19. Memory (4)

I will remember my goodness, I will remember the good of others, and the people who have been trying to make the people around me better and better.

Luo Bing's departure gave me a lot of feelings, because I don't know what the real parting is, I haven't experienced life and death, and I haven't experienced saying goodbye with a smile, I think Luo Bing's departure indicates a better reunion, as long as he returns from school, as long as Ah Sheng and I have our own world, I believe that the temporary is worth it.

But after all, the one who says goodbye with a smile is the most sober.

When I was in my second year of high school, I had the biggest quarrel with my parents, it was like I was hit by a car the moment I wanted to go out, in fact, my heart was the darkest, but in the eyes of Luo Bing and Ah Sheng, I was a wall, a shield, and the most solid support in the hearts of the two of them, they could cry and laugh, but I would swallow up the pain, and then continue to be strong and face every day with a smile.

The reason for the quarrel is very simple, it is still my father's lover and my mother's lover, and I thought, you are not compatible, why do you want to get married, and why don't you divorce? As an adult, who is tormenting?

I didn't go back that day, I just arrived at the door and heard the sound of my father shouting and my mother smashing the cup in the living room, I ignored it, opened the door with the key, walked to my room as if I hadn't heard it, took the reference books I needed and a few changes of clothes, and moved out of the room with a pot of snow lotus that I had raised for a long time, I planned to take it back to my residence to keep it, this pot of snow lotus was bought when I passed by the flower market one day, and it just looked thin and small, like a malnourished child, I asked my sister who sold flowers to buy it, I have been raising it for a long time, I don't need too much water, and I can look good unscrupulously when I put it in a bright place. I think this kind of flower and plant is very suitable for me.

Just as I was about to walk out of the door, my father stopped me, and opened his mouth to say goodbye to his own home, and why didn't he greet his elders, did his wings harden, and felt that he could solve anything alone. Then there is the mother's what you yell, the child finally came back for a trip and you are like this, how to let you stay in this house. Do you think there will be a dad like you? Father retorted, you are no better, what reason to say me, and then the two of them began to fight again.

Until now, I have really had enough, not that the world's parents are not poisonous and do not eat their children, but why are my parents different, they began to quarrel when I have memory, and the quarrel has not ended up until now. Why don't you just let me go?

It was the day before the exam, and the classmates had arrived at the designated address according to the teacher's requirements, waiting for the next day's exam, but my mother and I couldn't wait for my father to enter the house, it was already one o'clock in the morning, but I didn't feel sleepy at all, and I heard my sobbing sound through the quilt.

The next day my mother and I got up very early, ready to take the earliest car to the place we were going to, but then my father appeared, and my mother began her abuse, I quietly shed tears, my grandparents were still there at that time, I still had a shoulder to rely on, no matter how sad I was, there was a harbor to hide, but on that day that year, I had nowhere to go.

In the end, I took my father's car to the place where I wanted to go, and on the way my father drove the car to my grandfather's place, because I forgot to say goodbye to my grandmother because I was waiting for the bus.

Grandma was very curious about why my eyes were red at that time, and asked me about my crude oil in a hurry, and I said that I might not have slept well at that time, so my eyes were a little red, it didn't matter, it didn't matter. Grandma is very worried, sleep still has to be enough, good spirit to have a good mood, although the exam is important, but I think people are the most important.

I held my grandmother in my arms and said very seriously: It really doesn't matter, I don't think it matters, there is nothing wrong with the body, the most important thing is that you and grandpa take care of the body, waiting for me to come triumphantly, there must be my favorite cold powder. Grandma smiled and agreed.

Later, I found out why my father came back so late that day, and when I passed by a classmate who didn't know her very well, she called me, and I asked her inexplicably if she knew me? She quickly went straight to the point, saying thank you dad that day, if it weren't for your dad, my mom wouldn't know when she would be able to find a place to live for me, but I heard that your dad went back late that day, and he didn't delay sending you to the exam room the next day, right?

I looked at the girl I was talking to, didn't answer her question, and said that you didn't ask your mother, did you have any interesting deals with my good relatives? The girl on the other side was very puzzled and said no, I was also there at the time. Then I left without saying a word.

A lot of things, a lot of pictures, in my mind, just think about the playback tapes, quietly think about it, there will be countless pictures projected, let me fall unexpectedly. The brain and body grow unbearably twitching.

But fortunately, I have them, and I can talk about what I want to talk about and say what I want to say. And also.........