Chapter 369: The Secret That Can't Be Said
"Qin Han, is what you said true? You really didn't treat me so well because of guilt, because of guilt? But you obviously know everything that happened to the Qin family and the Chen family, so what are you doing these things for? ”
"Obviously, you have known the relationship between our two families since the day you met me, but you never told me, and even made me have an inferiority complex to get along with you at the beginning, how can you be so cruel?"
"You said you weren't so good to me because you felt guilty, then you have to give me a reason, do you want to tell me because you fell in love with me the first time you saw me?"
Speaking of this, even I laughed in disbelief, after all, at that time, who could believe that Qin Han would fall in love with me?
I was a big fat man of more than 200 pounds, and anyone who saw me at that time had to take a detour, let alone him?
So if Qin Han really wants to say that he fell in love with me from the first time he saw me, then I can be 100% sure that he must have deceived me.
However, at the moment when I was waiting for Qin Han's answer, he suddenly gave an answer when I was a little distracted, "I never helped you out of guilt, and naturally I didn't fall in love with you when I first met you, not to mention that it wasn't the first time we met at that time!" ”
"It's not the first time we've met?" I frowned and repeated what Qin Han said to me suspiciously, but after a while, I still couldn't help laughing.
"Qin Han, what are you talking about? It was the first time I met you, and I had never seen you and you had never met me before, and there was not even any contact between the two of us. ”
"Or because you knew about the relationship between our Chen family and your Qin family before, so you have been silently paying attention to me, hoping that one day it will be enough for you to make up for your guilt, and it just so happened that I fell into the lowest point of my life at that time, so you found me."
"At that time, when I wanted to give up my life, you reached out to help me, maybe I felt that when I knew the truth in the future, I would not feel resentful of you, but would be more grateful to you."
Saying these words quietly to Qin Han, even I felt that this reason was too sufficient.
In this way, it can also explain why Qin Han felt that he didn't help me out of guilt, because he had a purpose in the fight from the beginning.
However, in the face of Qin Han's answer I gave, he looked very excited, as if he didn't agree with what I said to him at all, and he shook his head solemnly at me with disbelief on his face.
"No, it's not like that at all. No matter how many times you ask me, the answer I give you is no.
I've never wanted to help you because of guilt, and it wasn't the first time we've met, but I didn't have any purpose for it! ”
Obviously, in my heart, I have already decided that what I said must be the whole truth. Qin Han wanted to help me because of guilt or purpose.
After all, the Qin family has done unforgivable things to the Chen family, which will inevitably make their conscience uneasy, no matter how cold-blooded Qin Han's father is, but when facing me, the guilt in his heart still can't be missing.
This is why when Qin Han took me to Qin's house before, Qin Han's mother spoke ill of me because she didn't know about these things; But Qin Han's father was very kind to me, shushing Han and asking for warmth, and even took the initiative to talk to me about my father.
This is because he is a participant in this matter, or he is the murderer behind the scenes, so his attitude towards me is far better than that of other people.
I used to really think that Qin Han's father had such a good attitude towards me because he liked me, but when I learned the truth, everything surfaced, and the reason why he was good to me can be explained.
This principle also applies to Qin Han's body, there was a reasonable explanation for those reasons why I didn't understand and just thought that God sent Qin Han to save me, so he was so good to me and did so many things for me.
But I don't understand why Qin Han denied the answers I gave again and again.
It's not the first time he's done this, no matter how many times I say it, he'll say no it, at first I just thought it was ridiculous, but now it only makes me angry.
Therefore, in the face of Qin Han's reason for rejecting my answer again, the ideas that I had managed to piece together were all disrupted again, and at the same time, it also aroused the anger in my heart.
I wanted to see that Qin Han was still holding me now, in case I might fall to the ground at any time, I didn't know where I got a strength, and suddenly stretched out my hand to Qin Han, I didn't care what kind of reaction Qin Han made, and directly pushed him backwards.
"Don't touch me again, stay away from me, I don't want you to touch me again!" I suddenly roared at Qin Han, it was obvious that my words had startled him, Qin Han looked at me with disbelief in his eyes, but after understanding what I had just done, it quickly turned into sadness.
His eyes were like a deep sea, calm and without a trace of waves, and only a faint shimmer of darkness shimmered under the endless dark sky.
Looking at Qin Han's eyes, as if there was magical power, this moment made me a little trance, and even made me wonder if what Qin Han said to me was true.
Could it be ...... Isn't it really because of guilt that he helped me like this?
But it was just a brief moment of thought in my mind, because he did so many things to me because of guilt, and I really didn't have an accurate answer in my heart?
So after dispelling this thought, even though Qin Han's eyes made me a little inexplicably sad, I was still unwilling to admit defeat and spoke to him hard.
"If, as you said, you didn't do these things to me because of guilt at all, then I just want to ask you for a reasonable reason now, can't you even give me it?"
"I just want to know why you're so nice to me, not because of guilt, but what? Is this reason so difficult to give? ”
"Qin Han, you really have to think about it carefully. You've been deceiving me for so long, are you going to keep deceiving me in the future, what's the point of that for us?
I've got the truth, and if you don't explain it to me, then I'll think so forever. ”
I opened my mouth to Qin Han, and there was even a hint of threat to him in these words, I hope Qin Han can hear it and be able to tell me the truth.
"So, are you still insisting that you did so many things to me because of guilt? So could you please give me a reasonable explanation, an explanation that can prove that you are not deceiving me. ”
Facing the words I pressed Qin Han to ask, a look of embarrassment vaguely flashed on his face, which made my heart sink suddenly, even then Qin Han still had to open his mouth to say to me again, didn't he do these things to make up for me at all?
But even so, I was still full of expectations, because I wanted to know what kind of attitude Qin Han had towards this matter, and why did he do it?
"The reason why I've been so good to you has never been because of guilt, just because I want to help you. But as for why I'm helping you, I can't tell you why, I'm really sorry. ”
"Can't tell me? Really sorry? Listening to Qin Han's ambiguous words, it only made me feel more and more ridiculous, since the relationship between the two of us has reached this point, what can't I be told about it?
Is he afraid of hurting me, or is he afraid of hurting himself?
"I don't quite understand, since you don't want to tell me, then it means that you are indeed trying to make amends, because I really can't think of anything more serious than what happened to the Qin family and the Chen family."
"You say it's just because you want to help me. But if it weren't for the Qin family and the Chen family, you and I would not be related, why would you want to help me, this can't be explained at all! ”
"So, Qin Han, now you can't even lie, so you want to tell me such a clumsy lie? If that's the case, you might as well not say it to me, because it only makes me feel ridiculous! ”
I spread my hands at Qin Han, my face full of helplessness and sadness, "The two of us have made trouble to this point, since I dare to say these words to you, it is bound to get the truth, and you hide it in every possible way, what's the point?" ”
"If it's really like what you said, then I don't understand what I'm trying to do with you here, I can't get the answer I want to know from you, these words don't mean anything at all!"
I shook my head lightly at Qin Han, not hiding the helplessness and loss on my face at all, besides, Qin Han couldn't give me a reasonable reason, so I could only acquiesce to my answer, which was actually the answer Qin Han gave me.
What I didn't expect was that after hearing me say this, Qin Han suddenly became impulsive, and he walked towards me with an angry face, with painful emotions in his eyes.
I was frightened by Qin Han's sudden anger, so I just stood in place in a daze, and when I looked at him, there was only panic left in my eyes, and I didn't know what kind of reaction I should make to his anger to be considered normal.
However, after a while, Qin Han's sense of oppression towards me became deeper and deeper, which almost wanted me to flee immediately, so I couldn't help but take two steps back, wanting to get out of his aura.
But what I didn't expect was that Qin Han saw my intentions first, and as soon as I moved my steps, he immediately stretched out his hand and tightly restrained my shoulder, preventing my next move.
"Chen Ci, how can you be so cruel, I've told you many times that things are not as you imagined, I have never treated you like this because of guilt, how many times did you ask me to say it before you believed me?!"