It's already one o'clock in the morning when I close my eyes, and it's hard to imagine that one day I'll spend more than two hours flipping through a person's Weibo.

From naivety at the beginning to maturity later, it turns out that participating in a person's life is so simple.

The invitation that Nana sent me by courier yesterday was completely without warning, and I didn't call in advance to let me be prepared.

When the courier brother called my company, I was still thinking in my heart, who was so good, and sent the wrong address for me to pick up a big bargain.

As time passed, when I opened the wedding invitation step by step, I realized that her age was really not young, and it turned out that she was getting married. There are two invitations, and one is from Lao Jiang. That's why she didn't inform me in advance.

Nana was the first girl that Lao Jiang had a crush on in junior high school, and later he said that it was also the last one, that a crush on a person was too self-begging, and it was obvious that something that could be solved with one sentence, but it had to be dragged and dragged until the end, wasting a beautiful youth.

Because on the day of graduation, this kid jumped directly to the dinner table after drinking big, and casually picked up the beer bottle next to him as a microphone and sang Yuquan's "The Most Beautiful", and no one persuaded the classmates next to him, after all, it was the last day, as long as he had fun, he could do anything.

When singing the chorus, Lao Jiang stared at Nana's body with his eyes, and sang out his heartbreak: Nana is the most beautiful in my heart, only those who love each other can best understand it, you know, I love you, that is the taste of sugar.

Everyone laughed, gave Lao Jiang a thumbs up, and then watched Nana's reaction.

Nana clenched her fists and slowly stood up, trying to squeeze out a smile on Lao Jiang and asked, "Am I beautiful?" ”

Lao Jiang didn't even think about it: "Beauty, you are definitely the most beautiful I have ever seen." ”

What happened in the next second made Lao Jiang confused, and dozens of pairs of eyes watched Nana pick up the Coke cup on the table with her hand, quickly put it above her head and poured it down.

Then Qiang Yan smiled and said, "It's not beautiful now." ”

Lao Jiang hurriedly stepped forward to help wipe it off, but he stepped on the uneaten fruit bowl on the table, crossed it off the table, and after falling to the ground, the left side of his face was pressed against the surface of Nana's pink sneakers.

Nana was completely disappointed in Lao Jiang at this time, so she pulled out the shoes that Lao Jiang was holding firmly and enjoyed, and turned around and left without saying a word.

Lao Jiang got up and chased towards the door, but he didn't take two steps and was stopped by us, saying that he would not return if he was drunk.

Actually, we don't want him to go out and make the relationship more awkward, and now that he is drinking, it can be used as a joke and it will pass tomorrow. If you chase it out, it may be a stranger after graduation.

Lao Jiang drank at the end that night, and actually popped out a sentence that he felt that he had fallen out of love.

I raised my arm and slapped him on the back of the head, which made my palm swollen for two days, and I didn't even feel it at the time.

After beating my eyes and looking at the red and swollen palms, I cried and said, "Are you in love?" fell out of love. ”

Lao Jiang looked at me who squeezed out a tear: "Chen Xuguang, I didn't cry when I fell out of love, why are you crying." I didn't hear the lyrics that I deliberately changed when I sang just now, I just want everyone to misunderstand that he is my girlfriend, and I have had a crush on her for two whole years, and in the end I don't want a little vanity. ”

I said, "I don't feel worth it for my hand." ”

Lao Jiang said: "Cry, cry, it's not a sin for a man to cry." ”

After saying that, he knelt beside me, hugged my thighs and cried fiercely, leaving behind a group of people who didn't know why.

If the plot of the story ends here, will it be the most satisfying, at least still very young, at least if you are injured, you can still get up with a smile the next day.

Even if you don't pay for it now, the heart-wrenching pain has already crawled close to the flesh cells, and it will wake up at any time to give you a fatal pain.

Nana fell in love once after she went to high school, but then broke up for some reason, so she began to study hard and think about getting into an ideal university.

Lao Jiang High School is very well developed, and his height exceeded 1.8 meters in less than one semester, and the contours of his face gradually formed and became a class grass. Several girls were chasing him, but he was as guarded as a jade, didn't talk about it once, and swore that "I will not marry Nana in my life, and if he dares not to marry me in the future, I will have to transport a plane bomb from Russia to blow up her wedding scene." ”

The two are also in contact from time to time, and the relationship is only maintained on a phone call, and when they are in a good mood, they can have a meal with Lao Jiang who promised him, which can make Lao Jiang so happy that he can't sleep all night the night before.

After college, Nana met a boy she liked very much, but he didn't choose to hold it in his heart like Lao Jiang Junior High School, but took the initiative to open his mouth.

As a result, you don't have to think about it to know that a beautiful woman is sent to the door, how can there be no reason not to.

When Nana posted a photo of the two to the circle of friends, Lao Jiang felt that he had fallen out of love again, but it was very strange that he still did not give up and chose to continue to run behind Nana.

I remember asking him once, "Are you so interesting?" People are warming other men's quilts, you are good, and you will continue to carry hot water basins to wash people's feet. ”

Lao Jiang said to me unconvinced: "So what, I believe that she will be mine in the end, what's wrong with the warm quilt, use your ability to find me a virgin now." ”

I pointed to his head, his eyes fixed on me, and finally he said that you are a cheap person and you will not be able to die.

At that time, a newly released movie was called "Left Ear", and there was a sentence in it that Lao Jiang was very impressed.

We want love that we can get married as soon as we hold hands, but we live in an era where there is no result in getting into bed.

Lao Jiang slept with Nana in the third week after the movie was released.

Until now, Lao Jiang remembers every detail of that time very clearly, even the name of the hotel, and that street have been memorized.

At that time, Nana had a quarrel with her boyfriend, and Lao Jiang played a heartwarming role at this time as usual.

The more Lao Jiang comforted, the more Nana cried sadly, and finally Lao Jiang got up from the bed in the dormitory at 11 o'clock in the evening, got dressed, walked out of the school gate and rushed to the train station, and it was already 3 o'clock in the morning when he arrived.

There was only a station ticket left on the train that arrived in Beijing at the earliest, and Lao Jiang did not hesitate and bought it directly.

After getting in the car, I was so tired that I sat directly in the aisle next to the toilet and fell asleep, although my body was numb, I thought that I would be able to see Nana immediately, and Lao Jiang had a smile on his face after falling asleep.

The next day, it was already one o'clock in the afternoon at Nana's school gate, and Lao Jiang hadn't even eaten a mouthful of food.

I just wanted to take out my mobile phone to call Nana, but the phone was out of battery, so I hurriedly found that I had charged the mobile phone store and turned it on, and pressed the dial button for Nana.

The phone was connected, and Nana was still sleeping, asking in a lazy hache voice, "What's wrong?" ”

Lao Jiang said excitedly: "I'm at the gate of your school. ”

Nana opened her eyes and said suspiciously, "Don't be kidding, you don't have classes today, Wednesday." ”

Lao Jiang looked up at the name of the mobile phone store: "I'm on leave, I'm in this Huixin mobile phone store at the gate of your school, and the phone is out of battery to charge." ”

Nana raised her left hand and rubbed the inside of her eyebrows, remembering that Simon really seemed to be such a mobile phone store, and said, "You wait for me for ten minutes, I'll go over and look for you right away." ”

Lao Jiang hurriedly nodded in agreement, even if Nana couldn't see how hard his head was nodding.

When Nana saw Lao Jiang, she was amused by his unique look.

Lao Jiang, who hadn't washed at night, could clearly see a greasy layer in his hair and it was still explosive.

took Lao Jiang into the school to wash up briefly, and the two went to the mall for an afternoon.

I didn't mention anything unhappy, I didn't buy anything, I just walked left and right until I had dinner.

Lao Jiang opened his mouth and said: "I can go to the Internet café to sleep for one night, and there is no need to go to the hotel alone." ”

Nana frowned and said, "No, I didn't sleep well last night, how can I go to the Internet café today." ”

Lao Jiang touched his forehead and said embarrassedly: "I'm afraid of the dark alone, so I don't dare to go." ”

Nana stood still and hesitated for a few seconds before saying, "I'll go with you." ”

Lao Jiang tried to suppress the expression that was about to snicker, nodded pretending not to care, and walked towards a hotel with a somewhat ambiguous name not far away.

There are only double bed rooms in this kind of hotel, there are no standard rooms, Lao Jiang pointed to the waterbed room and took out the money and got the room card.

After entering the room, in a small space full of romance, Lao Jiang did not control his desires, in fact, he had been looking forward to this scene for a long time.

Nana may have come all the way because Lao Jiang came all the way for herself, and she was very moved in her heart, so she half-pushed and half-agreed.

The two hugged each other, lingering, dizzy, and climaxed. For Lao Jiang, it seems that there are only two people left in this world.

Men and women in love can be seen everywhere in the city's space, and all the plots you can think of are vividly displayed in their body movements, so emotional, far better than the deliberately created movie plot.

Indeed, in this era, sleeping with a person of the opposite sex can be said to be too simple, and it seems to be a matter of undressing and dressing.

As for whether there is an element of love mixed in it, sometimes in the face of life, it is not too important.

It's not that the girls are casual, but when they are faced with things that are beyond their reach, there will be a little more rationality in their minds.

This night, for Lao Jiang, was the happiest night in more than 20 years, and for Nana, it was to repay the debt to Lao Jiang over the years.

When she woke up the next day, Nana still had to go to class, so she persuaded Lao Jiang to hurry back to school and study hard, but Lao Jiang didn't insist on anything more and got on the train in Xi'an again.

When he thought that everything had changed, the result was that nothing had changed.

Two days after the incident, Nana reconciled with her boyfriend, facing Lao Jiang as if nothing had happened.

This made Lao Jiang very depressed, and in his eyes at that time, he thought that only two people who loved each other could sleep together.

I also asked in one of our WeChat groups, what if you put a girl to sleep one day, and the girl lifted her clothes and left?

The group instantly became lively, and Xiao Zhang then asked, "Did you sleep with Nana?" ”

I said, "Did you knock her out and carry her to bed?" Check to see if the police are preparing a raid downstairs in your house. ”

Dick Si said: "Which girl, quickly introduce me to me." ”

After Lao Zhang finished reading it, he hurriedly wanted to explain something, but the words in the input box were only halfway through when Ru Xue spoke: "Isn't it normal!" Sleep you boys still need to explain? ”

Attracted everyone's outstanding expressions, at this time Ziya sent out a string of long articles, Ziya University majored in media, went directly to Shanghai to work hard after graduation, and became a famous fashion editor-in-chief in less than two years, making us cry and cry out for unfairness.

Ziya said, "Do you feel very wronged? You have to figure out that you said that you slept on her body, and no one said anything, so it's good for you to shout unfairness here. Of course, living in our time, it is difficult to talk about what is fair and what is unfair, as long as it is something that you are willing to do not break the law, even if you sleep with her mother, I think it is normal. Don't you think it's because you're not psychologically mature enough? Have you ever wondered why people do that? If not, really, I look down on you from the bottom of my heart. ”

is a very sharp sentence, I actually saw Lao Jiang crying, and tears dripped on the screen of the mobile phone.

After turning off the phone, he hid in the bed and felt uncomfortable alone, and his inferiority complex and panic had spread to the entire dark area.

It's like a spare tire character, even if it's much better than your current one, but why does this inferiority complex find me.

If you meet it later, you can attack it mercilessly in front of your eyes, so that you have no choice but to fall in love with me.

Lao Jiang thought about it, thought about it repeatedly, and didn't tell anyone, because he felt that everything didn't understand his inner world.

He doesn't want any fairness, he just wants to stretch himself out and walk into Nana's heart, no matter how scarred the process is, as long as it is happy in the end.

Later, Nana rarely told Lao Jiang about herself, she didn't want Lao Jiang to hurt him deeply.

But when a man, an excellent man walks around you like the only goddess, and if you have any difficulties without saying it a second time, it will fly directly to your eyes to help you solve it, and you will find that it is really difficult for you to ignore his presence.

Later, Nana had a car accident, lost a lot of blood in her left leg, the operation was not too successful, and she may face the sudden amputation at any time.

It was Lao Jiang who quit his job as a civil servant and took care of Nana's daily life in the hospital like a parent.

At that time, this matter was hidden from Nana's family, Nana's mother was not in good health, and she was afraid that she would not be able to accept the news, so she spent all of Lao Jiang's money, and if she didn't have enough cash, she used a credit card to pile it up.

Nana finally recovered completely, and what happened later, Lao Jiang didn't tell me whether he was alive or dead.

What a funny life, even so, the two didn't get together in the end.

Maybe love is like this, if it's not yours, it's really not yours, and no matter how much you give, it's useless.

On the weekend, I took the invitation to Lao Jiang's house, and looked at Lao Jiang, who was in a good mood, and didn't know how to say it.

Lao Jiang looked at me with an unnatural expression and asked, "What's wrong?" The expression on his face is so stiff, did he do something bad and came to me to confess. ”

I tentatively said, "Nana looks like she's getting married." ”

Before I could finish speaking, Lao Jiang interrupted me: "I know, you are just because of this, not so." ”

I sighed when I was sure that Lao Jiang definitely didn't have the ingredients to perform, and took out the invitation that belonged to him from his bag sideways, and carefully put it on the table.

After a pause, I always felt that something was wrong, if Lao Jiang knew, would Nana still need me to hand it over.

But I knew I shouldn't say anything at this point, so I turned around and left my bedroom to watch TV in the hall.

The sound of the TV was very loud, and I turned it up as much as I could, but I could still hear Lao Jiang's intermittent crying.

I got up and walked to the bedroom door, trying to open the closed door and go in to comfort myself, but found that the doorknob had been locked.

The food I cooked at noon, the wine Lao Jiang drank, didn't take a sip, and the nonsense in his mouth when he was drunk was mostly related to Nana.

Seeing such a big man like a child, tears and snot mixed together, my heart is quite unpleasant, but I also know that a person's heart is like this, and no matter what outsiders say, they will be omitted by the subconscious layer of defense.

When he finally left, he didn't worry if he would do anything he couldn't think of, so he tied him to the bed with a rope and said: "You don't need to write, you can hold it by yourself if you have a defecation problem, and I'll let Dick Si come over tomorrow to help you loosen it." After speaking, he turned around and left, leaving Lao Jiang behind to scold.

Later, I heard Dick Si tell me that he came in Lao Jiang with his breath in, and the smell was stronger than the toilet in junior high school.

On the day of the wedding, we went with a few good friends from junior high school, and this time everyone chose to be silent, and no one dared to use their old faces to test what ridiculous things Lao Jiang would do in public.

The bride with makeup was particularly moving, and when the director read out the vows of love between the two, Lao Jiang poured 52° Moutai into his throat like beer on the dining table.

We persuaded him, one grabbed his leg to prevent him from kicking, and the other twisted his arms behind him, and the scene was even more lively than the person on stage.

In the end, the goods stopped struggling, quieted down, and said with a smile: "They are really a good match." ”

When the bride and groom came to our table with glasses to toast, I could clearly feel that Lao Jiang's smile was very sincere, while the bride's smile was very embarrassing, and the arm holding the cup was still trembling slightly.

After returning from the wedding, Lao Jiang posted a message in the circle of friends: The invisible picture, it is difficult to warm up the heart, and he is enjoying the process that is more painful than death, and he has already reached the heart The door will not be able to support it, but fortunately, it is in the past, and there is no need to crown your departure again.

The picture is the lower body of a bride, and it can be seen through the screen that the shiny crystal shoes are very beautiful, worn on Nana's white feet, which makes those in the know look a little sad.

The shoes were bought by Lao Jiang, and it took almost two years of savings, in his words, this is our love.

After getting drunk at his house that day, he finally spoke to me in my heart.

He said that after Nana's leg healed, they were together for a while, and finally separated again.

He has been in love with Nana for a long time, and now that they are finally together, he wants to be by Nana's side all the time.

And most of the reasons why Nana is with Lao Jiang come from debt, and she wants to live a free life, not the care of several phone calls a day.

The difference in personality made the two quickly have a conflict, and the contradiction was okay for a while, but it gradually expanded over time but it was fatal.

Nana didn't say anything about breaking up the capital, because Lao Jiang didn't want to see her unhappy every day, so she packed her luggage and left.

Love is selfish, but human nature is selfless.