Before Lin Xiangtian said these words to me, although I had thought about it, I had never doubted myself so strongly in my heart as at this moment, whether what I was doing was right.

Maybe it was because my silence was too obvious at this time, and Lin Xiangtian also saw it, so he looked at me with a little worry in his eyes, and even took the initiative to explain to me.

"Xiao Ci, what's wrong with you all of a sudden, why don't you speak, did I just say something wrong?

Don't pay attention to what I say, it's just my opinion. Maybe you have to have your own plans, you can't impose my ideas on yourself, it's not fair to you. ”

"No, it's not.

Of course I know it's all your thoughts, but before you tell me, I wonder if I'm going too far, and by what you say today, I think I'll pretty much get the answer. ”

I raised my head and smiled sadly at Lin Xiangtian, all my previous thoughts now have a definite answer. What I did to Chen Tang and Lin Xun was indeed too much, and I destroyed all the care and love they had for me in their hearts.

My approach is not fair to Chen Tang and Lin Xun at all, they may have been hurt too deeply by me, but isn't this the same for me?

After all, although I was surrounded by a lot of people, I didn't know which ones were really treating me and which ones were for their own purposes.

But for Chen Tang and Lin Xun, the two of them are one of the few people I can distinguish from, why did they stay by my side.

But even so, I didn't hesitate to kick them away from me, telling them that I didn't want to see them again, that I had done it all on my own and had nothing to do with anyone else.

The more I think back to the unforgivable things I did to Lin Xun and Chen Tang two days ago, the more serious my guilt becomes.

I hurriedly stretched out my hand and grabbed Lin Xiangtian's clothes tightly, looking at him with a begging look in my eyes, "Lin Xiangtian, tell me quickly, what should I do next, did I really go too far, did I really hurt Lin Xun and Chen Tang, will they forgive me in the future?" ”

"I didn't think about other consequences at all when I did these things, I just didn't want them to be hurt by Qin Han, but you're right, maybe after I did this, they didn't get hurt because of Qin Han, but because I was hurt......"

"And compared to Qin Han's harm to them, maybe my harm to them is more serious, so what should I do next, how can I make up for my mistakes, and will they forgive me?"

I kept asking Lin Xiangtian, and he looked at me with a hurt expression in his eyes, he felt very sorry for me now, so he reached out and kept caressing my back.

As if this was not enough to comfort me, you want to not only gently pat me on the back, but even whisper to me to comfort me.

"Don't worry about Xiao Ci, things are not as bad as you imagined, and when you explain the reason to them in the future, they will definitely come back, and there is no reason for you to be sad now."

"Moreover, since you have done this, it is irreparable, and if you tell them the truth now, they may forgive you, but you have already done them harm.

In the same way, they will know everything Qin Han has done to you, which will make it even worse for them. ”

"So Xiao Ci, instead of you continuing to be sad here, you should think about how to deal with this matter now.

As long as you deal with this whole thing, then when you tell Lin Xun and Chen Tang again, they will have a lot less resentment towards you in their hearts, and maybe they will be more able to accept this matter, what do you think? ”

At this moment, Lin Xiangtian analyzed me carefully, and when I opened my mouth to listen to him analyze the whole thing to me, I was in a very bad mood at first, but as he slowly narrated, my mood actually began to turn around.

What Lin Xiangtian said is very reasonable, and it is useless to be sad here now, because this whole thing is from my hands, and I have already done it, what kind of ability do I have to change it?

Instead of continuing to worry and grieve here, it is better to think about how to deal with this whole thing, because only in this way can I go back to Lin Xun and Chen Tang and explain it to them.

That's why after listening to what Lin Xiangtian said to me, I looked at him with a little more determination in my eyes, which somewhat dispelled the confusion and helplessness at the beginning.

But I was still a little skeptical, and asked him softly, "Lin Xiangtian, you and I make it clear whether this matter is like this or not, do you really think." After the whole thing is over, Lin Xun and Chen Tang and I explained, will they listen to me? Will they really understand what I'm doing for this? ”

Listening to my questioning question, Lin Xiangtian nodded at me without hesitation, his eyes were full of determination, obviously he firmly believed in his idea, and he was afraid that he would not make any changes in a short period of time.

And I think that now for me, what I need is the look that Lin Xiangtian looks at me, because in Lin Xiangtian's eyes, I can get the firmness I want, which is something I have never been able to make up my mind.

I was always so vulnerable, so fragile that I looked down on myself, and many times, I had to be encouraged to pull myself up.

So now, I can see it clearly in Lin Xiangtian's eyes, he brought this firmness to me, which of course also made me feel a lot more comforted in my heart, at least compared to before I am not so helpless.

So I immediately laughed and nodded firmly at Lin Xiangtian, and the hand that grabbed his sleeve at the beginning not only did not relax, but tightened a little tighter.

Because I really want Lin Xiangtian to understand that I will definitely handle this whole matter properly, and then tell Chen Tang and Lin Xun what I am doing this for.

I believe that at that time, even if the two of them are still a little angry in their hearts, as long as I explain to them the reason for this whole thing, they will definitely understand and believe me.

And in the end, we'll be as good as ever, just like before.

However, maybe I can save the relationship between myself and Lin Xun Chen Tang, but there is only one person, once I lose him, I will never come back.

And this person is the biggest problem I have to face.

Because of Qin Han, I fell asleep crying and crying, and this sleep was a day and a night, and I was unconscious.

If it weren't for Lin Xiangtian knocking on the door, I wouldn't know how long I would sleep, I was so sad in my heart that I didn't think of it at first, so I didn't feel anything.

But now, when I think of Qin Han's eyes, and when I think of the words he said to me when he was leaving, my heart can't help but ache.

Maybe Lin Xiangtian already knew what happened between me and Lin Xun and Chen Tang, but he definitely couldn't know from Xu Yi what happened between me and Qin Han yesterday.

Because it was only me and Qin Han who were present at the time, no one else knew what was going on in this room except us.

But Lin Xiangtian has always been very sensitive, and he knows me very well, when he saw me suddenly lower my head and be silent, he could instantly feel that I must have something to hide from him.

So he looked down at me, with an inquiring look in his eyes, and asked me softly.

"What's the matter, why didn't you speak all of a sudden, do you have something on your mind? If so, say it now, I can also share your worries and help you think about how to solve it, isn't it too boring for you to hold it in your heart alone?! ”

Lin Xiangtian opened his mouth to me step by step, originally I didn't want to tell him, but when I thought that he was also unwilling to tell me just now, I asked him again and again. If I hide it now, it will be too unfair to Lin Xiangtian, so I can only nod to him gently, with a helpless smile on my face.

"Forget it, I won't hide it from you, I guess I can't hide it from you, if you want to know, you will definitely ask me for the exit as I asked you, and then even if I don't want to, I will say it."

Hearing me say this, Lin Xiangtian suddenly laughed, he shook his head lightly at me, his face was full of helplessness, but he did not deny my words, which shows that he also thinks so in his heart.

"I didn't tell you why I slept all day when you came, but now I think I should tell you.

Qin Han came back yesterday, and I already had a good talk with him. I asked him what was the reason why he had been so good to me for so many years, and if it was just because of guilt, but he didn't want to admit it. ”

He did not admit that he was good to me because of guilt, but he could not name any other reason for his actions.

So I just thought he was lying, so I didn't say anything, and I didn't think there was any need for me and him to talk any more.

I let him go and told him I never wanted to see him again. ”

I said this slowly to Lin Xiangtian, and the surprise on Lin Xiangtian's face told me that he really didn't know about this whole thing, and he probably didn't expect me to be so decisive.

Lin Xiangtian was silent for a long time in front of me, and he still didn't seem to be able to react from my words, and in the end he still looked at me in disbelief, shaking his head lightly and asking me.

"Xiao Ci, you tell me the truth, you're not joking with me, are you, did you really kick Qin Han out of here?"