Chapter 61: For Whom to Lose Weight and Lose Radiance (1)

Over the years, I followed the footsteps of memory and quietly approached, wanting to hear your heart. But you've pushed me far, far away. For whom am I emaciated and disgraced?

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"Hey, dick. Two girls, two girls? What's going on these two days? If you can't keep your soul, we're going to * buy something, are you going to go? "The boss asked me while doing the laundry. I just sat there silently.

"Please, boss, my sister, don't wash your clothes here, go to the bathroom, okay?"

"I mean, what's in the way of your eyes? Excuse me from writing? Let's be honest, you're in a hygienic habit again, aren't you? Xiaohong smiled and deliberately quipped.

Hearing the boss say this, the third Zhang Lu Xue glanced at the old man and Xiaohong hatefully, and was silent. Susan let out a laugh. Lu Xue was so angry that she kicked off her slippers and stepped on the escalator to climb to bed.

The dormitory was so lively, and the excitement was theirs, and I still sat on the bed dumbfounded.

"Qingyin, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying? Lu Xue made a gesture to come to my bed, I didn't want them to find out about my abnormality, so I quickly picked up the book that was spread on my lap again. He said with a smile: "It's okay, Yu Lian is dead...... I'm sad and sad......"

Lu Xue glanced at "Red and Black" in my hand and didn't say anything more. Susan climbed into bed and threw me down, "I'll be with you, don't be sad!" ”

"Stinky mouse, have you taken the rat medicine today, or have you read the yellow book?" In order not to let them see that I was not giving up, I had to "go with the flow".

"Spring is here, the season of rat estrus, it's here!"

"Ah, help, ......" In the midst of the fighting, maybe I can forget Ziqian for a while. But when I am unaccompanied, I will unconsciously remember him, his kiss, his embrace...... I thought: It's over, I'm really in love, Lin Ziqian, you won't deceive me, right? But where are you?

In the past few days, I didn't know the taste of food, I couldn't sleep at night, and soon I lost weight. Looking at the distance of two fingers flashing from the waistline of the breeches I was wearing, I couldn't help but shake my head and smile bitterly: I am haggard for Yixiao! The ancients did not deceive me.

When he had nothing to do, he went to the city to find a good piece of jade, and the moment he got it, the jade was as cool as his hand, and Lin Ziqian's crescent-like eyebrows and eyes came to mind, and he immediately remembered eight words: humble gentleman, gentle as jade. Thinking about what font to engrave, regular script? Lishu? Books? Cursive is afraid that he can't read it, right? I smiled. I've been drawing patterns since I came back, and of course, it's all when I choose them to go out.

It's really easy to upgrade to a bachelor's degree, and you don't have to worry about your graduation thesis. Therefore, after the exam, we felt relaxed, and we did not pay attention to our homework, and we only waited for the final exam to receive our graduation certificate.

On a rainy day, the sound of rain lingered until noon.

Suddenly, I heard that the results of the college upgrade came out. You can go to the computer room to check it. Everyone was full of anticipation, and after lunch, they flocked to the computer room. Sure enough, there were a lot of people waiting outside the library's computer room. I caught a glimpse of Yu Haibin waiting there, but this time, he was very quiet and did not follow the crowd to talk. His light gray long-sleeved shirt and sports pants of the same color set off his athletic figure. Looking back on his sassy and heroic posture of playing football, I always feel pleasing to the eye. I looked at him a few times, and he saw me, and neither of them spoke.

We haven't met since we came back from taking the college entrance exam in H City, and we haven't spoken. Yes, with a huge campus and no fixed classrooms, it is not easy to meet. Besides, what can we say when we meet? It's just a face-saving sentence to say that it's okay to be friends.

Me and the seaside, separated by time, we can't go back after all.

I was worried about whether I would be able to find a seat, but fortunately the computer room was big enough, and when the door opened, everyone rushed in.

I finally found out that the score was 364.5 points, which was much less than estimated, probably because I was in a mood that fluctuated too much before the exam. Fortunately, it is clearly written that it is a "unified recruitment", not a "potential tapping". Leaders engaged in education are not ordinary, taking more than 10,000 yuan to go to school is still said to be "tapping potential training", what I am afraid of is not "tapping potential" but "digging money", right?

The moment I saw the admission results, I was greatly relieved. Afterwards, I listened to the noise in the computer room, and a few families were happy and a few were sad. Everyone was either leaving their seats and discussing fiercely comparing each other's scores, or communicating on QQ.

I didn't pay attention to where Susan went. I only saw the old Xiaohong sitting in the other row of machines, and hurriedly went over to say hello: "No problem, boss?" Xiaohong made an "ok" gesture, "How many points?" ”

"390" "You're still amazing!" "I couldn't help but rejoice for her: this unfortunate girl, by her own efforts, was finally going to a bigger city, a wider world. Glimpsing that Shi Zheng on Xiaohong's side was silent, I quietly pointed at him and signaled to Xiaohong, Xiaohong put her index finger to her lips and frowned, I understood, and hurried back to the original seat.

Looking around, I still didn't see Susan who came with me, and thought: This guy must be a happy lover! I'll just sit down and play online, and I'll wait for her by the way. I'm afraid that she won't find me, so I'm in a hurry.

Thinking of Yu Haibin, my heart was cold for a while.

I opened Q Q hesitated for a long time, and typed out a few words: You, how did you do in the exam? The hand stayed on the enter key for a long time, and finally as if he had made up his mind, he tapped hard. As if he was afraid of being seen through by the other party, his eyes were already browsing the web, but his heart was remembering his reply.

Before I didn't know Lin Ziqian's mind, I really wanted to be admitted to the same school as him. That used to be my only goal during those hard revision years. When I took the opportunity to ask him which school he was going to go to after he gave me cookies, I was also a little excited.

After a long time, there was no movement, and my heart sank unconsciously. When I was about to shut down, a familiar message beeped. I hurriedly opened it and looked: no play

There are only these two words, and there are no punctuation marks, which is also very similar to the tone of his speech, but it also represents his disappointed mood at this time. I just wanted to ask him again, can't he "tap potential and cultivate"? saw Zhang Luxue hurriedly come over and said, "Second brother, hurry up and go to the top of the building to have a look!" ”

"What's wrong?" "Where are Susan and Angran...... "Is it possible for me to watch them flirt?" "No, they didn't do well in the exam......" "Huh? Want to jump off a building? No, isn't the roof of this building sealed a long time ago......" "Okay, go and persuade it!" "You wait for me to turn it off!" "I'll close it for you, you go quickly!"

I grabbed my bag and ran to the roof.

When I ran up, I saw Li Angran and Susan silently across the two stairs.

The atmosphere was extremely dull, and needless to say, I knew that after reading the results, I felt that the two were about to face separation. Seeing me walking up the steps, Li Angran said, "You're here, I'm leaving!" "This is to hand over Susan to me, I was shocked, and before I could react, I saw Susan grab Li Angran's coat and pull him so that his shoulders were exposed. I don't look away. As soon as Li Angran struggled, he broke free, and staggered down the stairs.

I sighed softly. I heard the footsteps of Lee coming downstairs far away, and I approached Susan. When she didn't know what to say, Susan spoke: "Sister, I did badly in the exam." "How many points?" "321" "Oh, it's okay, I know you did your best, this score is good to go to school, no problem, at most your dad has some blood......" looked at Susan shook her head vigorously, grabbed her hair with her hands, and scratched her short hair like a chicken nest.

"Hey! Twilight love has hurt my Susan! I sighed in my heart, she must not have been at ease to review her homework during this time.

"I'm not worried about that, I can't go to school with him anymore, I don't know what kind of future we have to face." "The future, the future will be said in the future, okay, let's eat, don't starve you into a rat, Li Angran can't eat me!" I deliberately amused her, and when I saw that her face was not as ugly as before, I pulled her up from the ground.

When Susan and I returned to the computer room, most of the classmates who came to check the results were gone, and the eldest brother and Yu Haibin were still playing games among the people I knew. By the time Susan and I packed our backpacks, they were ready to go.

The rain in late spring was so lingering. The flowers in the bush seem to have lost their color.

Seeing Yu Haibin and Brother Yilei waiting in the foyer, I asked, "Why don't you leave?" Didn't bring an umbrella? Give you a hand, and Susan and I can go back. ”

"No, I'm waiting for Lu Xue, she went to the toilet." Big brother said.

My umbrella was not easy to take back directly, so I had to hand it over in the direction of Yu Haihai. Neither of them spoke, and the atmosphere was a little awkward. When I looked at him, I saw that his face was flushed. I was wondering when I saw him take the umbrella from my hand, wave his hand and quickly run away, and his words drifted in the rain: "Thank you! ”

Susan sneered. I looked at her strangely. She opened her umbrella and walked a few steps, imitating Yu Haihai's words sourly, "Thank you!" ”。

My eyes looked into the distance------ looking at the vast smoke in May in the distance, the figure running away in the drizzle, my heart was a little sour: this figure, lively and agile, once involved my sight for three years, three years of heartache; Now, the pain has passed, the sorrow is gone, and the man who held the umbrella for me in the autumn rain has gone......

At that time, he was simple and shy, the umbrella handle was tilted, and he wanted to give me a rainless world when he got wet. However, the vicissitudes of the world, the clouds and dogs, the changes are excessive, there is time between us, between suspicion and distrust, or we are separated, no matter who lets go first, the ending cannot be changed.

Perhaps, some people will never be able to find the person who can open an umbrella for her and give her a clear sky in their lifetime.

Perhaps, Yu Haibin is destined to be a passerby in my life.

I really wanted to tell Lin Ziqian the good news of the exam, but I called several times and said that the phone was turned off, so I had to wait patiently.

Who knew that what I was waiting for was news that broke my heart.

I've heard countless people say that Lin Ziqian and Shan Ruoshui have lovers and eventually become married, but I don't believe it. But the moment I saw it with my own eyes, I still heard the sound of my own heartbreak, and I felt a throbbing pain in my heart.

The oncoming white pretty shadow and the clear figure like jade bamboo and green pine come into view at the same time, and they meet on a narrow road. My legs suddenly seemed to be pinned and could not move, and I wanted to throw myself into his arms like a gust of wind, and confide in him about my lovesickness and torment for many days......

However, I saw Lin Ziqian leaning down and whispering to Shan Ruoshui, and Shan Ruoshui's clear smile came into my ears, so intimate, how could a lover have such an action?

Seeing such a harmonious figure of the two in a spring scene of red flowers and willows, I felt inferior for no reason, and the soles of my feet seemed to have strength, and I quickly jumped to the path on the side of the road, and fled, yes, I fled. My doubts, my sadness, my heartbreak, my unwillingness...... None of this is enough for my self-esteem.

As I walked on the path, I just looked up at the sky and tried my best to hold back my tears. A sneer appeared at the corner of his mouth: He Qingyin, you will still be heartbroken, you will cry, you will not learn a lesson if you are hurt by others once, and you will be hurt by others again, you are really the biggest fool in the world!

"He Qingyin! He Qingyin! "When I heard someone shouting at me, I opened my teary eyes wide and saw that it was Han Yucicada." Sister Jade Cicada. "I had no choice but to say hello.

"Hey, it's noon, let's go have a meal together?" She stepped forward and took my hand warmly, and I quietly withdrew it almost invisibly.

"No, I don't want you to break the bank."

"I have something to tell you." She insisted. Seeing her like this, I had no choice but to follow her to a restaurant at the east gate. She saw that I was not interested in ordering food, so she had to order three dishes and one soup by herself.

"If you have anything to say, please give me advice." I didn't want to eat either, I just sat dumbfounded.

"Sister He is really polite, if you still want to learn sketching, I can teach you."

"I don't want to study anymore, I'm about to graduate, and you're busy."

"Ruoshui's sketching skills are naturally very good, but she's been very busy lately, you know, she and Lin Ziqian are in love like glue, so ask me if you want me to teach you again." Han Yuciao's eyes flashed with an indescribable essence.

My eyes were always gloomy, and it took a long time before I said, "No thanks!" After saying that, he got up and left without waiting for her to speak. Shan Ruoshui said that he would invite you to dinner with Lin Ziqian in two days, because they were going to study in the United States together......" There was still a reluctant voice behind him. I squinted, my steps a little unsteady.

Along the way, passing through the peach and plum orchard, the flowers have been thanked, the ground is also difficult to find, the twilight spring flowers are remnant, the sadness is doubled, even if the warm sun in May, my heart is like a frozen and dry cold.

Lin Ziqian, Lin Ziqian...... So many days, so many years, you ...... How can you bear to hurt me!

I...... Again...... Once...... For whom is emaciation and loss of complexion?