came from behind him. Xu Shaoqing immediately hid all his emotions, turned around and looked at the man behind him, and was stunned for a moment before remembering who this person was.
"Is that you?"
Zuo Xiangfeng slowly walked out of the shadows, with a gloomy look on his face, as if he was holding back something, and said gloomily: "Let's have a good talk." ”
Although this was the second time he had seen Zuo Xiangfeng, Xu Shaoqing was not wary of him at all. And Xu Shaoqing seemed to see a very credible friend, and he didn't think about whether this man would hurt him, so he followed him slowly without hesitation.
The two of them were speechless all the way, until the small tea shop next to the post station, after the two of them sat down, Zuo Xiangfeng said in an unkind tone: "Aren't you afraid that I will kill you?" ”
"Why be afraid?" Xu Shaoqing rubbed his cheeks, his originally pale skin was dyed with a sickly red, looking bewitching and weird.
Seeing that Xu Shaoqing didn't feel any guilt, Zuo Xiangfeng couldn't help but be angry, slapped the table suddenly, and said angrily: "Just because you just said those words to Dongxue, I can kill you!" You obviously know that Dongxue didn't mean this, but you still want to misunderstand her and deliberately make him angry, what do you mean! ”
"Isn't it obvious what I mean?" Although there is no high-quality tea in this humble tea shop, Xu Shaoqing still seems to be tasting tea when he drinks these tea dregs, and said leisurely, "You can also see Dongxue's heart for me, but I can't respond to her, so I can only use this method to make her retreat." ”
Zuo Xiangfeng didn't have Xu Shaoqing's good demeanor, he felt thirsty, and directly drank the tea in front of him, and after wiping his lips, he said unhappily: "Dongxue never thought that it would have any result with you, if it wasn't for what you said yesterday to provoke her, could she come to you?" gave hope to others, didn't explain things clearly, just blindly evaded, Xu Shaoqing, what is the purpose of doing these things!? ”
"My purpose is just to hope that she can live well." Xu Shaoqing smiled bitterly, and then said a little weakly, "It's just that sometimes, my heart will be weak, and I will not be able to control myself, so I will say those words that I regret." There are some things that have been suppressed for too long, and I hope to find a way to vent. However, if possible, I hope that yesterday's events have never happened, and that I and Dongxue have retreated to the original distance, familiar with each other but distant, living separately and not disturbing each other. ”
Listening to Xu Shaoqing's words, Zuo Xiangfeng felt a little strange, as if he understood something, but he was more confused and puzzled. He looked at Xu Shaoqing, who had a bleak face, frowned and asked, "You...... How do you see the relationship between you and Dongxue? Judging by your previous performance, it seems that Dongxue is a child, and you have never considered her. But listening to what you said yesterday, it doesn't look like you are using wine to mess around and talk nonsense, otherwise you won't let Dongxue misunderstand. Xu Shaoqing, don't you think you are not acting upright enough? Emotional things are the most misleading, and there are some things that you should say clearly. ”
With a deep sigh, Xu Shaoqing's eyes were filled with deep pain and remorse, hidden behind a touch of clarity, revealing a gloomy color.
"You haven't experienced what I've been through, that's why you say it so easily. Is it clear? Oh, what can you do to make it clear, have you thought about what the consequences will be? You can't bear to watch Winter Snow fall into darkness and live a hopeless life? ”
"You think too highly of yourself!" Zuo Xiangfeng was angry, raised his voice and said, "Even if Dongxue once liked you, it was just a girl's feelings, the past, she is now an adult, she knows what kind of choice is best for herself, can she still be confused by you?" Do you really think you're charming? ”
Looking at Zuo Xiang's angry appearance, Xu Shaoqing just smiled faintly, and suddenly said, "You like her too." ”
Zuo Xiangfeng stared at Xu Shaoqing indignantly, just waiting for this guy to say something arrogant, so that he could refute him. But Xu Shaoqing suddenly asked this question, which made Zuo Xiangfeng stunned, and then said a little uncomfortably: "Yes, I like Dongxue and I like her very much, so I have to protect Dongxue so as not to be bullied by people like you." After saying these words, Zuo Xiangfeng felt as if something was wrong, pondered carefully, raised his eyebrows and said, "You just said it, too?" What does this mean, and who else is fighting the idea of winter snow? ”
Hearing this, Xu Shaoqing didn't say a word, just blindly drank tea.
Zuo Xiangfeng suddenly had a bad premonition in his heart, hesitated, and asked uncertainly, "You...... You don't like winter snow too, do you!? Don't you already have a wife, don't you love your wife alone? What does it mean to say this now? ”
Sighing deeply, Xu Shaoqing looked up at the sky and said with a wry smile: "If you don't say that, do you think Dongxue will die for me?" ”
"Hmph, do you want Dongxue to die for you? You're so arrogant! It seems that you know Dongxue very well, but didn't you just see Dongxue when she was a child? The uneasiness in Zuo Xiangfeng's heart became deeper and deeper, his eyes were staring at him tightly, refusing to look directly at those thoughts that would collapse him, but he didn't realize that he was getting closer and closer to the truth, as if he had dug a trap, which was so deep that it would break people's bones.
Looking at Zuo Xiangfeng quietly, Xu Shaoqing's calm had a kind of tranquility before the storm came, and said: "I have known Dongxue for more than ten years, do you say I don't know her?" What you know is true, but there is something you don't know and has happened. Recalling the past, Xu Shaoqing seemed to fall into a dreamy memory, and said slowly, "Dongxue back then, was just a child, but he was a rare martial arts wizard. I still remember that when Dongxue was taken away by his master, his crystal eyes shone with a touch of coldness and unwillingness. At that time, I didn't understand why Dongxue resented me. Obviously, she will have a better chance of development, far better than staying by my side, why do she still look at me with that kind of eyes? It wasn't until later, when I saw her again in the Bac Ninh Palace, that I slowly understood the meaning of that look. ”
Zuo Xiangfeng felt a pang in his heart and asked, "When you were in Beining, you had already discovered winter snow?" ”
Nodding slowly, Xu Shaoqing said, "Yes." Your investigation is only half successful, knowing that Dongxue is watching me in the dark, but I don't know that I also look at Dongxue when she doesn't care. At the beginning, I only felt inexplicably surprised, but I didn't expect that the stubborn little girl had grown up and become a trusted person around Baililan. Although I don't think I made the wrong choice back then, I don't know why, I still feel a little guilty, so I want to see how Dongxue is doing now and if there is a place where I can help her. And it was this kind of secret gaze that made me fall in love with her, this calm and arrogant woman. But at that time, Bac Ninh was turbulent, and I didn't have a reputation, so what did I use to marry the woman around Baililan? I secretly told myself that I must get ahead, marry Dongxue openly, and never abandon her like I did when I was a child, I want to give her happiness! ”
Xu Shaoqing stopped suddenly, and although Zuo Xiangfeng didn't want to listen to these words, he wanted to find out the whole story, so he could only ask inquiringly, "Dongxue likes you, and you like her too, isn't this just a mutual relationship?" Why do you want Dongxue to die for you? Or is there something you have to hide? ”