We linger in circles that are humble as ants, and all the circles have been fixed by rules. The years slowly push us to the end of the grave, and we don't even have the strength to struggle, whether we are adapting to the times or sleeping in the dream we should wake up.

When night falls, darkness begins to dominate the vile squalor that can be seen in sight, and before everything becomes hysterical, everyone wants to indulge in the wonderful moments that bring joy. Surrounded by people who are dissatisfied with life, come and enjoy the rules of completely getting rid of materialism and holding a horizontal sword to resist.

You sing, I accompani, he dances, and there is joy for each other. But such simple enjoyment is divided into three, six, nine and so on by this society. Ironically, by the way, there is no such thing as fair treatment. Greedy, don't say that, who doesn't want to enjoy life. The pompous society has long since created a system of desperate careerists who are ready to overthrow everything.

Everything is changing, don't let yourself stay the same.

Excuse me?

In this impetuous city, have you long lost yourself, chosen to live in a sticky way, and never dared to step out of the boundaries laid out for you in the workplace to pursue your original intention?

When you reach a certain age, you will naturally get married, have children from generation to generation, and spend the rest of your life on an acre and three points. But it's true, looking at the people around you who spend their lives like this, it's nothing more than getting married a few years early and a few years later. Life is dull, cheating, quarreling, can't stand it, and then divorce.

But I always felt that the future I could see was terrible, five, ten, twenty years were all seen through at a glance, without a single wave, and in the end, I was thrown into a coffin without closing my eyes, and I enjoyed spending N years under the earth that I don't know when the earth was destroyed.

At this moment, do you dare to ask yourself that this is everything that will happen in your future life? I don't dare.

Forgive me for feeling that the city I grew up in didn't have temperature, too many streets were so familiar, and too many bars were drunk until I got drunk.

I want to restore my memory, be a heartless child, and stay out of everything. No matter how bad this world is, you can sleep in your own world and wake up naturally.

I've fallen out of love, several times. I thought I would never love someone really in love again. But after meeting that person, I realized that I was wrong, so completely wrong, wrong that I thought that fate was to be manipulated. I tried to get away with it all, gambling with the rest of my life, using everything I had as bait and playing with it.

But in the end, I found that no matter how we go our own way, we are going around in circles in a predestined puzzle, and we are so small.

I was confused, I couldn't find an exit when I ate and slept every day, so I overdrew my credit card and went to the bar to pursue a trace of comfort, enjoying the passion after getting drunk, I don't know what other people feel after drinking, the more I drink, the more sober I am, the more I drink, the more indulgent I am.

How devastating is indulgence? After drinking drunk, smoking an addictive strawberry-flavored hookah, and finally meeting a swinger girl with heavy makeup and false eyelashes, and having a carnal entanglement. I didn't feel much joy in the end, but I don't enjoy the feeling of helplessness after work anymore.

I don't have faith, isn't it scary to have a faithless person like me? As long as you decide that no matter what the price is, you will do it, even if it is wrong. This is not considered to be young and frivolous, if not to be able to tell the truth, or directly brainwash me.

I know that before everything is forgotten, there is no outline for time to read. At the beginning, it was repeatedly subverted for a hundred years, and it was ethereal. can't get rid of the inherent thinking, can't jump out of the circle of birth, and in the end will only die in the look-up, who can resist all this and laugh again.

I believe that at one time everyone tried to break at dawn

I want to get rid of the helpless dream at this moment

But when I watched the sun rise little by little, I had to continue to bear the pressure

can only be crowded with the crowd in this floating city

Let's talk about dreams, what a great word it sounds, but how many people dare to chase it to the end? Didn't give up voluntarily in the end? Did you see through the world a long time ago and be disappointed in this world? Dreams are for dreaming, what a.

I once watched hundreds of girls come to audition for a day at a record company for a selection of Chinese and Korean girl groups, each with an average height of more than 170, delicate facial features, and a glow on her body. The talent on his body can be performed in just 5 minutes.

When the show starts and some of the girls come up to perform and sing, they may have just walked out of school because they are nervous and the first sentence is out of tune. Before the main song could be sung, it was rejected by a judge who thought he was high, leaving the girl standing in awkward place, and finally bowing and saying thank you for leaving her lost back.

The judge who raised the sign to reject it was still complaining to the person next to him: "Has this woman ever studied music?" It's a waste of our time to sing like this and dare to perform on stage! After hearing this, some of the judges next to them shook their heads helplessly, a little silent, and some echoed.

I was thinking, can someone teach you how to write politeness! Do you know how much your random action hurts that girl's heart, and even the future! Even if it's a competition, even if you only pick the best, at least you should give more or less respect, which big-name star doesn't grow up slowly. I had just arrived in Beijing and was so new to everything.

This selection is within the company, and there is no photography recording, some girls perform perfectly, and it can be said that there is no mistake, but the judges just don't like you, and you can be eliminated directly by picking bones in the egg. He's the maker of the game, and you're a part of it. He has the right to change the rules of the game at any time, you don't have a choice.

When encountering a girl who dances well, the judges will also step forward to tease with confidence. Of course, no matter how disgusting the girl is in her heart and refuses about this, she still has to give the judges a smile on the surface and actively cooperate.

Later, after a long time, I knew. That's the rule of the game, you either fit in or quit early. Having a figure, a look, and a talent is just the basic condition for you to gain a foothold. No one behind you still wants to stay on the hot search list, it is undoubtedly a fool's dream. The benefits are all exchanged with each other, I can't get what I want, why give you what you want.

Money is right, the tragedy that surrounds it never says that it is an accomplice. That's right, you can look at the rules in the palm of your hand with a squint of your eyes. Money and power, tens of millions of people dispute, what's wrong?

So the industry is the same, money and power are supreme, whether you want to choose to adapt to and play these step by step, or to be a normal office worker with two points and one line to live, in the end, it is only a thought.

But in fact, in this era of self-promotion, it is not easy to be as good as the outside. To be able to be arrogant in the world of your own thinking, no matter what happens in ten years, at least it is enough to have people remember your name now.

For a long time in the past, I would think of a person, a person who insisted on pursuing music, and I don't know if his evaluation and the most sincere explanation made him have a big conflict of opinion, and he blocked me from Weibo. If you have the time to read what I'm writing now, I really hope you're happy on the road to pursuing your dreams.

It was a weekend morning, I got up and washed up on the balcony and basked in the sun and swiped Weibo with nothing to do, when a stranger's unread message popped up in the upper right corner, something that I usually always ignore, and today I suddenly became interested in clicking on it.

"Hello, Mr. Chen, can I have time to talk to you?" A kind greeting appeared in the message bar.

Out of curiosity and boredom, I asked, "What are we talking about?" The other side said: I know you make music, I always want to work hard to be a singer, if you have time, let's talk about it.

I smiled helplessly after reading it, and just wanted to close the message page, but another message came from the other side that attracted me.

"I'm a hotel waiter, I've been chasing my dream for five years, you send me an address, can I go and find you?"

After reading it, my heart suddenly trembled, my dream when I was a child was to make music. I didn't learn anything about it, and it was only after graduation that I had 99% luck that I was able to jump from an unrelated other major to the music industry in an instant. It can be said that the realization of my dream was blank, and there was no joy in the end.

I could hear the speed of the screen with my ears and go back: Okay, let's go to the coffee shop next to Communication University, when will you be there?

Come back from the other side for a while, and the news says it will be more than eight o'clock in the evening. He said that he got off work late at night, and it would take more than eight o'clock to leave early.

I replied and said no need to rush, I'll wait for you.

After sending it, I closed the notebook, thinking about the experience from the first time I first came to Beijing to the present, and I have to thank my teacher He, without whom I have just graduated, I don't know if I can stay in Beijing for a month. Without him, I might have lived my life without thinking in a unit in Shijiazhuang.

At the beginning, I didn't have the right to choose, but later I had the right to choose, and I realized that what I wanted to cherish the most was two worlds with myself. You don't have the ability to throw away everything you get to save this time, and there will always be regrets. Later, I believed that everything has a cause and effect, and everything gained is based on loss.

I showed up at 8 p.m. at this café, the room was not too big, and I could smell the aroma of pure coffee as soon as I entered the room from the outside.

At 10 o'clock, I drank unsweetened pure coffee, watching the crowd rushing through the glass window, all of them coldly ignoring the existence of passers-by and living in their own world, and the dark night was a good choice to cover up the disguise.

At 8:20, I watched the couple at the next table snuggling up to each other, watching a movie on the iPad, the boy's hand gently caressing the girl's hair, and the girl also enjoyed the feeling, in fact, happiness seems to be as simple as that.

At half past eight, I was wondering if it was a prank by a familiar person, so I picked up my phone and opened Weibo, sent a message and asked, are you still here?

After waiting for more than a minute, the other side sent a message and said: "I'm sorry, I'll be there soon, there is a bit of traffic jam on the road." ”

I put down my phone and didn't reply, and after a while, a man in his twenties and eighteens ran in panting, and I got up to say hello to him. He hurriedly walked over and apologized to me, "Brother Chen, I'm sorry, I've been waiting for you for a long time, the road is really too congested."

After listening to him, I was suitable for him to sit down, and said with a smile: "Don't call me Brother Chen, just call me Xiaoxu, my friends call me that, besides, I don't seem to be as old as you." ”

"Okay, then I'll call you Xiaoxu, my name is Wang Mu, if you don't mind, just call me Brother Mu." Wang Mu asked the waiter to order the food while talking to me.

I don't know how to describe the man in front of me more appropriately, his hair is not long or short, but there is no hairstyle, a standard Chinese face, wearing a denim jacket worn by a young man, black slacks, basically the kind that will not be seen by passers-by when thrown into the crowd, mainly because the voice is very rough and partial.

After a while, the ordered meal was full, Wang Mu did not eat, but greeted me very warmly: "Eat more, eat more." ”

Since he had his ideas, I didn't shirk it.

Wang Hao took out his mobile phone, opened the music player and said to me with a smile: "This is the song I just recorded two days ago, you can listen to it." ”

The arrangement as a whole is very immature, it must be composed of several songs, Wang Hao's singing part is very emotionless, basically belongs to the state of five tones through two tones, this is my simple idea after listening to it, but I didn't say it.

"Who recorded this for you?" I asked.

"I found a record company on the Internet, and it cost more than 30,000 yuan to record this song." Wang Hao felt a sense of accomplishment when he spoke.

But I feel that the value of the whole song will not exceed 2,000 yuan, and now many record industries are like this, saying that they will help you record and promote it later, but what they will really do is just fool you into paying the money, and then go to the recording studio to try out the song twice and they will give you the song, and after two days, it will be officially recorded once and sent to your mobile phone by email. As for what post-publicity and promotion, it's just talk, where is the real publicity and promotion, and tens of thousands of dollars can solve it.

"How much do you earn each month?" I asked.

"Six thousand," Wang Hao replied to me.

"Is it worth it?"

"It's worth it, I want to be a successful singer and stand on stage and sing."

"And what are you going to do next?"

"I want to upload it to the site, but I won't. I've been resting for this song for many days, and our boss is a foreigner, and he said that I don't have a brain, and I won't get any results from doing this, but I just don't want to fight hard. ”

After listening to it, I looked at him speechlessly, I didn't even know this in the Internet era, and said that I made music.

In fact, Wang Hao talked to me a lot that day, but that's all I remember, because I admitted that I was in a state of mind, this road is too difficult to walk, how many people want to get out of the millions of people one after another, but the lucky ones have been set in the background from the beginning, and everyone is helping to walk a show to attract more people's attention and increase the video click rate to help them debut.

Looking at the desire to sing in the eyes of this fast-running man, I may not have been able to fully comprehend it with my thinking at the time.

When he was separated from Wang Hao, he said a lot of compliments on me, saying that he was lucky to know me. As a result, I later felt that I should speak my mind, so I expressed my opinion on his songs through Weibo, but to my surprise, he said that I was lying to him, and scolded me, and then I was blacklisted.

We have all been full of kindness to the world, generously took out the innocence in our hearts to share, and later how we cultivated a heart that is invincible to all poisons.

Maybe his persistence is not wrong, and he is at least happy to live in his dreams. I hope there is no invincible heart as I said at the end, that would be really cruel. No matter how far he can go in the future, I hope that he can always be happy with himself.

The future is actually an instant, and in the reality that is like a dream, don't choose to be easily seen through by the shadow under you. Everyone will be lost, try to choose to restrain once in a while, it is not terrible to fall to the bottom, you can't see the light and choose to be still in place, I'm afraid that even a smart person like Zhuge Liang can't save you.

In fact, sometimes I feel that I am not as happy as a beggar, I see a lot of gloss flickering on the surface, and when I hide in a person's corner, I will be divided into multiple characters, and all the joys, sorrows and sorrows are displayed to the fullest.

No matter how brilliant the sun is, it will eventually sink in the west at the appointed time.

Is it just that the sun has an end to life? We don't know.

Gravity enshrined in all science is wishful thinking.

We seek knowledge in ignorance, like a deception in a fairy tale.

No matter how deliberate the performance is, it can be seen through at a glance, so it's better to carnival now.

It's better to embrace each other warmly at the moment, and it doesn't matter what you miss.

In the middle of the night, before being illuminated again by Tairang, he wantonly overturned himself.