Chapter 344: Where I Want to Go Most
I kept sobbing, but I still tried my best to tell Xu Yi what I thought at this time, the relationship between him and Qin Han was not good, and I didn't want to make it worse because of me.
What's more, there is still a woman I don't know standing next to Qin Han now, I don't know who she is, and I don't want to know, the only thing I understand is that I don't want to be involved with her.
I don't want Qin Han to see my embarrassed appearance at this time, and I don't want a woman who is standing next to him to exude brilliance to see my current embarrassment, otherwise don't say it's them, even I look down on myself.
What I need is to stand in front of them decisively and decisively after calming my mood and being able to face the fact that Qin Han betrayed me completely and correctly.
But for me, I can't do it right now.
Xu Yi said that he listens to me for everything, as long as I let him do it, he will never refute it, so when I stop him, he naturally chooses to give up.
He still didn't let go of me, he held me tightly in his arms, reached out and stroked my back, and took care of me like a child.
After a long time, I heard him sigh slightly, with helpless sadness in his tone, "Xiao Ci, you are not as strong as you said yourself, the moment you saw Qin Han, all your disguises were removed, you are still too weak." ”
"You don't have to be in a hurry to refute me, as far as I can see, it's true, you love him so much that it's hard to control yourself, and it's hard to accept that he has deceived you for so long......"
"If that's the case, why do you have to force yourself? You can completely reconcile with Qin Han, because you know that he loves you now, and this is enough.
Wouldn't it be nice for you to just go on calmly as if it hadn't happened? ”
Xu Yi's words carried a tone of not hating iron and steel, what he said was not wrong at all, and I couldn't refute him with any words at all.
Everything I said was self-directed and self-acted, and it was used to guide my own psychology, don't care too much, but everything will collapse the moment I see Qin Han......
In the ruins, only I was left with sadness and hesitation.
However, even so, in the face of what Xu Yi said to me, it was difficult for me to accept.
I admit that I can't let go of Qin Han at all, after all, he is too important in my heart.
I have never loved someone, I love him so deeply that it is difficult to let go, but I am afraid that he will never forget this incident of deceiving me.
Although I really can't refute what Xu Yi said to me, I can disagree with what he has said to me.
My position is exactly the same as when I knew that Qin Han deceived me, I won't forget it so simply, I must let him understand what kind of pain I have endured.
So at this moment, I shook my head desperately at Xu Yi, I must not let his thoughts affect me, I don't want others to decide what I should do about this, because in the end, all this should be understood by me and Qin Han.
"No, no, I can't do that! How can I just leave it at that? Xu Yi, I can't do it, I really can't do it. I said sadly but firmly to Xu Yi, "It was the Qin family who harmed my father and ruined my family; It was Qin Han who deceived me for so many years, how can I say that I will let go of it, is this worthy of my father?! ”
I don't care what kind of eyes the people around me look at, at this moment, I just want to explain my position to Xu Yi, and that's enough.
When he heard me say this, Xu Yi was not as angry and surprised as I imagined, he just sighed slightly, as if my answer had already been expected by him, which was something he could expect.
He has always understood me, and he knows that I am too stubborn, and I will not easily change things once I decide on them, even if I treat Qin Han.
So he just held me silently and let me cry on his chest, and there was no more conversation between the two of us, but his company at this time was the best thing he could give me.
I don't know how long I cried with Xu Yi like this, I only know that when I cried to the end, I had no strength in my body, and I could only rely on Xu Yi to support me and barely sit on the chair.
However, the tears did not seem to stop, and they fell from their eyes one by one, slid into their necks, and finally melted into a cold patch.
Suddenly, Xu Yi's body stiffened, and the hand he was holding me tightened unconsciously, and whispered to me next to my ear, "Xiao Ci, Qin Han, they're in!" ”
Got in?!
These three words sounded in my ears like thunder, I instantly became nervous, raised my head from Xu Yi's arms, the tears had not yet been wiped away, but I could see it in the blur.
As Xu Yi said, the two who were talking and laughing at the door at the beginning were slowly walking into the bar at this time.
When we came to the bar at that time, Xu Yi and I deliberately chose a relatively remote place to sit, so that we would not be disturbed by others.
So even if Qin Han and that woman walked in, they wouldn't necessarily notice us, but I knew very well that I definitely couldn't take any risks.
For the time being, I really don't want to have any conversation with Qin Han, I don't even want to see his face.
Because as long as I see him, it will make my mood extremely impatient, and I can't help but recall the bits and pieces between us, and then finally Qin Han's father's words will come to my mind.
Therefore, no matter what, I can't meet with Qin Han.
I hurriedly stretched out my hand and tugged on Xu Yi's sleeve tightly, ignoring my already crying face and embarrassed appearance, and pleaded with him.
"Xu Yi, just take it as if I beg you to take me away quickly, I don't want to stay here, I don't want to meet them, I don't want to communicate with Qin Han, okay, take me away!"
I hurriedly pleaded with Xu Yi, I was already a little incoherent at this time, but I had no choice but to be able to leave this place quickly.
The only person I could turn to for help was Xu Yi beside me, who was my last straw.
And when he heard me say this, Xu Yi looked at me with a little helplessness in his eyes, but more sympathy and pity for me.
He sighed slightly, then turned his gaze to a small door that was not very inconspicuous, and pointed there as he spoke slowly to me.
"That door is the back door of this bar, if we want to leave, just go out from there, but have you thought about it, you really want to leave here, you don't want to face Qin Han?"
I nodded at Xu Yi busily, where is there time to think about it now, I just want to escape from this place as soon as possible.
"In that case, take me away, take me out of here quickly, I don't want to stay here for a moment, I'm leaving soon!"
Again and again, I pleaded bitterly with Xu Yi.
Xu Yi has never refused me, no matter at any time, not to mention that now listening to my pleading with him, he can't ignore it at all.
After making sure that I really wanted to leave this place, Xu Yi didn't stop long, he immediately pulled me to my feet, ready to leave through the back door of the bar with me.
However, just as he pulled me to leave, I couldn't take my eyes off the two of them who were slowly walking towards the bar, and then moved my gaze down to the glass of wine on the table that I hadn't finished drinking.
Feeling Xu Yi's pull, I just stopped where I was and didn't move, "Wait a minute, don't leave yet!" ”
I turned around and grabbed Xu Yi with both hands, and hurriedly spoke to him, Xu Yi didn't understand what I wanted to do, but since I had already said so, he stopped in confusion.
"What's the matter, Xiaoci, don't you want to leave from this place, I'll take you away now, why did you suddenly stop again? Are you going to face Qin Han, are you ready? ”
"No, I'm not ready yet......" I shook my head lightly at Xu Yi, my eyes were still full of loneliness, "I suddenly remembered that I still have some things to do, and it's not too late for us to leave after that." ”
Because I didn't explain it, the doubts on Xu Yi's face became thicker and thicker, his brows were furrowed, and he was obviously very helpless about me, "What's the matter, are there anything we haven't done?" ”
"It's not you, it's me." While opening his mouth to Xu Yi to add, I picked up the unfinished glass of wine from the table, "This is the wine you invited me to make me happy, I can't help but drink it, and we'll leave when I'm done!" ”
After explaining to Xu Yi, I brought the wine to my mouth, then raised my head and drank it all, and placed the empty glass on the table.
Maybe wine really has the effect of regulating people's hearts, after the wine entered my throat, with a little excitement, I turned to Xu Yi's gaze a little more firm.
"Alright, let's go!"
While speaking, this time I didn't need Xu Yi's pull, but I took the initiative to walk in front and led him to the small door, just wanting to escape from this place at this time.
As soon as we walked out of the small door, there was an alley, and when we walked out of the alley, we came to the main entrance of the bar, and we really came out of the bar, leaving Qin Han and the woman I didn't know inside.
It was afternoon, and the sun outside was still dazzling, and I couldn't look up at the sun, so I could only cover my face with my hands, but the more I did, the more I felt empty.
Like a drowning fish, I couldn't help but breathe heavily, but I still felt as if something was clogged in my throat, and I tried to struggle with all my might, but I couldn't relax.
Xu Yi held my shoulder, as if he was afraid that I would fall to the ground in the next second, he led me step by step towards the car, although I never looked up at him, but I knew that he must be very worried at this time.
"Xiao Ci, we've come out of the bar now, so wherever you want to go next, whether you want to go back to the company or go home and rest for a while, I can send you."
"No, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go back to the company, I don't want to go anywhere right now."