I don't remember how I got home that night. When I woke up the next day, my head hurt terribly. Lying on the soft big bed in Sheshan Villa, a glass of water was placed on the bedside table. After I picked it up and took two sips, I found a piece of paper on the bedside table, and when I picked it up and looked at it, I was stunned.

On the paper was Xia Wanyu's handwriting, and it was written: "I have never been lost, I think I should let you calm down and think about it." I'm going to Australia, and with the summer, you cherish this time. ”

Lose?

I froze in place, my mind full of shock. Xia Wanyu was very disappointed! Suddenly, I seemed to remember what happened last night after Zhang Xiaojun and I got drunk. After the two of us got drunk, I seemed to have made a phone call to Xia Wanyu. Xia Wanyu rushed to the small restaurant, and she asked Zhang Xiaojun to be sent to a nearby hotel, while I was taken home by her.

When I got home, I felt like I had said something I shouldn't have said. But there is only one vague passage in my mind, and I don't remember it very clearly.

……

I sat on the bed, looking at the handwriting on the slip of paper, wondering what to do. The headache after the hangover hit me and made my heart even more confused.

At this time, the mobile phone rang, and it was a text message from Zhang Xiaojun: "I'm back in Beijing." ”

I didn't care, but found Xia Wanyu's number and called it. A chime came over the phone: "Sorry, the phone you dialed is turned off!" ”

Did Xia Wanyu really leave?

It must have been that I said something last night that I shouldn't have said, and I was upset. Hurriedly put on his clothes and got out of bed, wanting to find Xia Wanyu. But when I went downstairs, I saw Zhang Ling lying on the sofa and watching TV boredly. Zhang Ling's side was lying the fat folded ear cat, and there were a few snow-white folded ears next to her. These are the children of the fish, and by this time they have grown into cats, and they are plump and very cute.

Seeing me coming down in a hurry, Zhang Ling turned her head to look at me, her eyes were red, her lips trembled, and she said, "You are such a bastard." ”

I froze in place, Zhang Ling sat up, and the folded ears cats were startled by Zhang Ling's abnormal movements, and they all screamed and ran away.

"Wanyu, she ......" I slowly walked towards Zhang Ling, my throat swelling and asked.

Zhang Ling pointed to the clock and said, "The plane at eight o'clock should have arrived in the East China Sea by now." ”

"I ......" I choked up, not knowing what to say. Because my gut tells me I must have done a lot of jerk things last night.

Zhang Ling smiled and said, "You are really affectionate." ”

Zhang Ling looked at me with red eyes, tried her best to suppress her voice and said, "Hao Ren, do you know Lu Dao, I really want to slap you twice." It's okay if you make me sad, but why are you making Aunt Xia sad. Are you hurt? Do you know what kind of bastard you did last night? You get drunk and let Aunt Xia take you back. After you came back, you hugged Aunt Xia and called Sun Xiaoqing, do you know the way? In front of me, he hugged Aunt Xia and said, Xiaoqing, I miss you so much, why did you come back, don't leave me. Disgusting, disgusting. ”

Zhang Ling's voice couldn't be suppressed anymore, she said hoarsely: "You still hold Aunt Xia and say, you only want Sun Xiaoqing, not Xia Wanyu." Do you know the truth? You were holding Xia Wanyu at the time, a woman who had just given birth to a child. Isn't it Sun Xiaoqing, who has already left you, Zhilu Dao? ”

My head exploded, and I was shocked by Zhang Ling's words.

I opened my mouth, but my throat felt so sour that I couldn't say a word. I didn't expect it to be like this, and I didn't expect alcohol to have such serious consequences.

Zhang Ling was still accusing me of the crime I committed last night, and when she got to the worst, she was crying all over her face. She glared at me and said, "Over the years, there has only been Sun Xiaoqing in your heart. No Aunt Xia, no me. You never think twice about the two of us. Hao Ren, I'm only two years younger than you, do you know the way? At the age of two, you've been married twice and had two children. And what about me......"

Zhang Ling cried and asked me to stand in place, not knowing what to do.

I tried to reach out and pull her into my arms, but she pushed me away. Sitting on the couch, looking up to the sky and crying.

……

Xia Wanyu left like this, because I can't forget Sun Xiaoqing.

In fact, no woman will forgive her husband for holding herself by another woman's name. After this hangover, I really went a little too far. Maybe it was because I was infected by Zhang Xiaojun all day yesterday, or maybe it was alcohol that made me confused. But I did it, and like a dog, in front of Xia Wanyu, I hugged her, crying hoarsely.

I can imagine that Xia Wanyu had tears in her eyes at that time, but she didn't push me away.

I can also imagine the angry image of Zhang Ling on the side.

Zhang Ling was crying, and I sat on the coffee table and watched Zhang Ling cry. I don't know what it is, but after the initial panic, I calmed down. Xia Wanyu took Xia away to Australia, and I was not worried about her safety. Because she can take care of Summer and herself, but at such a distance, it is difficult for her to let go of this time.

I looked at the grieving Zhang Ling, and I didn't feel good in my heart. Zhang Ling is actually not crying Xia Wanyu, but crying herself. She has always regarded Xia Wanyu as herself, and now she is watching Xia Wanyu leave Australia. In her heart, it was as if she was reluctant to leave Denmark. The sadness of the year and the anger of last night were intertwined, making her completely burst out in front of me.

And I finally understood.

In fact, it is not Sun Xiaoqing that is irreplaceable, but the feelings I have in my heart for Sun Xiaoqing.

It's been almost two years, I don't know what Sun Xiaoqing is doing outside, and I don't know what she left for in the first place. But I knew that she was the most selfless woman to me. Xia Wanyu is different from Sun Xiaoqing, and my characterization of her is rather vague. Until now, I can't figure out her temper, or I can say that I will always be humble in front of her. In front of Sun Xiaoqing, I can sit on an equal footing with her.

Xia Wanyu also has feelings for me, and I also have feelings for her. But compared to Sun Xiaoqing, I don't know how to describe the relationship between me and her. Say it's an alternative version of Sun Xiaoqing? No, I only met Sun Xiaoqing after I met her. Looking at Zhang Ling's crying in front of me, I suddenly understood that in fact, I had always regarded Xia Wanyu as a kind of emotional sustenance after Sun Xiaoqing left.

And Xia Wanyu also knows this, so she has been patient and changing. He even gave birth to a child for me, but now the child will be half a year old. I still have Sun Xiaoqing hidden in my heart, and I even hugged her after drinking and called Sun Xiaoqing's name, saying that I wanted to leave her. So Xia Wanyu was extremely disappointed and left me to go back to Australia.

Zhang Ling cried for a long time, she was tired of crying, she sat on the sofa sobbing, her face was full of tears from crying, like a big cat. And I smoked a cigarette butt full of ashtrays, and when I saw that she was no longer crying, I went up to her and said, "You slap me twice." ”

Zhang Ling turned her face away from me, and I still said, "Pump me twice, I need pain to numb." ”

Zhang Ling turned her head to look at me, with tears in her eyes, and said, "I don't smoke." ”

"Didn't you just say you were going to whip me?" I looked at her and asked.

She looked into my eyes, her eyes were red like a rabbit, and she said, "I feel distressed." ”

I raised my hand and slapped myself twice, my hands numb with shock. Then he looked at Zhang Ling with a shy face and said, "I'm not distressed." ”

Zhang Ling stopped crying, she lowered her head and held Yuyu in her arms. The folded cat seemed to understand what we were saying, and got into her arms, very quietly. I lit a cigarette, took a puff, and said to Zhang Ling: "Sun Xiaoqing told me that goodness is like water, and virtue is loaded. She also told me that Tianxingjian, a gentleman is constantly striving for self-improvement; The land is good, and the gentleman carries things with virtue. I also told her, if you are as beautiful as green in this life, you will be displaced, and you will be struggling and suffering. However, fate really tosses people, Sun Xiaoqing went to Europe for no reason, I went to Europe for more than two months, but I didn't find anything. ”

"Lingling, do you know the way? Sun Xiaoqing first left me, but Xia Wanyu forced her away. And Xia Wanyu went to Australia, but I forced her away. It's not a love triangle between us, it's not really a parallel line at most, and then I'm the midpoint between them. I like your Aunt Xia, but I can't forget Sun Xiaoqing. I used to think that I was going to forget about her and live a good life with your Aunt Xia. However, I can't forget her helping me sort out my relationships on the big blackboard, and I can't forget her helping me organize my materials and let me read. I can't forget coming home late at night, she cooked food for me and covered the table, I can't forget her telling me that when Ben Ben grows up, she will travel around the world with me. If Sun Xiaoqing comes back, I will definitely go with her without hesitation. Because she also told me that people don't have to work so hard in this life. Masters are lonely, and heroes are lonely. In this life, one hand counts back and forth 3,000 times, and it is over, and it is useless to work hard. An ordinary life is a good life. ”

"However, I also know that she can't come back. She left me, I'm afraid, because she didn't want to bother me and make me worry about her. Maybe she was seriously ill, maybe she was in a hospital in Europe at this time, maybe maybe she was already dead in Europe at this time. Your Aunt Xia is different from Sun Xiaoqing, Sun Xiaoqing taught me how to learn, while your Aunt Xia taught me how to practice, she has hundreds of opportunities for me to start all over again, but Sun Xiaoqing only has one chance to give me. In front of Sun Xiaoqing, I failed. And in front of your Aunt Xia, I haven't succeeded yet. ”

"I know that I said this, I may be sorry for your Aunt Xia if I do this, but I still want to say that she is really not as good as Sun Xiaoqing. I'm a jerk, and I know that. Because I've been sorry for your Aunt Xia from the very beginning, it's impossible not to know the things in my dreams. A few times, I also knew that I called Sun Xiaoqing's name in a dream. But that's really not my fault. ”

My eyes were red, and I said with a little choked up: "Because I miss Sun Xiaoqing too much." ”

Zhang Ling's tears flowed out again at some point, she took a deep breath, looked down at the fish in her arms, and read the sentence I once wrote under Sun Xiaoqing's name: "In this life, if you are as beautiful as green, you will be displaced, and you will be struggling and suffering. ”——

PS: It's late, this chapter is really hard to write, and you need to read a lot of the previous information. The next chapter will probably be tomorrow morning, and there is no guarantee of what time it is, after all, people's energy is limited. The other thing is about Dianding, and now Dianding needs to log in to the account. Everyone who has time to register a 17K account, click on it after reading it. This is limited to users who are reading books on a computer. Xie Lu Xie The two classmates who rewarded and stamped the steamed buns today, brace0427 and I missed you in this life, thank you. In addition, I would like to thank the anonymous classmate of the mobile phone network, and I wish you a prosperous business.